90 [Kakashi]
Happy people are always the same, while unhappy people have their own misfortunes.
Kakashi felt that he might be able to be named the worst man in the world.
When he was very young, because of a failed mission, his father was under too much pressure from public opinion, and chose to commit suicide, leaving him alone in this world.
His father's death put an end to his innocent childhood.
Later, he met Uchiha Obito and Nohara Rin at the Konoha Detention Center.
"Kakashi, don't feel like the whole world owes you." Obito used to say this to him so harshly.
Only then did he learn that Obito's entire family had died in the disaster, leaving him alone.
Almost everyone in the Konoha Shelter has a tragic past. It is not advisable to be miserable, and they have to look forward.
After that, the three of them entered the Criminal Investigation Division together and became the team with the highest crime solving rate.
At the end of the first mission, Obito took in the orphan. Although Kakashi also has compassion for orphans, he is sensible.
Sympathy for the moment is a sign of irresponsibility, and only if you can guarantee that you will always treat her as an obligation in the future, and then consider the matter of adoption. That's what he said to Obito.
Obito, who originally thought it was just a whim, began to treat the orphan with his heart. And her household registration soon entered the Uchiha family, and she was renamed Uchiha Nanaya.
When Kakashi first saw Nanaya, he felt that she was very similar to his previous self. The appearance is very cold, as if isolated from the world. But there is still a slight flame hidden in my heart. He called it the expectation of good things in the world.
Luckily, Obito ignited the flame of hope bigger and bigger, and not only did Nanaya feel warm, but Kakashi gradually planned to open up.
However, this flame of hope was violently extinguished by the news of his death.
Obito's death completely broke the ice in Kakashi's heart, making him willing to treat the world gently in the future, just like him.
However, this death news is a fatal blow to the seven nights who have depended on him since he was a child.
Kakashi soon discovers that Nanaya, who used to smile faintly, has maintained a blank face since Obito's death, and his eyes are ethereal, as if he is looking for something important through the air.
said that he would fulfill his lifelong obligations, but in the end, he left the burden on him.
Kakashi stood in front of Obito's grave for a day, and his heart couldn't stop grieving.
This was the second time since his stepfather's death that he was devastated. But this time it was different from the despair of the first time, but it made him plan to go on with the love and care of his companions.
So he naturally became the guardian of Uchiha Nanaya, only this time she did not change her surname to Hagi, and there was no need.
Because of this surname, at least he will remember that his life was saved by Uchiha Obito. And he will fulfill his last wish and take care of Lynn and Nanaya.
Obito likes Rin, he always sees it, but it is he who Rin. Her eyebrows and eyes were full of tenderness, but he could only choose to turn a blind eye.
This complicated love triangle finally collapsed because of the death of one person.
After that, they all tacitly stopped mentioning the past, and then tacitly agreed to be doubly good for Qiye.
For them, Seven Nights is certainly an important person, but also an emotional sustenance for Obito.
Under the joint care of Kakashi and Rin, Nanaya's eyes gradually warmed up again, but a larger event appeared, which completely plunged the situation into the dark abyss.
Kakashi had nightmares all night after the incident.
In the dream, he raised his hand and stabbed Lynn in the chest hard. Blood splattered and stained his eyes red.
When he woke up, he was already sweating profusely, and there were still tears in the corners of his eyes.
Although reality is not as cruel as the dream, Lynn did not kill it with his own hands. But I didn't kill Beren, and Beren died because of me.
Whenever he recalls the difficult choice he made in the first place, he sadly finds that even if he was given another chance, he would definitely make the same choice.
Every human life is precious, and no one is worthy of sacrifice. But in that kind of emergency situation where he had to make a choice, he had always understood the righteousness, so he could only choose to give up Lin.
Those who are left behind are the most painful. He also thought about simply not doing it. For the third time in his life, when he was overwhelmed by grief, what happened next caught him off guard again.
Nanaya Uchiha, who was rescued from the criminals, fell into mental confusion.
Minors have suffered huge shocks again and again, and their already fragile psychology is very prone to distortion and collapse. The upheaval of the Seven Nights caused Kakashi to take some time off of her grief and focus on her.
The seven nights after the memory was mutilated changed. The faint smile that I used to see is now completely gone, and some are just blank and indifferent faces.
She still went to school, but she didn't talk to him much.
He knew she always wanted to remember everything, but Kakashi and the psychiatrist wanted her to forget.
Children whose three views are not yet sound, who are psychologically fragile, and who lack love since childhood, are the most likely to go astray.
As an adult, Kakashi was also reluctant to live in this world for a while after suffering a heavy blow, so it is self-evident that Nanaya is self-evident.
One day, Kakashi keenly noticed that Nanaya had changed once again.
The psychiatrist explained that the personality changes that occurred after the acute phase of schizophrenia, but he felt that such changes were like a different person. But after watching her gradually become more and more cheerful, he sincerely looked forward to such a disobedient change.
It's not enough to say that there are any huge changes, it's just that Qiye loves to read books more, and slowly he can start joking with him. He felt like she was slowly opening up again, which was a great thing for him.
Even if it is extremely disobedient, as long as she is alive and well, he has not lived up to Obito and Rin's expectations. Even if it is to take care of her, he has to live well, and then try to create better conditions for her.
It's just that the good times didn't last long, and he lost the most important person in his life again.
His father's death put an end to his innocent childhood.
After his father's death, he still had Obito and Rin.
Obito's death shattered his illusion of cold indifference.
After Obito's death, he still has Rin and Nanaya.
Lynn's death cut off his lingering feelings.
After Lynn's death, he had only seven nights left.
And the death of Seven Nights plunges him into endless darkness.
Japan has one of the top 10 suicide rates in the world, with 21 suicides per 100,000 people.
For many, suicide is a relief from the pain of the world. Everything starts all over again, and maybe you can meet the people who have passed away again.
Just when he wanted to get into trouble, his companion Kai resolutely broke his hole.
"Kakashi, why don't you come with me and travel the world!?"
Eventually, forced by Kai, they set out on a hike.
I don't know whether Kai is a hot-blooded fool or an emotional idiot, but their first stop is Mt. Fuji, which is the most popular among suicide victims.
Kakashi had a pair of dead fish eyes, indifferent to the beauty in front of him.
There was a sign standing at the entrance of the woods, and he glanced at it boredly.
"Life is a precious thing given by parents, please calm down and think about your parents, siblings and children. If you are in trouble, why not talk to us about it first? ”
The signature is "Fujiyoshida Police Station Suicide Prevention Liaison Association"
His parents have long since left him, he has no siblings, his best friends who can be called siblings have also left, and the person who could be a child has died unexpectedly.
When you calm down and think about it, you really can't calm down.
But after seeing this warning sign, he didn't have the mood to commit suicide.
Well, wait a little longer. He didn't know why there was a delay, maybe he still had a little nostalgia for this world, but what it was, he didn't know.
The savings he had saved over the years were enough for him to sit on and eat for a long time, and he took a short vacation on and off and began to travel the world with Kai.
He became obsessed with traveling, and he felt that walking around the world was like getting drunk, which made him temporarily detached from the pain of reality. It was only after he went out to wander that he deeply felt that the world was wider than he imagined.
There are too many distracting thoughts in my heart, and when I see the magnificent nature, I will gradually smooth out the folds.
Walking in the desert, he saw wisps of lonely smoke, his eyes were full of yellow sand, and people were like ants crawling on the ground in this vast sea of sand.
In Abisko, Sweden, he saw the stunning Northern Lights.
Beams of blue-green light stretched across the sky with dots of white light, like a smooth ribbon, stretching out in the pre-dawn darkness and then covering the night sky. The zigzag streamers transform into various shapes, brilliant and beautiful.
It's a moment long enough to be eternal.
In the most exhausting, depressing, and desperate times of life, God gives you this light. It broke through the thick darkness enough to dissipate the fog.
"Looks like we've been favored by Aurora." Kakashi heard someone nearby say.
"What is Aurora?" Kai, who graduated from a sports school and doesn't like to read, naturally doesn't understand these crepe things.
"The goddess of Norse mythology who rules the Northern Lights." The female voice said gently.
"Oh! Sounds amazing! Kai clenched his fists excitedly.
Kakashi couldn't help but turn his head curiously, and the girl just happened to look at him as well, looking at each other for a moment.
He saw the girl's eyes widen for a moment, and then hurriedly tried his best to maintain calm, but he still couldn't help but glance at him.
The look in her eyes is not like an unrequited girl, but more like an old friend who has been reunited after a long absence.
Kakashi glanced at her meaningfully, but because the other party was wearing too thick and a mask, he couldn't see what kind of girl she was.
"Are my predecessors also here for tourism?" She accosted him.
"Well, yes." He replied lazily.
"Can I come with you?"
"You're alone?"
"Yes, that's okay, senior."
It is indeed not easy to meet fellow countrymen in a foreign country. And the other party is still a defenseless girl. It's just that she doesn't mind acting with two big men.
This time, without waiting for Kai to reply, Kakashi agreed.
"Hello, my name is Maitkai! Youth, youth! Girl, travel the world with us! Kai excitedly left two lines of wide tears.
"Kakashi Hachiki, please advise." Kakashi still lazily introduced himself.
The girl nodded unhurriedly, and then bowed to them: "Fujiwara Nanaya, please advise." ”
Seven nights?!
Kakashi heard the familiar name, and a hint of surprise rose in his heart, but it quickly disappeared again.
Although the name "Nanaya" is not as popular as "Aritsu", there are so many Japanese people that it is not surprising that the name is repeated. 166 Reading Network