After being rejected by Gu Nanfeng that day, Xiao Xubai was depressed at home for a while, and finally understood that she was reluctant to go out to face anyone or anything at that time, which was a sense of powerlessness that spread from the bottom of her heart, and she lost interest in most things in this world, including the writing she once loved, and the work she had been obsessed with.

During this time, she carefully sorted out her feelings for her, whether she still loved her, and also thought about giving up and letting her be with Ye Qiu, but every time she thought of this, her heart was like a knife, not because of the pain of losing her, but because she was worried about whether she was doing well, although Ye Qiu loved her, she was young and frivolous after all, and her temperament was gentle and indifferent, it was inevitable that there would be discord, and the most important thing was that Ye Qiu was younger than her, and she would inevitably never meet the person she liked again, but her Nanfeng was notoriously dead-eyed.

Worried that Ye Qiu couldn't resist the temptation to empathize and say goodbye, so what should she do?

Worried that Ye Qiu would not be able to take care of her, her depression was already changeable and sensitive.

Worried that Ye Qiu wouldn't be able to give her a better life.

While wanting to give up, he was reluctant to give up, and he was at war with heaven and man every day, suffering in dire straits, and soon lost weight.

The rainy season in H city is here again, and it becomes damp and cold as soon as it rains, and the cold seems to be able to soak into the bone marrow, since the last knee injury, it has fallen to the root of the disease, and it is sore every rainy day, and today I was supposed to go to work, but Xiao Xubai still stayed at home because of helplessness.

Xiao Qi went to a painting class, she held her mobile phone for a while, she still wanted to call her, and gradually clenched her mobile phone, her fingertips were white, and her words were so decisive, would there really be room for turnaround?

After a long time, a sigh overflowed from her lips, she threw her phone on the table and got up to go to the study, pulled out a design blueprint from the shelf, and the diary next to her also fell out, she leaned over to pick it up, and dropped a thin piece of paper from the mezzanine, Xiao Xubai had a trace of doubt between her eyebrows, and when she picked it up, she was immediately shocked, and a wonderful look appeared on her face, which seemed to be sweet and sad, and there was a trace of loss.

It was a blood test report from the hospital, two weeks pregnant with a progesterone value of 175, she didn't have time to look at it carefully, almost with tears in her eyes, her hands were trembling slightly, she quickly locked the note in the drawer, and rushed out of the house without taking an umbrella.

Why wasn't it detected earlier? Xiao Xubai almost hated herself for being so dull, all kinds of emotions in her heart were surging, joy, sadness, regret and guilt, which made her eyes slightly red, she had a child before, but ......

Xiao Xubai's eyes showed a touch of pain, and he strengthened his determination to find her, there was once a person who loved her like life, and was even willing to give birth to a child for her, what reason did she have to give up and continue to love her, unless she was crazy and stupid, as long as she was given another chance, just one chance, she would definitely love her well and never let her suffer so much again.

The tattoo parlor has not been open for a long time, the original window is full of dust, Gu Nanfeng is busy wiping the table and sweeping the floor, his hands and feet have not stopped in the morning, Ye Qiu hung his head and nested in the sofa, the light was dim on a rainy day, and he couldn't see the expression on half of her face, and the whole person had lost a lot of weight, and the right sleeve hung down emptyly beside him, looking quite bleak and lonely.

There were a few faint meows at the door of the store, Yuebai probed her head and looked, and then meowed again before slowly pacing in, Ye Qiu glanced back at it, and there was some brightness in her eyes, Yuebai jumped on her lap and rolled in her arms.

No one took care of it for more than half a month, it was hungry and a little skinny, and the hair all over its body was dirty and stained with muddy water, Ye Qiu didn't dislike it, and played with its chin for a while.

Gu Nanfeng put down the rag in his hand and walked over, and a soft smile appeared on the corner of his lips, "Let's take Yuebai home."

Ye Qiu nodded, "Okay"

On a rainy day, her forehead was still covered with a layer of fine beads of sweat, and a few wisps of red glow surged up on her fair skin, Ye Qiu's eyes moved slightly, and there was a trace of guilt, "I'm sorry, Teacher Gu, I'm dragging you down like this now......"

"Ye Qiu, have you forgotten what I told you?" Gu Nanfeng's face was a little stern, if she really wanted to say that she was dragging down, it wasn't herself who hurt her.

"I understand...... You told me not to feel sorry for myself...... But I'm ...... Can't do anything...... I even have problems taking care of myself, how can I take care of you! ”

Since the amputation, Ye Qiu has become very sensitive, and other people's words and even expressions make her extremely concerned, especially Gu Nanfeng's words and deeds, she wants to love her, but also worries that she will dislike her.

She has even lost her survival skills, what else can she fight with Xiao Xubai.

"Ye Qiu!" Gu Nanfeng also raised his voice, and became unusually excited, "If you even give up yourself, then who else can save you"

Seeing that her face was cloudy, and her eyes quickly turned red again, Gu Nanfeng's tone softened, "I said, I will take care of you"

After knocking on the door a few times and no one opened it, when Xiao Xubai wanted to ring the doorbell again, the neighbor on the opposite side came out and asked, "Who are you looking for?" ”

"I'm looking for ...... I'm looking for Gu Nanfeng."

"Oh, she, I saw her go out early in the morning, I guess she hasn't come back yet"

"Thank you" Xiao Xubai nodded and smiled, but a trace of loss quietly passed in his heart, and the hesitation and ambition in his heart were still not extinguished, and he went downstairs and waited by the flower bed.

The rain was getting heavier, and the beads with broken threads generally fell from the dark clouds, Xiao Xubai didn't hold an umbrella, and was soon drenched, she wiped the rain on her face, and just wanted to go into the corridor to hide, she saw her and Ye Qiu coming together from a distance.

The two of them held an umbrella together, most of the umbrella tilted slightly in favor of Ye Qiu, Gu Nanfeng held the umbrella in one hand, held her hand with the other, turned his head sideways from time to time and whispered a few words, and the soft curvature of the corners of his lips did not slowly fade until he saw her.

Ye Qiu seemed to be a little nervous, tightened her sleeves, and bit her lip to say something, but was pulled behind by Gu Nanfeng, and her protective posture seemed to be like a great enemy.

The rain fell into his eyes, and his irritated eyeballs were slightly sour, Xiao Xubai smiled reluctantly, and there was still a hint of hope on his face, "Nanfeng, I have something to say to you"

"I don't have anything to talk about with you" Gu Nanfeng refused her request with a cold expression, and never looked at her eyes from beginning to end, so he missed the affection in those eyes.

I don't have to think about it to know how wolf I am now, I am soaked all over, the coolness spreads from my skin to the bottom of my heart, and the water that keeps sliding from the ends of my hair falls into her eyes, so that she doesn't know when she has been crying.

Fortunately, on a rainy day, she could not see such a haggard self humbly begging for her forgiveness, although there was little hope.

"But...... I really want to talk to you, give me five minutes, or three minutes."

She looked at Ye Qiu, who was silent on the side, and hid a trace of pleading, Ye Qiu pursed her lips, shook off Gu Nanfeng's hand without saying a word, and walked straight into the rain curtain.

"Ye Qiu!" Gu Nanfeng chased after her, grabbed the person, and the umbrella was all inclined to her side, and she was soon wet.

"South Wind!" When they were about to step into the corridor, Xiao Xubai let out a hoarse low cry, similar to the helpless roar of a trapped beast, watching her slowly turn around, her eyes slowly reddened, and her tone was a little choked.

"Do you remember the story you told me about Nankang Baiqi? I'll wait for you to be thirty-five too."

That story was too tragic, Xiao Xubai disdained it back then, and now he began to experience that kind of helplessness, not life and death parting, but slowly pulling through the heart, the pain spread from the heart to the limbs little by little, it hurts when you see her, it hurts when you miss her, and it hurts even more when you see but can't hug her.

Gu Nanfeng was shocked, and then slowly started to tremble, she controlled it very well, but Ye Qiu found this clue, she turned her head to look, in the dim light, that person had slowly turned red, and he bit his lower lip and refused to cry.

"Teacher Gu......" She tugged at her sleeve, Gu Nanfeng came back to her senses, saw that her face was also a little sad, and smiled at her reluctantly.

"Let's go"

When their figures disappeared at the end of the corridor, Xiao Xubai's whole body strength was drained, and he took a few steps back helplessly, his eyes were dark, and he quickly held on to the landscape tree by the flower bed to stabilize his figure.

No words can accurately describe her current mood, it is not an exaggeration to say that everything is lost, Xiao Xubai wanted to reluctantly pull out a smile to comfort herself, but she obviously felt a burst of warmth on her face, she reached out and wiped it, and she couldn't tell whether it was rain or tears.

They have only been in love for four years, but she will spend ten years nostalgic, waiting for an unknown but seemingly doomed ending, is it really worth it?

Xiao Xubai didn't think about it, she didn't even know how she got back home, and how she had a high fever for several days in a row and was awake in the hospital bed.

Gu Nanfeng, who returned home, was obviously depressed, put the hot water and let Ye Qiu go to take a bath first, and nested in the sofa in a daze.

When she came out of the bathroom, the light was still not turned on in the room, it was dim, and there were a few faint sobs in the darkness, and Ye Qiu's heart tightened suddenly.

"Teacher Gu......" She went over and hugged her, her movements cautious.

"Ye Qiu" Gu Nanfeng wiped away the tears on his face indiscriminately, smiled reluctantly, and when he wanted to break free from her arms, he inadvertently touched her empty sleeves, and lost all his strength at once.

"You see, even though I only have one hand, I can still hug you"

She whispered in her ear, hugging her tighter, her voice low like a spell.

"Forget her, okay? I'll treat you well, and when I'm a little better, I'll go out and find a job and earn money to support you."

originally thought that Ye Qiu would have a grudge against her because of this incident, but after sobering up, she touched her empty right hand, and was stunned for a long time before slowly turning her eyes red, and then saw her burst into tears, the corners of her lips pursed slightly, revealing an ugly smile to comfort her.

It was also from that moment that Gu Nanfeng decided to tie his fate to her, as two helpless people in the world to warm each other, which can be regarded as a kind of atonement, but sometimes when she thinks of Xiao Xubai in the middle of the night, she still bursts into tears.

Her gentleness made Gu Nanfeng's tears even more fierce, she bit her lower lip and refused to cry, her long eyelashes were stained with dew and trembled in front of her eyes, like a butterfly about to fly, there was a fragile and sad beauty, which made people can't help but want to get closer to pick it.

And Ye Qiu really did just that, moving cautiously, slowly approaching her and kissing her eyebrows, kissing away the bitter tears little by little.

Gu Nanfeng tensed up all of a sudden, put his hand on her shoulder, didn't know whether to refuse or pander, just froze there, didn't know how to close his eyes, and a few wisps of blush quietly appeared on his face.

"How can people who have been in love kiss and don't know how to close their eyes?"

Ye Qiu chuckled, deliberately teasing her, the kiss slipped from her eyebrows, her eyes fell on her thin pale pink lips, her throat moved slightly, and when she was about to touch it, Gu Nanfeng pushed her away violently, stood up and gasped violently.

"Sorry...... I...... I'm still ......."

Seeing that Ye Qiu's eyes became very lost for a moment, Gu Nanfeng swallowed her saliva and suppressed the uneasiness in her heart, she really couldn't make intimate contact with people.

"It's okay, it's me who was reckless" Ye Qiu also stood up, his face was a little red, and when he wanted to step forward to hug her, Gu Nanfeng took a few steps back, his expression was flustered, and he was almost running away, "I'll go take a bath first, you rest early"

After she entered the bathroom, Ye Qiu's face turned cold all of a sudden, but when she thought of Xiao Xubai, the corners of her lips slightly hooked up a smug smile, and she turned around and entered the bedroom.

When I have a fever, my brain is muddy, and my dreams are all fragmented details from the time I used to get along, and when I put them together, I am a vivid picture in my memory.

――The dividing line of memory―

The clothes and temples are staggered, but Xiao Xubai has not touched the wine, no matter who comes to toast, he smiles and refuses, it is really not like the style of the person who comes to refuse a thousand glasses.

Fang Rou floated over with a goblet, today's V-neck dress is sweet and sexy, and the two different styles of delicate and charming are perfectly combined in one person.

"Why don't I even dare to drink wine here?"

Xiao Xubai was dangling with a glass of orange juice, and glanced at her contemptuously, "I'm not like you who can only negotiate business with wine."

She still remembered the lesson of the last time, although she took precautions, she still caught her way, and did what she shouldn't have done with Aya, this matter is still buried in her heart, and she didn't dare to reveal it to Gu Nanfeng at all, not only afraid that she would not be able to accept it, but also because she felt guilty.

Fang Rou shook her shoulders indifferently, picked up the wine glass and touched her falsely, "Then congratulate Mr. Xiao in advance on his success."

After the reception, she signed a few projects, and after smiling and shaking hands with the developer, she turned around and saw Aya waiting on the street corner.

The night wind at the end of August was still a little cold, and she seemed to have been waiting for a long time, shrinking slightly to resist the cold, and when she saw her come out, her eyes instantly lit up.

Xiao Xubai's eyes slid calmly over her, and he walked towards his car with the car keys without squinting.

The body was suddenly tightly embraced, and the footsteps could no longer move half a step as if they had taken root, and the person's hug was scorching warm, and his voice was dyed with a trace of crying.

"Xubai, I don't expect you to treat me like you did to her, I just want to...... I hope to be with you silently...... I'm satisfied if you can look at me, today...... Today is my birthday...... Can you stay with me? ”