Chapter 59: I Want to Eat You

Just hearing Lu Ze's simple and insipid words, Qiao Qiao could think of how guilty he felt and blamed himself. Qiao Qiao couldn't see Lu Ze's face, she could only lean into his arms, reached out to cover his hand around her waist, and said softly: "It's not your fault, I really don't blame you." ”

Qiao Qiao felt Lu Ze rubbing the top of her head slightly, and Lu Ze replied to her in a low voice: "I know." ”

In fact, Qiao Qiao also felt that his comfort was very powerless, because these comforting words Lu Ze actually knew it himself, he knew that the person who was at fault was the other party who was drunk driving, but the perpetrator was also dead, what could he do. He just regretted again and again why he went out to celebrate, why he didn't go out with his family. The last phone call he had with his dad in his life, why be impatient.

But he didn't know that the next phone call was made by the police asking him to identify the body in the middle of the night, and on the fast way home that he was so familiar with, the car was destroyed and killed, the flesh and blood were blurred, not human, and the whole body was not left. Until now, Lu Ze was not very willing to drive this road, so he would let Qiao Qiao drive over.

At that time, he crouched in front of the smashed front of the car and didn't want to believe this fact for a long time, he just had to think of the time when he was having fun outside, and his family was facing death, he couldn't face himself at all. He kept thinking about what kind of thoughts they would have in the face of a violent impact, what kind of pain and fear they would have, how they would feel the passage of life before they died, and whether they would be glad that their only child was not in the car.

He followed him to the hospital in a daze, and in the second half of the night, he received another blow to the head, and his grandparents were seriously injured and died. He followed to the police station silently and numbly, and heard the perpetrator's family crying and pleading, saying that the perpetrator was also pitiful, and he would drink too much to vent when he found out that he had lung cancer, and hoped that he could be considerate of them and not apply for inheritance compensation.

"I was really crazy at the time, I didn't know what was pitiful about him. If he didn't want to get lung cancer, he would have chosen not to smoke. He has an incurable disease, so should he be drunk and drag racing on the road to vent? Do you deserve to be ruined in my family? ”

"But what I did afterwards, I can't accept it myself. The next day, I drove the rest of the car and followed them all day. I thought, if I hit your son with my car now, and then sue you for being considerate and considerate, can you do that? But I couldn't do it at all, and I couldn't even stand that I had really followed their mother and son all day. I wonder why I am so shady and have thoughts of revenge against innocent people. So Qiaoqiao, you saw that wrecked car downstairs, I destroyed it myself, and I couldn't stand to drive that car anymore. ”

"At that time, I was staying in the cemetery, and I really had a little suicidal thoughts, feeling that I would never be able to get rid of the scene of the car accident I saw for the rest of my life, and I felt that it was not interesting to live, and my family was gone anyway. So when they came to fight for the company, I sometimes even thought, maybe thank them for giving me a little motivation to live, because I don't want to cheapen them. ”

"I even threatened them in the same way, and the reason why my father's relatives never came to visit the graves again was because I threatened them not to come in the future. I dragged on and refused to sign the share transfer agreement, they threatened me with the company's operation, and I threatened them with my life, but it really dragged on until the lawsuit was over, and it was delayed until Uncle Yang finally came back to draft the agreement. ”

"So I had a crush on you for the first time, and it was also because I accidentally heard what you and Gao Mingxuan said. Actually, you don't know that I'm here, in fact, you've always loved to play round, but you told her very strictly and seriously that day, so that she should not use the words of having a car and a house and the death of her parents to describe others in the future, and never joke about things like birth, old age, sickness and death. Jojo, I'm really used to people always paying attention to me in this car accident and getting a big inheritance that can be squandered. ”

"Later on the beach, that night, I probably did something that you couldn't accept. You actually wondered why you drank the broken tablets, in fact, I saw that you have been drinking and blowing the sea breeze, and you have not slept for a long time, and then you actually added a quarter of a tablet of sleeping pills to the milk you drank, and wanted you to go to bed early. ”

"And I hacked your computer because it really wasn't the first time I'd done something like this. At that time, the company was on the IT system, and I actually took on a lot of projects behind my back, leaving a backdoor that was enough for me to read the numbers on those office computers at any time, and backing up all the documents printed and faxed on the company's server. I also checked the computers of the other three shareholders except my father. The VAM agreement is still five years away, and I have to consider whether I want to get back the company's management rights, whether I can get it back, and I am also worried that they will do something in the company when the agreement expires, so I am preparing in advance. ”

"When I saw your log, I really didn't feel sorry. I really like to read your mood logs, I see you counting the years to commemorate your mother, saying that time can't make you forget her. I see that you are going to write negative energy tree holes to vent because of the difficulties of life and work, but I think why it is also catharsis of negative feelings, it seems so optimistic to you. You know that no one will see it, but every time you finish the hole in the negative energy tree, you end with words of encouragement to yourself. Especially compared to the time when I used to be particularly dark and extreme. ”

"I know that you don't want to show people those things, and I know that others won't see them, and sometimes you talk very childishly, and they are not the same as the way you appeared in your life at that time, so it seems to be very sincere. I feel like you're living in my heart, every day of the last ten years in my mind. ”

"But I'm really committed not to do it now. I sue you for everything, I don't know if you can accept me like this, if you can't accept anything else, you can sue me, I can change it, these are not my bottom line. Really, Jojo. ”

In this house, Qiao Qiao looked through many traces of his life, many photos, group photos of his parents, his family photos, his childhood, his youth, the awards he received, the books he read, and then listened to Lu Ze, who hugged her from behind, and said the things he had never thought of suing Qiao Qiao one by one. Then he sued her, which point she didn't like, sue him, and he could change it.

Qiao Qiao gently reached out and pulled Lu Ze to wrap his arms around her, "Can you let me turn around?" She knew that Lu Ze couldn't look at her and say these words, just like she sometimes said a lot of things secretly buried in his arms.

"I just want to hug you." Jojo whispered.

Lu Ze finally gently let go of the arm that was wrapping around her, Qiao Qiao didn't look up, she just turned around and hugged Lu Ze tightly, she put her head against Lu Ze's shoulder socket, "Everyone has bad thoughts, and I have it too." I used to face ...... There were so many bad thoughts about them, and I didn't even want to leave them in the hollow of the tree. Lu Ze, we really turned the page, it's good to keep the previous things in our hearts, and we will be happy in the future, now you can go home with me, okay? Go back to my house. ”

Lu Ze hugged Qiaoqiao, buried his head in her neck, took a deep breath, and nodded.

They locked this place again, leaving the past that Lu Ze didn't want to remember and didn't want to see, and Qiao Qiao drove him back to his house, back to Qiao Qiao's house, where he said that he liked more than his home.

Standing at the door of Qiaoqiao's house, Lu Ze hugged Qiaoqiao from behind, watching her bow her head in his arms and take the key to open the door, feeling that the love days that he had been used to before had come back after a short time.

Qiao Qiao was in a trance for a while when she opened the door, as if she had returned to the scene when Lu Ze came to her house for the first time after her first kiss with Lu Ze.

He still has a fever, and last time she was stuck in her house because of her illness, but this time she took the initiative to bring him here, not wanting him to go back to his own house.

He still waited for her to open the door with his back, last time because he didn't have a key for the first time, and this time because she confiscated his key.

He was still waiting for her to change his clothes from the balcony, last time because he was not prepared, this time because she had packed all his things and sent them back.

Although there was no daily necessities that he was used to in Qiao Qiao's second bedroom, the moment he turned on the shower and the hot water rushed down, Lu Ze still felt that the negative feelings that surrounded him slowly subsided with the flowing hot water.

He really likes Qiaoqiao's family and likes her family to have her.

Lu Ze was no longer the same as before, even if he was sick, he had to carry his wet hair, and after he dried himself, he received a call that the takeaway had been delivered to his doorstep.

Qiao Qiao ordered takeout for dinner as soon as she got home, thinking that Lu Ze's movements were always much faster than her, so she left Lu Ze's mobile phone number. Now that the hot meal has arrived, sure enough, Jojo hasn't come out yet.

Lu Ze put the food on the dining table, originally wanted to lean on the door of the master bedroom and wait for Qiao Qiao, but after thinking about it, he turned back to see her lovely pothos, and waited for Lu Ze to change the glass culture bottles by the windowsill that no one had taken care of for half a month one by one, and Qiao Qiao, who was tired from the long flight, and wore home clothes, ran over.

Lu Ze reached out and touched her long shawl hair that had been blown dry, a little regretful.

Qiao Qiao pulled Lu Ze to sit down on the edge of the bed, and then sat on Lu Ze's lap unceremoniously, then spread his hands in front of him, raised his chin slightly, and hummed softly with a smile: "Hurry up, pay the money with one hand and deliver the goods with the other, return my ring to me, and I will let you out and put you in again." ”

Jojo's left hand is a mobile phone, referring to releasing him from the blacklist. In Jojo's right hand is the complete set of keys to the house, referring to putting him into the house.

Lu Ze wrapped his left hand around Qiao Qiao, who was sitting on his lap, and with his right hand, he took out the ring box from the pocket of his changed clothes. Ever since the day Jojo got angry and stuffed the ring to him, he had actually had it with him.

Before, in the parking lot, Qiao Qiao said to return Wen Jiàn to him and asked him to return the ring to himself. The reason why Lu Ze didn't put the ring on Qiao Qiao immediately was because he wanted to tell her all the things and make sure that she could accept all of herself and start all over again.

Lu Ze took down the mobile phone in Qiaoqiao's left hand and put it on the bed, gently held her left hand, turned the back of her hand over, lowered his head and seriously tried to put the couple ring back on Qiaoqiao's hand, but before the ring was circled on his finger, Qiaoqiao suddenly clenched his left hand into a fist.

Lu Ze thought that Qiao Qiao regretted it, and looked up at her, but saw that her eyebrows and eyes were crooked and the corners of her lips were slightly raised, and she didn't look like she was still angry.

Qiao Qiao also threw the key he was holding in his right hand on the bed, stretched out his free hand and hugged Lu Ze's neck, shook him gently, and whispered: "The two people wear rings in different positions, it's strange." ”

Qiao Qiao's left hand, which was clenched into a fist, stretched out again, but he moved slightly sideways, and his slender and white ring finger was aimed at the ring in Lu Ze's hand.

Lu Ze lowered his head again, passed the ring through the tip of her ring finger, gently pushed it to the bottom, and circled her finger.

Qiao Qiao's right hand still wrapped around the back of Lu Ze's neck, she took the initiative to stick to Lu Ze's forehead, looked at him with slightly watery eyes, and promised: "I won't break up casually when I'm angry in the future, I won't threaten you with a breakup, and I won't throw the ring back to you casually, okay?" ”

Lu Ze firmly held her left hand, which had put on the ring again, and replied to her in a low voice: "I'm not afraid that you will threaten me with a breakup, I am afraid that you really want to break up." Jojo, as long as you don't leave me, I can promise you anything. ”

Qiao Qiao jumped off Lu Ze's leg and pulled him to his feet with his firmly held left hand. Jojo wrapped his backhand around his waist, stood on tiptoe and gently kissed his hot lips, promising him, "I won't leave you." Why don't you go to the living room and eat dinner first, then take the fever reducer, and get a good night's sleep? ”

Lu Ze's still feverish forehead was against Qiaoqiao's forehead, and he put her left hand, which he was holding firmly, against his undulating heart, he was still sick, his heart was beating fast, his breath was short, and his skin was hot.

Jojo felt that the hand covering his heart seemed to feel the hot blood coming out of the scar that had been crusted over years. He rips away the dusty past, tears off the disguise and mask, his guilt, his self-blame, his regret, his pain, his fierceness and his vulnerability. She accused him of secretly snooping on his wounds and past, so he took the initiative to open his shell and confess the past and past hidden in his heart, whether good or bad, dark or not. He tried to give up all his net worth and future initiative, for an apology, for a chance to start over.

This time, Lu Ze didn't want to deliberately seduce Qiao Qiao according to her preferences, and he didn't want to pretend to be pitiful and poke her weakness because she was soft-hearted, but he wouldn't force her to force her.

Lu Ze looked down at Qiao Qiao, and his low and hoarse voice whispered in her ear: "Qiao Qiao, I don't want to eat, and I don't want to take medicine." ”

It's been a month of cold war, half a month in a foreign country, he thinks about her to death, and he is afraid that she will turn away mercilessly, like losing the last light in life, like all the ribs in his chest have been drained.

Lu Ze lowered his head and kissed Qiao Qiao deeply, leaving no space or room to breathe, as if he had to drain all the air in his lungs in order to express his longing.

Qiao Qiao was kissed by him until he was almost deprived of oxygen, and Lu Ze let go of his hand slightly and let her take a breath of air.

Qiao Qiao leaned on Lu Ze's arms and gasped rapidly, she seemed to feel that she could hear the sound of blood gushing in her ears, as well as what she heard Lu Ze say.

"Jojo,

I don't want to eat,

I don't want to take medicine either,

I want to eat you. ”

Jojo pressed against Lu Ze's chest, and she could hear, touch, and feel his powerful heartbeat, beating with her pulse.

Then, Lu Ze heard a soft "um" from his arms.