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The grandmother behind me came over and opened the 'door', she wanted to reach out and take the glutinous glutinous in my arms, but I avoided it, and I didn't even look at my grandmother: "Don't touch her!" ”

Grandma's hands froze in place.

I ran towards the elevator quickly, and it just so happened that when I ran to the elevator, the elevator also reached our floor, and at the moment when the 'door' slowly opened, I saw Da Bai, Xiaoyu, Lin Wei, my parents and Chen Wei standing inside

They all seemed to be ready to speak when they saw me, but Dabai He Mo only shouted a word, and he was shocked by me and the glutinous blood covered in blood, unable to say the next words.

Chen Wei was the first to come over and take over the glutinous glutinous in my arms, lowered his head and quickly glanced at me and nuonuo, and then hurriedly pulled me back to the elevator, pressing the first floor, his face was tense and unspeakable.

They also saw the bleeding wound on my arm and quickly rummaged through their bags to try to 'get' something to stop the bleeding.

Fortunately, Lin Wei helped take care of them a lot on weekdays, so she brought some emergency things with her, at least she tied up my wound in the elevator.

Mom and Dad helped the shaky grandmother, obviously wanting to ask what was going on, but they couldn't open their mouths at this time.

I leaned on Da Bai's shoulder, and Chen Wei stared at me in the elevator with Nuo Nuo in his arms, his brows tightened.

The elevator finally arrived, and the moment I stepped out of the elevator, I finally couldn't hold back the white microphone in front of me for a few seconds, and then fell into complete darkness.

The last thing I heard was the screams of the surrounding 'chaos' and 'chaos'.

In this life, no matter how 'shrewd' a person is, there are always times when he does something wrong, and there are always some of these wrong things that he can't recall at all, because every time he thinks about it, he regrets it and wants to die.

And the thing I regret the most is not that I opened the 'door' for Liu Meili, but that I actually killed her after my eyes were stained red with blood.

We killed her child, she blamed us, didn't blame Nuo Nuo, even if she did something, it was no longer what she originally meant, she couldn't control her thoughts, she just wanted to raise Nuo Nuo, maybe it was the last straw to help her survive when she still had the last trace of sanity at that time.

But I didn't give her even the slightest chance.

She panicked, she lost the ability to control herself, and I killed her

That's how I killed her

After waking up in the hospital room that night, I only opened my eyes for a moment, looked at Chen Wei on the side, and the others who looked tired, and then closed my eyes again.

There was only one sentence back and forth in my head, why should I kill her?! Why should I kill her?! Why, why?!

There was a hanging needle in my hand, maybe it was some nutrient solution given by the doctor, and after feeling the cold needle, I clenched my fist fiercely, and the needle was pierced out of the blood vessel because of the tension of the skin and 'flesh' on the back of my hand.

I didn't feel any pain, my eyes were closed, and my mind was full of thoughts about dying.

Why are people like me still alive?

Why wasn't it me who died?

She's already so miserable, she's already lost a qiē, why should I kill her?!!

Chen Wei, who had been standing at the head of the 'bed', approached me, he grabbed my wrist with great force, and then pulled out the needle in my hand that had been detached from the blood vessels and fell to the ground together with the hanging bottle.

He dragged me up from the bed, breathing faster than ever: "Homo! He was suppressing his anger.

I was forced to get up, I didn't want to open my eyes, I didn't know how to face the light from the outside, anyone from the outside.

"What are you doing!" Chen Wei's tone was already on fire.

"Chen Wei, what are you doing, she has a wound on her body, let her go!" After Dabai's reminder, I remembered the wound on my wrist, and strangely enough, it didn't hurt at all before.

"You all go out." Maybe it's because my parents are in the room, and his voice is a little softer than it was just now. Sugar hua.

Then the room fell silent, and I heard my father sigh deeply, "Let's go out." ”

"But he" Da Bai still wanted to say something, and his tone was worried, but he was stopped by Xiaoyu: "Don't say it, let's go out first." ”

The room quickly fell silent

Chen Wei was still tugging at my arm, and after a long time, he said, "Open your eyes." ”

I didn't react, my body didn't want to react at all, I would rather I be dead at the moment.

"Who are you punishing?!" Perhaps knowing that I had made up my mind, Chen Huan's tone hardened again: "Who are you punishing?!" ”

In the past, when I wanted to cry to many people, I would close my eyes to calm down for a while so that the tears would not fall.

But now I don't feel like crying.

"I didn't punish anyone." My throat was dry, and the words I spoke were like the sound of a broken speaker, and it was unbearable.

"Open your eyes for me!" Chen Wei increased the force of tugging on my arm.

Shaking his head: "I don't want to." ”

"Why?"

"No why, I don't want to."

After a few seconds of silence, I heard Chen Wei taking a deep breath, he had nothing to do with me, and finally his tone softened: "He Mo, you are not wrong, everything you did was right." ”

There was a sudden burst in my heart: "I killed her, you said I was right?" I smashed her skull open alive, you said I was right?!"

Chen Wei held my hand and interlocked his fingers: "Yes, you are not wrong." ”

"Chen Wei" The muscles and flesh of my face were stiff and I couldn't control it: "You are the only one who thinks I'm right, and besides, this is no longer a question of fault and goodness, I killed her, killed a person who was already indebted." ”

"You have to 'push' yourself to death, do you? Ho Mo, do you still want your body? You've always lived like this, what do you want me to do? He Mo, you open your eyes and look at me, what do you want me to do? ”

Chen Wei's words are full of helplessness and grievances, he rarely expresses his feelings, he is too busy, always so busy, I think the time I spend with him is not even as long as the time I spend in a daze.

I suddenly felt sorry for him.

My mind paused for a few seconds before my brain finally gave the command, and I opened my eyes.

Chen Wei leaned over and was close to me, his black and white eyes were full of grievances, he stared at me, and the moment I opened my eyes, he slowly let go of the hand that was holding me and hugged me.

He rested his chin on my shoulder: "Ho Mo, I only have you, understand?" All I have is you. ”

That night, I was the only one in Chen Wei's arms on the cramped bed.

I didn't ask anything.

Until the next day others came to the ward again.

Da Bai and Xiao Yu's eyes were red, and their parents and grandmother were not there.

Seeing me sitting on the 'bed', Da Bai came over and asked me in a hoarse voice if I was still uncomfortable, I took Da Bai's hand and asked with some distress, "What's wrong with you?" ”

Da Bai obviously pressed down his feelings, and 'revealed' a fake smile to me: "Not much"

"Sue me."

She was stunned, glanced back at Chen Wei, and then hesitated to speak: "Grandma is gone."

I think that if you have to classify a person's pain, some psychological pain is more painful than crushing the whole body to break the 'sexual' fracture.

Heartache can really hurt people to death.

"Why?" I stared at Dabai with wide eyes.

The big white tears began to flow again, I grabbed her arm and shook it violently, and shouted out with all my strength: "Why?!! Why!! ”

Da Bai and Xiao Yu finally covered their mouths and cried

I couldn't see my hideous face, my eyes widened as wide as possible, tears gathered quickly, if it weren't for the fact that my brain couldn't control myself, I would have gouged out my eyeballs.

It's all because of you! It's all because of you!!

What's the use of you crying here? What's the use of you crying now?!!

Cheng Yanjin and Li Kuang, who came over on the side, were also wiping their tears, and Xu Yiwen, who hadn't seen him for a long time, stood in front of the 'door' of the room, and he would take a few steps closer: "In the early hours of this morning, I jumped from the ward on the 7th floor." ”

"Impossible" I shook my head, and I didn't know what else to do except deny that I didn't know: "You are all lying to me, Grandma must be waiting for me at home, you are all lying to me!" ”

"No one lied to you, no one lied to you." Xiaoyu's eyes were swollen from crying.

I don't know where the strength came from, I lifted the quilt and jumped off the 'bed', but as soon as I got off the 'bed', my feet were soft, and the whole person collapsed on the ground, I used all my strength to get up, but I couldn't do it I gritted my teeth and pounded the ground hard, which was blocked by Chen Wei, he didn't choose to grab my arm, but put his hand on the ground I was desperately beating.

I watched as my raised hand slapped me in the face.

Da Bai and Xiao Yu immediately pounced and grabbed my hand: "What are you doing, He Mo!" ”

"I'm going to find my grandmother" finally couldn't help it, I cried out loud, crying at the top of my throat, it turned out that I could also cry the effect of a ghost crying wolf.

Grabbing Da Bai and Xiao Yu's clothes, I begged: "Take me to my grandmother, I want to go to see my grandmother, you take me and beg you to take me"

Da Bai couldn't breathe anymore, crying and paralyzed with me: "Why don't you be like this"

"Impossible" I shook my head desperately: "It's absolutely impossible for grandma to be still at home, grandma is still at home, you send me back, I want to find grandma." "I cried and shouted, because my heart was beating fast because of the lack of oxygen, as if it would stop at any moment.

Seriously, I'd rather it really stopped.

Chen Wei hugged me and tried to 'kiss' my forehead so that I could calm down, and he took my whole body into his arms: "I'll take you to He Mo, I'll take you there"

When I was quiet, waiting for Chen Wei to take me to my grandmother, he pulled my hair that was 'mixed' with tears and stuck to my face behind my ears, and then hit me with a knife in the neck

After waking up.

I went to my grandmother's funeral the next day.

The funeral was huge, but not many people attended.

Except for our family, only Chen Yang's family came.

In the empty 'dang' and 'dang' hall, there is a grandmother's coffin in the middle, and there are full of 'flower' circles around it.

No one told me the cause and circumstances of my grandmother's death.

All I know is that she jumped from the 7th floor in the early hours of the morning, and nothing else.

When my relatives finally looked at the body, I didn't dare to look at it, and I stood there trembling.

Mom and Dad didn't talk to me the whole time, and they both knelt beside the coffin, unable to get up despite any persuasion.

Dabai said that my parents had been kneeling all day, and they had to be driven by two people to stand up when they went to the toilet.

Chen Yang stood next to me and sighed several times, and finally mustered up the courage to open his mouth to persuade him, but he was pulled aside by Suotian, who looked at me and pursed his lips and said in a calm tone: "Mourn, pay attention to your body." ”

Ignoring him, I looked blankly in the direction of my grandmother's coffin.

Suo Tian didn't care, said hello to Chen Wei and left with Chen Yang and the others.

In the end, no matter how big the cold funeral ceremony was, my grandmother still needed to be buried alone in that deserted area.

For physical reasons, I was forced to be hospitalized again.

Except for my mom, my dad and the others took turns taking care of me.

Chen Wei never went out of the 'door' again, and sat in front of the 'bed' every day to accompany me in silence.

During this time, I suddenly understood why Chen Wei had spoken so little in the past, and why he always didn't speak.

That's because too much to say is just as pointless as not to say.

Liu's beautiful family came to see me in the hospital once, and the person who came was her husband.

A decent man, but when he came, the whole person had lost his 'color'.

He sat in front of my bed, clasped his hands together, and spoke for a long time: "We don't blame you. ”

Looking at him, without the slightest preparation, tears fell, and the mouth that had not spoken for at least a week opened slightly, and he said hoarsely with a full apology: "I'm sorry"

He 'pumped' and raised his face slightly, and I saw that his eyes began to redden: "It's Meimei's own fault" Before he finished speaking, he paused: "It's our fault that we know that there is something wrong with the beautiful 'spirit', and we haven't taken her seriously." ”

In the face of such words, I feel that all the apologies and repentances are meaningless.

"She wanted to find me to adopt Nuo Nuo before she died" I sniffed and wiped the tears from my face: "I didn't agree"

When Liu Meimei's husband heard this, he was stunned for a few seconds, then covered his face with his hands and lowered his head

He was holding back his grief and 'desire', but he still cried out, and his shoulders kept shaking

Time flies, another month has passed in the hospital, and the weather is finally getting hotter, and the air conditioning is even turned on in the wards.

It's been almost six months since she was pregnant.

The already big belly makes it a little inconvenient for me to move.

I'm still living in the ward, and my mom hasn't come to see me once since my grandmother's burial.

Maybe she knew something, or maybe as I guessed, my grandmother's death was because of me that my mother didn't want to see me again.

Dabai and Xiaoyu come to talk and chat with me every day, but most of the time they are talking, and I am listening.

I rarely answered, and when I had insomnia at night, I always wondered if I had lost the ability to speak, but I was always too lazy to open my mouth to test it.

I haven't seen Nuonuo, Li Kuang and Cheng Yanjin said that Xu Yiwen took her away.

Liu Meili bit off her fingers, and part of her nerves were also destroyed, simply put, she was crippled, and she couldn't use one hand like a normal person in her life.

This should also be considered a punishment.

In fact, God is really 'very' fair, as long as you do something wrong, then whether it is unintentional or intentional, going around in a circle will still be retribution on yourself after all, and the world is actually conserved in general.

I haven't been out of the 'door' of the ward for more than a month, and sometimes the sound of children running around outside the corridor can make me crazy instantly, and then Chen Wei quietly sent someone to guard the corridor to ensure that no one will show up twenty-four hours except for doctors and nurses.

This time, I knew that I would never be able to adjust.

The people next to me tried to avoid all the words that might prick me.

Every time I see them talking cautiously, I feel very distressed, but I can't express it, I don't know how to tell them not to do this, for the sake of me, everyone is so tired.

At the beginning of the second month, Chen Wei finally couldn't be with me anymore, and he came to find him in person.

For more than a month, Chen Wei has been by my side every day, and I am used to it, thinking that my numb heart will no longer care about anything.

But when Chen Wei left with Suotian, the meaning of my daily life, in addition to ensuring the normal operation of my mother, which gave birth to two lives, was to sit on the 'bed' and watch the clock and wait for Chen Wei to come back.

At first, he made sure to come back for dinner with me at about seven or eight o'clock every night, and then he had to come back to dinner at one or two o'clock in the morning.

I won't be able to sleep anyway if he doesn't come back.

The psychiatrist they found would come and chat with me for two hours every Wednesday and Friday.

He is a man in his forties, and his voice is very gentle and magnetic.

If he's not a psychiatrist, I'd love to hear him.

He always has a lot of little stories and truths to tell me, but in the end they are all hinting at the same result, that is, there are always many things to experience in this life, and let them go with the flow in order to free oneself.

I've heard too many things like this, but if everyone could live according to the truth, the world wouldn't be what it is now

This day it was Dabai's turn to be in the hospital, at noon she went to the hospital canteen to eat, I hugged my knees and stared at the clock hanging on the wall, counting down the time when Chen Wei came back second by second.

The room was unusually quiet, except for the sound of the bathroom draining water pipes and the ticking of the clock.

I'm also used to the sound.

As a result, at this time, there was a knock on the door.

I didn't want to pay attention to it, but the knock on the 'door' was very stubborn, and after about five minutes, I slowly got up from the 'bed' and walked to the 'door' of the ward, and opened the 'door'.

A little 'girl' who looked to be six or seven years old was standing in front of the 'door', she had long hair and was beautiful, like a little princess, she looked a little timid when she saw me, but she quickly adjusted, she grinned at me, probably recently changed her teeth, and her 'front' teeth were all gone: "My mother said that there is a sleeping beauty living here." ”

I was a little stunned and looked at her without speaking.

The 'girl' child was probably a little embarrassed when she saw this, but she still smiled and said: "I'm sorry Auntie and mother said that I am not allowed to come here, but I want to see what Sleeping Beauty is like, she said that as long as I treat my illness in the hospital, I will have the opportunity to see Sleeping Beauty, but I have been staying for a long time, and I still haven't seen her." ”

I moved my mouth, but I still couldn't open my mouth.

The little 'girl' child's smile slowly retracted, and her originally radiant face was full of loss: "I'm sorry Auntie, I disturbed your rest." ”

With that, she turned her head and prepared to leave.

I was stunned the moment the word "wait" came out, and my voice was surprisingly unfamiliar.

The little 'girl' child paused and looked back at me: "What's the matter, Auntie?" ”

I stood stiffly in front of the 'door', a little unsure how to continue to speak, and it took a long time to speak: "Are you sick?" ”

Hearing this, the little 'girl' child nodded: "En's illness is very strict." ”

Seeing that she looked lonely, I walked slowly to him, squatted down and tried to change the subject: "Your hair is so beautiful. ”

The little 'girl' child grinned again, then looked at the left and right mysteriously, pulled off the black hair on her head, and 'exposed' the bare head inside, she shook the wig in her hand and said to me who was stunned: "Auntie, don't tell others that this is given to me by my father, saying that if I bring it, I will become a little princess." ”

"You're the little princess." I reached out and took her wig and brought it up for her: "It's beautiful." ”

"Auntie, you're so pretty." She smiled sweetly, her eyes flickered twice on my stomach, and she asked suspiciously, "Auntie, do you have a baby in your belly?" ”

I nodded: "Well, there's a baby." ”

She was pleasantly surprised: "Can I 'touch' or 'touch'?" ”

"Absolutely"

The two little babies were already able to move, usually occasionally at noon and at night, but as soon as the little 'girl' hand touched my belly, the two little babies gave me two punches in the belly, making the little 'girl' child giggle with great joy.