The next day was a cloudy day, after the memorial service, Zheng Duo and Gao Jianguo didn't let me follow them up the mountain to bury Qi Jinjun, my love that day was out of control, which made them feel very uneasy about me, but I insisted on going.

When I went up the mountain, there began to be a drizzle in the sky, and the cold rain penetrated my clothes and seeped into my body little by little, and the rain was almost invisible and wrapped around us like a mist, and I could feel the warmth of the tears in my eyes as they slid across my face. It's not the first time to say goodbye to my comrades, but this time it makes me particularly sad, just the day before he was with us, his young and strong life is full of ripe fruit, I just can't accept that he stretched his waist the day before and said that he was tired and wanted to have a good rest, and the next day I saw him sitting there quietly leaving us forever. It's like a loved one who is together, and if they don't say goodbye to you seriously, they won't come again if they don't say the reason.

I felt very uncomfortable in the afternoon when I was in the office, and I knew that I had caught a cold in the mountains in the morning, and my joints were getting more and more sore. I felt that my body was getting heavier and heavier, and my bones were too heavy to hold. But I don't want to ask for leave to go home early, because of Qi Jinjun's funeral, there is a lot of work in hand, and everyone is working overtime. In the matter of Qi Jinjun's sacrifice, I have already expressed that I have lost my normality, and I don't want everyone to worry anymore, so I have to hold on. I finally stayed up until I got off work, and as soon as I entered the door, my mother looked at me and said, "Why is your face so ugly?" ”

"I may have a cold, I'm so uncomfortable, just take a rest" After saying that, I went back to my room, forced myself to change my clothes and fell asleep. At the moment I lay on the bed, I felt that my whole person collapsed all of a sudden, no matter how broken my heart was in the past year, I have been letting my spirit support my body as usual work and life, my body is like a hard shell to wrap my heart, I can't show my broken mood to everyone, so I try my best to keep it running normally. And at this moment I feel like I can't hold it anymore, I'm too tired to hold on, and I'm going to rest.

In the grogginess I felt someone pick me up, I tried to open my eyes to see who it was, but I saw a familiar and unfamiliar face, I knew I was sick, and very sick, they must have taken me to the hospital. In the remnants of my sanity, I thought: Okay, when I get to the hospital, it's the doctor's business, it's none of my business, I don't have to worry about it anymore, I can rest in peace, I relaxed and fell asleep again.

When I woke up again, it was the next afternoon, and when I saw Jiang Xinya sitting in front of the bed, but my parents were not there, I smiled weakly and said, "When did you come?" My mom and my dad are there."

She stretched out her hand and pulled the quilt covering me and said: "Your mother called me in the morning and I came, you are not usually sick, and it is too scary to get sick, your mother said that the people who burned last night are not known, and no one is awake this morning, she called me because she was scared, and she is now going back to cook."

"I'm fine, I'm just cold," I said weakly.

"Who said it's okay, you are acute pneumonia," Jiang Xinya blamed.

I felt that I was very tired and weak, so I smiled and said to Jiang Xinya: "Don't tell Sù Xinhui, Hu Yali, Li Qiutong, I just have a cold, and I'm tired and take a rest, I'm fine, you go and do your work, you are not doctors, there is no need to stay here."

Jiang Xinya took my hand, looked down at my hand and said: "Now a cold and cold will also torture you like this, I'm afraid it's not as simple as getting a cold, it's okay, take advantage of this illness to take a good rest, I have never seen you weak like this, whether it is a physical illness or a mental illness, this time it will be treated." Still, being sick is also detoxification, don't worry, I'll show you what happens at home, and you can rest for a few days with peace of mind."

I nodded, the fever had subsided, I just felt tired, I just wanted to sleep, I just wanted to fall asleep like this, and I didn't want to think about anything. No matter what happened to me in the past, my spirit never collapsed, but now I feel like I'm in ruins inside and out.

When I woke up again, it was a new day, and I saw a lot of fruits, milk and other things on the bedside and knew that someone had come to see me, and my mother saw me wake up and asked me if I wanted to drink water, I nodded, sat up and drank some water.

"Why are you so sick this time? In the past, it was good to drink a bowl of ginger soup to sweat when you had a cold, and even rarely took medicine, but this time it was good, people burned the same as charcoal, no matter how you called it, you couldn't wake up, fortunately, Cheng Jiahui's father came to deliver something, see that you burned so badly and sent you to the hospital, otherwise we would be scared to death."

Looking at my mother's worried eyes, I smiled lightly and said: "I'm fine, it's because I don't usually get sick, so it's so scary when I'm sick, I'm not young now, and it's normal to be sick and can't bear it, but my physique is still good, and there will be no major problems."

Mother also smiled and said: "Also, you rarely took injections and medicines before, so this time the fever went down after hanging the needle, even the doctor said that you are in good health, but you have been sleeping for the past two days, and you haven't woken up when your colleagues come to see you in the morning, are you too tired recently?" ”

I looked at my mother's haggard face and said, "I'm a little tired, so I don't want to wake up when I fall asleep."

My mother lowered her eyes and stroked my hand and said, "Still, your father and I can see that you have not been very happy in the past year, your brother's affairs, Li Haoyu's study affairs, and work affairs have made you worry so much, your father and I both know that you are very tired and not easy, but you must not make any mistakes, you are now old and young, you lie there and don't want to wake up, we are going to be scared to death." Jiang Xinya came and asked the doctor and said that you are really okay, we are relieved, Xinya said that you have been menstruating too much recently, you are too tired, you need to rest, let you sleep well, just slow down. ”

Listening to the hoarseness in my mother's voice, my heart was also sour. I patted my mother's hand and smiled and said, "Don't worry, I'm fine, I'll be fine."

After school in the afternoon, Li Haoyu and Cheng Jiahui came to the ward, Li Haoyu saw that I was awake and threw down my schoolbag and came over to hug me, I knew that I had been asleep for the past two days, and he must have frightened him. He had grown up in a single-parent environment, and he was insecure, and I knew his fear and helplessness when I was sick. I patted him on the back, his face rubbed against mine and he looked up, and I knew he was wiping tears from his face. I touched his face and felt that his face was still tidal, his body had grown into a big man's appearance, but his face was still childish. He looked at me with a pitiful look, and looking at his face, I suddenly thought: What should he do if something happens suddenly like Qi Jinjun, how pitiful he will be? His father is someone else's father, and his mother is gone, but he is still an ignorant child. Qi Jinjun is such a young and strong person, he left on a sunny morning, and he didn't even have a chance to say goodbye to his parents, wife and children. How can I know what I'll meet in the next moment?

This thought together, I can't help but feel a pain in my heart, this is my son, the most important thing in my life, what is the other qiē to me? For so long I complained and scorned him, patted and beaten, and did not care, only because I thought that he was my son, a part of my body, like my own arms and legs, and that I would definitely be with myself and not separated, and at this moment, I felt that I could leave him alone in this world at any moment, and leave him alone in this world. This feeling makes me feel unspeakably sad.

I gently stroked his face, and a warmth gradually grew in my heart, I have lost everything, but my son is here, he is the root of my life, and my every qiē will sprout and grow again from here. I stretched out my hand to hold him, my face pressed against his, my eyes gradually moistened, and I cried softly in my heart, "Son, my son".

Cheng Jiahui, who had been standing quietly on the side and looking at me, put his hand on Li Haoyu's shoulder, looked at me with his eyes and said, "Auntie, don't worry, I will always take care of Li Haoyu."

I looked at the boy's determined and persistent eyes, which were far more mature than his age, and I believed that he had done it, and I understood it, because I had made a promise that I would do it. But he is only sixteen years old now, his back is blank, only his stubbornness and his belief are supported, but he also needs someone to love, I reached out and pulled him over to sit beside me, putting my arm around his shoulder