Chapter 52: The more gentle you are, the more scared you are

If it weren't for the fear of noisy neighbors downstairs, Jojo seriously considered that she could jump through the floor, and if she wasn't afraid of disturbing the people, she also seriously considered that she could open the window and shout. Unfortunately, it doesn't work.

Qiaoqiao, who was originally bored in the pillow and making a phone call, sat up after hanging up the phone and blacking out all Lu Ze, smashed the pillow for a while, and rolled himself around in the quilt, but he couldn't relieve the depression in his heart.

She couldn't talk to anyone yet, and she didn't have a place to bury her trees. The paper one is even less safe unless she writes it and tears it. Jojo is actually a more nostalgic person, and she refuses to touch the house in the past, and locks it there firmly. She usually doesn't dare to look at her mother's photos, but she still retook them and put them on the computer. She writes about her tree holes all the time, and she doesn't look back at them often, but she just likes the feeling of the last ten years being neatly arranged by category and date on an open page.

Knowing that Lu Ze had read it all, she still deleted her records in a fit of anger, but before she actually deleted it, she hesitated for a long time and left herself a full set of backups. She was reluctant.

She doesn't want to accept anything and anyone into her life lightly, because if she does, she must keep it and cherish it. Now Lu Ze has entered the psychological range of this Qiaoqiao enclosure, and then she found out that he had stepped on her bottom line early.

People always have to be a little self-reserved and self-space, as long as they think of Lu Ze who has been silently watching her dynamics, and seeing the sadness and complaining in her heart without scruples, she is naïve to unscrupulous in her daily life, especially the various small moods since falling in love all the way, she has gone from being shaken to moving, she has gone from being stressed to struggling with the progress of fast, and then to the problem of intimacy, the anxiety and anger in Qiaoqiao's heart are mixed with the discomfort of being watched and a strong sense of uneasiness, which simply makes her crazy, It makes her very angry, but she doesn't want to throw a tantrum with the culprit.

Jojo has always felt that if there is a problem, solve the problem. For example, if you don't like to have money, then try to make money. If you dislike height, you will not be saved and you can only break up. For what to quarrel about, then if you can change it, you can continue, and if you can't change it, you will break up.

But Jojo felt that the problem in front of her now was that kicking him, biting him, scolding him, and torturing him would not solve the problem. He's seen it all, did he format his brain?

She could imagine that Lu Ze would apologize to her, she could lose her temper as much as she wanted, and then promised not to do such a thing again in the future. As far as she is concerned, if she can accept it, then continue. If you can't accept it, then break up.

But she couldn't accept it! But she was reluctant to break up on the phone just now!

Qiao Qiao sat up angrily and smashed the pillow for a while, turned his head to look at the alarm clock, and fell down weakly. She rolled around in her arms with the pillow that had been pitiful for countless times tonight, and scolded herself angrily.

She kind of understands why sometimes there are some things, and the bystanders easily break up and divorce, but the parties are so entangled and so repeated.

If she knew that Lu Ze had done such a thing at the beginning, don't mention falling in love, don't mention good feelings, she could kick this suitor directly to the other side of the world.

But now, although Qiao Qiao didn't say it directly to Lu Ze, she knew that she liked Lu Ze and liked him very much, she would miss him if she didn't see him, she would just call and listen to his breath stupidly, and she would covet the warmth of his arms and hugs. She took him seriously to the grave, took him home, seriously entered each other's life circles, and seriously thought about rolling the sheets.

Depend on! Jojo kicked the quilt and thought to himself, this is simply an emotional kidnapping. If a person sues you as soon as they meet, and he has a serious defect that you can't accept, then you may not choose to develop a relationship with him in the first place. But what if you wait for each other to really love each other, and then find out that he is hiding from himself? It must be very angry, but can you really turn around and leave without any delay, without any reluctance?

If it weren't for the next day's work, Jojo felt like she could stay up all night and worry about it, but she had to get up early to go to work the next day.

So she took a shower early and went to bed to bed, but after tossing and turning all night, she had to roll out of the pit in bed, and she didn't rest well when she woke up from a dream.

The next morning, before six o'clock, Jojo woke up completely and could no longer sleep. But despite not sleeping well, she still calmed down a lot.

No matter what, the existing life track must continue, get up, wash and dress up, and then go to work to earn money. Love is not everything in life, work is busy, it occupies all the brain, who can still be entangled in these all the time.

But when Qiaoqiao walked out of the living room and saw the empty second bedroom, he couldn't help but stop. She remembered that when Lu Ze didn't live here, he always waited for her to get up and open the door with a thermos box outside the door every morning, leaning on the door and waiting for more than an hour, and she was not impatient, nor did she ring the doorbell and call her mobile phone to call her to get up early and open the door.

After hesitating two steps, Qiao Qiao felt that her steps towards the door were a little heavy, and she didn't know if she wanted to see Lu Ze outside the door, or if she didn't want to.

Standing at the door of the living room, Qiao Qiao stared at her slippers for a long time, and then mustered up the courage to take a look at the cat's eye, Lu Ze really leaned on the door and waited for her as she thought.

He was still wearing the suit he wore when he went out to tease her yesterday, leaning against the opposite wall with his eyes slightly closed, his eyebrows slightly locked, his face tired, and his eyes were glowing with blue and gray shadows. So he should have hung up the phone yesterday and came over to wait for her, but he didn't ring her doorbell.

Anyway, he knew that Qiaoqiao wouldn't open the door, so he made a noise with other neighbors.

Jojo's right hand rested lightly on the door lock, hesitated for a long time, and finally took it back.

She turned around and packed up for work, and then planned to go out again, and it was only half past six at the moment.

Hearing the sound of Qiao Qiao opening the door, Lu Ze opened his eyes and stepped over to support the door as soon as he saw him, he was afraid that Qiao Qiao would shrink back when he saw him.

With Lu Ze's strength, he held the door Qiao Qiao didn't say that the door was closed immediately, and she couldn't even push it at all. Qiao Qiao reached out to shake Lu Ze's hand that was holding the door, and said in a calm whisper: "I'm coming out, don't hold on." ”

Qiao Qiao stretched out his hand to shake it, and Lu Ze let go of her to hold it, and he didn't understand why it wasn't an angry girlfriend who greeted him for a while, but he immediately held Qiao Qiao's hand firmly and apologized to her in a low voice: "Qiao Qiao, I'm sorry." ”

Seeing the bloodshot look in Lu Ze's eyes and hearing his hoarse voice, Qiao Qiao thought that he had been standing outside the door for more than ten hours since last night, and he hadn't slept or not, and he didn't know whether he had eaten or not, it was estimated that he hadn't eaten since last night, she replied to Lu Ze's apology with a soft hum, and then locked the door and led him downstairs.

Lu Ze would not be stupid enough to think that Qiao Qiao would lose his anger after sleeping alone all night, seeing Qiao Qiao like this, he became more and more uneasy, he tightened the soft water in his hand, and felt that Qiao Qiao's left hand was still carrying the couple ring he gave her and did not take it off, so he was a little relieved. Lu Ze whispered her name: "Qiaoqiao." ”

Qiao Qiao still hummed softly, and after going downstairs, he stretched out his other hand to touch the car keys in Lu Ze's pocket. Lu Ze let her fumble, Qiao Qiao took out the car keys, tried to sit in the main driver by himself, and asked Lu Ze to go to the co-pilot: "Get in the car, I'll send you home, fatigue driving is not good, didn't you eat last night?" Buy some breakfast on the way later. ”

She felt that Lu Ze's current state didn't look like he could still have the heart to cook for him when he went home, and she didn't know if he had the heart to order takeout at home alone.

Lu Ze refused to let go of the hand he was holding and let Qiaoqiao sit in the car, and asked her worriedly: "Qiaoqiao, did you eat last night?" Your stomach is just right. "She didn't go out last night, nor did she order takeout, at most she would cook instant noodles at home, and it was not good to eat instant noodles all the time, not to mention that Lu Ze was afraid that she would not even eat instant noodles.

Naturally, Qiaoqiao wouldn't have no food without anyone cooking for her, but she really didn't eat, she was full of gas last night, and she didn't feel hungry at all.

Seeing that Qiao Qiao didn't speak, Lu Ze knew that she was so angry that she didn't eat. He was still the same as before, leaning forward slightly and bending down against her forehead to look at her, and whispered sincerely to her: "Qiaoqiao, I'm really sorry, I did something wrong, I promise not to look at anything from you in the future." Whether you're angry or angry, you can lose your temper, anything, I'll promise you anything, okay? ”

Qiao Qiao didn't dodge either, but just raised his black and white eyes to look at Lu Ze, but his calm gaze made Lu Ze unable to read the love. She asked Lu Ze softly: "You promised me everything, so what about breaking up now?" ”

Lu Ze reached out and hugged Qiao Qiao as if he wanted to embed her in his chest, but Qiao Qiao didn't struggle, Lu Ze tightened her grip on the top of her head and gently rubbed her hair, and changed his voice in a low voice: "Qiao Qiao, except for breaking up, I will promise you everything else, okay?" ”

"yes, okay." Qiao Qiao agreed lightly in his arms, and then Lu Ze heard her continue: "First, let go of me. Second, I'll send you home now, and then you eat and sleep, don't skip meals in the future, don't wait for me outside my door all night. Third, you give me a little time to calm down alone, I don't want to see you now and I don't want to answer your phone to see your news, you don't come to the door to block me, especially the place of work, okay? ”

But Lu Ze didn't answer, just hugged her tightly. Qiao Qiao, who had never reached out to hug him backhanded, backhanded him to hold her hand, but she couldn't break it open, so she had to ask him sullenly in Lu Ze's arms: "What you said yourself, promise me anything except breaking up?" ”

Lu Ze hugged her tightly, taking a deep breath silently at the back of her neck, not wanting to let go or agree, Qiao Qiao could feel his beating heart and the chest that was heaving in front of him due to heavy breathing.

Lu Ze was worried that Qiao Qiao would not see him and would not listen to him, but she didn't.

She was also worried that he hadn't eaten since last night, so she asked him not to stay up late and drive, and wanted to send him back to eat and sleep.

He would rather Jojo lose his temper with him and toss him, but she didn't. She didn't hide when he hugged her, she gently agreed when he called her, and she listened quietly when he spoke, neither noisy nor noisy, gentle and calm.

The problem is that he doesn't know what to explain, it's like that, he did those things, and why he did those things, and Jojo also knows. He seems to have no other way but to apologize and promise not to do it again.

Lu Ze felt that the more gentle Qiao Qiao was, the more restless he was, and he didn't even have the restlessness at that time when he couldn't pursue it with all kinds of difficulties and methods. He had a real fear of losing her now.

If you let go of her now and promise her, and really let her calm down alone, will the result be to calm down for a while before breaking up?

Lu Ze felt that the choice left by Qiao Qiao seemed to be saying that he would either break up now or break up after a while.