The crew stopped work for a day, and when Feng Ranran flew abroad, she was numb.

Visits are no longer allowed in the intensive care unit.

She wanted to accompany her on the last leg of the journey, and she had no family to accompany her - her parents had already broken up with her, during which a man in a suit and leather shoes came to discuss the distribution of the estate with her lawyer on behalf of her family. Feng Ranran was not qualified to intervene in her family affairs, but she was squatting there, and her heart hurt.

When Pei Yifei flew over to look for her, she squatted there and shrunk herself into a small one.

Pei Yifei touched the top of her head, and she raised her head. The man in front of her looked at him with distress in his eyes, and she looked into his eyes.

With those eyes closed, she could paint exactly what it looked like in her heart.

She held out her finger and pointed to her chest, her voice muffled, like a cry.

"It's hard here."

Pei Yifei knew that she was uncomfortable. He hugged her silently, her body looking thin.

"I know."

Nothing can be done about this moment, he knows. Feng Ranran actually didn't cry, she couldn't cry, her eyes were always a little dry, she hadn't seen her until now, she couldn't actually do anything standing here, she was like a stupid fool that no one cared about. But she just can't forget it, the bits and pieces of filming with her are still hovering in her heart, the woman with a warm face, her palm is very warm.

It's not something that can be passed with a sigh or a few tears. The time of filming together seems to be still yesterday. She was still smiling slightly on the set - she was singing in the old little courtyard, and she was sitting on the bench stupidly looking at her predecessors; In the alley, when she was filming, when she smiled at herself, she felt really relieved at that moment; Because of her, I am very sure that the play must be a good work......

Ran Ran stood there, her heart was so bitter that she could squeeze out the bitter juice, she raised her head and smiled reluctantly, laughing was even more ugly than crying. She didn't know what she could say.

I couldn't say anything, I could only pray desperately.

She wanted her to survive.

When Feng Ranran returned to China, she was not out of danger, but she couldn't stay any longer, Feng Ranran was really anxious at that moment, but there was no way, she couldn't let the whole crew wait for her alone. When she went back to filming, she didn't even know how she filmed.

The whole person is in a trance inside and out.

But the old man, who has always been strict and excessive, went against the norm and did not scold Feng Ranran. He just said calmly:

"We can do it again."

"One more time."

"Again."

……

When the director of "Don't Be Nostalgic" came to find Feng Ranran, Feng Ranran on the set raised her head, she remembered that she hadn't seen this director for a long time.

The director asked Feng Ranran if he could take half a day off.

Feng Ranran hesitated, she bit her lip and asked about the punishment calendar.

The criminal calendar actually granted her leave.

……

This is a very small movie screening hall, and Feng Ranran heard the director next to him explain to himself.

"Ran Ran, in fact, the full version of "Don't Be Nostalgic" is not the final version. Before the release, I showed the full version to Sister Feng, and she made her own decisions and cut out part of it, and then the movie that everyone saw. As for the original full version, I thought it might be played for you, and this is the original tape. ”

He hesitated and patted her on the shoulder.

There was only Feng Ranran alone in the studio.

She sat in the studio and looked up at the screen in front of her.

The screen began to light up and replay this movie that Feng Ranran herself had watched countless times, Feng Ranran she didn't dare to watch it, she was about to collapse from the first shot, but she had to keep her eyes open and watch it carefully. She wanted to know what Feng Mingyu had cut out of the film.

The soul in the body called Xiao Xi seems to have gradually awakened. Watching this movie again from the beginning, the taste is complicated and difficult to understand. When Xiaoxi first met this woman, she would never know how she would spend her life in the future, and Feng Ranran saw tears in her eyes.

Look at it again.

Heartbreak once.

As the sun set, she felt melancholy like a dream. Now that she looks back and thinks back to the bits and pieces of filming at the beginning, she doesn't know what kind of mood she used to shoot those scenes at the beginning. She looked at herself and looked at Feng Mingyu's face with a smile, she stretched out her hand and pinched her nose affectionately, she called her a little fool.

She gritted her teeth stubbornly, and the camera flashed past little by little, in these shots, she was the innocent girl, she was a woman who had experienced vicissitudes of life - the movie and reality were intertwined, she couldn't tell whether it was a dream or a reality, the whole person was in a trance, and her brain was completely blank, and she could only watch the movie play out little by little.

Then she finally saw the first shot that was cut.

It was she who secretly took the medicine from Xiaoxi.

Feng Ranran clutched the cushion of the seat, this shot was like a dull thunder, her palms were wet with sweat, she looked at the advancing camera in front of her, but the whole chest was filled with the urge to cry.

She didn't know the plots. She didn't have it in her script.

Not a word.

……

There are a lot of shots of the gentle woman in the picture, which are not in the movie. The movie is from Xiaoxi's point of view - but in the full version, it shows more of the woman's point of view.

How she was tempted little by little. She also liked this girl very much, at first she just thought she was pitiful, and she was carefully petted as if she had a pet, but after a long time - who could let it go. She loved to see her smile and her eyes were bright, and she couldn't smile like she did.

Feng Ranran couldn't tell whether this was a character or Feng Mingyu. She watched her swallow the pill with a little hesitation on her face, but when Xiaoxi came in, her eyebrows and eyes were always unfazed. She stretched out her hand and held her hand, with an elegant bearing, she was always elegant in the movie, she lowered her head and whispered to Xiaoxi.

In the cinema, in the dim light, Feng Ranran, who sat upright, remained motionless, like a sculpture. She looked at the scene in front of her, and the whole person was cold from head to toe. Don't dare to move. I can only watch the plot push closer little by little.

Her outburst, everyone praised her for being on par with Feng Mingyu.

But—

The girl licked her wounds like a young beast at the entrance of the alley. She was standing in the yard, the sun was shining on her cheeks, Feng Ranran looked at this shot, and was shocked to realize that she was so thin in the later shot. She lowered her head, the sound of coughing sounding worrying, and she picked up her luggage and walked away step by step.

You'll never know how much she's hiding.

The last cut shot.

I don't know when it was filmed, I don't even know the background Feng Ranran, she looked at it blankly, this shot is a long lens, it looks like a ward, Feng Mingyu looked at the camera and smiled, she said:

"Xiaoxi, the only one who can't be reluctant in the end...... It's still you. ”

Xiaoxi finally said that she should not be nostalgic, but unfortunately she couldn't.

She left so that she could live better.

It's not that Xiaoxi told her not to be nostalgic, it was she who left her so that Xiaoxi could go on without nostalgia.

You will become a better you, and I will eventually perish.

……

Feng Ranran trembled violently. She has never been so sad in her life. Dark all round. It turns out that what I have seen and heard, but only scratch the surface. After it is revealed, it is flesh and bones. So bloody.

She didn't even have the strength to stand up. She didn't know that Feng Mingyu actually cut out this paragraph...... She didn't know that the story was like this. She stood there motionless when the director walked in and sighed softly.

"I discussed it with Sister Feng at the beginning...... Sister Feng herself wants to cut out all these plots. I didn't know she was sick at the time, and I didn't quite understand why she cut it out - I thought it would be better to add her character. And this book was written by herself. ”

"Sister Feng said that she changed her mind later, she said that there is no need to put some things on the table, it is enough to release that version, she said that it is good to leave a little blank for the audience, there is no need to sensationalize anymore, then it will be over."

Feng Ranran didn't say a word.

The director looked at the little girl in front of him, and he was a little worried.

"Ranran? Are you okay? ”

Feng Ranran didn't speak.

A lot of things suddenly came together at this moment, she said that she was afraid that she would be too deep into the play - she said that you have Pei Yifei so he can pull you - she said Ran Ran, you can be better - Ran Ran, you have to go down my road.

Feng Ranran closed her eyes, she trembled, the tears fell too quickly and too quickly, big tears crossed her cheeks, and she couldn't make a sound without feeling it at all.

Xiao Xi doesn't know.

She didn't even know that.

Would she still be like that if she knew...... Impossible. She couldn't be so stubborn. But there is no what if--because Xiaoxi doesn't know, that's why she plays that little girl like that.

Not in the script.

Feng Ranran felt that she was very strong, she had experienced so many things, from the beginning she felt that she should be able to face anything, really, she felt that she was not afraid of even death. Having died once, she was really not afraid.

But my heart hurts too much.

She squatted down, her tears almost unstoppable, mixed with complicated feelings, and she thought of what the director had told her before she came.

The director said:

"Ranran, the real maturity and strength I want to see is not how clever your acting skills are, how painful and sad your acting is. is burdened with pressure, endured pain, and after being overwhelmed by life and years, the whole person refuses to stop even if it is dripping with blood, and refuses to admit defeat and move forward with his last breath. ”

"When do you do it, the play is done."

She taught her one last lesson in acting.

Writers whose husbands died of illness and young sons who died young are still writing.

And for her, even after the pain of breaking her heart and lungs, she can't give up, she has to grit her teeth and move forward.