Early the next morning, when Li Haoyu and Cheng Jiahui went to school, Li Haoyu came into my room and saw that I was still sleeping, came over and hugged me and said, "Mom, goodbye, are you going to sleep lazy today?" ”

I put my hand around him and said, "Goodbye, mommy will sleep a little longer".

Cheng Jiahui stood next to me and looked at me with concern and asked, "Auntie has been coming back late every day lately and leaving early, is she too tired?" ”。

I waved my hand to him and smiled and said, "It's okay, the case has been solved, I can rest with peace of mind, you guys go to school, goodbye".

When they left, the room was quiet, and I fell asleep again, because the case was solved, and I didn't pretend to be troublesome, although I slept very peacefully at dawn. Hearing the mobile phone ringing, I reached out and took the mobile phone from the pillow, Gao Jianguo asked on the phone, "Are you still sleeping?" ”

"You're at work? Didn't you say you could go later today? I said lazily on the phone.

"It's twelve o'clock now, you don't plan to sleep at night," Gao Jianguo said on the phone, Zheng Duo's voice could still be heard on the phone, but he couldn't hear what he was saying.

I didn't think about it, I still lay on the bed and said: "I've been boiled down these days, I'm getting older, I can't compare with young people, Qi Jinjun didn't they go?" ”

"Li Hua and Sha Sha they have come, Qi Jinjun did not come, I called him for a long time and no one answered, maybe I slept too deep like you to hear the phone ringing, wait for you to find a house and knock on the door, call him up, you come with him, he is in charge of this case, there are many things behind the case, don't sleep here, sleep again at night!" Gao Jianguo said.

I got up and washed up, and when I called Qi Jinjun, there was still no answer, and I thought to myself, "They are really tired of running these days, they may not wake up yet, and no one will wake him up when their daughter-in-law and children are not at home."

Qi Jinjun and I both live in the family home of the Public Security Bureau, and he lives in the family building at the back. No one answered the phone, I drove to the downstairs where he lived, stood in front of the door of his unit, looked at the window on the fifth floor where he lived open, wanted to go up and knock on the door and felt that the floor was too high, standing downstairs and thinking about it, or call him again, maybe this time he can hear me and I don't have to climb the fifth floor! When I unplugged the phone, I heard the phone ringing, and I was a little surprised that the phone ringing from the fifth floor was so clear. I removed my phone from my ear and listened carefully, and found that the clear phone ringing came from the door of his unit, but the bell rang for so long, why couldn't I hear the footsteps of someone walking? I felt a little weird in my heart, walked over and pushed open the unit door, and saw Qi Jinjun sitting on the steps at the staircase in the dark staircase, leaning against the railing, one hand hanging on the steps beside him, and the handbag he usually used fell aside. With his other hand on his chest and his head hanging over his chest, the phone rang from his coat pocket.

I didn't approach him, but retreated from the unit door, knowing that it was too late, and his one qiē was over. I was dizzy from the harsh sun, and I sat down on the ground involuntarily, first tears flowed silently, then I began to sob, and then I began to cry, and I felt that there was endless sadness flowing from the bottom of my heart, and this sadness was not only because of today, but also because of all the sadness that had been hidden for a long, long time. I kept crying, knowing that someone was coming to ask, and I couldn't stop crying when I heard a loud voice around me. Zheng Duo: When they came, I was still sitting on the ground crying in the dark.

I was sent home by Gao Jianguo and Zhang Zhiqiang, Zhang Zhiqiang looked at me and said, "Still, what's wrong with you?" What haven't we seen in all these years as police officers? You've never been like this! ”

I shook my head weakly: "No, it shouldn't be like this, what I saw before was someone else, now it's our own person, he's such a healthy person, he just said that he was a little tired when we broke up yesterday, and he had to get a good night's sleep, he was only thirty-four years old, he was such a healthy person, how could this be!" How can this be! ”

Gao Jianguo and Zhang Zhiqiang stood beside me and were silent for a long time, and finally Gao Jianguo said in a heavy nasal voice: "Still, you are an understanding person, no one can expect this kind of thing, we don't know what we will meet tomorrow?" You don't even know what you're going to meet in the next moment, do you? ”

"I know, I understand, don't worry, go get busy, I'm fine," I said, tears still flowing.

I just want to cry, for Qi Jinjun, and for myself, I feel that only crying can I vent the sadness in my heart. In the past year, no matter how sad I feel in my heart, I can only try my best to force a smile in front of people, how unwilling I am but feel that I can't do anything, and at this moment I don't know how unwilling Qi Jinjun is, but he doesn't even have a chance to grieve for himself. That despair without a future, that kind of unwillingness to live in this life makes me sad and angry.

I sat quietly in front of the desk, the sunlight outside the window shone obliquely on the desk, I opened "Walden" in front of me but did not look at it, since yesterday Zhang Zhiqiang and they sent me back, I locked myself in the room, the whole family knew what was happening, they also talked and did things as much as possible not to make a sound, not to disturb me.

Cheng Jiahui pushed the door and walked in, he stood in front of me and looked at me, I knew that my cousin made the family very worried, Cheng Jiahui was obviously more sensitive than they were to my feelings, I smiled lightly and said to Cheng Jiahui: "Today is Saturday, why didn't you come home?" ”

Cheng Jiahui looked at me and said, "Auntie, don't be so sad, you kept crying yesterday."

"Scaring you?" I said with a forced smile.

"No, I think you're very pitiful, I'm so sad that I can't help you, Li Haoyu was scared yesterday, and his grandparents didn't dare to speak loudly, they didn't know what to do"

I know that I am now the pillar of the family, and if I blow a little wind, it will be a rainstorm in them, and yesterday I was just sad and sad, and they saw not only that I was sad, but also that they were afraid of Qi Jinjun's sudden death, and they were afraid that that qiē would suddenly befall me. In the past two days, I was just immersed in my own grief, and I didn't care about their feelings, I reached out and patted Cheng Jiahui's arm and said: "I know, the matter has passed, if you don't go back today, go to the movies with Li Haoyu, I'm fine, don't worry!" ”

Cheng Jiahui lowered his head and reached out to touch the book on the table and said, "Auntie, do you like this book very much?" I see you're reading this book a lot."

Actually, I didn't really read this book seriously, but even at home this year, I always couldn't help but wander, and I didn't want my family to find out that I was in a daze for some reason, so I could only put the book in front of me.

I smiled faintly and said, "Yes, I like this book."

"But there's no one in this book, there's nothing," Mr. Cheng said.

"You see," I asked, a little surprised

Cheng Jiahui nodded: "I see that you are often watching, so I took it out and looked at it when you were away."

"There are no people in here, but there are mountains, water, animals, and nature," I said. In fact, what I want to say in my heart is: it is precisely because there is no one in it, no one lives, that I put it in my hand, and turning any page and seeing it anywhere will not affect my heart.

"You like landscapes, insects, birds, and you like to live in nature, don't you?" Cheng Jiahui looked at me eagerly and said.

I smiled and nodded and said, "Yes, I like it".

"Then do you like our village, our family? Our house is by the river, at the foot of the mountain, and we have everything in this book," Cheng Jiahui asked excitedly.

I looked down and smiled, looked up at him and said, "Yes, I like your house, the scenery is good, and your grandparents are very nice".

"Auntie, you marry my father, you will live in our house in the future!" After saying this, Cheng Jiahui looked at me earnestly.

I looked at Cheng Jiahui in disbelief, I never thought that he would have this kind of thought in his heart, what he said was simply fantastical, but there were too many expectations in his eyes, I suddenly felt that I couldn't bear to let him down too much, I knew that this was the expectation of a child who had lost his mother's love for too long.

I took his hand and said to him with a slight smile: "Jiahui, if I don't marry your father, I will always treat you as my own child, and you will always treat this place as your own home, okay?" ”

"What about it? What about when we get into college? I won't be able to live in your house in the future, and I won't be able to stay with you anymore," Cheng Jiahui was obviously disappointed. When he said this, his voice was low, and there was even a hint of sadness in his eyes, and I suddenly felt that this child was too attached to me.

"Auntie, marry my father! He likes you very much, he has money, he has a lot of money, he will be good to you, you marry him, so we can be together forever! Cheng Jiahui said in a pleading tone.

"Jiahui, it's not a matter of money, marriage is to have two people like each other, and you don't understand it yet."

"But I like you, and you like me, don't you?"

"But I can't marry your dad just because I like you."

"Why not? Then you will always live where you like, we will be a family, we will always be together, Auntie, I don't want you to be someone else's family, I want you and I to be a family, my dad will always be good to you, I will not let him treat you badly, I will always be good to you, I want you to always be by my side, when you are old I will take care of you, I will always take care of you and not make you so sad anymore. Cheng Jiahui clenched his fists, and there were even tears in his eyes.

At this moment, his dedication and seriousness were extremely incommensurate with his age of only sixteen