Extra-flesh and blood affection

"Going to the Soup and Fire" / Call me Meow

I have only loved one woman in my life, and her name is Song Pingping.

She is the most beautiful woman I have ever met, gentle, kind, and knowledgeable. But I know that these are not her innate personalities. She was a proud peacock, and she never looked down on men who surrendered under the hem of her skirt.

However, she fell in love with me.

Her beauty and her family background were enough for her to find someone more suitable and suitable for her than me, but she didn't. Just because at a banquet, I had the honor of holding her hand and dancing a dance under the light of the banquet, and we cooperated very well in that dance, I was intoxicated by her beauty, and she looked at me shyly, which made my heart sink all at once.

When I met her, she was the treasure of the Song family in the palm of her hand. And I'm already a family man, I have a wife and a son.

My wife and I don't love each other, and we are a tragedy of a business marriage. I had endless fights with her, and every day when I came back to that house, I felt the urge to run away. But, after all, I have a son between me and her. My son Wenxi has been very good since he was a child, he studies very well and treats people better than me.

In order to give my son a complete home, I had to keep this broken marriage alive. However, I fell in love with Song Pingping.

I love her beauty, her gentleness and generosity, and the way she smiles at me. I know I'm mean, shameless, and selfish. I shouldn't have made her miss me, I shouldn't have feelings for her.

However, the man's self-esteem brought me closer to her again and again, and made her sink into my sweet words again and again. I want to have her so much, I want to love her for the rest of my life.

I placed her in one of my villas, and for a week I was basically there with her, sitting in the garden with her reading and talking. Looking at her, my mind that had been floating could only be quieted.

She knew that I had a family, and she hugged me again and again and cried until she fell asleep with tears on her face. At that time, I felt guilty to myself when I looked at her.

I vowed to give her a home, a home that belonged to me and hers.

My wife began to notice what was going on with me, she sneered every day, sat on the couch with her son in her arms and watched me every day. Staring at me like a criminal, I was afraid of that look, it whipped my conscience.

One day, Wenxi ran into the study and asked, "Dad, Mom said you found a beautiful aunt outside, right?" ”

I was stunned that my son didn't have the courage to answer me when he looked me with such contempt. My wife and I had another big fight.

The number of our quarrels began to increase, and each time Wenxi would stand by and look at us indifferently. I don't know how much it hurt him, but I do know he's going to be uncomfortable.

Song Pingping gave birth to a daughter for me, a very cute child, and I was by my side when she was born. I looked at the daughter who came out of the body of my beloved woman, and my heart was hot, and I couldn't help but cry out.

I hugged her, my hands were still shaking, she was crying with red eyes, I looked at her, looking at Song Pingping, who had fallen asleep, and I was satisfied.

I think I'm content in this life.

I named the child Wennan.

Song Pingping didn't agree, she thought the word 'Nan' was too blunt, so she changed it to 'Nan'. The nickname is Nan Nan, I like this name very much, and the child likes it too, she keeps laughing.

After the birth of my child, I started to run to the villa frequently. I can't wait to see their mother and daughter every day, but I forget that I have another family and another mother and son waiting for me.

My wife knew about Wen Nan's existence, and her emotions became more and more intense, and she even secretly followed me to the villa. She made a big fuss at Song Pingping's place, and she even pinched Wen Nan's white and tender little hands with her long nails.

That was the first time I raised my hand and hit her, and I slapped my wife in front of Wenxi and everyone. It was a loud slap that even my hand felt very painful.

Her eyes were red and she was going crazy and she threw herself on top of me and hit me, and I didn't fight back because I saw Wenxi glaring at me fiercely. I don't love her, but I love my son.

Flesh and blood affection, many things can't be separated.

Since then, I have reduced my visits to Song Pingping and Wen Nan, and I have been going home more and more often. Even so, my wife and Wenxi are always indifferent to me.

When Wen Nan was two years old, his wife was in a car accident with a drunk driver. A year after she passed away, I took Song Pingping and Wen Nan back. I owe them and Wenxi, and I think I'll pay it back for the rest of my life.

In the days that followed, Song Pingping and Wenxi got along very well, and I could feel that my son, like me, was also moved by her gentleness and generosity.

Unfortunately, my work became busier and busier, and I had to deal with so many things every day that I couldn't take the time to care for my wife and children.

I started to travel to another city every once in a while, and I could only spare an hour or two every day to call Song Pingping, and we always had to talk.

Wen Nan is very afraid of me, I don't know why, every time she sees me, she always hides behind Song Pingping or Wen Xi. Occasionally, under Song Pingping's explanation, she would call me 'uncle'. She never refused to call me 'Dad', and every time she talked to Song Pingping about this, she would sigh with regret.

I don't blame her, and I feel more and more guilty about her. I felt like a failed father, a father who didn't do his duty, and I didn't attend a single parent-teacher conference with her, and I didn't have a single time to be able to attend her graduation.

Her personality is very stubborn and brutal. She cares about the people she cares about, and she hates those who treat her badly, this kind of temperament is not like me and Song Pingping. When she went to middle school, she began to learn to talk back to me, and she protected her mom in her own way. She accused me of ignoring my family and not thinking of Song Pingping.

A casual rebuke would have caused her to be angry. She was like a hedgehog, glaring at me with red eyes. We started arguing, each time getting stronger and stronger, and then the next time, I slapped her in the face of a momentary emotional outburst.

She kicked me out of the room, I locked myself in the study, I didn't come out all day, I looked at my hands, and finally hugged Song Pingping and cried. That was the first time I cried in front of Song Pingping.

My guilt for her became even stronger after Song Pingping's death. My beloved woman had been killed by the disease, and when I rushed back, she was already lying on the bed with a bloodless face.

I felt like I was going crazy, and I looked at the man lying on the bed, the woman I had sworn to make amends, and it was too late to open her eyes and look at me.

Wen Nan appeared in front of me at that time and slapped me back, heavily. I instinctively raised my hand, but stopped, Wen Xi stepped forward to stop my hand, I looked at them and then looked at my own hand, and suddenly I lost my strength.

I hugged Song Pingping, who had closed her eyes, and read her name over and over again, I hope she can open her eyes and look at me, if time can be turned back, how I hope she didn't fall in love with me, I didn't marry her, maybe she will have a family of her own now, and she will have a happy life.

Wen Nan kicked me out of Song Pingping's room, and she guarded Song Pingping and kept no one close.

Song Pingping's funeral, no one from the Song family attended. I didn't show up either, I sat in my room with her, looking at everything that belonged to her, looking at the place where we used to live.

I thought that I only owed Wenxi's mother in this life, but I didn't expect that I owed not only one person, but many people. I took Song Pingping's photo and looked at it for a long time, and that beautiful face can only exist in my memory and cold photos in the future.

Wen Nan ran away from home, and I sent someone outside to look for her. They told me where she had gone and met someone. She started to feel less like my daughter, she dropped out of school, smoked, drank, fought, fell in love.

Whatever she wants to do, as a father, I satisfy her. But, apart from the things that hurt her, I sent someone to clean up those who did something to her. The first thing I do every day at work is to have someone tell me what she's doing now.

In addition to me, Wenxi has also been looking for her. We all protected her very well, even though she wasn't doing well.

Wen Nan met Chen Ziang by accident, I didn't expect Chen Jing's son to know my daughter. I asked Chen Ziang to make an appointment, and before I could speak, he knew what I was trying to do, "I know what you want to say, I won't hurt Wen Nan." ”

I gratefully said to him, "I believe in you and your father's character, so I didn't mean to embarrass you when I came to you this time." I just wanted to ask you to take care of her all the time. ”

"Why?" He asked me puzzled.

"As a father, I plead with you. It's a little bit of unspeakable love I have for my daughter, and I want her to be protected, but I can't keep an eye on her whereabouts all the time. I also hope that she can be free and get love. You know, she didn't even want to listen to Wenxi's words, and she hated me even more. "I told him the truth.

We talked a lot, and all the topics have been around Wen Nan. I am willing to cooperate with him in a lot of business, as a price for him to protect Wen Nan. But he refused them all, and he told me: "The first time I saw her, I mistakenly thought she was someone I liked, so do you still feel free to hand her over to me?" ”

"No one reassures me more than you, because you don't love her, and not loving is more painful than love." I know that no one but me would agree with this view.

Chen Ziang finally agreed, and vowed not to tell this matter for the rest of his life, as if he was playing with Wen Nan's feelings and owed it to the Wen family.

I'm getting older and I'm not as keen on business things anymore. Wen Xi has his own psychological counseling room, and Wen Nan no longer goes out to those wine-colored places.

Aside from their final home, I don't have any worries anymore.

Ye Qin is my secretary and has been by my side for decades. Over the years, I have known her feelings for me, but I have no extra emotions for her.

She told me she didn't care and just wanted to be by my side until I was old.

I'm already an old man with white hair and sideburns, and I just want to have a peaceful and peaceful old age. When she took care of me, she always made me feel like I was back with Song Pingping. Maybe it's because I'm old, so I'm especially prone to remembering the past, and I always dream of those who have passed away at night when I'm asleep.

I am not married to Ye Qin, and I do not plan to have a new married life. It's like we're in each other's company, and every day we talk to each other, talk to each other, and talk about things from the past.

In fact, for the elderly, how lucky it is to have someone who knows the past as well as you do. At the very least, you won't be alone, and you'll be able to talk to others.

——Wen Mingtao 166 Reading Network