The beginning of the new year.

Feng Ranran lay at home and looked at the snow outside the house, this snow began to fall on the night of the Chinese New Year's Eve, and the crew finally took a few days off. Feng Ranran sat at home and lay on the bed, her movie was replaying on the TV, she watched slowly, holding a glass of water and carefully hauling.

New Year's blessings have gained a lot, everyone in the group on Weibo is busy grabbing red envelopes, and the atmosphere of the New Year is like this, which always makes people feel happy. Feng Ranran's mother ordered her a bowl of noodles with two eggs on it, and she got up and sat down at the table to eat noodles.

She hadn't eaten at home in a long, long time. She has been very comfortable and comfortable these days. After filming for a long time, the time she can spend with her family has become precious, Feng Ranran ate the noodles cleanly, went to wash them herself, she stood there and heard her mother talking to her in the living room.

"Ranran?"

"Huh?" Feng Ranran was washing the dishes while listening to his mother's nagging.

"You're taking a break after filming for a while, or else you'll have to deal with Xiao Pei?"

Feng Ranran was stunned, she didn't react at all, what was she going to do, and Feng Ranran, who had an epiphany after a pause for three seconds, turned red.

"Mom...... Do you want to send me out so eagerly, he's your own son, right......? ”

"Xiao Pei is really good. Two days ago, I made a special call to pay New Year's greetings. Ran Ran, too, for the New Year, let him come to the door for a light meal, I don't understand the twists and turns in your circle, but people are very attentive, don't you like it too. ”

Feng Ranran was a little shy and couldn't speak.

Her mother turned her face and smiled at Ran Ran's appearance.

"I want to keep you for two more years, but I'm afraid someone can't wait."

……

After spending the New Year at home for a few days, I had to go back to the crew to film, the weather was still very cold, it didn't get warmer, Feng Ranran was wearing the down jacket that her mother bought for her and stood back and forth on the set, the director had already arrived, but his expression was not very good-looking. There was a field worker who touched the props a little and was scolded by him, and his tone was extremely harsh.

"What's the matter with you, can't you do such a simple thing?"

The field worker hurriedly apologized, although the punishment was usually severe, but he usually gave up on this kind of trivial matter, but today is particularly strange, and he feels that his whole temper is very bad. He pointed to the worker and scolded very badly: "If you can't do it well, don't come, pack up your bags and go home." ”

The audience was silent, and no one dared to speak. Feng Ranran looked at the foreman sweating on this field, she was a little unbearable, she hesitated, stepped forward and said a few words.

"Torture Guide...... Forget it, it's a trifle after all. We're going to start work yet. ”

Xing Li glanced at the little girl in front of her, her face was a little white, and she looked a little dull before she put on makeup. She raised her head and looked at herself cautiously, he was poked by that look, he took a deep breath, Feng Ranran could see that he was forcibly suppressing something, and then he said.

"Let's film."

The atmosphere was strange throughout the set. Feng Ranran lowered her head, she didn't know why the atmosphere on the set was strange like this, she was careful not to provoke the director's anger while filming, the temper of the criminal calendar today is really too bad, and the whole person is like a powder keg, which will explode at one point. Han Wennuo didn't have a role today, he stood aside and watched Feng Ranran acting cautiously, to be honest, he was a little distressed.

Feng Ranran squatted at the door of the hospital, the camera swept to her face, she bit her lip tightly, but the criminal calendar shouted many times in a row, Feng Ranran was a little overwhelmed, she looked up at the director.

The torture calendar did not speak. The thin old man seemed to be irritated and grabbed a handful of hair, and then he said:

"Don't shoot yet, rest for half an hour and shoot again."

……

Feng Ranran squatted outside the set, her face was a little painful due to the cold wind, and she didn't know why she felt a little heavy in her heart. The leaves around her were a little withered, and she crouched there to pick up a dead leaf on the ground, staring at the lines on the leaf.

When the phone rang, Feng Ranran was startled by the ringtone.

She picked up the phone.

The voice of the homo economicus seems to have come from far away.

He said, "Ranran, don't watch the news yet. ”

Feng Ranran woke up suddenly—she stretched out her hand to open the news headlines, and the bold text on the top line caught her eye.

Feng Ranran couldn't hear what the homo economicus was saying.

……

At the beginning of the new year, the headlines in the entertainment industry were the news that Feng Mingyu was critically ill in the United States.

Feng Ranran may be the last person to know.

……

Time is a river, and we don't know where we're going to drift along it. The scenery that passes along the way flows little by little, and I can't remember or grasp it.

You won't know where the end is.

Her heart was clenched hard, Feng Ranran couldn't say a word, she squatted there, her mouth was full of bitter taste, she wanted to dial the number but it was just a busy tone, she looked around blankly - she saw the old man sitting there smoking, she quickly seemed to grab a life-saving straw. She ran over, and the wind around her drifted by, and Feng Ranran squatted in front of him, with a confused but cautious expression on her face.

"Is Sister Feng's matter true?"

The torture calendar did not speak.

Feng Ranran's heart was really twisted, she felt very sad, the old man raised his head and looked at the girl who seemed to have been stupid, he pinched out the cigarette butt, and said:

"Ranran, you come with me."

……

This is a small single room, Xingli sat at the end of the line, he looked at the girl in front of him, he spoke in a very strict tone, Feng Ranran sat here, her heart was beating so fast that she felt that she was going to die in the next second, and she intuitively felt that what he said would be very important to her.

She had a lot to know. She didn't know if the person in front of her could give her an answer, she could only sit here and listen.

"I've known Mingyu for a long time."

"She debuted very early, as a teenager. To be honest, it was really not a good thing to debut so early in that era, her family was not good, and she wanted to make money to support her family, this is what the media said. ”

But in fact, her mother was a gambler and did everything to pay off her gambling money. Mingyu ...... In fact, life is very bitter. ”

The old man in front of him said that he couldn't say anything anymore, his whole expression was very strict, Feng Ranran looked at him, his face in the shadow didn't know why it made people feel sad, he was silent for a while, took out something from his pocket and handed it to Feng Ranran.

"She has something to say to you. Let me leave it to you, and let me not look at it. I didn't watch it either, and I didn't know what she was going to say. See for yourself. ”

……

Feng Ranran was the only one left in this small single room, and she took a deep breath.

The video clicked on her face, and she had a faint smile on her face, and she said softly:

"Let's get started. In fact, there are many things that I should have said to you personally, but when I think about it, it may be difficult to say it to you in person. I'm a man with a lot of stories, and if I don't find someone to tell me, maybe no one will ever know about them. ”

"That's ...... It seems like a pity. ”

"Ranran, you are the junior I like very much. In fact, I rarely have a good impression of people, and I have seen too much of it, and I don't think much of it is light. Like you...... Probably because seeing you see yourself when you were younger. If I hadn't gone through those stories, I would have lived like you. You're what I yearn for, Ranran. ”

Feng Ranran looked at the woman in the picture, and her smile was very gentle. Her whole heart was sore and astringent, and she sat there motionless, watching her continue.

"My mother is a gambler, and I entered the circle to pay off her gambling debts. Of course, it is impossible to save so much money by filming alone, so you have to be supported by others. ”

Feng Ranran had already begun to tremble, and Feng Mingyu's voice in the picture seemed to be understated: "Until now, I feel that I died as early as when I was young, and many things felt like the sky was falling apart at that time, but I really experienced it once, but I felt that it was nothing more than that." What I've been through......"

She paused, then chuckled. Her laughter was beautiful.

"I suddenly wanted to smoke a cigarette, but I couldn't. It's a pity. ”

"My story is far more ridiculous than you can see, I have really suffered all these years, climbing up in this circle, stepping on the red carpet under my feet, and dripping with other people's blood and tears on my head. What is the actress...... It's just struggling to find a way to survive. Others can live if they don't film, but if I don't film, I don't know where I'm going to fall if I don't film. I'm someone who can't lose, I have no other way to go. ”

That's the bloodiest side of her. She lowered her head, dragged her cheeks and seemed to be silent for a moment, and then Feng Ranran heard her say.

"It's all me who comes and goes, and it's not bad."

This sentence made Feng Ranran cry.

The woman in front of her seemed to be thinking about something, and she said, "Someone will remember me." ”

"After all, I've made a few unsatisfactory movies. Someone will remember me. ”

"Director Xing said that you are similar to me, but in fact, they are completely different. Ranran, although I have a bright appearance, only I know what kind of torn soul I have, I have been really tired all these years. I have also given a qiē love, and I have also hated hysterically. Came...... In fact, there is nothing left. Except for the so-called acting skills and those movies, in the end it was all a failure. ”

She held her cheeks quietly, and her voice was soft.

"Don't blame me, I'm really tired."

"I've been acting for a long time, and I'm about to forget what I look like."

Feng Ranran shook her head desperately, although she knew she couldn't see, but she couldn't help herself, she had a lot of things she wanted to say - but she couldn't hear it. How could she do this, she really had many, many things to say to her.

When filming with her, she will never forget jì in her life, she is a senior in the circle, a teacher on the road to filming, and for Feng Ranran, she treats her as a sister and a family member. Feng Ranran looked at the woman in the picture, she was silent for a while, and she said:

"This path could have gone on...... It's a pity that I can't walk anymore. ”

"I don't know if I can wait for the flowers to bloom this spring. Ranran, the first time I saw you, I liked you very much. When I was filming, I thought, this girl is so beautiful, sparkling, and there are dreams in her eyes. ”

"Ranran, if you can, follow the path I've walked and go farther away."