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"Going to the Soup and Fire" / Call me Meow

Before marrying Yao Qian, I thought about it for a long time.

I knew I didn't love her, and I knew she didn't love me. The two of us, like two lonely leaves floating in a stream, finally met somewhere.

And because we have the same smell as ourselves, we are attracted to each other.

We decided to get married, not because of love, nor because of responsibility. I just met each other at the right age, and then I want to be with each other for the rest of my life.

The year I met her, I happened to come back from a voluntary visit in H City. We were on the same flight, next to each other, and she had been holding a book to read since she got on the plane.

I didn't mean to pay attention to her, but she looked like she had her head down, a lot like the one I remembered. It was my first girlfriend, and when I think of her, I think of a lot of things.

I handed the bread in my hand to Yao Qian, and I asked her, "Miss, don't you need to eat something?" ”

I just thought that at this time, she would have wanted to eat something too, although she refused the waiter's meal service. She first glanced at my hand, then at me, she was not a very beautiful woman, smiled slightly and thanked her, "Thank you, I'm not hungry." ”

I also smiled back at her, still put the bread in my hand on Yao Qian's hand, and asked casually: "You don't look like a person from H City, are you here to travel?" ”

Here, I'm just curious.

"No, I'm here to teach." She replied to me in a polite tone, "What about you?" ”

"I'm here for voluntary treatment, and today is exactly one year." I replied to her, but I was in no mood to continue with her. Because I remembered my first love again.

A year ago, I came to H City with her and sat in this position together, but a year later, she has returned to her own city.

We broke up, the reason is very simple, we had a fight in City H, at that time I was still a small doctor in the city hospital of City C, I had no background, and I had to follow the arrangements of the hospital to see everywhere at any time.

She and her parents were not happy with my current situation, and she asked me to accept her parents' help, but my pride did not allow me to nod.

Before Yao Qian and I got off the plane, we left each other's contact numbers, and I don't know why I opened my mouth, but I told myself that it was better to keep it than not to have it.

She met me when she went to the hospital for a regular check-up. That's when I found out about her. In the café, she sat quietly across from me, looking at the coffee cup she was holding in her hand just as quietly.

After a long, long time, she told me, "You know what? I used to have a boyfriend I really liked, but I chose to leave him. ”

I asked her why, but I had a vague sense of why she was leaving.

"Because I can't have children, I can't burden him." After she finished speaking, she sighed.

For the first time, I saw her reddened eyes and misty eyes. Perhaps, it was at this moment that a strong desire to protect inexplicably rose in my heart.

We started to get along like friends, and she was the best woman I've ever met. Sometimes she is quiet, sometimes shy, sometimes gentle, but no matter which side makes people settle down immediately.

I live in a single-parent family, and my mom has been pushing me to get married ever since my job was stable. I used to think I was young and not in a hurry, but now I want to settle down quickly.

Later, after marrying Yao Qian, I kept thinking about whether her appearance gave me the urge to get married, or whether she just happened to appear and I had the urge to get married.

Either way, I later told her, "Can I pursue you?" ”

She looked at me and finally laughed, she said, "Lu Zhao, your joke is not funny at all. ”

I looked seriously at the woman in front of me, who cut her long hair short, neat and concise, "I'm not kidding, I'm serious." ”

"However, you know my situation best, and you should be the man who should stay away from me the most." She smiled softly, not at all caring about her own business, but rather making fun of herself.

I shook my head, "No, you're good, I want to pursue you." ”

"Lu Zhao." She called my name in a bit of a hurry, "I don't like you, and you don't like me, why?" ”

She's a smart woman, so she can tell at a glance that I don't have her in my heart. I was quiet, and I was thinking that such a woman, if she could be a little silly, maybe she would be fine.

"I don't want to see you, you're joking with your feelings." She said.

I took a deep breath, looked at her and said seriously, "Coriander, I'm serious." ”

I was serious, and from that day on, I began to pursue her in my own way. No matter what I did, I felt like I and she were never serious.

We are like two good friends, meeting every day to eat together and watch movies together. We have the same interests and hobbies, but we can't find the same state of mind.

I brought her home, and my mom wasn't very happy with her job, but she was happy with her family. Her parents were both doctors and were highly respected in the medical community.

Our affairs were quickly settled, and she told me that she just wanted to have a stable life. I answered her, and so did I. She asked me if I would regret it if I didn't have children in the future, and I thought about it for a long time before I answered that she wouldn't.

Yes, I didn't feel that it would affect my life in the future because of my children. Not having children doesn't cause much inconvenience to my life.

It's just that I forgot that I still have my mother, and she must not be able to agree.

When I married Yao Qian, I didn't tell my mother about it. It wasn't until I agreed to Yao Qian's adoption of Zigui that she ran to City C angrily and asked me why.

I never felt like my mom was a vexatious person until she had a big fight in the hospital. I took her out of the hospital and talked to her for a long time, but she still insisted that I divorce Yao Qian. I didn't say yes and even sent her back to Q City. I started not to contact my family and not go back to Q City to see her.

In my first year of marriage to Yao, I was promoted to the position of vice president of the hospital, a position I had always been out of reach. I know there must be some reason for all this that I shouldn't know. But I didn't want to ask, and I didn't want to know.

My marriage relationship with Yao Qian has always been very stable, and she is indeed a very suitable woman for life, just like I imagined. She is indeed very good, but a marriage without feelings is destined to be just an empty shell.

She and I have been carrying this heavy empty shell, slowly moving forward step by day, and living on our fingers every day. I know that she has the same feelings in her heart as me, and that we are more suitable to be friends than husband and wife.

Even □□ basic behavior between husband and wife, we can't continue with our eyes closed. I let go of her, she pushed me away, and we both lay on one side of the bed, staring at the ceiling.

She asked me, "Lu Zhao, are we normal like this?" ”

I shook my head and looked at her, "It's not normal. ”

"So what to do?" She's asking me, and I'm asking myself.

Two years, we have been married for two years, and the home is still the same home, warm and comfortable. The person is still the same person, gentle and demure. It's just that the mood is still the mood at that time, only sympathy, and there is no love between men and women.

Perhaps, there is.

It's just too little, so little that people can't even notice it.

In other words, if we give too much love to others, we will not be able to give it to each other.

I sat on the couch at home and watched her go about and out and as she tactfully cleaned up the house. Like any day in the past two years, when I came home from work, I watched her laugh and play with Zigui, and watched her hold up the emanation in her ears while cooking.

It wasn't until she sat down across from me that I finally spoke, "Coriander, are you tired?" ”

She was stunned and shook her head, "No, I'm used to it." ”

"No, I mean your heart is tired? Living like this every day is not what you want to live your life. "I told myself in my heart that if her answer was 'not tired,' then he would continue to walk with her.

She looked at me and finally couldn't help but nod.

I replied, "I'm tired too, let's be friends." ”

She looked at me with a smile, and as many times as she does, a smile that is pure, the kind of smile that is not impurified between friends. Like getting married, when we divorced, we also tacitly reached a consensus.

We are divorced, but we don't want to affect the growth of Zigui because of our marriage. For me, Zigui is my daughter in my two-year marriage, but for Yao Qian, Zigui is likely to be all the sustenance of her mother in this life.

I promised her that I would always be in their lives as Zigui's father until I remarried.

Chen Ziang's appearance was something I expected, I knew that the man who Yao Qian had always loved would suddenly appear at some point, but I didn't expect him to make Yao Qian mess up as soon as he appeared.

There is always someone in this world who can make you lose yourself, and then you can find yourself again. In front of Chen Ziang, Yao Qian became different from the people I knew, she would be angry, sad, and laughing more ugly than crying.

Chen Ziang loves her, and as a man, I can see at a glance that he is possessive of her. It was so strong that he couldn't hide it, but he desperately wanted to cover it up, but Yao Qian never saw it.

I began to appear less in her world, for her, I only hope that she can find her own happiness, and I also believe that Chen Ziang has this ability to give her happiness.

I applied to be transferred back to Q City, to the city where I was born and raised, and to the place that once gave me an unforgettable first love. I stood in that city and finally felt a sense of belonging.

I didn't expect that after I came back, it would be a kind of injury to Yao Qian. Chen Ziang was hospitalized in a car accident, Yao Qian hurried from C City, my mother saw her in the hospital, and accused her in public that she was not, and the pain in her heart was mercilessly peeled off for others to see. I felt sorry for her, and I blamed myself for failing to protect her.

Fortunately, she still has Chen Ziang, the man who can fight for her.

Yao Qian fled in a hurry, and Chen Ziang also left Q City that night, and when he left, he punched me with his weak fist, and I accepted it.

After watching him leave, I was relieved that Yao Qian deserved such a man to go to the soup for her.

Later, I heard that they got married in City C, and the wedding was very lively. I didn't have time to attend, so I had people bring gifts and blessings. Yao Qian called me back, and she asked me how I was doing? I was sitting in a township in H City, and there was a queue of people in front of me, and among those people, I was surprised to see a familiar face, and she was smiling at me in the crowd.

I stared at the man tightly and said to Yao Qian on the phone, "Aqian, happy newlywed." ”

——Lu Zhao 166 Reading Network