55. If I fall into the river at the same time as Yuan Yingxing......
When I dreamed at night, I called the names of other men, but my own man didn't say anything. This feeling makes people panic, as if they are wearing leg cuffs, carrying heavy iron ropes, and completely confined in it.
It's not that Mochizuki is sluggish, it's not that he doesn't know what a normal reaction should be. She knew that Yang Qing should either quarrel with her, or should never look back, but he didn't say anything now, which made her anxious. feels like a red apricot out of the wall, even if he doesn't say it, the crime is confirmed.
The more tolerant he was, the more heartless she seemed to become.
But it's not like that.
Mochizuki is a person who thinks less and does more, and she almost didn't examine her heart and go to check and check. Yang Qing pursues the three provinces of my body, and she pursues to go with her heart. Completely different thinking, when the tribulation occurred, for the first time, Mochizuki did not want to think about self-torture, but wanted to please Yang Qing.
Please him, make him smile, and the matter will pass. Yang Qing is such a good person, after the matter has passed, he will not worry about her, just like every time before. Up to now, Mochizuki has exposed too many traps and accounts with Yang Qing, and Mochizuki himself is weak when he thinks about it, but Yang Qing has no intention of settling accounts with her after the autumn.
It has been like this before, and it will be like this now.
So Mochizuki tried his best to curry favor with Yang Qing.
She was originally standing aside to watch Yang Qing cook, but now she also took the initiative to help and rushed to do the work.
Yang Qing, who was pushed by her excessive diligence and had a pain in his shoulder: ......
When Yang Qing was sitting and meditating, the pranayama was over, and as soon as he opened his eyes, he was startled by the girl kneeling in front of him, and when she didn't react, the girl stretched out her hand, jumped, and a flower bloomed in her hand. She said, "Oh, I'll give you flowers."
Yang Qing who was forced to accept a flower: ......
The rain stopped, and the three of them decided to go on the road, and Yang Qing wanted to ask the little beggar what his plans were in the future. Mochizuki was completely unaware of this, but when he saw the young man squatting down in front of the child, Yang Qing was pushed behind, and the girl enthusiastically provided a way out for the little beggar. Yang Qing wanted to speak, but he spoke slowly, so he had such a meaning, and Mochizuki finished talking for him. That enthusiasm frightened the little beggar to tremble, thinking that she had bad intentions, and shook her head like a rattle, and after getting a bag of dry food, she ran away and did not dare to turn back.
Yang Qing, who was robbed of all his words: ......
Entering the town, passing by the roadside stalls, Yang Qing walked slowly. In the blink of an eye, the girl who followed next to her was gone. He was slightly stunned, turned around to find someone, and blinked again, the girl came back with an oily paper bag, saying that she had bought a roasted sweet potato for him. She didn't eat a single bite, but looked at him lovingly, hoping that he would eat it all.
Holding a hot sweet potato in one hand, Yang Qing: ......
Big and small, all the big.
Mochizuki's flattery is too much, and there is a feeling of overriding Yang Qing and doing everything by himself. Even if Yang Qing asked for directions, she had to fight for it. Yang Qing's gaze stayed on a stall for more than a moment, and the next moment, it was a mountain of people, and Mochizuki was determined to buy something for him. And it just so happens that Yang Qing is a person with a lot of curiosity, he will be curious when he sees something he hasn't seen, and when he can't help but look at it, the result is that Mochizuki bought a bunch of gadgets for him.
I'm still afraid that he will be tired, so Mochizuki has to hold it by himself.
Yang Qing endured it, looked back at her, she immediately smiled back, and her tone was soft, "Are you tired of walking?" I'm going to give you a shoulder pinch or something? Don't be polite with me. โ
Yang Qing: "...... I'm not polite to you. โ
Mochizuki was even happier: "That's great. Sit down and rest, you're so tired from walking so far. I feel so distressed to watch. โ
Yang Qing: "......"
Yang Qing was completely made to laugh and cry by Mochizuki, and he felt a sense of irritability. Mochizuki was currying favor with him, but he didn't need this kind of flattery, he never wanted this. What he was thinking, she didn't understand; Her way, which is never on point, makes him uncomfortable. Yang Qing didn't want to worry about Mochizuki, he didn't want to discuss Yuan Yingxing with her, he wanted to think about it himself.
He wondered if he was worth paying attention to Mochizuki.
He had a heartbeat for her once, and he withdrew in time.
He's attracted to her again now, and he's always easily attracted to people like Mochizuki.
However, if you stop the loss in time, it is better than the end of the body.
The two were too far apart, and Yang Qing felt that he was losing. It's not terrible to lose, but the terrible thing is that he is worried that he will lose everything he can to her, and Mochizuki is still like this. He loses and loses, but she can go at any time. What is he in her?
Yang Qing wanted to think quietly about his relationship with Mochizuki, but Mochizuki tried every possible way to please him, but he couldn't please him, which made him feel depressed, unable to stop his heart, and thought he couldn't see it.
At noon, the inn was booked, and when I was eating downstairs, Xiao Er came up with two bowls of beef noodles, and Mochizuki took the initiative to show Luo Luo, picking all the meat in his bowl to Yang Qing, with a posture of "everything I have for you". She didn't do good deeds without leaving a name, and deliberately put two contrasting bowls together, so that Yang Qing could see it clearly.
Mochizuki looked at her gently and aggrievedly.
Yang Qing: ......
He finally couldn't stand it anymore.
Moving the noodles to the side, staring at the half of the girl's face that was about to be buried in the bowl, Yang Qing wanted to say something to her, "Don't do this, if you do this, I usually think it's funny." But on a deeper level, I don't really have any feelings. I knew you wanted to make me feel moved, but I didn't. โ
Mochizuki was surprised, raised his face, and stopped eating, "I'll give you flowers, help you help people, and speak for you......"
Yang Qing said gently, "I don't feel much, really." โ
Yang Qing said, "What I want to see is sincerity, not this kind of flattery." Men and women think very differently, and I don't feel much about almost all the atmospheres that move you and surprise, such as watching the sunrise or looking at the stars. If men give you flowers one by one, you will be pleasantly surprised. But you sent me flowers, I didn't. โ
Mochizuki blinked his Wuling phoenix eyes, and his chopsticks pulled the noodles tangled, "What I gave you is sincerity." "I went with my heart, didn't you feel it?
Yang Qing looked at her apologetically, "I said nothing, but you know what's there, right?" I want to be open and honest, I want to make it clear. Understatement of love words, picking a good atmosphere to flirt, are not my style. Men are like that, and you have to recognize in the future that in addition to being fun and interesting, those are all about please. Without any other reason, no man would like to look at the stars and the moon. โ
Mochizuki asked, "You don't like to look at the stars and the moon?" Do you not like to watch alone, or do you not like to watch with others? โ
Yang Qing: "...... Is this the point I'm talking about? โ
Mochizuki saw his expressionless face, closed his mouth, and didn't dare to speak more, which made him angry.
Yang Qing looked at her with a look of "I didn't understand at all, but I don't dare to mess with you", she was angry, turned her face sideways, and didn't want to talk to her anymore. After eating, he went back to his room to rest and never came out again.
Mochizuki was still sitting in the corner downstairs, thinking about things with his head down.
She doesn't like to think very much, and she doesn't think much about her own heart. But Yang Qing's reaction was that it was wrong to sue her like this. She should think about it, he wants her to be sincere, but Mochizuki doesn't know what "sincerity" means. She felt that she was very sincere, she was being good to Yang Qing, and she was doing her best to please him.
So he thinks it's not okay?
Or does he still think she likes Yuan Yingxing and treats him as a replacement?
These Mochizuki did not think about it confidently. She has always liked Yang Qing, I like it very much, so I don't ask for anything in return, I just want to be good with you. Yang Qing said that he wanted nothing else from her, but in fact, he didn't ask for anything from Yang Qing and Mochizuki. Those are all incidental, whether there is or not, what she likes is very superficial and not so profound. As long as Yang Qing can let her see it, Mochizuki doesn't feel that there is any hardship, what can't be accepted, and what is worth resentment.
But recently, Mochizuki has seen Yang Qing's heart. Her liking has also been taken to heart.
However, Yang Qing couldn't see it.
What he saw was her impetuousness, her words were one and the same, her indefiniteness, and her relationship with Yuan Yingxing.
Mochizuki thought, she and Yang Qing are really two different people. He wasn't used to her, and she wasn't used to him. It turns out that the problems encountered by people with personalities as different as 108,000 miles apart are far more complicated than the lifeless gravitational pull between people with similar personalities.
is not only the reason why he shouted at others in his dream, but the bigger problem exposed by this incident is the difference in thinking between Yang Qing and Mochizuki.
Following the discord between the three views, their thoughts are also different.
Mochizuki thought for a moment and muttered in confusion, "It turns out that feelings are not my business alone. It turned out to be so troublesome. โ
However, Mochizuki has a lot of troubles, she is unstoppable, and she never knows how to go back. It used to be like this, and now, she still does.
The difference between Mochizuki and Yuan Yingxing is here: when he encounters a problem, Yuan Yingxing thinks that it is too troublesome, forget it, it doesn't seem to be worth it, so he retreats; Mochizuki has to go down, don't hit the south wall and don't look back, no, even if she hits the south wall, if she doesn't change her mind, she still won't look back.
Now, she is going to work hard to solve the problem between herself and Yang Qing.
The next day, as soon as Yang Qing woke up, he noticed something different. He hesitated, the feeling remained unmoving, made him lower his eyebrows for a moment, still smiled helplessly, and got up to dress. He hurriedly put on his coat, and before he could do so, the young man went and opened the door. Sure enough, I saw a girl in an apricot yellow shirt standing at the door.
The long hair was loosely tied with a wooden hairpin, and it was pulled down diagonally, and a jet-black tail hung down on the shoulder. The bangs are fluffy, the long eyebrows under it are moist, the phoenix eyes are slightly red, and the cheeks are plain white. She stood in the doorway, looking at him with dark eyes.
The body is graceful and dexterous, and the sun on his face brushes a layer of pink and white velvet. It's the pretty and delicate little girls who are dressed up, not the heroines on the rivers and lakes.
She stood petite at the door, and her bright face attracted many people passing by upstairs.
"What are you doing early in the morning?" Yang Qing frowned, stretched out his hand, pulled her into the house, closed the door, and cut off the prying eyes of outsiders.
When he reached out to pull her, he noticed that the girl was carrying a small cage in her hand.
Mochizuki mentioned it to him, "I asked the innkeeper yesterday, and said that there is a jujube cake in the east of the city that sells well, and I want you to try it, so I went to buy it." โ
"This is the west of the city," Yang Qing said, "when did you go to buy it?" โ
"In the middle of the night last year," Mochizuki looked at him, "I walked a long night walk to buy it, and along the way I was thinking, when you didn't sleep at night in Qingxi Town, when you went to line up to buy hibiscus cakes, was this my mood now." โ
Yang Qing's eyebrows trembled, and he took the cage she handed over, feeling that it weighed a thousand pounds.
Mochizuki continued, "But then I think that you and I are not in the same mood. You've always thought too much, I think too little. For the same thing, if you can figure out a wonderful book, I will probably only think of the superficial level. But I think I'm going to experience what you've done. After more experience, maybe I can experience your mixed feelings. โ
Yang Qing's current mood is a bit mixed.
Mochizuki looked at him and said, "What are you thinking?" Do I have to think as much as you do? Isn't it because I don't think about it that I don't deserve to be with you? โ
"Ah Yue......" He raised his hand and grabbed her wrist that was as cold as jade.
Mochizuki took a step back, not hiding from his hand, leaning against the door, looking up at him. She was distracted for a moment and asked seriously, "That's what I am." I've never been troubled, I've never been entangled. I'm always thinking about the superficial, always the present. I don't care what happened in the past, I don't care what the future holds, what I want is the present. If you don't know what kind of person I am, I'll tell you now. โ
Yang Qing looked at her silently, "......"
"I have a lot of faults, but my good thing is that I'm very open. Accept you openly, and accept myself openly. You heard me shout the dream talk and said Yuan Yingxing, you will guess if I have something to do with him, and who am I thinking about at the moment. You're thinking too much, the past is gone, and I have a lot of things I haven't said, it's a secret. But that's because it's not time yet, and when the time comes, I'll always tell you. But now, all I think about is you, and what I like is you. โ
Yang Qing stared into her eyes.
Yang Qing's lips trembled, and then he whispered, "I know." โ
"You know, but you'll think too much," said Mochizuki, "I'm not a good lover, and I'm careless as a girl." There are a lot of things that I don't think are necessary. But if you feel it is necessary, tell me. I'm free, I'm passionate, but enthusiasm doesn't mean I never have a heart. Enthusiasm is my form of expression, and not being calm or indifferent is also my form of expression. โ
She frowned, "That's how I am." I'm not good enough, but people change and grow. Can't we learn together? โ
She said, "Trust me, I'm serious about you." I didn't treat you like a plaything. โ
"Men and women don't think the same. But I'm serious. โ
Yang Qing was silent for a while, reflecting on himself in his heart. Ice and fire, do you think I'm too uncalm, too much to gain and lose? I already know what kind of person Mochizuki is, why are I still struggling with myself? She's very enthusiastic, too enthusiastic, but that's what Mochizuki is. If she is really not enthusiastic about someone, then she is not caring.
The problem with the two is that they are not the same kind of people. Not the same kind of person, but attracted to the other person, destined for some change.
Yang Qing smiled in his heart.
yes, I'm so unruly. I won't say anything. However, Mochizuki is frank, her heart is so simple, you can understand it at a glance.
He wasn't afraid that she wouldn't take herself seriously, he knew she did. He was just wondering if her simple heart had already taken action before she could think it through. What he was afraid of was that she herself didn't distinguish between herself and Yuan Yingxing.
This kind of person who is confused about himself, Yang Qing is particularly afraid.
But Mochizuki was right.
She doesn't understand love, and he doesn't understand either. His harshness to her is exactly the expression of ignorance. Feelings are a long way, and two people can walk together, change together, and progress together. Rather than being a little unsatisfactory and having doubts about it.
Relieved in his heart, Yang Qing laughed in a low voice, "I know." I'm so sorry I was wrong. โ
Mochizuki added, "I'm serious about getting along with you. Even if we are separated in the future, the happiness of the present is worth paying attention to. โ
"......" Yang Qing was choked and looked at her, "The future is separated?" โ
Just softened her a little, and she came like this. It's really laughing and crying.
He paused, "You're here to separate from me?" โ
"Of course not, I'm running for the purpose of marrying you," when she said "marry", she was really frank and open, and she didn't feel shy at all, but fortunately, Yang Qing was the same, "I want to marry you." However, the possibilities of the future are ever-changing, and I can't guarantee it, and you can't guarantee it. That's a matter of fate. โ
Yang Qing stared into her bright eyes.
He lifted one hand and cupped her little fair face. He leaned over and stroked the skin under her eyes.
I couldn't help but smile.
This is really, really, really a completely different person from him. Do your best, do your best, that ethereal fate, but don't think about it. The past is the past, today is today, and the future is the future. Don't think too much, don't worry too much, don't worry too much.
As a demon saintess, she still dares to like him, a righteous person, and the whole world knows what she likes.
I don't know if she remembers his hatred with the Demon Cult...... But about what she remembers, she doesn't care.
Wholeheartedly dedicated, wholeheartedly enjoyed.
What a girl who attracted him.
Yang Qing looked at her, the distance was so close, and the hot air sprayed on his face. Mochizuki couldn't stand it a little, she was very superficial, really, as soon as he approached, as soon as his face came over, her whole body was soft, and her heart was crisp and itchy. This is the embodiment of a man's charm, and it was because of his face that she liked it.
Mochizuki endured it, but she couldn't hold back, and while he was staring intently, she whispered, "Can I kiss you?" โ
"......" Yang Qing was slightly stunned.
He understood, "You're being ...... by me again Intrigued? โ
Mochizuki nodded aggrievedly.
Yang Qing knocked on her head, hating iron and not steel, "superficial." โ
Then the smile could not be suppressed.
He laughed, stood up straight, let go of the hand holding her face, and pushed three steps away at once. He said, "No." โ
Mochizuki: "......"
Yang Qing said, "I'm not happy if you call other men in your dream." But dreams and reality are different after all, and I don't think much about it. โ
Mochizuki nodded, "Yes, yes." When I dream of you, I say that I call you in my dreams, more often. You're just unlucky not to hear it. โ
The starlight in Yang Qing's eyes was pounded and clear, and he showed the dimples on his cheeks.
It's hard to take your eyes off when you laugh.
He said, "yes, who made me unlucky?" Now, I need to calm down and don't want to talk to you. You see your eyes are bloodshot, like a rabbit, I just wanted to say this, I'm embarrassed to say it. You go get some sleep. โ
Mochizuki: "You just stared into my eyes, not because I was fascinated, but because you think my eyes look like rabbits?" โ
Yang Qing smiled: "That's right." โ
In the girl's depression, the young man raised his long arm, rubbed her hair, and said gently, "Freshly combed hair?" Just changed your clothes? โ
Mochizuki nodded, "I want you to see me beautifully." Then he complained, "After a night's walk, I came back with dirty hair, so I changed it." How can I let you see me as a wolf? โ
Yang Qing was puzzled, "You, wolf bรจi, who have been away all night to please me, shouldn't you just appear in front of me like that and make me feel distressed?" โ
Mochizuki was stunned for a moment before replying, "But then you won't be able to see the best-looking me." โ
If you become ugly, you can't please Yang Qing for the first time.
Yang Qingzhen couldn't help it, he moved his fingers, but he still couldn't help it. He walked up and raised his arm and hugged her. She's so lovely, so honest, she's worth it.
Mochizuki was hugged with a burst of joy, and the young man quickly let go of her and pushed her shoulder, "Go to sleep, I'll go out." โ
I closed the door and went out, leaving Mochizuki alone in the room. Mochizuki stood in place, reminiscing about the exchange with Yang Qing just now, and after holding his cheeks and self-intoxicated, he really went to sleep obediently-
She said, how could she not handle a man?
She said that Yang Qing was hers!
Out of the house, Yang Qing came up with the cage Mochizuki gave him. He carried the cage downstairs, lifted the top layer, and twisted a piece of bad taste.
The mouth is very crispy and hot. It's really creamy, but not too sweet.
The little girl was bothered.
The young man's eyelashes raised like wings, lowered his eyes, and the corners of his mouth showed a smile again.
The people around him looked back at him unconsciously, thinking that this person was laughing, it was so beautiful.
After that, the two had a friendly exchange and the progress went smoothly. Mochizuki never mentioned the matter of Yuan Yingxing, she said that it was in the past, and the relationship between the two was not good enough to share the past. Yang Qing quite agreed, if Mochizuki told him about Yuan Yingxing now, he didn't know whether he should listen or not, because he was completely unsure.
And Mochizuki is a mature girl, and when she shouldn't be confused, she is never confused. Her big opening and closing is not about the details, she can tell what to say and what not to say.
Mochizuki didn't always want Yang Qing to lead her forward, her thinking was mature, she was just different from Yang Qing. Yang Qing is also a mature person, and he also has his own ideas. The two of them are together, never who leads the way, but side by side, rubbing against each other, discussing, and moving forward.
There are waves crashing on the shore at your feet, and the mountains of water on both sides are nothing. In terms of identity and feelings, Mochizuki and Yang Qing are equal.
Feelings make them stop, make them think, and make them grow into better people.
They have opposite personalities, but they complement each other. A little more different, you may not be able to see the right eye; A little more of the same, and it will be too unattractive. Now it's just right. Attract each other, test each other, you come and go, lay a net, and collect each other into the net.
And the world of love, because of the different ways, it is really difficult to say who is deeper and who is shallow.
In the eyes of others, it is always Mochizuki who holds Yang Qing, she is unrestrained and good at expression, she must like it more. Yang Qing is so restrained, how procrastinating, how grinding and chirping, but in terms of details, he is always better than Mochizuki.
Feelings are really immeasurable.
One day, he came to another city. In the evening, Yang Qing invited Mochizuki out for dinner. Mochizuki was very surprised, but he took the initiative to invite her, and of course she was happy to go. The city is very prosperous, and a long river divides the city into two. On the side of the long river, there is a four-storey pavilion, written "Kelai Zhai", which is the restaurant built by the richest man here. Every day, it is difficult to find one.
Booked a private room on the highest floor and tasted a sumptuous dinner.
The window was closed, Yang Qing leaned against the window, looked at the satisfied appearance of the girl opposite, and suddenly said, "Today is May 15." โ
"Oh," Mochizuki didn't react.
Yang Qing said, "Your birthday." โ
"......" Mochizuki was stunned for a moment, and then remembered what he had told Yang Qing.
May 15, her birthday.
She was weak for a while, because at that time, she just wanted his gift, wanted him to be good to her, so she chose the nearest day and said it was her birthday.
But it's not.
Yang Qing has always attached importance to this kind of detail, Mochizuki used to think it was nothing, she didn't care when her birthday was, she just liked Yang Qing to be good to her. But after the dream talk, Mochizuki also got a little hearted, and if she came casually, she had a lot less.
There's a lover who listens to everything he says.,There's a lover who never says it but remembers it in his heart.,There's a lover who cares a lot about the details.,Mochizuki is also quite stressed.ใ
Even when I heard him say this, I was a little afraid to respond.
But who is Mochizuki?
Thick-skinned.
I was flustered in my heart, and when I raised my head, the girl smiled like a flower, making a surprise gesture, "That's right." You remember, I thought you had forgotten. โ
Yang Qing noticed her momentary apprehension and had doubts. didn't think much about it, a person like him would not have thought that Mochizuki would be able to make up his own birthday casually in order to chase him. Mochizuki's casualness has been magnified, and it's really not something that ordinary people can bear.
Yang Qing didn't expect that floor, so he just laughed and pushed open the window, "A gift for you." โ
Mochizuki curiously leaned over to him and peered down with him.
The river is quiet, dozens of small boats are floating on the water, the lights are sparse, and the four fields are dark. The girl's eyes were sour, and she didn't see where her gift was.
She was thinking about the gift Yang Qing gave her in her heart, she wouldn't hide it so deeply, right?
She had to work hard to find it, and she couldn't let Yang Qing feel that her rotten wood was uncarvable, and she couldn't see the gift he gave at all.
The girl's eyes were about to pop out, and this look was extremely interesting in the eyes of the young man. He didn't remind her, he just looked at her.
After a while, when Mochizuki's eyes were sour again, and he didn't figure out what Yang Qing's gift was, the lights of the small window on the river were extinguished. Soon, all the firelight was gone, and the river sank into a vast darkness.
Is this a gift?
Mochizuki was surprised: What does this mean?
In the next moment of her thoughts, the lights on the boats on the river gradually came back on. But it is not the orderless and irregular like before, but it lights up under some established agreement.
The whole river, the whole sea of stars, the wind is bright and bright.
Looking down from the highest point of the upper floor, the word "moon" lit up directly in front of it.
The light of the fire was faint, every point was faint, but when they condensed into a single word, the light was magnified countless times.
The "moon" on the water, floating in the river.
The "moon" in front of him raised his eyes.
Mochizuki looked at Yang Qing with a bright light in his eyes.
Hear him laugh, "Don't you like that?" โ
yes, she loves it.
Mochizuki looked at Yang Qing and said to himself, "I decided ......"
She decided that her birthday in the future would be May 15th. She would never let Yang Qing know that her original birthday was not like this at all.
Yang Qing must not be allowed to feel that he has been deceived.
Yang Qing: "Huh? โ
Of course, Mochizuki wouldn't say anything, she happily hugged her lover and kissed him in the face. Raising his head, he asked him softly, "You are so good to me, is there anything you want me to do?" โ
Yang Qing laughed, "No." โ
Mochizuki forced him, "You must have thoughts about me, you have to say it." Is it okay to be honest? Say it quickly, please, don't make me upset......"
Yang Qing smiled, "Be honest? โ
"Hmm!"
"I'm afraid I'll be honest and scare you."
"Not really. Say it. โ
A smile flickered in Yang Qing's eyes.
In the persecution of Mochizuki, in a sea of stars, the young man leaned over, pressed his ear to her, and said gently, "Demon Sect or Bai Dao, which one do you choose?" โ
"......" Mochizuki is stuck.
After a while, she said with difficulty and evasively, "Change, change a request." โ
Yang Qing was very talkative, nodded his head, and asked with a smile, "If I fall into the river at the same time as Yuan Yingxing, which one do you save?" โ
Mochizuki froze: "......"