I whispered, "Is it just the body?" ”

He asked rhetorically, "What do you want to ask?" ”

If you are not obsessed with my body, will I be useless in your heart? These words are always what I want to ask, but I didn't have the courage before, and now I don't have the courage to say it, Shen Boteng stared at my face that wanted to speak and stopped, he seemed to see something, a smile flashed in his eyes, he let go of the hand that hugged my body, sat up from the bed and habitually lit a cigarette for himself, he looked at the moonlight thrown in from the window, for a long time, he said: "Do you remember the rules when I wrapped yours?" ”

When he said this, he didn't look at me, but seemed to be talking to himself.

I said, "Yes." ”

The cigarette between his fingers, constantly emitting a silky smoke, emitted a mysterious blue light in the darkness, obscuring his face unrealistically.

He said: "Simple, no trouble, no transgression of the rules, this is my standard for my own women, the previous rules are still the rules, there will be no qualitative changes because of the change of your identity, don't expect too much, because what you think in your heart can never come true." ”

He didn't hug me, I suddenly felt a little cold in my body, I sat up from the bed with the quilt, smiled generously and said: "I know, I never thought about too much, I know my identity, and I also know the gap between me and you, I don't have much faith and pursuit in my life, since you bought me, I will always be your person, unless you take the initiative to not want me, I will not cause you any trouble." ”

Shen Boteng heard what I said, although he didn't speak, but after extinguishing the cigarette, he stretched out his hand to me, I took the initiative to enter his arms, he hugged me, and his hand moved carelessly stroking the skin behind him, and he said, "Sleep in peace." ”

I whispered, and he reached out to turn off the lamp on the right.

After waking up in the morning, Shen Boteng was already having breakfast outside the living room, I came out of the bedroom, Secretary Dai smiled at me, I naturally smiled back at her, just walked to the dining table and sat down, Shen Boteng folded the newspaper in his hand and put it down, and said to me: "There will be a car to pick you up tonight." ”

I asked, "Where to go?" ”

Shen Boteng leaned back in his chair and said, "Eat." ”

I said, "Just the two of us?" ”

He didn't answer quickly, but reached out and ruffled the hair around my ear before saying, "Dress up nicely." ”

After he said this, he withdrew his hand from my ear, and then got up from the dining table and left, taking the coat that Secretary Dai had already handed over and putting it on.

After Shen Boteng went to the company, at about three o'clock in the afternoon, several makeup artists and dress artists came to the hotel, and as soon as they came in, they pressed me in front of the makeup mirror and began to apply all kinds of smears on my face.

When I was working in the clubhouse, although we also needed to wear makeup, it was never very formal, and I was mostly perfunctory, and this was the first time I had been dressed up so formally.

I don't know why Shen Boteng attaches so much importance to tonight's dinner, a woman's nature will inevitably fantasize about whether there will be surprises in her heart, but in my impression this year, and according to my understanding of Shen Boteng, he is not like a romantic person, he has always advocated simplicity, whether it is going to bed, dining, or dealing with people, he has no patience to put time on superfluous things.

This is the first time that I have been dressed up so solemnly, but it makes me look forward to it, and I really go to the appointment with a heart full of expectations.

On the way there, Shen Boteng called me and asked me if I was ready.

I thought about today's outfit, and I couldn't hide the smile on the phone and said, "Tonight's outfit ......"

Shen Boteng said: "How." ”

I tugged at the hem of my skirt and said, "It seems like an exaggeration, don't be scared by me." ”

Shen Boteng chuckled and asked, "It's ugly?" ”

I said, "You will know if it's ugly or not, it won't embarrass you anyway, it's just a little grand." ”

Shen Boteng smiled and said, "I'll see you later." ”

I also smiled and said, "I'll see you later." ”

After the two of me hung up at the same time, I held the phone a little excited, I don't know why, I always felt that there would be something happy to happen at this dinner, I looked at the scenery outside the window, and felt that Secretary Dai, who took me to the dinner, did not speak from beginning to end, so I asked her: "Secretary Dai, what are you thinking?" ”

Secretary Dai didn't react, still looking down at the black phone in her hand, obviously she didn't mean to be silent, but in a daze from beginning to end, I called her again, she still maintained that wooden movement, I stretched out my hand and gently pushed her, Secretary Dai seemed to be instantly frightened, his body suddenly flicked, and he looked at me with a shocked face.

I also looked at her suspiciously, she realized that she was wandering just now, in order to hide her panic, she pinned her hair to her ear, and said with a smile, "Were you talking to me just now?" ”

I laughed and said, "What's wrong?" Did something happen? ”

Secretary Dai immediately denied it and shook his head and said, "No, it's nothing." ”

I said, "But you were wandering just now." ”

Secretary Dai rubbed his forehead and said with a smile: "Maybe I didn't have a good rest last night and was a little sleepy." ”

I said, "If you're tired, you can take a break in the car." ”

Secretary Dai smiled and said, "It's okay, I can still hold on." ”

I said, "Don't be too tired, your body is important." ”

Although Secretary Dai is Shen Boteng's secretary, the relationship between us has always been good, not salty or light, and there is no prejudice against both parties, after a few words of conversation lightly, I didn't bother her again, and looked out the window, when the car turned into another road at the roundabout, Secretary Dai suddenly said a word in the sound of a horn outside the car, she said: "Miss Liang, let me ask you a question." ”

I was a little surprised that she came to me so formally to ask me, looked at her sideways, smiled and asked, "What's wrong?" You said. ”

Secretary Dai lowered his face and was silent for a second, then raised his face again and asked me, "Have you thought about the future?" ”

I smiled and said, "Later?" I shook my head and said, "I never thought that when I was in the clubhouse, my future would be to escape that cage, and now that I have come out, I have never thought about what will happen to me." ”

Secretary Dai asked, "Have you ever thought that one day, your relationship with Mr. Shen will become extremely complicated?" “

I said, "Will it be more complicated than we are now?" ”

Secretary Dai said, "Yes, it's more complicated. ”

I thought about it in my heart and felt that the worst thing about a more complicated relationship was that he got married, and he didn't want me, and I said, "I thought about it, if it gets complicated, if he doesn't want me anymore, then I'll leave and won't pester her." ”

"And do you love him?" Secretary Dai didn't hesitate to ask me this sentence, but stopped me, for more than a year, I don't know what kind of feelings I have for Shen Boteng, I only know that he is the only one who makes me not feel disgusting with men, I like all the qiē on his body, whether it is the look on his face when he talks to me, or the smile, or when he holds me in his arms and grinds his sideburns.

But I don't know if it's love or not.

I shook my head in confusion and said: "Since the age of eighteen, I have never been in love, I will only use all means to please those men, I can go before those men they touch me, I feel disgusting and uncomfortable, Mr. Shen is different, I like him to kiss me, hug me, and smile at me, when he laughs, he is very charming, I am extremely relieved with him, as if the sky is falling, he is on his back, I just need to stay by his side obediently." After I finished describing my feelings, I looked at Secretary Dai and asked, "Is this a liking?" ”

Secretary Dai said: "Like is possession, he will have a wife in the future, do you think about that day?" ”

Secretary Dai's words were like a thorn, piercing my heart, I never thought about that day, because for me, he has a wife, and without a wife, our relationship will never change anything, I just thought about what will happen to me after he doesn't want me.

I said, "No." ”

I felt strange and asked her, "What's wrong?" Asking me these questions all of a sudden, is something going on? ”

Secretary Dai reacted that his question was too extreme, and said with a smile: "No, I'll just ask." ”

Her words were too perfunctory, and I had some doubts in my heart, but even if I had doubts, I didn't have much time to think about it at this time, and I didn't analyze it deeply, and everything in my mind was tonight.

If I had discovered Secretary Dai's weirdness at that time, if I hadn't had too many illusions about Shen Boteng or the relationship between us at that time, I thought, would it have been different?

The woman always maintains an inexplicable self-confidence in the face of feelings, she thinks that she is different to him, but in fact, she is nothing more than a prostitute at best.

My self-confidence is a big joke.