49 Love and Death

Jiang Yi's life experience was something that Zhao Zheng didn't expect, and he couldn't be surprised. He had spent time in small villages during his service, and knew that in relatively backward places, even divorced women would be pointed at and scolded badly. What's more, it is such a thing as killing a husband, even if there is a reason for it, it will still not be tolerated, Jiang Yi, as a child who kills a husband, can imagine how isolated and treated he will be.

It is of course cold to be happy that his father was killed. But Zhao Zheng has seen too much life and death, and he knows very well what kind of dark power can erupt when people suffer for a long time. People can express incredible kindness and righteousness, but there is also hidden malice.

Jiang Yi's gaze pierced through his body at this moment, looking deep into his soul.

"Will you still be with me?" She asked him this, fear, doubt, despair and hope.

"Yes." He replied, one word.

She heard it, but as if she hadn't, she frowned slightly, and asked uncertainly, "What did you say?" ”

"Knowing this fact doesn't prevent me from being with you." Zhao Zheng held the back of her neck with his hand, and lowered his eyebrows against her forehead, "I'm not the smooth sailing or pampered children you think, the coldest scene I've ever seen, facing a completely inhuman murderer." I know that is a great thing for you, you have suffered a lot for this, and you can't talk about it, thank you for suing me. ”

His voice was calm and powerful, her chest was even more undulating, her eyes were red, and he stroked her back: "Say it all, just say it." ”

Jiang Yi's mood was chaotic at the moment, and the memories she was forcibly suppressing were broken through and making waves, she never expected him to be so calm, could it be that big things would no longer be a problem when they fell into his eyes? Even if he could accept it, what about his family?

"Aren't you worried?" Jiang Yi asked, "The child born to a man who is domestic violence and a murderous woman, the person who grew up in that environment, her character flaws, the bad reputation brought by her family background, even if you can bear it, what about your parents?" ”

Zhao Zheng freed up a hand to wipe the corners of her eyes, and there was a vague smile on the corner of his lips: "Parents, of course, you need some explanation, but you really underestimate me." ”

"In the past, there were too many people who hurt you with ignorance, but Jiang Yi, I am willing to always stand behind you, whether you want to move forward or you want to rest......"

Before he finished his words, he was covered by Jiang Yi. She shook her head: "Zhao Zheng, you can't say any more, I think it's too good and untrue." ”

Jiang Yi, who had taken off his qiē disguise, was a little superstitious and stupid, and Zhao Zheng took her hand away, but he didn't say any more, but kissed her chattering lips.

This kiss has the taste of ginger tears, salty but beautiful. Jiang Yi is not as active as before, and even has some cowardice, as she said, she is afraid of the dream that the market will be shattered at the first touch. But the more unsure she was, the tougher he became, as if he wanted to rub her into his body, gnaw on her lips, entangle her tongue, and ravage her, demanding that she face it.

But when the kiss ended, she still closed her eyes, and buried her head in the hope of looking at him again.

"Jiang Yi." He rubbed her pinna and called her in a seductive voice.

"After my mom was caught, no one was friends with me anymore." Jiang Yi twisted his fingers and fell into the memory again, "They say my mother is a monster, and only a mad monster would kill his man in front of a child." Those aunts and mothers keep their children away from me, because I'm a monster too. ”

"Ignore me, I studied hard, and they said I must be cheating. A child who doesn't have parents, a child who is silent and won't resist, or a good-looking child. The blue and purple pieces on the body seem to be commonplace, and they are not allowed to be seen by my grandmother, so I use my sleeves to hide them. Have I resisted? Of course, they hit me and I bit back like a mad dog? In exchange for what? Homework books were torn out and meals were emptied. Fortunately, I didn't have a mobile phone at that time, otherwise, I would be the kind of heroine who was beaten up by a schoolgirl. ”

"Human nature is inherently good? Hehe, the evil of children is sometimes more terrible than that of adults. I tried, sue the teacher, but can the teacher protect me 24 hours a day? I endured it, but they intensified, and I swore to myself that I would be even more ruthless than them. I'm only one person, and I'm powerless, so I'll cling to others. ”

"Before I graduated from elementary school, I knew that this is a society of interests, and as long as you have something to exchange, you can gain a foothold. I exchange my good grades, I help those poor students who don't want to write their homework to write their homework, help them hide from their teachers, inside and outside the school, poor students also want to have face, they are afraid of their parents and teachers, I help them complete their homework, they can be scolded less, and they will have more freedom. I don't want self-esteem, as long as they promise me that I won't be beaten, that I'm not alone. I don't care if others scold me, I sue myself and I will definitely leave this hellish place. ”

"Smoking, smoking I learned in junior high school. But it's all social cigarettes, and it's choking to death, and I smoke them just to sell them. I was the best in school, and if the teacher didn't come back to check the cigarettes, I sold them one by one, and I didn't make any money, so I paid protection money. The more they smoked, the happier I became. ”

"I was still beaten, and I was harassed as much as I grew up. I did my best, and God knows how hard I tried to live to the age of eighteen. The day I received my acceptance letter, I had the luxury of buying a cannon fight, and I put it under the building where my dad died, so that all the stupid neighbors came × scolded me. You know, when the firecrackers were set off, they all poked their heads out and yelled, as if they were going to fight me in the next second. But my mom was beaten by my dad every night, and the screams rang out throughout the building, and no one came to ask. ”

"God hasn't given me anything good in my life, I have to earn it on my own. I came to Shanghai, and no one knew about my past, so I started all over again. But I was wrong again, my feelings are so extravagant, why should I exchange with people? I have been with Cheng Ke for two years, and my love is like glue, but as soon as he knew that I had a mother in prison, his family wanted to pay me immediately to make me disappear. I thought too clearly. I don't need any friendship, no love, I take what I need, and have fun in time. I'm doing well now, aren't I? ”

She raised her eyes and looked at Zhao Zheng like a stranger: "I never expected you to appear." Why are you showing up? ”

"The world is not only malice, not only the exchange of interests." Zhao Zheng sighed, "Just like your grandmother, she has pure love for you, and you have a heartfelt return for her." Between two people who are not related by blood, it is also possible to establish a relationship that goes beyond interests. Love is not only about sexual impulses, Jiang Yi, I appreciate you, I see the sun and the moon in your eyes. You have darkness, but you chase the light. I'm attracted to you, intellectually, emotionally. ”

Jiang Yi stopped talking, he hugged Zhao Zheng, no matter whether he said it was true or not, no matter whether he would change his mind in the end, she was willing to believe it.

Zhao Zheng patted her on the back: "So, now you can move in with confidence?" ”

Jiang Yi's mood was still chaotic at this time, and he noticed that the man was striking while the iron was hot and robbing while the fire was hot. I just know, "Hmm." ”

At this time, Jiang Yi relied on Zhao Zheng incomparably, holding him like a koala, and he stuck for twenty minutes. After the love was almost calmed down, when he raised his head, Zhao Zheng found that her makeup was not in shape, and he laughed out loud.

Jiang Yi was a little inexplicable, wiped his face, and was shocked. Quickly got up and ran to the bathroom, took out her cleansing oil and applied it, and shouted, "Don't come in." ”

Zhao Zheng would listen to her, catch up in three or two steps, pick her up from behind, and put her on the washstand. Jiang Yi was already oily, he couldn't open his eyes, he could only scream: "What are you doing!" ”

"Wash it for you."

"Ugly, don't." She raised her arms to cover her face.

"You always deliberately embarrass me and let me see what is wrong with your ugly appearance? There can be no double standards. He said as he broke her hand open.

"I'll double standard!" She kicked him with her foot and was restrained by him.

"For the sex of the rest of your life. Fu, I advise you not to kick around. Zhao Zheng squeezed between her legs and pinched her chin, "Come, teach me, what is this oil paste for?" Spread bread? ”

Jiang Yi couldn't resist him, and said frustratedly: "Just rub it with both hands, knead all the oil, dip it in a little water, and then knead it to emulsify." ”

"It's like kneading dough." Zhao Zhengyu got started, kneading and flattening.

"Tap! It's a face, not a dough! Jiang Yi knew that he was deliberately mischievous.

When the emulsification was finished, Jiang Yi shouted to Zhao Zheng to let her down, but the man directly carried her into the rain, and the water from the shower fell on his head, he wiped off the makeup on her face, and watched the goose egg face under his hand return to its true beauty.

Jiang Yi opened his eyes and met Zhao Zheng's gaze. Both of their clothes were soaked, but Jiang Yi's attention was no longer deeply attracted by his eight-pack abs, but looked at his eyes seriously.

"Thank you." She said, "You let me know that my efforts were not in vain, and that I would have good luck too." ”

"It's my good luck that you're the same." Zhao Zheng leaned over and kissed her.

The warm water enveloped their bodies, and the heavy coat fell to their feet, all of which were blurred by the vapor. The small space, the slow lack of oxygen, the cold glass, the hot body, and the combination of another mind-grabbing mind.

But this time was different from any previous time, and this time, she had no reservations. She entrusts her heart to this man, who has sharp eyebrows, strong arms, and a strong heart that can contain her.

Her mind went blank in the heat of the lash, with only one sentence:

Love and death are no different, they are just two sides of the same coin.

If she were to die at this moment, she would say that she would die without regrets.