136. Your mom is sick

He Jin just stood like that, not explaining anything, Father He was so anxious that he suddenly broke free of Hou Dongyan's pull, and pointed at He Jin again: "How did we educate you from childhood to adulthood, how did you become like this?" Did you say the last time you ran away from home because of that person? It seems that your mother is not wrong to manage you at all, but I was negligent, He Jin, He Jin, you disappointed me too much! ”

Hearing a few words, He Jin, who was still holding on, instantly felt like ashes, he opened his mouth and said, "Dad, I thought you would understand me a little better than Mom......"

Father He roared loudly: "You go out to live with a man!" You make me how do you understand you! ”

He Jin clenched his fists, like a trapped beast that had been driven to a dead end, and if it didn't break out, there would only be a dead end: "Dad, have you understood me?" From childhood to adulthood......" he choked up, "have you and your mother ever asked me what I think, what I want to do, what I don't want to do, what I hate, what I like, I am a living person, a person with thoughts, feelings, and self-will!" Not your puppets! Nor is it a soulless item! ”

Father He didn't seem to expect He Jin to suddenly erupt, and he froze in place.

Once I spoke, the accumulated resentment in my heart was like a mountain flood bursting the embankment, and I couldn't stop it anymore - "When I was a child, I wanted to play games, but you didn't let me play, I wanted to learn the violin, but you didn't let me learn, my academic performance is good, and if my academic performance declines, I must want to fall in love and want to study badly, some girls like me to write love letters to me, my mother calls to insult others, as long as I do a little bit less than she wants, she criticizes me, educates me, insults me, do you know how much I hate her!" I thought that when I grew up, I would be able to choose what I wanted and what I didn't want, as long as I was admitted to the university you asked me to go to, one day I would be free, but you kept forcing me to live according to your ideas......"

Father He: "We are here for your ......"

He Jinqiang's tears rushed out of his eyes: "But I don't feel good!" I don't want to be a person I hate in the future! ”

"So you're going to be with a man?" Father He shook his head and said at a loss, "He Jin, this is not right, even if you don't understand your mother's approach, you can't make fun of yourself and us!" ”

He Jin waved his hand and shouted in a broken voice: "Dad! Why don't you understand it yet! I'm not angry with him! I like it, I do! I just want to be with him! ”

Anger swept over his mind, and the impatient resistance factor in his body reached its highest activity at this moment, and He Jin couldn't calm down, and he didn't want to calm down.

Father He was so angry that he couldn't speak, and raised his hand tremblingly, as if he wanted to hit him again, but he was once again stopped by Hou Dongyan, and called out a few words of "uncle" in a row.

Father He's face turned blue and white for a while, he took a step back, sat on He Jin's bed, and muttered to himself with a face like earth: "No, how can this be, why is it the same......"

Hou Dongyan stood on the side and heard now, but he couldn't interject, he thought that Father He in the whisper was confused, and hurriedly persuaded: "Uncle, you first dissipate your anger, He Jin is also impulsive to contradict you, he is very good in school, his grades are also very good, and he was promoted to Baoyan last semester, just that, what the counselor said, I think it's actually okay, and now the society is also a lot more open, and everyone's acceptance is quite high...... What's more, young people now, who hasn't been in love a few times, He Jin was still with a very beautiful girl in the student union when he was a freshman, do you think he can't do it now, maybe they will be separated in the future......" Hou Dongyan said while squeezing his eyebrows with He Jin, saying that he would appease his father first.

Unexpectedly, halfway through the words, He Jin's father suddenly patted Hou Dongyan's hand and said in a low voice: "Xiaohou, please go out for a while, I will say a few words to He Jin alone." ”

Hou Dongyan was taken aback...... Tell yourself to go out, is it possible that He Jin's father wants to be rough?

He was worried about He Jin, so he asked He Jin for advice on the spot, He Jin bowed his head and signaled that there was nothing wrong, Hou Dongyan went out, but as soon as he opened the door, he saw the big head and the seventh brother next door squatting at the door eavesdropping, presumably they also heard the movement and came over, Hou Dongyan waved his paws awkwardly to drive them away.

The big boss was stunned and said, "I'll go, is it true that Brother Jin and Qin Yang are together?" ”

Seventh Brother: "That's it, I thought it was a rumor!" ”

Hou Dongyan sighed and said, "But I think it should be just a joke, Brother Jin is so measured, he shouldn't joke about his life events." ”

Brother Qi looked at the big head: "I didn't expect Brother Jin's tutoring to be so strict, did he hear it, what the hell is that, when I was a child, girls confessed and went to insult others, I was sick!" ”

Big head: "Well, in fact, my mother is similar, she has to take care of everything, the difference is ...... When I was a child, no girl ever confessed to me. ”

Everyone: "......"

In the dormitory, the father and son were still in a stalemate, like a silent wrestling, He Jin was not afraid, he was still clenching his fists, he didn't know how many opportunities he had to be impulsive and rebellious in his life, and he didn't know if he would have the courage to pour out the will buried deep in his heart so freely next time, not for Qin Yang, but for himself, even if it was impossible to be with Qin Yang in the future, this was also a necessary step for him to take to fight for freedom.

Finally, Father He compromised, but his compromise still came with conditions: "He Jin, go back with me this weekend, apologize to your mother, reconcile, and then cut off contact with that boy...... If you have any thoughts in the future, you can tell your dad that your mom is there, I don't guarantee that she will understand you, but dad will try to consider your opinion. ”

Hearing this, He Jin did not calm down, but was like a hedgehog that only exploded, and said sharply: "Why do you want me to apologize to her?" She is narrow-minded and dictatorial, throwing things and scolding people when she doesn't agree with her, saying that it is good for me, and in the blink of an eye she threatens to cut off my living expenses, you say that I don't make a phone call in the past six months, so what about you, have you ever asked me whether I live or die? I'm not begging you for money, I can survive on my own without her money......"

The more He Jin said, the more he felt that the reason was on himself, and his father wanted him to cut off contact with Qin Yang, He Jin only felt ridiculous now, why? Without them, he can live a good life by himself now, so why should he accommodate their ideas?

Speaking arrogantly, Father He suddenly raised his head and looked at He Jin, his bloodshot eyes were no longer desperate and accusatory, but replaced with a kind of love that He Jin couldn't understand, complicated and deep, "He Jin, your mother is sick......" The man seemed to endure it for a long time, and said with difficulty and slowly, "It's severe depression and suicidal tendencies." ”

He Jin paused...... Major depressive disorder, what is it? Psychotic?

Father He was silent for a moment, as if he had made up his mind, and spoke again: "Do you remember that you have a brother?" ”

He Jin: "Well......"

Father He: "When I was a child, we told you that your brother died of illness, do you still have an impression?" ”

He Jin was a little confused, why did his father suddenly mention his deceased brother again?

"Your brother He Lin," Father He choked, raised his hand to wipe the corners of his eyes, and said, "He didn't die of illness, he committed suicide." ”

He Jin's face turned pale: "Why?" ”

Father He: "He is very playful, much more naughty than you, he has been disobedient since he was a child, I am also used to him with your mother, when he was in high school, he often secretly went to the Internet café behind our backs, he met some fox friends on the Internet, and got along with one of the boys." ”

He Jin couldn't believe it: "My brother ...... Also gay? ”

Father He lowered his eyes, did not answer the question, and continued: "We scolded him, but he didn't listen, so he simply didn't go home for three days...... Half a year later, he suddenly began to stop running out, but the person quickly lost weight, did not eat or sleep, and not long after, he left a suicide note and left, taking sleeping pills, a whole bottle. ”

He Jin staggered, his eyes widened, and he asked incomprehensibly: "Why do you want to commit suicide?" ”

Father He: "He said in his suicide note that he had a relationship with the boy, and only later did he know that the boy had AIDS, and he suspected that he also had that disease, so he didn't dare to tell us, and he stayed up for a month, and he was so scared that he couldn't hold on......"

After listening to this past, He Jin was completely at a loss.

Father He: "Since then, your mother has changed, she disciplines you harshly, doesn't want you to go online, especially doesn't like what friends you meet online, and opposes you falling in love while studying...... He Jin, don't you understand why I keep following your mother? Because I know how painful it was for her to happen to her eldest son, and she didn't want to lose you for the same thing, that's why she did this to you, but I didn't expect that you would hate her so much. ”

He Jin was full of strength, like a defeated rooster, a deflated ball, and he looked pale and powerless to say anything.

Father He: "I didn't know that this was a disease before, and I didn't pay attention to it, until you ran away from home, she became more and more wrong, talking crazy at home every day, and always wanting to die, some time ago I took her to the doctor, only to diagnose it, saying that this is called depression, including her scolding you, smashing things, and sometimes she is nervous, all because of depression." ”

The rebellious factor in his body was completely condensed, He Jin felt like a big iron card was hanging around his neck, and every word of his father was like a real and powerful accusation, engraved on that brand, so that he couldn't breathe and couldn't raise his head.

He Jin anxiously asked, "How is she now?" ”

At this moment, I suddenly realized that in the face of life and death and illness, under the heavy responsibility of being a son, every personal affection would become insignificant, that woman was his own mother, no matter how excessive she was, no matter how unreasonable she was, she was sick now, and her son had to forgive her.

Father He: "This disease can't be cured in the hospital, the doctor prescribed some medicine, she is now at home, I ask your aunt to accompany her...... I came to City A to look for you, and she doesn't know yet. ”

He Jin let go of his fist and said: