77 Chapter 77
Ning Yixun looked at the two women who hugged each other tightly, she hoped that they could just let go immediately, after all, it didn't mean much to hug each other, but as long as she watched, they hugged for a long time, so forgetful that they didn't notice their arrival at all, if there was a trace of hesitation before, then at this moment Ning Yixun felt so clear about herself that she couldn't be clearer, she felt so jealous that she wanted to turn into lightning and split the two women who hugged each other.
Jealous that Ning Yixun couldn't bear them to continue hugging, she honked the horn hard, and a sharp voice sounded in the night.
The young Yu and Song Qingnan, who were sad together, were really awakened, and they all looked at the source of the sound and saw Ning Yixun in the car.
Song Qingnan inexplicably let go of the hand that was holding Young Yu, a little overwhelmed, she had a feeling of robbing other people's things.
Young Yu's first instinct was to let go of Song Qingnan, and he couldn't let Ning Yixun misunderstand, but his second reaction was to hold back the hand that he wanted to withdraw, and put the hand he wanted to let go back to Song Qingnan's body. Even though she was a little happy in her heart, she knew that Ning Yixun must have chased her out to find herself, but her joy was quickly drowned in the negative emotions in her heart, and she decided that the reason why Ning Yixun chased her out was just because she couldn't let go of herself because of guilt. One detail is enough to betray Ning Yixun's heart, young Yu believes that the person Ning Yixun really loves is Han Xin, young Yu doesn't want Ning Yixun to be unable to let go of himself because of guilt, since this is the case, she wants to let Ning Yixun leave with peace of mind, no guilt.
Ning Yixun obviously noticed that Song Qingnan let go of the hand holding Young Yu, but Young Yu did not let go of Song Qingnan, this detail stung Ning Yixun's eyes. Of course, she didn't believe that Young Yu would get together with Song Qingnan in such a short period of time, so she got out of the car immediately, didn't think much about it, walked directly to Young Yu, and forcefully pulled away Young Yu's hand that was still on Song Qingnan's body, and then grabbed Young Yu's wrist, pulled him to her side, and looked at Song Qingnan angrily.
Young Yu, who was pulled aside by Ning Yixun, thought that if Ning Yixun loved herself, such an emotionless and slightly rude behavior should be cute in her eyes, and she would like her domineering. She has always known that Ning Yixun is probably the kind of person who loves very domineeringly, but unfortunately she doesn't love herself after all, and when she thinks of this, she feels bitter in her heart when she is young. At this moment, Ning Yixun behaves like a domineering child, even if he doesn't want toys, he doesn't want to leave them to others.
"Shouldn't you give me an explanation?" Ning Yixun ignored Song Qingnan and asked Young Yu directly, she believed Young Yu, as long as Young Yu explained, she believed it.
"There's nothing to explain, as you can see, just now, I decided to be with her." Young Yu said in a cold tone, Young Yu tried to make himself ruthless to Ning Yixun.
Except for the previous phone call, Young Yu had never used such a cold tone to himself, which made Ning Yixun almost crazy.
"Are you so eager to go to someone else's arms after you leave here?" Ning Yixun was obviously controlled by the devil of jealousy, and questioned the young Yu without words.
"Ning Yixun, why can you question me so naturally, you ask your own conscience, when you and Han Xin kissed together, did you think about my feelings?" Young Yu asked with slightly red eyes, her tone was not as aggressive as Ning Yixun's, but this was the sharpest and harshest thing she had ever said to Ning Yixun. Young Yu found that maybe he didn't have the slightest resentment towards Ning Yixun, maybe he just hid it too deeply, and even he couldn't tell the difference between himself and Ning Yixun.
"So you're just jealous, just revenge on me, in fact, you still care about me, right?" Ning Yiyi is looking for reasons, there is no way to refute it, she is not afraid of the content of Young Yu's words, but afraid of Young Yu's attitude towards herself, the young Yu who has never been so gentle that she has no edges and corners seems to have become angular, which hurts her heart.
"I'm tired, I want to quit, I don't want a pure feeling, I also want a complete embrace that belongs to me, which can make me feel warm and at ease again, and these are all things that Sister Qingnan can give me, and you will only make me sad." Young Yu said in a somewhat tired tone.
"Yes, I used to be very wandering, but I won't be in the future......" Ning Yixun said a little anxiously, she wanted to tell Young Yu that she had a clear answer in her heart, but before she could say it, she was interrupted by Young Yu.
"Han Xin and I fell into the river, who will you save first?" Young Yu asked Ning Yixun with a very old question.
"I'll save Han Xin first, and then I'll jump down with you." Although this answer was not her original, Ning Yixun felt that she would really choose it.
"You are still willing to leave the hope of life to her, which shows that you still care about her the most, and you are willing to die with me, maybe you just don't want to feel guilty." Young Yu didn't believe it, she only caught Ning Yixun so little hesitation, she felt that she and Han Xin would always be the two ends of the rope in Ning Yixun's heart, so that she couldn't make a choice at the first time, she really didn't want to make Ning Yixun embarrassed.
"No, it's not like that......" Ning Yixun wanted to refute, she felt that this was definitely the worst question, no matter how she answered, the answer was flawed.
"Maybe we are really not suitable, in fact, I am not as generous as you think, when I think of the memories of Han Xin engraved with you in the past ten years, I feel like I am on my back. Even if you choose me, when I think that you once loved Han Xin so much, I will get into the horns, I don't even know, can I make you love Han Xin so much, I will compare, I will care, maybe I will torture myself for a detail, I really don't want to let myself become such a person......" Young Yu never thought that her acting skills could be so good, at that moment, she almost deceived herself.
Ning Yixun was speechless, she knew that she loved Young Yu now, but she was really not sure that she could love Young Yu as deeply as she loved Han Xin at the beginning, the more deeply she loved, the more stingy she was later. And the ten-year memory, unless it can be completely erased like an eraser, it will always remain in her memory, even if Han Xin is not love, but it will always be a very important existence, which may be really unfair to Young Yu. But Ning Yixun couldn't just let Young Yu go, and she always felt that this was not Young Yu's true thoughts.
"Actually, you're just afraid that I'm going to be in a dilemma between you and her, aren't you? Actually, you still want to be with me, or do you love me? Ning Yixun asked in a panic.
"I just figured it out, just like everyone likes to use new things, and feelings are no exception, why do I have to use a leftover relationship for others to satisfy myself? Obviously, I have a better choice. Young Yu asked softly.
Young Yu's metaphor for Ning Yixun's feelings, just like Ning Yixun's metaphor for Han Xin, is really similar, even the lethality is just as powerful, Ning Yixun's face turned pale after hearing this, she really couldn't imagine that such cruel words would come out of Young Yu's mouth. It's just that she still doesn't believe that Young Yu can prepare to empathize and say goodbye in such a short time. But it is too much of a coincidence that Song Qingnan appeared here, especially the young Yu sister who was young before, and felt harsh when she heard it in Ningyi.
"I don't believe it, I don't believe it......" Ning Yixun kept repeating this sentence.
"People are selfish by nature, and they are used to choosing the best choice for themselves, and choosing Sister Qingnan is the most worrying choice for me now." Young Yu said to Ning Yixun unusually calmly.
"You're not that kind of person!" Ning Yixun said categorically.
"You don't even know what I like, do you really know me?" Young Yu raised an eyebrow and asked.
Ning Yixun was speechless, she couldn't refute Young Yu at all, the young Yu in front of her was so unfamiliar to herself, maybe as she said, she didn't know her at all. But when young Yu used to love himself so much, was it just his own delusion? Even if you really don't know her that well, you can't be wrong with the feeling that a person gives herself!
"You look me in the eye and say, you don't love me anymore, you love her more now, you want to be with her, and I will believe you." Ning Yixun grabbed Young Yu's wrist tightly, she still didn't believe Young Yu's words, she always thought that Young Yu's love for her was not so casual, and she would definitely not say this.
Young Yu looked at Ning Yixun, she wanted to speak, but she found that she couldn't say anything, looking at Ning Yixun with a look of I know you love me, Young Yu leaned over and kissed Song Qingnan who blamed herself, but she didn't dare to speak. As if he was afraid that Ning Yi would not believe it, Young Yu put his tongue into Song Qingnan's mouth and kissed him passionately.
Song Qingnan was obviously stupid, she didn't expect that Young Yu would kiss herself, which made Song Qingnan at a loss, she didn't know whether to push Young Yu away, selfishness made her reluctant to push away, even if she knew that this kiss didn't mean anything. She didn't know what happened between Youyu and Ning Yixun, but she felt that what Youyu and Ning Yixun said was against her will. No one knows Yu Yu better than himself, and Yu Yu has never been a girl who can be calculating, nor is she such a sharp girl. And she felt that Youyu was really in love with Ning Yixun, and she could feel that Youyu was actually dripping blood in her heart.
Ning Yixun looked at the two people in the hot kiss, this scene made her feel cold from head to toe, nothing is more convincing than actual action, Ning Yixun's hand let go of young Yu's wrist in a dejected manner, she felt that all the strength in her body had been drained, like a shriveled ball, unable to bounce again. Ning Yixun knows that no matter how much you love someone, it doesn't mean that she will never change her mind, just like she did to Han Xin at the beginning, she thought that she loved Han Xin so much that she would not easily fall in love with others again, but she still changed her mind and fell in love with Young Yu, maybe Young Yu also loved herself very much, but it doesn't mean that she won't fall in love with others after being heartbroken by herself, obviously she hasn't had time to tell her that she loves her, but now, all this is not needed.
The picture of young Yu and Song Qingnan kissing made her feel so unbearable, she couldn't even bear it for a moment, her heart hurt so much that she was almost numb, it turned out that Young Yu could make herself hurt so much! Ning Yixun drove aimlessly, she felt so uncomfortable in her heart, she wanted to cry, she wanted to hold back her crying, but she couldn't help it at all, at first she just cried silently, and then her car simply stopped on the side of the road, lying on the steering wheel and crying, regardless of any image. She felt that tonight was probably the most dramatic night in her life, she had just dumped Han Xin, and now she was dumped by Young Yu again. Thinking of the picture of young Yu and Song Qingnan kissing fiercely, Ning Yixun felt that his heart was stirred by a sharp dagger, which made his heart hurt and hurt, painful and jealous, and that strong feeling of jealousy could not be suppressed. It seems that the most harmless person, the more you can unexpectedly insert a knife in your heart, a fatal move, the more you feel that you will not lose the person, the more you are caught off guard and lost. In fact, thinking about it from the heart, when Young Yu saw herself and Han Xin kissing, it was probably so painful, she thought that the reason why Young Yu was so cruel to herself was probably because she was heartbroken.
Young Yu saw Ning Yixun turn around and leave, so she let go of Song Qingnan, and her tears slipped down uncontrollably, like pearls with broken threads. Bean-sized teardrops, hot dripping on Song Qingnan's fingertips, made Song Qingnan feel very distressed. Song Qingnan didn't know what was going on between them, she was also considerate and didn't ask anything, she knew that Youyu wouldn't want to tell herself now. She just thought that if the person that Young Yu loved was herself, then she would definitely not make her so sad, and she would not be like Ning Yixun who couldn't tell your true emotions at all, and she would definitely be able to hear that what Young Yu said was against her will. But Song Qingnan clearly knew that the person you loved deeply was not herself.
Young Yu felt that her heart hurt so much, when she thought that Ning Yixun might have returned to Han Xin's side now, when she thought that Ning Yixun might no longer feel guilty about herself, and might even hate herself a little, maybe she would be a passerby when she said goodbye, and it no longer mattered, her heart hurt more and more, it turned out that it was such a painful thing to fulfill others. For the first time, I was young and hoped that I could be selfish, if I could be selfish and desperately keep Ning Yixun by my side, would it not hurt so much? 166 Reading Network