"I'll Listen to Your Concert"

Brief introduction:

Chen Shi is a kind boy.

He picked me up when I fell out of love, and then we rolled under the covers until dawn, and he wrapped me up with his body, and I squinted and pretended to sleep.

We loved for a while, and then we broke up on the train, he threw the ticket and got off the train, and I cried alone from Guangzhou to Beijing.

When we met again, he put his arms around the new girl, and I felt sick even to look at it more.

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001

Chen Shi said that when we were together, we were too young, too impulsive, too impatient, neither tolerant nor reluctant to let go, we held hands, kissed our mouths, went to bed, and said countless times in the depths of our feelings I love you, pulling each other, noisy and warm, and accidentally formed for many years. I thought I could live a lifetime, but I looked back, but there were many mistakes.

As he said this, just a few days after the Wenchuan earthquake, the whole city was in ashes. Our group lined up like elementary school students and stood in a black shadow, Chen Zhi quietly held my hand beside me, I struggled, my eyes were dry and painful, and finally the whole person was wrapped in his arms.

I closed my eyes and tried to remember the good times.

***

I met Chen Shi in the winter.

In November 2001, the temperature in Tianjin hovered around zero degrees, and at one o'clock in the morning, I was walking on Chongqing Road in an izakaya yukata after work.

The rent in this neighborhood is not expensive, but the houses are all western-style buildings left over from the former concession, the internal environment is not very good, and the tenants are also three-rate. I went up to the third floor in the dark, and when I just walked to the door, the door suddenly opened, and I didn't have time to hide before I was pulled in and pressed against the wall, and suddenly there was a great smell of wine around me, and the two lips pressed down, and the movements were impatient but a little gentle.

The last time we kissed was in my junior year of high school, my first boyfriend's tongue just touched his lips and was blinded by the director's flashlight, and then he changed schools, and I never tried it with anyone else.

And this time, without any warning, my eyes were still dark, and I couldn't see what this person who was kissing me looked like, although the smell of alcohol on his body was very strong, but there was a faint smell of mouthwash in his mouth, I didn't know how to respond, he stuck his tongue in, excited and stirred.

When I came to my senses and struggled to break free, one of his hands had already slipped to my waist, tugged at me a few times, and then reached for the collar when I failed.

"What are you wearing?"

He snorted, coming out of his throat, a young boy's, hoarse, the kind of sound I had heard from the computer with their screen covered when I went to the boys' dorm before.

I pushed him hard, accidentally bit him on the lip, and my other hand touched the switch behind my back.

The lights came on, and in front of us was a young boy, and we were separated by a distance, and he squinted at me, his gaze focused little by little, and went from dazed to disgusted.

"Grass."

He cursed, then pushed me out and closed the door again.

I breathed hard, telling myself in my heart to calm down, wasn't it just being kissed, but I knew that I didn't think so, I was not only kissed, but also disliked, and I didn't know which half of the sense of loss was more obvious. After reading the house number, I was sure that I was kissed and kicked out of the house I rented, but when I was dragged in, the bag fell to the ground, and the phone keys were inside.

I started knocking the door, and the person inside clearly didn't want to respond, and after a while he probably got annoyed and opened the door halfway and smashed his bag on me.

"Get out!"

Another word.

When I took out the key to open the door, Chen Xiang came back, and she carried a bag in her hand, which was probably mineral water for supper or something.

Chen Xiang looked at me, "Xiangxi, why did you come back dressed like this?" ”

I smiled awkwardly.

The story unfolds at a speed beyond our control, without hesitation.

002

The person who kissed me was Chen Shi.

Chen Shi is a fourth-year student at the Conservatory of Music, and a year ago he sang with the band SLAM on Nanjing Road, and when the chengguan came, several of them panicked and packed up their equipment and ran all the way to the subway station, and I picked up his student ID card when the crowd dispersed.

The next day, I was stopped outside by their school guard with his student ID card as a nymphomaniac fan.

Later, I also met him, in the livehouse of 100 people, he was on stage, and I was offstage. I know him, he doesn't know me.

Chen Zhi is now Chen Xiang's boyfriend, he drank too much that day, and Chen Xiang went out to buy food, so he kissed me not on purpose, but recognized the wrong person. Although we tacitly avoided the incident, the small wound on Chen Zhi's mouth always reminded me that I didn't dare to look at him directly.

I liked Chen Zhi, a little bit of it, the kind of like that I looked at from a stranger's point of view, but after contact, I didn't seem to like it so much, but I still felt that my idea was digging into Chen Xiang's corner.

Later, I heard Chen Shi say that he wanted Chen Xiang to move out. Maybe he was forgiven for hating me, but when the lights came on that day, he saw the clothes I was wearing and misunderstood that I was the kind of person who provided special services, and I explained that he was too lazy to care and didn't talk to me at all.

I was in a bad mood for a few days, and Chen Xiang wanted to take me to relax after finding out, pulling me out of school and stuffing me into a taxi.

"Master, Jianghu."

Jianghu is the first livehouse on the fifth avenue, Chen Xiang took my hand and went directly to the second floor, and the waiter dragged the tray over and put four soft drinks directly in front of us.

I looked at the empty seats next to me, "Anyone else?" ”

"You'll find out later."

The music rumbled, Chen Xiang opened his mouth to say something to me, the voice was completely overshadowed, and I could only shake my head.

After a while, Chen Shi appeared, and there was a boy of about the same age next to him. The boy's name was Xenia, a senior in our school's journalism department, and he was also the bass player for SLAM.

Schunia waved at me, and I met SLAM a few times when I went to hear him sing. Now I wish he didn't remember me.

Si Chen was the last to come, and he smiled at me, "Move a little inside." ”

"Oh." I obediently moved in, watching him sit down between me and Xu Ya, the smell of tobacco was permeating his side, he smoked, and his eyes were a little red, and when he just sat down, Si Chen stared at Chen Xiang, and then lowered his head.

Si Chen is a drummer at SLAM, a fourth-year student at the Conservatory of Music like Chen Shi, studying classical piano.

Chen Shi raised his eyes to look at him, "When did you come back?" ”

Si Chen smiled, "Just now, I heard that Lao Bi said that you guys came up." ”

It seemed that Si Chen's coming was an accident, and even Chen Xiang was slightly stunned, but she quickly turned her face away and stopped looking at this side.

The music on the first floor started again, this time with a punk band.

I stirred the ice cubes in the cup with a glass straw and listened intently.

Chen Shi and Chen Xiang talked quietly, smiling lightly, occasionally handing her the cut fruit. Such a gentle and unfamiliar Chen Zhi gave me the feeling that it was a crime to look at him too much.

I don't know when I exchanged mobile phone numbers with Si Chen, in 2001, everyone used Nokia, Si Chen used my mobile phone to play snake, I looked at the little snake with admiration and finally filled the entire screen, and unintentionally said something so powerful, and then Si Chen smiled lightly, and put his hand on my shoulder naturally.

Chen Zhi snorted coldly, I turned my face sideways, and shrunk my neck in fright by his mere gaze.

Yes, Chen Shi's talent comes with brainwashing, especially when he disdains it, which makes me want to deny myself from head to toe.

Si Chen pushed me, "Don't pay attention to him." ”

Chen Shi may not be happy, but he didn't say anything more, just raised his head and drank. The voice of the encore floated up alone downstairs, wandering in the silence of a few of us.

003

SLAM came on stage after twelve o'clock, and Xu Nia had already slept well, and he had been rubbing his eyes when Chen Shi hit him on the head with a guitar.

"Awake?" Si Chen asked with a smile.

The three of them went downstairs, and only me and Chen Xiang were left in the booth on the second floor, and Chen Xiang didn't have much energy, so he fell asleep with his face sideways.

When the tuning was done, the people in the audience had already started to walk away in twos and threes, and in the end, only a few students were left with swollen eyes and black circles who had been pogoing all night.

There weren't many bands like SLAM who waited all night to sing a song at the end of the show, and when the three of them returned, a couple of younger-looking boys jumped on stage like crazy.

"Chen Xiang?"

Chen Shi walked to Chen Xiang's side, shouted in a low voice, and then smiled and wanted to hug her up, his eyes were gentle. Chen Xiang had already woken up, frowning and pushing Chen Zhi away to stand up.

"Leaving?" Chen Xiang asked.

Chen Zhi said, "I'll send you." ”

Chen Xiang looked at us, then nodded.

After Chen Xiang and Chen Zhi got into the taxi, Si Chen also pushed me, "Let's go." ”

"Oh."

I followed Si Chen to the parking lot and got into a white Mercedes-Benz.

Si Chen started the car without asking me where I lived, and went around the one-way road on Fifth Avenue a few times, and finally stopped downstairs in the house we rented, and I forgot to ask him how he knew about this place.

Si Chen said, "Send you up." ”

"Okay."

Si Chen said very little, if it weren't for the very light breathing sound by his side, I would have thought that I was going upstairs alone, but there were too many things in my head, and when I got upstairs, I remembered that the key fell on the car, and Si Chen said that he would give it to me tomorrow.

I didn't want to go downstairs anymore, so I just raised my hand and knocked on the door. Chen Xiang opened the door and looked at me and Si Chen, paused, and then turned sideways.

Si Chen didn't come in, but just told me to rest early before leaving.

The next day, Chen Xiang and I went to the rivers and lakes again, this time SLAM was a warm-up band, and we started practicing at six o'clock in the afternoon, only Si Chen was alone on the stage, Xu Nia was chatting with the girl on the side, occasionally making a surprised expression, his eyes narrowed into two small moons and laughed exaggeratedly, Chen Zhi had not yet come.

When Si Chen saw me and Chen Xiang, he went upstairs with him.

I asked about Si Chen's key, and he looked at me with a little annoyance, "I forgot, so I'll give you the car key, and you can go down and find it yourself, right?" ”

"Hmm." I nodded, hesitated for a moment before taking the key from Si Chen's hand.

The car was still parked in the same position as yesterday, the key was stuck under the mat, and I bent down to pick it up and suddenly felt like someone was choking from behind.

The sharp calluses on the musician's fingertips ran across my neck, and I struggled and turned my head, "Why are you here?" ”

"I can't be here?" Chen Zhi got a little closer, he sat in the back seat and leaned forward, "This is my car." ”

When I fell into embarrassment, Chen Shi coldly admired my helpless appearance, and said in a very disdainful tone, "Don't pester Si Chen in the future." ”

I understand that I have been charged with a new crime by Chen Shi.

004

I went into the livehouse with Chen Shi.

Chen Zhichang is very good-looking, tall and not exaggerated, thin and not weak, with a straight nose, very bright eyes, and the corners of his mouth when he laughs obliquely like a bad boy, but he has not had a good face for me.

I peeked at him as I walked side by side, but I heard the cold snort coming from my throat, and when I came back to my senses, it was empty, and there were only a few middle school students walking in with their shoulders on their backs, wearing thin clothes one by one.

Chen Shi had already surpassed me and walked to the front, becoming my silent back watching his back.

He walked on the stage, took the guitar from Si Chen's hand and began to audition, Si Chen looked at me from a distance and smiled, and said something to Chen Shi.

Chen Shi suddenly raised his head and glared at me, and threw the guitar pick on the ground.

"Come here." Si Chen beckoned to me.

I walked over with two sets of keys and handed one of them to Si Chen. He raised his hand and put it down, "Help me hold it, and I'll talk about it when it's over." ”

"Oh." I was about to withdraw my hand when I remembered that I was going to work at an izakaya later, "No, I'll be leaving later, and I probably won't be able to wait for you to finish." ”

"Dating?"

"Part-time job."

"Yes."

Si Chen looked at me again, and then reached over and took the key, the hands used to play the piano did not have a calloon like Chen Shi.

On the other side, Chen Shi, who was focusing on tuning, always kept a stinky face and didn't speak.

I touched the neck that he had touched, and my heart fluttered. When he raised his head, he just met Chen Shi's gaze, the expression on his face dimmed, and he quickly turned his face sideways, as if he was trying to find something.

And at this time, Xu Niya, who had just come over, had a big decay word on his face. He stared at me sadly, and said coquettishly like a child, "Xiangxi, why don't you call me when you come?" ”

Xu Niya's outstretched claws were silently intercepted by Chen Shi, "Langlang, go and practice." ”

Xu Niya's nickname is Lang Lang, and the people are as his name suggests, and the girls go one after another to brush his weak sense of existence, and he takes it all.

He said that he was just madly in love at the age when he should have been in love, until he met a girl who deserved to be taken care of.

But now Xu Langlang rolled his eyes in frustration, as if he was about to faint.

He looked at me one last time, with a particularly heartbroken expression on his face, and helplessly connected the power cord, pretending to look at me sadly, his eyes were like water.

I learned from them to tease Cinya, "Come on, waves!" ”

Xu Nia made a gesture of being shot, and smiled lightly to reveal Bai Sensen's little tiger teeth.

I left before the live started, and almost by the time I got to the door, the lights were completely dimmed, and the musical instruments roared to the screams of youth.

The head also rumbled, and the sound of a violent heartbeat was as clear as a metronome.

It was already one o'clock in the morning at the end of the part-time job, and I was reminded by my boss that I saw the tall and thin back outside the window, it was snowing, and there was a thin layer of ice slag on his shoulder.

005

One moment Chen Shi warned me with a cold face, and the next moment Si Chen had already killed the store where I worked.

Si Chen walked over to me, "Let's go, send you home." ”

Before I could react, my hand was already clutched.

Si Chen's palms are very cold, and he walks very fast, I don't know when our posture has changed to him holding my wrist, and there is a distance of more than half a meter between the two of them, but he doesn't seem to notice.

He was probably tired and didn't talk much, and the journey was unusually quiet. I suddenly felt that it was not so much that Si Chen came to pick me up, but that he was competing with himself, but we didn't know each other, and even if I was puzzled, I didn't ask.

When he was about to arrive at the rental house, Si Chen slowed down and let go of his hand at the same time. Suddenly, I was a little overwhelmed, but I soon found a new rhythm and walked side by side with him. Si Chen continued not to speak, and I had to be silent with me.

I wasn't surprised when I saw Chen Shi's car parked downstairs, nor was it unexpected that Chen Xiang would get out of the car and the two of them walked in together.

"You like him?"

"What?"

Si Chen looked at me lightly and smiled, "I mean, do you like Chen Shi?" ”

"Nope!" I was anxious to deny it, and I wanted to continue to explain, but I felt that it was hypocritical, so I planned to change the subject, "I'll just go up myself." ”

"Heh, why don't we try?"

The snowy ground was so slippery that I almost fell down when I walked forward, but fortunately Si Chen grabbed me.

I struggled to stand up, looking at Chen Shi, who didn't know when he had returned to the side of the car, he leaned over and got into the car, the car fell backwards a little, and then drove in front of me and Si Chen, and within my line of sight, it gradually evolved into a distant small point of light.

"To the west." Si Chen called me behind his back.

"Huh?"

"What time does class end tomorrow?"

I had insomnia that night, and long after going upstairs I saw Si Chen's figure through the window. I'm not stupid, Si Chen is chasing me, I understand, but I'm confused about whether he really likes me.

He was really waiting for me outside the classroom after class the next day, and I walked out of school with him awkwardly.

He took me to an izakaya and ordered a few side dishes and shochu to sit in the middle of nowhere.

When he got off work, he sent me home again, and occasionally met Chen Xiang and Chen Shi at school, looking at our hands that were gently clasped together, Chen Shi never gave a good face.

In less than a week, the news that Si Chen and I were in love had spread.

Si Chen also brought me over when the band was performing, and as soon as Xu Nia saw me, he jumped off the stool, and the bass, which was usually more precious than the girls around him, was also casually put aside.

"Are you two really playing?"

I was about to explain when Si Chen's hand suddenly put on my shoulder.

Chen Shi also inadvertently looked at us.