Gu Qingxia didn't want to get up. She was in a terrible state, not only was the wound she had touched yesterday still hurting, but her stomach hurt so much that she broke out in a cold sweat.

In normal times, it would be the day when she had to take time off every month. The whole office knows the days of her aunt's visit every month, which is actually quite embarrassing to say. But her aunt couldn't help her pain, and if she could, she would like to cut her ovaries and her uterus, and no longer be tormented by this pain.

The pain had been tormenting her for eight years.

From the time she killed her first child in that cruel way, and almost froze to death in the cold winter mountains, the pain that made people unable to live and die haunted her like a poisonous snake at this time of every month.

She sometimes hallucinates in pain and feels like it is revenge from her dead child. She killed one and killed the second.

But they really can't be born!

If they were really born into this world, she wouldn't be able to love them either.

She didn't ask them to forgive her, she only prayed that they would let her go.

The phone ticked, and Jingyi sent Nan Siwen's contact information. Gu Qingxia glanced at it and turned over. Her lower abdomen twitched, and her stomach ached with hunger, but she didn't want to get up.

A knock on the door knocked on her. She didn't want to open it, thinking that if no one answered, the person who knocked on the door would leave. As a result, the man was extremely persistent, and instead of leaving, the knock on the door became louder and louder.

Gu Qingxia was furious, gritted his teeth and got up and jumped to open the door. She was so dizzy in pain that she lost her vigilance, and opened the door without asking who it was.

Outside the door turned out to be Nan Siwen.

Gu Qingxia's face instantly turned cold: "What are you doing here?" ”

"I bought you breakfast," Nan Siwen raised the bag in his hand, "Have you eaten?" ”

He eats breakfast by himself, and the baked cakes from the roadside stalls will do. I bought it for Gu Qingxia, but I didn't dare to be casual, so I went to the porridge shop opposite her community to buy it for breakfast.

Gu Qingxia stopped talking nonsense and closed the door directly.

Nan Siwen had a gear in his hand, and the door couldn't be closed.

Gu Qingxia used his strength, but the door did not move at all. Nan Siwen pushed the door slightly, and took Gu Qingxia, who could only use one foot hard, to take Gu Qingxia. He quickly copied it with his hand and scooped it up for her.

The people who started were all slightly cool, just like he remembered.

He casually put the breakfast on the cabinet in the entrance, picked her up from the crook of her legs, and carried her sideways until she was put down on the sofa. Looking down at her ankles: "Not medicated?" ”

Gu Qingxia knew his strength, and he didn't bother to struggle, he only glanced at him coldly and looked away.

Nan Siwen brought the breakfast over, opened the lid and put it on the coffee table in front of her. The porridge is still hot, and the side dishes are still steaming. Gu Qingxia was also hungry, paused for a moment, no longer hypocritical, picked up chopsticks and ate.

Nan Siwen found out the safflower oil she had used last night and kneaded the medicated oil for her when she was eating breakfast.

One person eats silently, and one person takes medicine silently.

Gu Qingxia ate a few bites, filled his stomach slightly, and couldn't eat anymore.

Nan Siwen washed his hands and came back, saw that most of the boxes of porridge were left, and then looked at Gu Qingxia's somewhat pale face: "My stomach hurts again?" ”

Gu Qingxia glanced at him with his eyelids and said nothing. Nan Siwen suddenly squatted in front of her, and his two hands moved quickly.

Before Gu Qingxia could stop it, a pair of big hot hands covered her lower abdomen. The hot heat of the palm of her hand passed through the thin nightdress and reached her.

Once upon a time, in the broken brick house of the adobe courtyard, whenever she broke out in a cold sweat in pain, the young man rubbed his hands together and covered her lower abdomen......

The boy's body was always hot. Summer was held by him, and he was sweaty for a while. In winter, only by huddled in his arms can he sleep well.

For a moment, Gu Qingxia and Nan Siwen seemed to have gone back in time, and they returned to the small courtyard, the tile house, and the earthen kang......

But this illusion was instantly disillusioned by Gu Qingxia's fierce slap of Nan Siwen's hand.

"When this is still in the mountains?" The corners of her eyes and mouth were full of sarcasm and disdain, "There is a warm treasure in the bedside table, bring a piece." ”

She spoke to him in the same tone as she did to the workers, with a condescending air of command and naturalness.

Nan Siwen got up and went into the bedroom, and came back with a piece of warm treasure.

Gu Qingxia put the warm treasure on her lower abdomen and waited for it to get hot. But suddenly his feet were caught by warm hands.

"I'll rub it for you, it'll be fine soon." Nan Siwen said.

Gu Qingxia glanced at him lightly, changed to a comfortable position and half-lay on the sofa, and kicked his foot into his arms. Nan Siwen was particularly gifted with these injuries, and when she was in the mountains, she had seen him help people with broken legs.

Nan Siwen held her feet in his arms and rubbed her one by one. The feet were white and small, and the nails were clearly polished, round and neat, but they were not polished, only a faint pink.

Her legs resting on him were also white and straight.

Nan Siwen knew how white Gu Qingxia's body was.

He once took advantage of his mother's visit in the afternoon to pull her on the kang. Take her off with nothing left, and look at her carefully through the afternoon sun.

Every part of her body was as white as snow, and even under her body was pink and delicate.

The boy couldn't stand it just by looking at it, and had to gnaw at her body, rampage through her body like tirelessly, in order to get the heat out of her body that was about to explode.

It was also a summer afternoon, the windows were ajar, the cicadas chirped like a sound, and the laughter of women and children on the village road could be faintly heard......

Gu Qingxia was bent on coaxing the young man to listen to her words and take her away from the mountain, so he bit his lip and let the sturdy young man gasp and press on her. Just a little pandering to him made him so excited that he opened and closed wide, and almost knocked her apart.

The girl, who was originally shy and reserved, was stimulated into a woman's natural instinct in the predicament, and her white and straight legs wrapped around the young man's narrow and powerful waist, and she moaned/moaned and coquettish/panted softly in his ear, which made the young man half of his body crisp......

Later, she understood that the young man would not take her away from the mountain, and the old woman would never allow such a thing to happen, and she was not discouraged. She still smiled at him, still talked to him, and still opened her body to accept him obediently at night.

When her stomach hurt, she couldn't bear it, so she snuggled into his arms and shed tears. He rubbed his palms together and warmed her lower abdomen. His palms were always hot and dry, and sticking to her lower abdomen would really make her feel better. If he went out, he threw the bricks in the stove and warmed them up, wrapped them in a towel to warm her stomach.

She watched him go away, and made him know with her eyes that she wanted him to come back sooner.

That's it, little by little, the boy ...... Relaxed his vigilance against her......

When Nan Siwen recalled this, he couldn't help but smile bitterly.

It's all his own passion.

That year, from summer to autumn, was probably the happiest period of his nineteen years of life. I can see her smile every day, and she snuggles her softly when she takes her into her arms every day.

The time he let her out of the house grew by the day. At first, he asked her to walk around the yard, and later in the evening he often took her by the hand and walked around the village. Slowly, he began to take her out of the village.

Because she loved the wild flowers, she begged him to take her farther in order to pick more and more beautiful wildflowers.

He never suspected him. He thought that the girl's heart was finally warmed by him, and he was willing to stay and live with him, be his daughter-in-law, and give birth to his baby.

Later, I learned that she was just recognizing the way.

The way out.

She said she liked to look at the stars, so he took her up to the roof. She was fascinated by the stars while she was holding the corn cob with him.

Later I learned that she was just trying to find her way.

She endures, endures, and deceives him.

After he trusted her completely, and no longer locked her up, before the winter cold really arrived...... She ran away!

That day, he went out of the mountain with the mountain goods and leather goods that he had saved for a long time, and when he returned, he bought her new clothes. His heart was hot, thinking that this winter, he would never ask her to wear his mother's old cotton jacket and old cotton pants again.

But before he entered the village, there were people waiting for him at the head of the village. She ran away, they said, and was caught.

His fiery heart was poured cold with a basin of cold water in this way......

When he got home, she was already locked in the house.

This time, his mother didn't hit her.

Because she's pregnant again......

When his mother took the villagers into the mountains to look for her, she hid in the grass, but was discovered by the villagers because she couldn't control her morning sickness.

He opened the big iron lock and went into the house.

The girl he thought he had warmed his heart was sitting by the kang, expressionless, looking at him with a cold and detached gaze. The happiness and contentment that he had imagined about his own amorous emotions fell and shattered like glass, and they were in shambles.

She stopped smiling at him and didn't speak to him anymore. If he forced her into his arms at night, she would not struggle, but she would never snuggle up to him as softly as before.

This time he had learned the lesson of the last time and took away everything in the house that would be cold.

But he still underestimated Gu Qingxia's ruthlessness.

It was getting colder and colder, and although the pits in the house had begun to burn early, the ground was cold on the tamped loess ground. Gu Qingxia unbuttoned his clothes, took off his pants, and lay on the ground like this......

She got rid of her baby for the second time.

The first time, she was in tears. The second time, she couldn't even shed tears.

When she woke up, it was the boy who was taking care of her.

He's actually really good at taking care of people.

So much so that she would even think that if she was really a country girl, maybe she would really be willing to marry him. A country girl, married to a country boy like him, will definitely live happily.

It's a pity she's not.

She comes from a metropolis where skyscrapers, intricate subway routes, neon lights and life are so convenient that you can buy everything without leaving your home. She has parents and relatives, she has classmates and friends, she has unfinished studies and dreams in life.

She's only eighteen!

Her life can't be buried in this mountain like this!

Slowly, she burst into tears again......

He sat on the edge of the kang.

It was dark and there were no lights on in the house.

But she knew he was watching her.

She also knew that he was sad.

She knew that he really wanted to be nice to her.

But he hadn't even seen what was good.