147. I really don't have a girlfriend

He Jin, who prides himself on being strong, never thought that he, a big man, would cry again and again for another man, he bit his lip and shrunk his shoulders in the quilt and twitched.

Just like a person who has been addicted to drugs for three years is once again contaminated with the smell of poison, the taste of honey in the body that has been hungry for a long time is overwhelmed and the pleasure comes back, washing away his limbs and bones, allowing him to temporarily free himself from pain.

This indulgence and self-depravity make a qiē masochistic patience go to naught, which is tantamount to drinking a donkey to quench one's thirst, and with the first time, there is a second, and then a third, and then again, and the feet are deep in the mud, and they cannot turn over......

He Jin hugged himself tightly, although he was crying, it was no longer a cry of despair, but tears of happiness, he imagined that it was Qin Yang holding him, immersed in this moment of fantasy, calling each other's names over and over again, unable to extricate himself.

At work on Monday, He Jin took advantage of the lunch break to go to the community hospital to prescribe some anti-inflammatory drugs, walking on the road, He Jin turned back strangely, always feeling that someone was following him, but he didn't see anything wrong when he looked behind him, and he didn't know anyone.

Back at the unit, He Jin took some medicine and rested on the table for a while.

Since the second year after work, he obviously feels that his body is not as good as before, he has a regular schedule and rest when studying, and he is energetic from morning to night, and now he collapses in the afternoon if he doesn't sleep at noon, not to mention that he still has a low-grade fever and is weak.

After the "yes" last night, Qin Yang didn't send any more text messages, and He Jin didn't reply.

The two seemed to have made an appointment, maintaining this strange balance, neither of them took a step forward, lived separately, and lived in peace.

He Jin didn't dare to save his number, but when he had nothing to do, he would take a look at the only two remaining lines of dialogue, and the unfamiliar number had already been memorized by him in his review again and again.

In the evening, Qin Yang received the information that Xiao Zhou observed today-

"Mr. He works in XX unit, goes out at 7:45 in the morning, arrives at the company at about 8:20, goes to the central hospital of XX district at noon, hangs the emergency department to see a cold, dispenses anti-inflammatory drugs, gets off work on time at 5 o'clock in the afternoon, and has now gone home."

Cold? Qin Yang frowned, it shouldn't be a cold, it is estimated that he did it too hard that day, there was no healing, and he had a fever.

He jumped to the dialogue interface with He Jin, wanted to care about him, and asked him how his body was, but as soon as he typed the word "you", Qin Yang deleted it with a black face!

After replying "yes" last night, He Jin didn't say a word, Qin Yang can't pull his head down and take the initiative to talk to He Jin now, why do I have to go to the hot face and cold ass for three years? Why didn't He Jin take the initiative to text Lao Tzu!?

Qin Yang asked Xiao Zhou: "How is the investigation of personal situation?" ”

Xiao Zhou: "I found the local investigation agency, and I can get the information tomorrow." ”

Qin Yang accepted the projection, anyway, sooner or later, this person is his own, and he is not in a hurry.

On Wednesday, He Jin's health was much better, and when he was eating in the evening, He Jin's mother hesitated for a long time, and couldn't help asking, "Hey, are you still in touch with Duan Shurong?" ”

Father He glanced at Mother He thoughtfully, Mother He glared at him back, continued to look at He Jin, and said, "The girl said that you have a good impression of her when I called last time, but you are a boy, you still have to take the initiative yourself, don't keep letting the girl speak!" ”

He Jin was stunned for a moment, and then remembered this stubble, and said with a calm face: "Oh, I was about to invite her to dinner, and after a while, I asked her if she was free the night after tomorrow, and she said that she usually gets off work at half past five in the afternoon, which is about the same time as me." ”

He Mu nodded and said, "Okay, well, I just have to find an opportunity to see more and contact more!" Then I won't be preparing your dinner tomorrow night. ”

He Jin: "...... It doesn't have to be tomorrow. ”

After eating, He Jin sent a text message to ask Duan Shurong, and the other party generously replied "Okay", He Jin thought that tomorrow was not to deepen communication, but to show the attitude of breaking off diplomatic relations, and felt guilty for a while.

"How so? Have you contacted her? He Mu poured juice for He Jin to drink, and asked eagerly.

He Jin nodded, and Alexander said, "Well, she agreed, then I won't come back for dinner tomorrow night." ”

Mother He was overjoyed and explained: "Remember to send the girl back home after dinner tomorrow night!" ”

He Jin: "......"

It's weird, why does it feel like a change all of a sudden? (=_=) I've never seen her so interested in a girl on a blind date before!

Mother He walked around in the living room and kitchen, not knowing what she was doing in Zhang Luo, and found two gift boxes and bags that looked beautiful in half an hour, one was a box of health care products for the two elders, and the other was the milk that He Jin bought for them before.

"Well, you can bring this tomorrow to that Duan girl." He Mu put the bag at He Jin's feet, with a hint of eagerness on her face.

He Jin was speechless: "Mom, let's go ...... It's not someone else's house who went on a date, what are you asking me to do with this, it's so heavy! ”

Mother He rubbed her hands, as if she was still looking for something to send, and said, "Aren't you going to send her home tomorrow night, in case you want to go up, it's not good to be empty-handed, you have to bring something to other people's families." ”

He Jin raised his eyebrows and assumed incredibly: "Then what if she asks me to watch a movie after dinner tomorrow night, you say that I am carrying such two large boxes of things, is it appropriate?" "What's more, he has already planned to make it clear to Duan Shurong, it is impossible to go to Duan Shurong's house at all!

Mother He was annoyed, and the old child's temper flareed up.

"Okay, okay, I'll take me." He Jin reluctantly raised his hand to surrender, and He Mu smiled at this time.

He Jin remembered what happened when he was a child, and his mind changed, and he said, "Mom, do you remember when someone wrote me a love letter in junior high school?" ”

Mother He picked up the plastic flowers at hand, and said while making handmade flowers: "Love letters? What a love letter, I have long forgotten. ”

Two years ago, He Jin found that many of his mother's concepts were outdated and narrow-minded, and began to accompany her to watch some online open courses in psychology and education on the Internet, and after he began to see a psychiatrist last year, He Jin's approach was greatly appreciated by the doctor, and the doctor also suggested that He Jin take his mother to the university for the elderly, and cultivate some hobbies.

At first, his mother was unhappy, depressed patients like to lock themselves in a dark room, they are very conceited about their learning ability, and they are afraid of contact with people, and they are even more afraid of being hurt, He Jin is like an adult with a child, and he picks up his mother to class every weekend rain or shine.

In fact, the most taboo for the elderly is to be idle at home, cranky, and bored, since then, He Mu has something to do, and has made some friends in the interest class, and the whole person will become more open-minded and open-minded than before.

"If I hadn't called your homeroom teacher every once in a while to find out about your situation, you wouldn't have known which little hoof hooked up with." When Mother He said this, her mood was extremely complicated, she had always felt that she was right to do so, but when she thought that her son now liked a man, she couldn't wait to go back in time and never interfere with her son's relationship again, now thinking about it, as long as He Jin can be with a girl, no matter what conditions people have, she has to thank God.

He Jin said: "That Duan Shurong is my classmate in the next class in junior high school, she wrote me a love letter when she was a child, and you found out." ”

He Mu was stunned: "Oh, is it? ”

He Jin glanced at He Mu with a smile and said, "You asked for her home phone from the head teacher, called her, and scolded her fiercely, do you remember?" ”

He Mu's hand paused, and said nervously: "Is it true?" So what to do? Does the girl remember? Does she have a bad impression of me? ”

He Jin lowered his eyes and said: "Well, at dinner on Saturday, she told me, so you said that she had a good impression of me and said that she wanted to continue to contact me, which is quite strange to me, because I remember that after that incident, she hated me very much." ”

Mother He's face changed greatly: "This is when I was a child, how can I take it seriously, why don't my mother call her and apologize to her?" ”

"No, no." He Jin grabbed his mother's hand, rubbed the wrinkles on it, and said softly, "She said it jokingly, and I just mentioned it casually, I know that you just hoped that I wouldn't be distracted and study hard, things have already passed, and we don't mind......" He Jin comforted his mother a few words, sighed almost inaudibly, and said, "But whether I can be with her, I can't promise you." "—I'm sorry, Mom.

Sleeping at night, Father He said gloomily: "Do you want to match He Jin with that girl?" ”

He Mu turned off the lights and said, "What if this can be done?" "She didn't want to miss a chance.

But thinking of the things she did when she was young, Mother He felt regret for the first time: "Wife, did you say that I hurt He Jin......"

"What are you thinking?" Father He reprimanded.

Mother He was stunned for a long time before she said: "I don't let him fall in love early, and I care about him falling in love, do you say that because of this, He Jin is abnormal...... He Jin used to show me the class of the professor of Lu University, saying that it was necessary to correctly guide children's view of love, and it could not be forcibly suppressed, and I felt that I did not do a good job. ”

Father He patted her: "Don't think about it, no matter what He Jin does, this is our fate, just like if you marry my Lao He, and live a hard life with me, it is also fate, people sometimes have to accept their fate." ”

He Mu: "......"

The next day, He Jin went to work with a gift box of health products and milk, and when he entered the office, he attracted a group of onlookers.

Xiao Li was surprised: "Ouch, Brother Jin, who gave you this gift!" ”

He Jin smiled bitterly: "Don't talk nonsense, did anyone give gifts to these things, it's me at night...... Ahem, I'm going to see an elder at night. ”

Xiao Li squeezed his eyebrows and said, "Is it the future mother-in-law!" ”

He Jin: "......"

Xiao Li dragged his cheeks and said, "Hey, I said, Brother Jin, you are so handsome, and you are not small, you really don't have a girlfriend?" ”

He Jin nodded, put the things down and sorted out the text to be reviewed today: "No, I don't plan to look for it." ”

"Isn't it! Didn't your parents rush you? I've only graduated for a year, and I haven't had enough of it, and my family is dying, annoying! Xiao Li said, handed the list of investigating Director Xu to He Jin, and whispered, "Look at this, it's really funny!" ”

He Jin frowned, swept away, took out the approval list that he had hoarded last week, changed it to a chapter that did not pass guò, and commented: "The application conditions are insufficient." Then he said, "Send it back to Director Xu." ”

During the lunch meal, He Jin's bracelet vibrated and received a text message, looking at the unsigned unfamiliar number, He Jin was almost dazzled and thought it was sent by Qin Yang,