I had been asleep for two days in a row, and on the third day, I woke up early in the morning and felt much more refreshed. In the faint morning light, I was surprised to see a man lying on the bed next to me. The one I stayed in was a double room, and I remember that there should be no one on the bed next to me, and even if there was a patient who was admitted without me knowing, it should be a female patient, how could a male patient be admitted in a row?

I got up to see what was going on, and the sound of me getting up alarmed the person lying on the bed, and he sat up and looked at me, and I looked at Cheng Jiahui's father, Cheng Shaojie.

I knew in my heart that he was here to take care of me, and immediately asked with some displeasure, "Why are you sleeping here?" ”

"I've been here for the past two nights," he said, looking away from me, rubbing his hand back and forth on his face.

"There are nurses here, there is no need to leave someone here to guard, it's not that I can't move," I was very unhappy in my heart, but I couldn't show it obviously. This person is inexplicably what it means to stay here, so that others know what they will say.

He seemed to see my displeasure, and explained in a slush: "You have to get the needle for the first two nights, someone has to watch the needle, your parents are too old to stay here, and Li Haoyu and Cheng Jiahui still have to go to school, and someone has to cook breakfast for them in the morning, so I let your parents stay at home and I will guard here."

I know he's telling the truth, but I don't want someone I know to come and see an unknown man sleeping in my room, and Cheng Jiahui has said that he likes me very much, I don't think that is what Cheng Jiahui will take for granted. I felt annoyed when I thought of this, but I tried to say in a relaxed tone: "Then trouble you, I'm fine, don't trouble you anymore, you better go quickly."

Although I tried to breathe as little as I could, even fools could understand the meaning of the words. How could a man so clever he couldn't hear the voiceover, apparently he was angered by my words. He sat on the edge of the bed, stared at my face for a while and said, "Don't worry, I come every day when no one comes to see you, and I leave in the morning when the nurse comes, and no one knows that I am here to take care of you".

When he said that he was thinking, I was a little annoyed and angry, and I no longer cared about his feelings and said, "I don't need you to take care of me here!" ”

He straightened up, but still sat on the edge of the bed, stared at me with a raised face, and said, "Is it because I'm a peasant that I can't even take care of you when you're sick and lift your shoes?" Don't look down on people! That is, you, I don't want to be replaced by someone else who wants me to serve me! The look in his eyes was angry and stubborn as he spoke.

His angry and tough tone stunned me, and now I had calmed down from the anger I had just had, and I stared at him for a while and asked, "You like me?" ”

He was stunned for a moment, then stared at me with angry and arrogant eyes, and asked without flinching, "Can't you?" ”

I leaned on the head of the bed and looked at him carefully, and his hardness and arrogance really impressed me. This man still has the kind of upright of a man who has been a soldier, with the strength of a laborer, a slightly dark face with tight muscles, and his eyes are slightly sunken like Cheng Jiahui, looking at this man is indeed handsome, no wonder his mother has always been proud of him. At this time, there was a trace of untamed arrogance in the anger in his eyes, which was really similar to Cheng Jiahui.

I looked out the window with a sideways face, Cheng Jiahui said that he likes me, I can feel it, but I have never taken it to heart, although I have lived alone over the years, it is not that no man has liked me, I have no special feelings for those all kinds of admiring eyes, no matter what they think about me, I know what I want, I only want what I want. But at this moment, I suddenly felt that what kind of man I married was no different from living alone. Anyway, the people I love and the people I can love are gone, Chen Jingde has set up a yardstick in my emotional world that cannot be surpassed by the people next to me, what is the difference between him and this or that man after him? I don't like shopping malls, I don't like officialdom, and I don't like having to go up and down because I'm married to a man who gets in the mix. The man in front of me is at least a simple farmer, living in a simple village, living a simple life, he has a son like Cheng Jiahui who is destined for me, why can't I marry him, isn't my requirement for the rest of my life to live quietly and quietly? Cheng Jiahui is right, Linshui Village is a good place, with mountains and water, birds and flowers. I love Qiu Shan, I have no chance to go to the mountains with him in this life to visit chrysanthemums and ask flowers, so why is Linshui Village not a good place to return? I have nothing left, so why not take a bet that my son will have a good future, that he will have a brother who will help him for life, and that I will end up with the rest of my life.

I looked up at him: "Cheng Jiahui said that you are very rich!" ”

He was stunned and looked at me inquiringly: "Yes, I have some money".

"How much money do you have?"

He stared at my face for a moment, and there was a hint of surprise in his eyes: "How much do you want?" ”

This man is indeed smart.

"One million", I know it's not a decimal number in the countryside, but it's not an unattainable number in the countryside of our place. There are many farmers who make a fortune growing cotton, tomatoes, grapes, and seed corn in our area.

He was stunned at first, and then said without hesitation: "Okay, I'll give you a million."

I was a little surprised by his unhesitating all-or-nothing attitude, his character has a manly temperament that dares to act, but also has the temperament of a gambler.

I let out a sigh of relief, gritted my teeth and said, "Okay, then I'll marry you."

The next day, after he handed me a card. I twisted the card on my fingertips, took a deep breath, and said in a resolute voice, "Okay, let's go to the marriage registry office to get the certificate."

"Now?" He looked at me in amazement.

"Right now, after today, maybe I'll regret it."

I'll be honest, I just made this decision in this tone, and maybe my mind changed after this tone. After all, I'm making a gamble with no end in sight. Last night I was just thinking about the question, what can I do in my future if I don't do this? What more could I hope for? Chen Jingde will not come back, in the future, he will either find a random man to marry, or go to a nursing home to grow old alone, I will not find a random man to marry, rather than go to a nursing home to die alone, it is better to go to Linshui Village to have someone to accompany the elderly. Qi Jinjun's sudden death, the irresistible pain of illness, made me think more about not how to live, but how to face the impending aging aging and death, this fear of the future is just a blank only in this lifeless ward, once I return to the unit, back to the family, daily work and locks will temporarily fill this blank, so that I don't think about the future. And when I face the eyes of the world, no matter how detached I am, I will not make this ridiculous decision lightly. It was only then that I was determined to make this decision.

Cai Ling at the marriage registry knows me, and I know her. When his husband was a junior cadre of the Animal Husbandry Bureau, the relationship between the husband and wife was still very good, and her husband was also a diligent and enthusiastic person at home. Unexpectedly, since he was suddenly promoted to deputy director, his temperament has changed greatly, and he has stopped doing all the work at home, and he has not even participated in his son's parent-teacher meeting. The two of them originally came out of the countryside, and since her husband became a leader, he rarely went back to his home in the countryside, not to mention, and he went back once in a while, and he was just in front of his own parents, and there was such a big shelf in Cai Ling's parents' house, which made Cai Ling's parents and sisters unhappy. So she often goes back to her parents' house alone and doesn't let her husband go back together, but in this way, her parents feel that there is a conflict between the two of them, and they are even more worried, and Cai Ling, who is angry, is also angry and has nowhere to say, and always says that there is such a big god in the family, and it is not thrown away.

Cai Ling greeted me warmly when she saw me, but when she knew that I was going to marry a peasant, she opened her mouth in surprise and had an expression of disbelief, so I just smiled faintly and said, "Don't make a fuss, I never planned to find a high-ranking official like a leader to stay at home."

Cai Ling asked me for a long time, and was sure that I was indeed going to marry a farmer, so she quickly went through the formalities for us. This is also the disadvantage of a small county town, you can meet people you know when you go around, but this is also a benefit, it is easy to do things in front of acquaintances.

It was at this time that I found out that Cheng Shaojie provided the same divorce certificate as me, and I realized that Cheng Jiahui's mother was still alive, but at this time it was impossible for me to ask about these anymore. Knowing this situation, I was just very confused in my heart, but I didn't feel unhappy, Cheng Shaojie is a person for me, even if I marry him, I feel that he has nothing to do with me, those are his life and I have nothing to do. And since I have chosen to do this, I am not afraid to face any kind of thing, and I will not care. As long as the decision is made, in my eyes there is no obstacle that cannot be overcome except life and death.

Chen Jingde once said that I live in the midst of the crowd, but my heart seems to wander outside the crowd. It's true, but I'm wandering not because I'm afraid and escaping from reality, nor because I'm cowardly, it's just because Wu Tianyang let that qiē suddenly stop when I was the most beautiful and happiest, and I can no longer live in reality as if it hadn't happened, and my emotions stopped in the distant past. The appearance of Chen Jingde brought my heart back to the real world, but he brought my emotions to a height that others could not reach.

Now they're gone, taking with them my dream of a perfect relationship. Now I have to face the reality that no matter how much I don't want to, I'm still a human being in this world, and I've been gone for half my life.

Since I am a person in this earthly world, then I will live in this world for a solid time, I am Lin Yi, and I am not afraid of anything