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People's adaptability is very strong, has been in extremely difficult situations, in order to survive will go to spontaneous habits, so there are many people who eat a lifetime of bran wild vegetables do not feel good, but as long as they taste a delicious delicacy, and then fall back, they will not be able to bear it.

Xie Jing survived the more than 20 years that he couldn't sleep peacefully, but after enjoying the good times of that year, he suddenly lost it, but he couldn't survive the short three years.

Ning Yufei listened to what he said, and the feeling in his heart was really indescribable.

In fact, he was a little relaxed, as if the things he had been carrying had suddenly lightened a lot, no longer pressing his chest, and there was room to breathe.

Seeing the haggard Xie Jing a year ago was a thorn in Ning Yufei's heart, there was no doubt that he had feelings for him, so when he saw that scene and knew the truth behind those things four years ago, he was so shocked that his impulse was greater than his reason, and he almost recklessly agreed to Xie Jing, only hoping that he could be restored to normal, and only hoped that he could live well.

After all, it's someone who likes it, and after all, it's someone who really wants to stay together for a lifetime.

How can you bear to see him become like that?

has been pressed by that heavy sense of guilt, Ning Yufei can't even face up to what his feelings for Xie Jing are.

Because no matter what it was, he didn't dare to think about it, he was afraid that he would hurt Xie Jing and make him lose the motivation to live again.

But now...... Yiqiē is different from what he thought, Xie Jing is not as affectionate as he imagined, and he is not simply lost because of the loss of him, since this is the case......

Ning Yufei hesitated for a moment, and something swirled around his mouth.

But as if he had seen through his thoughts, Xie Jing spoke softly, looking calm and only slightly trembling at the end betrayed his feelings: "Xiao Yu, I admit that I don't want to say this, because saying it means that my feelings for you are not pure......" He paused slightly, and said self-deprecatingly, "It's as if I just treat you as a medicine for insomnia, not a lover." ”

He said every word to Ning Yufei's heart.

Immediately after that, he changed his words slightly, and asked in a condensed voice: "But what is emotion, and what is its origin?" What does it mean to be a true lover? I've never cared so much about anyone, I've never liked someone so much, and I've never thought that losing someone would take away even the belief in living. I didn't pursue you on the first day I met you, nor did I tie you to my side the moment I learned that you could put me to sleep, I thought about it for a long time, I observed it for a long time, I looked at you, I knew you well, I cared about you, and finally I liked you. When I am determined to be with you, I am completely because I love you, I want to be with you for a lifetime, I want to grow old with you, I want to give you the most sincere, unreserved and regretless feelings......"

Xie Jing's voice was so good, and saying such words in a voice full of strong emotions was like an intoxicating wine, dragging people into it regardless of it.

His voice continued: "Even if the original purpose is not pure, but even if it is an ordinary lover, must it be simple when they meet?" appearance, family background, temperament...... Isn't that a consideration? It's true that I can't let go of you because you let me get what I've been longing for, but this is just the beginning and the beginning. A month, a year, three years, four years, no matter what has passed, what has happened, your attraction to me has never been reduced in the slightest, I think about you all the time, I no longer desire you all the time, but this emotion is too strong, I don't even dare to express it completely, I am afraid of scaring you, I am afraid of making you embarrassed, I am afraid of becoming a shackle that imprisons you......"

His voice grew lower and lower, and the sadness that lingered in his bone marrow seemed to penetrate his eardrums and rush straight into his heart, producing a violent tremor that made people feel sad.

"I know, even so, you are still troubled, still embarrassed, I try to redeem a qiē, I want to make amends, I want you to slowly fill your heart with me......" Xie Jing lowered his eyes and said in a soft voice like a spring breeze, "I long for a perfect love, and the owner of this relationship must be you." ”

Why does one person fall in love with another?

Is there no reason? Yes, there are always one or two.

Love at first sight is wonderful, but more feelings are constantly colliding in the chance of chance.

In fact, when Ning Yufei heard this, he really didn't have the slightest bit of anger, nor did he feel the slightest bit of being deceived, he just felt: I see.

If Charolan hadn't appeared four years ago, if he hadn't owed His Royal Highness the Crown Prince for saving his life, and if he hadn't gone to the battlefield and left for four years, then he would have been with Xie Jing, just like he depicted, and would have gotten a sincere relationship, a perfect lover, and a very lucky second half of his life.

Unfortunately, the next word of 'what if' is meaningless.

Because there is never an if, there is only reality.

Ning Yufei closed his eyes, calmed down and said, "Senior, thank you for telling me this." ”

His voice was calm, even a little indifferent.

Xie Jing grabbed his hand violently, and his light gray eyes stared at him without blinking: "I'm willing to confess to you, can you really give me a chance?" An opportunity for me to try to salvage a qiē. ”

Ning Yufei was stunned, but this time he didn't avoid it, but looked back at him with a serious, fearless and honest gaze: "Don't interrupt me, senior, can you let me finish my words this time?" ”

Xie Jing frowned slightly, but after a while, he still said softly, "Okay." ”

Ning Yufei sighed lightly and said in a condensed voice: "Although I think you know everything, I still have to say it myself." Four years ago, when I came out of the Prince's Palace, His Royal Highness the Crown Prince made a request to me......"

As he spoke, Xie Jing listened, his face was still perfect, but his palms were uncontrollably clenched into fists.

Ning Yufei's voice continued: "When he ascends to the throne of the prince, I will agree to his marriage proposal. ”

The nails stabbed into the palm of his hand, but Xie Jing didn't feel the slightest pain, because the light pain of the flesh couldn't even compare to the stab in the heart.

“…… I said yes and accepted his engagement ring. When he really said it, Ning Yufei didn't have any apprehension, and he even calmed down his voice a lot: "Two years ago, in the Battle of Barrington, at the border of the Cloud Steaming Galaxy and the Great Desolate Galaxy...... I was with the marshal, in fact, I still don't know what I was thinking at that time, and I don't know why I went to provoke the marshal after agreeing to the marriage proposal of His Royal Highness the Prince, but I did it, and what I did was still in existence even if I didn't say it. ”

Although he had known the truth for a long time, but when he heard it earnestly, Xie Jing still had some emotions that couldn't help but surge up, and the darkness that evaporated from his blood almost dyed all the cells in his body into ink, and the urge to vent made him want to completely erase everything he heard.

Ning Yufei took a deep breath, looked at him fixedly, and said almost word by word: "Look, the Ning Yufei in front of you is no longer the Ning Yufei you know, he is not worthy of any affection from you, not worthy of the beautiful love you give, and not worth your desire to stay together for the rest of your life." ”

He paused slightly and continued, "I don't know why I was able to cure your insomnia, but if you need it, I can be by your side and help you recover slowly, as a friend, okay?" I don't want to ...... anymore."

"Impossible." Xie Jing, who had been silent, spoke, his voice was unprecedentedly dark, as if he had splashed ink on the precious white silk and sprinkled blood on the snow, the feeling was shocking, "You are just guilty about the prince, and you have no love; As for Huo Beichen, I will give you the answer, you don't remember what happened two years ago, but I will help you remember. ”

Ning Yufei was stunned, and suddenly a subtle feeling surged into his heart.

Xie Jing raised his head, a pair of delicate peach blossom eyes slightly downward, and there was a hint of chill after the charming arc disappeared: "Xiao Yu, don't think too much, these have nothing to do with you, what is the final answer, you will see." ”

Ning Yu flew back to his senses and hurriedly said: "Senior, I didn't mean to say these words to provoke you, I really did this, I really provoked the three of you at the same time, and I haven't ...... until now."

"It's not your fault." Xie Jing said stubbornly, "If you want to say something wrong, the person who is very wrong is me, if I had the ability to protect you at the beginning, if I didn't go to Shen Lingyu at the beginning, if I could have prevented a qiē from happening at that time, then ...... You will not suffer anything, you will not have any pain, you will be mine, you will only look at me, you will only think of me, you will only trust me. ”

Ning Yufei smiled bitterly and couldn't help but say, "But it's already happened." "What happened happened happened, what else can I do?

"So leave it to me, okay?" Xie Jing finally collected the aura of the yin around him, and restored his elegant and perfect posture, his eyes were full of gentleness and doting, and that bitter affection couldn't wait to completely encircle Ning Yufei in it, "...... Give me a chance to make amends. ”

It's really not a matter of remediation! The fact that the spilled water and the broken mirror have been set cannot be repaired! Ning Yufei really wanted to yell out, but he also knew that it was useless to say anything.

He was acutely aware of the reality that it was not what he was hiding from beginning to end, but what they were stubbornly clinging to.

You can never wake up a person who is pretending to be asleep, Ning Yufei has realized this very deeply: he has not slept yet, even if you shout loudly, he will not open his eyes.

Suddenly, all the strength of his body was drained, and Ning Yufei sat in a comfortable wide rattan chair, losing all interest in speaking.

Take your time, since the problem is not something that can be solved by his confession, then let's rest assured and see what else will happen.

In fact, Ning Yufei has always been very uneasy, he has already determined that there is no second Ning Yufei, he is Ning Yufei, but he doesn't know why he lost his memory from time travel to the present. Maybe he didn't cross over, but he didn't drink Meng Po soup when he was reincarnated, so he brought memories of his previous life. And in an accident, he lost his memory from birth to the present, but he retained the memory of his previous life, so he thought that he had crossed over, but in fact...... Not at all.

Since he was himself from beginning to end, Ning Yufei was even more desperate to find his lost memory, he wanted to know what he was thinking, he wanted to know why he did it, only in this way could he judge what was right.

How can we get those memories back, especially two years ago, what really happened?

Maybe...... He really should have waited for the speaker to help him find an answer.

Leaving the Xi therapy room, the two of them had recovered as usual, Xie Jing arranged a sumptuous lunch, Ning Yufei sent a message to his parents, and learned that they had gone out to play, so he thought about it and stayed.

Xie Jing will always be able to give him the most comfortable environment. Everything is the most suitable for him, everything is the most suitable for him, this kind of comprehensiveness, this kind of detail, this kind of thoughtfulness that makes people can't help but be lazy......

At the end of the meal, Ning Yufei despised himself even more, it was really special that he had no interest at all!

But...... Ay...... When he was very different from the councillor, Ning Yufei comforted himself: Anyway, everything has been said, and there is no burden in his heart, as for what the result is, let's let it be!

Ning Yufei didn't enter the residence at all, and His Royal Highness the Prince's flying machine directly took him in.

Before he could stand firmly, Shen Lingyu had already hugged him and buried him in his neck socket like a large dog, sniffing and rubbing, and finally said dissatisfiedly: "I heard that you went to the Xi therapy room, did he do anything to you?" Did you kiss you? Did I touch you? Is there a ......?"

Seeing that the more he talked, Ning Yufei hurriedly replied: "No, nothing, I just chatted with the senior for a while." ”

Hearing him say this, His Royal Highness the Crown Prince's movements stopped suddenly, his body stiffened slightly, and his voice was not as straightforward as just now: "Xie Jing is not only a liar, but also a liar, don't believe his words." ”

Ning Yufei's eyes flashed slightly, and he sensitively heard what he was trying to hide in these words, he paused slightly, and asked softly, "What do you think he will say to me?" ”

Shen Lingyu let go of him, there was silence in his golden eyes, and he looked at Ning Yufei like this, without saying a word.

Ning Yufei pretended to be calm and asked slowly, "Is it why you broke into the Prince Mansion's incident four years ago?" ”

He asked abruptly, Rao is Shen Lingyu was firm, and at this moment, a trace of panic crossed his eyes.

As the so-called concern is chaotic, too caring, too persistent, in the case of being poked at the point, it is easy to expose flaws.

Ning Yufei didn't really want to ask, because he felt that what was hidden in the prince's place might be more subversive than Xie Jing's.

Xie Jing was not very simple when he was just close to his source, but after saying it frankly, Ning Yufei felt very relaxed, and the feeling of sudden realization was even more of a sense of relief with a long breath.

But Shen Lingyu is involved here from four years ago.

And that memory in the prince's mansion was definitely something that Ning Yufei didn't want to touch at all.

Whatever it was about, he felt like a piece of his heart had been gouged out, and he didn't want to face it because the shadow of fear lingered.

Not to mention, this is obviously a bad thing.

Ning Yufei felt a little tired, he looked at His Royal Highness the Crown Prince who was burning in his golden eyes, and suddenly lost the mood to question, he turned around and said, "It's nothing, he didn't say anything." ”

But the more he is like this, the more the uneasiness in His Royal Highness the Crown Prince's heart is infinitely magnified.

Xie Jing's thoughts, he knows too well. The two have clashed countless times in the open and in secret, and there is naturally cooperation and competition in the battle between the imperial power and the parliament, and Shen Lingyu knows this strong opponent too thoroughly, so he can guess almost anything he can do.

There is no doubt that in matters related to Ning Yufei, they will definitely not back down in the slightest.

If you don't back down, you can only fight.

How to fight?

- Unscrupulous means.

Shen Lingyu calmed down, a charming smile appeared on his handsome face, and the corners of his eyes were as if he was telling love words, which gently made people's hearts pound.

He is good at grasping people's hearts, especially understanding Ning Yufei's weaknesses.

Ning Yufei was stunned by his bewildering smile, Shen Lingyu had already let go of him, but his left hand was still wrapped around his waist, but his right hand was gently kneading his fingers: "Four years ago, you want to hear me tell you everything, there is nothing to hide, my business, anything, as long as you want to, you can know everything." ”

Ning Yufei's eyes flashed slightly, he didn't want to listen emotionally, but intellectually he knew that he had to listen.

He needed to recall more things, he needed to know more information.

"So......" Ning Yufei stared at him, his face calm, but his voice trembled slightly, "Sue me, what does that sentence mean?" ”

Four years ago, what was Shen Lingyu in the Prince's Mansion for.

Shen Lingyu paused for a moment, and only said after half a sound: "There is no need to question my purpose, I am going to save you, it was Xie Jing who informed me of your whereabouts, and when I learned that Xia Luolan had imprisoned you, all I thought of was rushing over and trying my best to rescue you, after all, how crazy that woman is, we have all heard about it." ”

Ning Yufei listened quietly, he knew that this was just the beginning.

Shen Lingyu seemed to be still hesitating, but as he said, Ning Yufei asked, and he would not hide it.

"Xie Jing is accusing me of nothing more than because I killed Shen Yijun."

is a simple sentence, but it is like breaking the frosted glass that blocks the truth, which instantly makes everything clear.

Ning Yufei naturally knew this, Shen Lingyu, who broke into Prince Gong's mansion, killed Xia Luolan and killed Shen Yijun, that is, his half-brother of the prince.

But Ning Yufei didn't think much about it, and didn't think about some dark and obscure aspects.

But now, combined with a qiē, Ning Yufei instantly figured out what Xie Jing was about to say and what Shen Lingyu was about to say.

Just because, Shen Lingyu didn't need to kill Shen Yijun, and there was no need to kill this blood brother who could only be called an accomplice.

But he killed for some other purpose.

Ning Yufei closed his eyes, and there was a roar in his head.

Sure enough, if you don't recall this memory, no matter which one it is, as long as you remember it, it will be all over the body, and even a stinging pain embedded in the bones.

Xia Luolan is not a thing, but in fact, Shen Yijun has not done anything to Ning Yufei.

At that time, if he simply wanted to rescue Ning Yufei, Shen Lingyu should not have killed him.

Not mentioning whether he deserved it, or even whether Shen Yijun had harmed Ning Yufei, just from the question of how to get out of the prince's mansion safely, Shen Lingyu should not have killed him.

If they just killed Xia Luolan, the chances of them escaping from the prince's mansion were definitely much greater, and the obstacles they were faced were much smaller.

But Shen Yijun died, and His Royal Highness the Prince, who was expected to inherit the prince, died, and the meaning was completely different.

Shen Yijun's cronies will go crazy, the guards of the Prince's Mansion will get out of control, and the hatred of the entire mansion will definitely be raised to another level, whether it is defense or attack, it will be increased by several times.

Wanting to escape from it is tantamount to getting out of the tiger's den in Longtan.

Even with Xie Jing's thoughtful arrangement, they were in danger along the way, and they also put their lives on the tightrope.

Although Shen Lingyu has a paranoid personality, he never acts impulsively, and he is quite smart, and it can even be said that he is extremely deep in the city.

If he just wanted to rescue Ning Yufei, how could he do such a dangerous thing?

Where is this to save people? It's clear that we want to die in it together!

But as mentioned above, His Royal Highness the Crown Prince is definitely not a reckless person, on the contrary, everything he does is carefully considered.

He wanted to kill Shen Yijun, because as long as this dazzling Royal Highness the Prince died, the situation of the entire imperial power would be suddenly reversed.

At that time, Shen Lingyu was indeed adopted by Her Majesty the Empress, and he did have the support of the Grand Duke's Mansion, but what was the use?

A prince who has been in exile for many years, an illegitimate son who has no feelings, and a Nine Emperor Prince who has so many excellent brothers on his head, what qualifications does he have to fight? What are the skills? What conditions are there to overwhelm those brothers who have been favored by the emperor for decades?

He is destined to be incomparable, destined to be incomparable, he has fallen too many steps, so many that even the poor can not reach the height in his life.

But...... How could Shen Lingyu be willing?

How can a person who crawls out of a quagmire, who comes out of hell, who wakes up from a nightmare, be willing to live like this?

He had endured so much, he had seen the warmth and cold, and he knew too well the benefits of power and power, so he longed for them.

Since this height cannot be leveled by normal means, then use some extraordinary means.

When a person dies and lies on the ground, no matter how great the disparity is, it will be reduced to empty talk.

So...... Shen Yijun must die.