chapter37

Ning Yufei sat stunned for a long time, until Shen Tianxun's voice sounded in his ears again: "I know that there are many things that should not be mixed up by me, but Xiao Yu, if I don't say it, Xie Jing's character will really never be said in his life." ”

This sentence touched Ning Yufei at once, and after a long time, he sighed and replied to Shen Tianxun: "Your Highness, I'll go over in a while." ”

Some words still have to be said face to face, and some memories also need to be found back, whether good or bad, he should face them.

Right or wrong, you have to understand everything before you can make a judgment.

Intellectually he thought so, but he still had some rejection in his heart, and he had these hesitations when he got close to the door.

A few years have passed, and the Marquis Mansion of Daxie has not changed at all, and it is still so high.

Looking at this heavy mansion, what flashed in his mind was the whole night of huddled in the corner, let the cold wind and night erode him.

Ning Yufei is not a person with fiery feelings, he grew up in an orphanage, and since he was a child, he has seen all the warmth and coldness of the world, what he longs for most is not the ups and downs of love, but a family that can support each other in peace and stability for a lifetime. Even in the 21st century, when homosexuality is not so recognized, what he wants has always been a harbor, a partner he can rely on, he doesn't need to be strong, he doesn't need to look good, and he doesn't even have such earth-shattering feelings, as long as he can meet each other and slowly become inseparable family members, it is enough.

That memory four years ago made him see the gap between himself and Xie Jing clearly, and if he did it again, who could be sure that he would not repeat the mistakes of the past?

Again, Ning Yufei didn't even dare to think about it.

As soon as he appeared outside the Marquis's Palace, he was welcomed in by a servant, and walked through the well-tended garden, directly to the hall on the right.

The eldest princess had been waiting there early, and when she saw Ning Yu flying in, she hurriedly got up and greeted her with a face full of anxiety.

Ning Yufei looked at Shen Tianxun's demeanor, his heart was sour, he opened his mouth, and the words 'Your Highness' overflowed from the corners of his mouth and became 'Auntie'.

Shen Tianxun was obviously stunned, and then, her eyes turned red because of this simple title: "Xiao Yu, you are really a good boy." ”

The choking of her voice made Ning Yufei a little at a loss, and she wanted to comfort her, but she didn't know what to say...... What happened four years ago became a thorn in his heart, and he couldn't let go.

Fortunately, Shen Tianxun has always been understanding, and seeing that Ning Yufei was a little frightened, she hurriedly accepted her feelings and said slowly: "I didn't tell Xie Jing that you came over, I want to talk to you alone, is it okay?" ”

Ning Yufei paused for a moment before saying, "Okay." ”

Shen Tianxun's voice is very soft, just like her, there is no sharp place, and people can't help but want to get close to her.

She asked, "Three days ago, did Ah Jing do something wrong?" ”

Ning Yufei shook his head: "No." ”

"But you're mad at him."

Ning Yufei smiled bitterly: "I don't know what to say, if I say something wrong, it's probably me who is wrong." "He was socializing with several people at the same time, no matter what he said, it was his fault, if he didn't have the memory of four years ago, he would only feel extremely guilty about Xie Jing.

Shen Tianxun looked at him and said, "No matter what you do, it won't be wrong." ”

Ning Yufei was stunned, and understood the hidden meaning of her words, no matter what he did, Xie Jing would not think that he was wrong, is this what he meant?

Ning Yufei was a little helpless, and his voice seemed to be out of strength: "Auntie, I don't know why, I forgot a lot of things, and then ...... I remembered a lot of things again......"

He just started talking, but Shen Tianxun's ground suddenly turned pale, and even his lips trembled: "Did you remember what happened four years ago, but you didn't remember what happened a year ago?" ”

Ning Yufei looked up at her in surprise.

Shen Tianxun didn't look away, but continued to ask anxiously, "What's wrong?" Why do you forget a lot of things? Was it because of that accident? Why not speak up? I'm going to call the doctor over and check it out again, just in case it ......."

Ning Yufei listened to her without blinking: "A year ago, what happened?" ”

Shen Tianxun was stunned, and then she smiled bitterly: "You really forgot...... So, you hate Xie Jing so much now. ”

In fact, to be precise, Ning Yufei didn't forget, but his memory was a little confused, he remembered that Shen Tianxun waited for him for two hours, remembered what Shen Tianxun said, and remembered Xie Jing, who was so haggard that he didn't have the slightest vitality at that time, but he forgot something very important, very important...... Thing.

Shen Tianxun closed his eyes, and only said after a while: "I really don't want to recall those things again. ”

Four years ago, Shen Tianxun went to other galaxies to recuperate for physical reasons, and she lived for a whole year, so she didn't personally experience Xie Jing and Ning Yufei, she only knew that her son was in love and had someone she liked very much, but before she could see each other, she heard that they had broken up...... At that time, Shen Tianxun was regretful, but he didn't care too much, after all, breaking up was a thing of the past. It wasn't until Xie Jing suddenly collapsed a year ago that she knew the whole story.

With the gentle voice of the eldest princess, Ning Yufei finally knew what he had forgotten, and finally saw the whole picture four years ago.

Staring at this memory, Ning Yufei couldn't help but hug his head with his hand, his whole body felt as if he had been crushed by a wheel, and the pain made people's scalp tingle.

Who is to blame, who is wrong?

He just wants to have a good relationship, why is it like this.

Xie Jing......

He finally knew why he remembered himself and cried and said sorry to Xie Jing a year ago.

He was really sorry for him, for failing his heart, for his whole person, and for all of this......

Charolan said: "Do you think Xie Jing really doesn't know what happened to you? Do you think that you are ostracized and treated coldly, and Xie Jing doesn't even know? No, he knew, of course he knew, just he didn't care. ”

Xie Jing did know, or should I say, before they had a relationship, he knew it clearly, even deeper and farther than anyone thought.

What's just being sidelined? What's the point of being just given the cold shoulder? What is truly terrible are assassinations and attacks from political opponents.

The heir of the Marquis Mansion of Daxie enjoys countless halos, but also means that he lives in a strange circle surrounded by countless dangers all day long. Just like the terrorist attack when camping, Xie Jing has experienced countless times of this kind of thing, but he must not let Ning Yufei encounter it even once.

The moment he decided to pursue Ning Yufei, he had already thought about it seriously for a long time.

He wants to give Ning Yufei freedom and give him a normal life, but he also wants the whole world to know that they are lovers, they don't have to hide, they don't have to hide, they don't have to hide, they want to be themselves openly, and at the same time, they want to let him be in an absolutely safe environment.

It's too difficult to do this, but Xie Jing chose his feelings and decided that he must do this.

Otherwise, what qualifications did he have to pursue Ning Yufei?

If loving someone is to make the other person unhappy, uncomfortable, and even full of danger, then who would want such love?

- Xie Jing didn't want to give it either.

If you want to do it, you can do your best, if you want to give it, you can give it to you, he wants Ning Yufei to be his partner, so you must make him the happiest person.

This is what he asks of himself, and from birth to the present, he has long been engraved into his bones.

The word 'perfect' was never imposed on him by others, but was shown to others.

Xie Jing redispatched his personal guards, put most of the manpower on Ning Yufei's side, and even thoughtfully thought of the Earl's Mansion, including Ning Yufei's parents and brothers, he silently took them under his wings, guarding them without alarming anyone.

As for other people's exclusion and cold reception, even Xie Jing can't avoid this, but he can start from the other side, he spoils Ning Yufei and spoils him to the tip of his heart, as long as he shows that he attaches enough importance to Ning Yufei, then with the passage of time, when he and Ning Yufei become partners completely, no one will dare to exclude Ning Yufei.

He almost thought of a qiē, and almost did a qiē, but Xie Jing at that time was not the cabinet speaker who has been tempered today, he was just a student, he had not yet graduated, and he had not experienced many things, so he ignored a little.

That's Li Lin......

Xie Jing protected the entire Earl's Palace, but ignored Li Lin.

This is precisely why Charolan will attack the Li family instead of the Earl's Court, because she can't touch the Earl's Court at all.

But Ning Yufei didn't know this, he didn't know what Xie Jing was doing behind his back. Of course, he didn't know, because Xie Jing didn't think about suing him, his purpose was to make his life easy, if he did, wouldn't he put the cart before the horse?

So Xia Luolan threatened Ning Yufei with something she couldn't do.

It is conceivable how Ning Yufei, who broke up with the excuses of 'not free' and 'life is messed up' at that time, poked Xie Jing's heart hard.

What Xie Jing was worried about, what he guarded against, and what he didn't want to see, all happened without warning.

Ning Yufei really didn't dare to think about what kind of mood Xie Jing was in at that time.

It was as if I had worked hard to prepare the most exquisite ingredients and prepared countless times, and I thought that I could make my beloved pastries quietly, but the result was ...... The cream was sprinkled, the cake was mussy, the sugar and salt were mixed together, all the effort, all the effort, all the perfect preparation, before it could be shaped, it became a farce.

How could Xie Jing be willing? How can it be willing?

He didn't shake the breakup, he didn't agree to break up, he kept telling Ning Yufei: It's going to be okay, it's going to be fine, just give him some more time......

But Ning Yufei didn't listen, but was furious about it and made even more trouble.

Until he wanted to join the army, he wanted to go to the front...... Xie Jing suddenly woke up.

At that time, he really thought that Ning Yufei was forcing him to die.

At this point, how can you still hold on? What's the point of having even the most perfect future? The blueprint he sketched was missing the most important person, and that qiē was empty.

Xie Jing finally let go and completely gave up.

But even so, he would not abandon his protection of Ning Yufei, so under common sense, Xia Luolan would never be able to take Ning Yufei away.

But......

Fate is like the clown who grabbed the string, playing with the puppets in his hands, smiling and watching them hit their heads and bleed.

Charolan has a secret 'ally', a man who no one could have imagined, but who can quietly dominate a qiē.

That is the Marquis of Daxie, Xie Jing's biological father - Xie Qinyun.

Xie Jing is his only son and the only heir of the entire Xie family, and how much Xie Qinyun expects from him may not be able to be understood by anyone.

He couldn't tolerate Ning Yufei's storage, this man who was destined to become Xie Jing's weakness should not be stored in this world.

Xie Jing put so much thought into Ning Yufei and the Ning family behind his back, Xie Qinyun could see it all clearly, but the more he understood, the more angry he became.

The biggest role of the pro-guard team selected by thousands of people is to protect the heir of the Marquis Mansion of Daxie, what are the dilapidated Earl's Mansion and Ning Yufei?

Are they together worth a strand of Xie Jing's hair?

But Xie Jing mobilized so much strength, regardless of his own safety, just to protect those guys who were as weak as ants!

How ridiculous and how disappointing!

The first time Xia Luolan took Ning Yufei away, Xie Qinyun let him go, but he didn't want to startle the snake or let Xie Jing find out, so he didn't do anything out of the ordinary.

Fortunately, Ning Yufei was not a wolf-hearted dog, and after being blackmailed by Xia Luolan, he really began to break up with Xie Jing.

Xie Qinyun was happy to see it and watched coldly.

In the end, Xie Jing and Ning Yufei broke up, Ning Yufei insisted on joining the army, Xie Qinyun felt that he was still good, and wanted to let him go, but Xie Jing's actions behind his back completely angered him.

broke up and was abandoned by Ning Yufei in such a way that he almost stepped into the mud, but what Xie Jing thought was to organize troops to go to the Cloud Steaming Galaxy!

Although many nobles rushed to the battlefield one after another to share the battle exploits at that time, who was Xie Jing? Can Xie Jing's identity be compared to those trash who have no achievements?

What is the need for him to go to the cloud steaming galaxy? When did the Xie family look at that little bit of looted military exploits? Why did he go? Why put yourself in danger, the results are obvious!

For Ning Yufei, for that stinky boy!

Xie Qinyun, who learned about this at that time, almost went crazy.

So when Xia Luolan wanted to take Ning Yufei away, he acquiesced again.

can't let him go, if possible, it's best to die, only in this way can Xie Jing turn back into the real Xie Jing.

For Xie Qinyun and his father, Xie Jing would never be on guard and guard, so he was almost completely kept in the dark at that time.

At this moment, Ning Yufei was already a little unbearable, but what made him even more unsure of how to face it was the back......

The Prince's Mansion was heavily guarded, and Shen Yijun and Xia Luolan were the top figures in the world, how could the place they were in be easily able to invade?

At that time, Shen Lingyu was not the current Royal Highness the Crown Prince, how did he find Ning Yufei who was imprisoned underground with only his own strength?

At that time, Ning Yufei only knew that it was Shen Lingyu who saved him, and only knew that it was his cousin who dragged him out of the devil's hands, but he didn't think about it, how did Shen Lingyu do it? Single-handedly, how could Shen Lingyu, who had no power, rescue him alive.

And now, a qiē is solved.

It's all because of the people behind it.

Xie Jing, who didn't say a word from beginning to end, didn't show up, and was even in captivity, used a number of connections, promised countless conditions, hid Xie Qinyun's sight, and paved a rescue road for the prince.

That's right, Xie Qinyun did hide from Xie Jing at that time, but when his father changed all his personal guards for blood, he quickly noticed something unusual, Xie Jing was taught since he was a child that he must not ignore any detail, and he must not tolerate any possibility. So he quickly contacted his cronies in private, inquired about Ning Yufei's whereabouts, and learned that he did not go to the Cloud Steaming Galaxy, but was taken away by Xia Luolan, Xie Jing's only thought at that time was - no matter what the price was, he must let Ning Yufei live!

Even if they never see each other again, even if they never have the possibility of being together again, he can't let him die.

He can't let this one-of-a-kind, one-of-a-kind, such a special person die!

After rescuing Ning Yufei, Xie Qinyun finally learned about Xie Jing's actions behind his back, he was furious, almost beating this only son to half death, angry, hateful and distressed, but the more distressed he was, the more he felt that he was too angry, so the more angry he became!

Xie Jing could barely stand up under his father's anger, but he didn't say a word begging for mercy, let alone the slightest intention to admit his mistakes.

What Ning Yufei didn't know was that when he was lonely and helpless to ask Xie Jing for help, Xie Jing had already taken care of himself.

The communicator was removed, all contact with the outside world was forcibly cut off by Xie Qinyun, and the cronies he had worked so hard to cultivate were uprooted and all imprisoned by Xie Qinyun, leaving no means to contact the outside world. He was obviously in the Marquis's Mansion and stayed in his own home, but it was like staying in a cage.

Ning Yufei waited outside the Marquis's Mansion for a night, and Xie Jing knelt down all night in the cold night.

Until the next day, Xie Qinyun really couldn't resist him, and angrily ordered someone to lock him up. In the blink of an eye, he put on any muscle that was still a half-finished product and went to see Ning Yufei.

At that time, any muscle was in the research and development stage, far less mature than it is now, if it weren't for Xie Qinyun's very similar to Xie Jing, and with a voice inherited from father and son, he wouldn't have been able to disguise himself as Xie Jing at all.

It just so happened that Ning Yufei was seriously injured at that time, and he froze all night, and in a trance, he would not imagine that the man in front of him was not Xie Jing, so he had never looked at it carefully, and naturally he couldn't distinguish the difference that was very subtle but would definitely be found as long as he was attentive.

In the most chaotic days of Ning Yufei, Xie Jing lived in the dark.

When the dust settled, Ning Yufei stepped onto the battlefield, Shen Tianxun finally returned to the Imperial Capital Star, and Xie Jing was able to walk out of the Marquis's Mansion.

…… But it was too late and I missed everything.

Ning Yufei finally went to the Yunzheng Galaxy without looking back.

And Xie Jing, who made such a scene, had absolutely no way to leave the Imperial Capital Star again.

The most special thing in his life is that he is completely away from him.

If there were no Shen Tianxun for these things, then every qiē would be crushed in the dust forever, and it would never be known.

And Shen Tianxun would know this, but it was still three years later, during the period when Xie Jing completely collapsed.

When she realized the importance of Ning Yufei, she worked hard to collect the beginning and end of the things of the year, looked at it little by little, understood it little by little, and then felt distressed to the point of no return.

A year ago, there was a source why Xie Jing couldn't hold on at all.

That's ...... He saw what happened to Ning Yufei who was imprisoned in that dirty and bloody dungeon by Xia Luolan.

The images that have been dusty for many years have been painstakingly dug out, and the pictures presented inside are like fine and sharp needles, all of which pierced Xie Jing's heart, becoming the last straw that broke the camel's back, so that the spirit of strong support completely collapsed, and turned into loose sand that could not be collected in one place, and this sand was mixed with blood and tears, which made people can't bear to take a second look.

As long as these things were mentioned, Shen Tianxun's tears couldn't be stopped: "Their father and son haven't spoken since then, Qin Yun is at home, Ah Jing will move out to live, Qin Yun will go out, he will come back to see me...... I don't have any position to complain about this, Xiao Yu, I know you've been hurt a lot, but Ah Jing...... Ah Jing ......"

The feeling in Ning Yufei's heart was so complicated that no words could describe one thousandth of it, he didn't know what to say, thinking of this, what else could he say?

There are many mistakes and misunderstandings...... What is the source of this tragedy?

Charolan? Xie Qinyun?

No, it's neither.

It's himself, if he trusts Xie Jing more, if he doesn't feel inferior, if they can get along longer and get to know each other better, then everything will be ......

Unfortunately, there are no ifs.

There is no turning back from what has happened, and the broken glass is also scarred when it sticks together.

Ning Yufei took a deep breath and looked at Shen Tianxun seriously: "I want to meet the senior." ”

Shen Tianxun was stunned, but soon she reacted, and hurriedly said, "Xiao Yu, you ......"

Ning Yufei tugged at the corners of his mouth, revealing a very bitter smile: "I remembered it, I remembered it." ”

With such a debt, what kind of face does he have to deceive again and again?

Ning Yufei saw Xie Jing.

In the dimly lit room, the man was seen sitting quietly in a chair.

He wore a very simple shirt, a light gray shirt that lined his skin tone extremely white, and straight trousers wrapped his two long legs, even the simplest clothes had a charm that people couldn't take their eyes off when they wore them.

He looked normal, as usual, meticulous and flawless, interpreting the word 'perfect' as a whole person.

But...... Ning Yufei remembered Shen Tianxun's words: "Ah Jing hasn't closed his eyes for three whole days. ”

Ning Yufei's heart felt as if he had been stabbed by the tip of a needle, he closed his eyes and shouted softly, "Senior." ”

Hearing this voice, Xie Jing suddenly got up, because the force was too fast, his tall body shook slightly.

I haven't slept for so long, and no matter how strong my body is, I can't hold it anymore.

Ning Yufei hurriedly stepped forward and helped him.

Xie Jing held him with his backhand, his strength was great, but his face was extremely pale, and his delicate facial features had a sickly beauty hidden in the dim room.

Ning Yufei's heart twitched, but Xie Jing hugged him all of a sudden, and his beautiful voice was extremely good: "I thought you wouldn't come to see me." ”

Ning Yufei paused for a moment before he reluctantly spoke: "Senior, I failed you, I'm really sorry, I ......"

"Don't say it, don't say anything......" Xie Jing hugged him, so strong that he wanted to embed him in his body, "I don't care, it doesn't matter if those things matter, it doesn't matter anything, as long as you don't leave me again, don't ignore me anymore, don't see me again...... That's it. ”

Ning Yufei's voice trembled: "But I ......"

He didn't say anything at all, Xie Jing let go, distanced himself from him, lowered his head, and kissed him hard.

This one was very heavy, and it seemed to have exhausted the last strength of the whole body, and with a thick and desperate kiss, it came like a tide, and hit the deepest part of the human heart.

When he was let go, Ning Yufei's whole body was out of strength.

What the hell is to be done!

What the hell is going to do!

Xie Jing didn't do anything, he fell asleep, hugged him tightly, fell down on the heavy carpet, and slept peacefully like a baby.

I haven't slept for three days and three nights, and my nerves are stretched to the extreme, and I can't hold it at all.

Ning Yufei looked at the gorgeous ceiling with dark patterns in a daze, and his head was a mess.

Whether it is Xie Jing or Shen Lingyu, they actually know it, at least they know that he is stepping on two boats.

And then...... None of them will face it.

He had said it all, but no one would listen.

What to do? What to do?

If the matter between him and the marshal is exposed again......

Ning Yufei groaned, for the first time in his life, he wanted to take the initiative to contact Huo Beichen.