"What do you mean?" Yu Tian looked at me, the corners of his mouth barely kept rising, his expression was neither like crying nor laughing, he took a deep breath and dragged my hand, "Okay, don't joke, eat something first." ”

"I'm not kidding, we've broken up, don't follow me anymore."

"Then I ask you, why did we break up?"

"Because I wasn't happy at all when I was with you, I don't want to repeat that again. And I also promised Lin Yue, I can't let him down again. ”

"For him? Are you afraid he will be sad? ”

"And ......"

"What else?"

"Nothing."

I opened the door, and Yu Tian blocked the door, "You're afraid that he will be disappointed, so what about me?" It doesn't matter what I do in your heart? Or do you think I won't be disappointed, won't be sad, won't be sad? ”

"Have you always cared about my feelings? Yu Tian, do you dare to tell me that you have never betrayed me or lied to me? ”

Yu Tian looked at me for a long time, he didn't say anything, the two of us stood in silence at the door, and then he turned sideways.

I didn't look at him again, and I didn't know what kind of mood he would use to look at my back, and at that moment, the last bit of involvement between us was completely overwhelmed, just like two people standing at the end, and there was no point in saying goodbye.

He has silently accepted all my accusations.

As I walked up the elevator, I heard Yu Tian's last words.

He said, Sixi, we really broke up. You don't regret it.

He also said, I wish you happiness.

I couldn't hear it anymore, the elevator went down quickly, and the choking sound reached my ears, and I even suspected that it was just my hallucination.

And I also became a floating ghost, and I had no idea how I drifted from Yu Tian's house to Junzi's house. Junko was also surprised when she opened the door and saw me, she covered her mouth, "You're fighting with someone again?" ”

I smiled, "No, there was a robbery." ”

"Si Xi ......"

"I'm fine."

I told Junko what I had encountered, and of course, I only said half of it. What was omitted was that I went to that village, I was photographed nude, and I was found the rest of the day.

I just said that my wallet and phone were robbed, and I had a little bit of injuries on my body. In order not to worry the old lady, I called home and told her that Junko and I were going on a trip for a few days.

Both Junko and Google advised me to call the police, and I said forget it, the chances of finding that group of people in this kind of thing are almost zero, not to mention that I didn't even see their looks and the license plate number of the van. I don't even know where I lost the phone I found.

I stayed at Junko's house for three days, which was also my most depressed three days, the mobile phone card was not reissued, I isolated myself from the world, and Junko accompanied me every day to watch my favorite disaster movie.

I told her not to watch it, that her baby would be born in a few months, and that she would watch a disaster movie, although every day was very busy. But as long as he wasn't on duty, he would stay home with Junko all day, and I watched them sit together, watch them cook together, and watch them argue for a long time over the baby's name.

At those times, I tend to be more depressed. Because I will think of Yu Tian, and remember that we also had such a simple and beautiful time.

So I got up from behind them, and went to the rooftop to dry the quilt alone, the quilt that was sun-dried smelled very good, I put my face on the quilt, remembering that I had also dried the quilt with Yu Tian.

A lot of the time, I'm completely immersed in the memories of Yu Tian alone, four years ago, four years later, after I probably thought about all the things about him, everything was over.

It's like a marquee, and when I think about this, I am naturally frustrated.

At night, Junzi and I huddled on their big bed, with the air conditioner on and wrapped in quilts, and we sneaked up on each other under the quilt, and then heard Google's ghost scream: Sixi, you are not allowed to bully my wife and son!

Junko said, "Can your daughter be bullied?" ”

Google said, "I love my wife." ”

Many times, I didn't deliberately want to forget Yu Tian, but desperately thought of him.

Maybe it won't be long before we're completely disqualified from missing each other.

Three days after that incident, I received an email with a few photos attached. After seeing those pictures, I experienced a fear that I had never experienced before, much scarier than any disaster movie I had ever seen.

I told myself to calm down and replied with a few words. "Make an offer, I won't call the police."

There was no response, but I knew that this incident was destined to be a time bomb planted on me. I thought it wasn't like an accident when it happened, and the email I received proved that everything was really arranged.

I'm starting to regret not putting that phone away, maybe I can find some clues.

Of course, I'm just a normal person, I never thought about going to the police, I just wanted to get those photos back. I was still a pessimistic person, and I was back in a cycle of nightmares where I dreamed that those pictures were posted everywhere and people I didn't know were pointing fingers at me.

Those I love, those who love me, are crying for me. Finally I stood on the edge of the cliff and threw myself down in despair.

Broken bones.

Soon after, I received a second email, from Yu Tian. He saw the phone I had picked up in the car and found the gang that had robbed me through the phone's call history.

In the end, it turned out that the people who robbed me were the same group we met at the bar, they had been arrested by the police, and the motive for the crime was to seek revenge, and the person who instructed them was the bald man in the bar, and it seemed that there was no flaw in it. Yu Tian also said that the photos have all been deleted, so I don't have to worry.

I say thank you. I stared at the computer for a long time.

He didn't reply.

However, I don't think this is the end, these nightmares still haunt me, and many times I am alone with my eyes open until dawn after fighting with Junko.

I think things may not be so simple, maybe there is a more vicious black hand behind it. Of course, more often than not, I advise myself not to think too much.

After the bruises on my body subsided, I also had to go home, and on the day I went home, I went to reissue my mobile phone card and buy a new mobile phone. The first call I received was from Lin Yue.

Looking at that string of numbers, I was unfamiliar, and the first few times I pressed it directly. Later, I remembered that my new phone didn't have a address book, so I connected the phone.

Lin Yue's voice came into my ears, probably a little anxious, and he asked, "Where have you been, why haven't you turned on the phone all the time?" ”

"I went on a trip with Junko and lost my phone."

"Why didn't you tell me?"

I don't know how to answer, because I can't say I forgot, or that my mind is too messy to think about him.

After a while, Lin Yue said, "I'm worried about you. ”

"Then I'll go to the hospital now."

"No need." Lin Yue said, "I've already gone home. ”

"Oh."

Half an hour later, I stood in front of my house, feeling my empty pockets, and remembered that I had lost my keys too. I knocked on the door, and soon, barely a second, the door opened.

Lin Yue stood in front of the door, one of his hands still on the doorknob, and the other injured hand hanging from his neck. He looked at me quietly, his eyes were very warm, like the April sun.

The next moment, Lin Yue hugged me, and the smell of soap bubbles on his body filled the air around me. I closed my eyes, tears like they were about to fall out at any moment.

Lin Yue said, "I didn't tell you a word on the phone just now. ”

"Huh?" I tried to look up at him, but he pressed him into his arms, and he said, "It's better to say it to your face." I miss you. Also, I love you. ”

How to define the three words I love you, maybe I often say I love xx, I love oo, I still love many people, but I will hardly say love you to anyone.

In my mind, these three words are more like a line, I can't touch it, and I feel a little empty.

So when Lin Yue said three words to me, my only feeling was that it was very unreal and far away. That feeling of emptiness goes even beyond touching.

I couldn't respond, I was even silent. So Lin Yue was silent.

Of course, after a long, long time, I will understand that these untruths and distantness are not because I think Lin Yue, but because of me. His words and his heart were sincere, but I lost that ability to be loved.

It was also a long, long time later that Lin Yue told me that he had only said these three words to one person.