There is more and more warmth in the sunshine - Cheng Jiahui is like my own child and I have no difference at all, every day after doing my homework, I check Li Haoyu's homework and guide him to prepare.

Discussing with me whether they want to attend cram school, analyzing whether Li Haoyu will attend a liberal arts class or a science class in the future, I even feel that he, like me, thinks that he is responsible for Li Haoyu's future, and he really feels like a brother and a father to Li Haoyu, but I sometimes wonder how he can have such a strong sense of responsibility as a child who is only 16 years old.

I am very pleased that my son has made significant progress in his studies, and it also makes me prefer to stay at home, hurry home every day after work, as long as I don't work overtime, cook for them, and chat with them during meals, I feel that my life is on a normal track.

It's just that I often feel a little mentally tired, I don't want to say anything outside of work, and I don't want to care about things other than my two children.

If there is no special reason, they rarely have contact with Jiang Xinya.

The past days are no longer alive, even if I don't think about it, they are getting heavier and heavier, I hold them quietly and let myself sink little by little, I don't want to do hopeless struggles anymore.

Jiang Xinya asked me to accompany her to socialize, I was going to refuse, Jiang Xinya resolutely disagreed, she said in an angry tone: "Lin Yi, do you want to imprison yourself all the time?" You pretend to be okay in front of others but don't try to pretend in front of me, whether you want to or not, you have to come out and get in touch with other people around you, Hu Yali is also here, you have to come"

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I knew she was doing it for my own good, and I didn't want to get too fussy of her and agreed.

Seeing that I was wearing a black coat and a gray scarf, Jiang Xinya frowned slightly and said, "Can you wear some bright clothes?" ”

I smiled and said, "Isn't this good, high-end, atmospheric, and high-grade?"

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"You are left with a hard mouth now, you see that you have a little high-end atmosphere on your body now, you are the spokesperson of the idiom of 'languishing, negative and decadent'"

Jiang Xinya pursed her lips disapprerovingly and said.

I didn't want to say anything more, and I wasn't in the mood to say anything, so I just smiled slightly and stopped talking.

Jiang Xinya looked at what I wanted to say, but she wanted to say it and stopped.

Jiang Xinya is the developer of the Aquatic Garden, and I just sat there smiling and listening to them laugh at the wine table, all the excitement was theirs and had nothing to do with me.

After work the next day, Jiang Xinya came to pick me up at the door of our unit and said that she wanted me to go out to eat with her.

I know that this is something that can't be excused, and Jiang Xin doesn't want me to resign.

I got in the car and said, "We just had dinner together yesterday, why are you here again today, your entertainment is too much, I'm almost your recruitment girl"

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Jiang Xinya glanced at me and said, "If you are asked to come out, you will come out, now that your son has someone to take care of for you, what else do you have to worry about?"

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I smiled and said, "I don't need to learn anything else, I should at least cook for them and accompany them, right?" I don't have much time to spend with them, and in two years they will be flying away."

Jiang Xinya snorted and said, "I haven't seen you so attentive before, are you for Li Haoyu or Cheng Jiahui?" ”

I grinned and said: "Cheng Jiahui's child's living and study habits are so good, he gets up and sleeps on time, and his school supplies and daily necessities are placed in an orderly manner, which is more organized than those young men in our criminal police team, and now Li Haoyu is also on the road by him."

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Jiang Xinya didn't look at me and snorted from her nostrils: "Here it is again, do you have to praise Cheng Jiahui every time you talk about Li Haoyu, Lin Yi, Li Haoyu is your son or Cheng Jiahui is your son?" ”

I smiled and said, "I really think that Cheng Jiahui and I are more connected, and when I communicate with him, he can often draw inferences from each other, and his knowledge is constantly expanding, and you can feel that he is improving every day, which makes me feel a sense of achievement." Now I often read their textbooks at home, their textbooks have added a lot of new content compared to when I first went to school, and I often look at them and feel that I am going to school and learning new knowledge with them every day, as if I have returned to my student days, I feel very good, there is a text of "Mr. Goyanagi" that you learned when you were in school? I remember not learning when we were in school. Jiang Xinya listened to me babbling for a long time without saying a word, and after a while, she looked at the road in front of the car and said lightly: "Still, whether it is Li Yuhao or Cheng Jiahui, it is not the whole of your current life, let alone the whole of your future life, your work can't accompany you for a lifetime, you still have a retirement time, and even your parents can't accompany you for a lifetime, they also have a day when they go before you, when do you want to hide." It's not that a person can't get by, but it's not like you are now." I smiled lightly and was silent, I didn't need to hide my frustration and loneliness in front of Jiang Xinya. If the heart is not at peace, nothing can fill the emptiness. Jiang Xinya parked the car on the side of the road in North Park, held the steering wheel in her hand, lowered her head and looked at her hand in silence for a while, and said, "Mr. Cao, who had dinner with us yesterday, said that he likes you very much and wants to get to know you, what do you think?" "Isn't the boss who developed the aquatic garden surnamed Huang? Why is the surname Cao again? I asked, puzzled. Yesterday you sat at the wine table, where was your mind? It's not Mr. Huang, it's the person next to him who invested with him," Jiang Xinya said dissatisfied. "Oh, isn't that the fat white man?" I thought about it for a moment and said Jiang Xinya squinted at me: "Well, that's it" I pulled the corners of my mouth and sneered slightly: "What is that Mr. Cao doing?" How I listened to him all night talk about how he dug pits and robbed people with fire." Jiang Xinya saw my mocking expression and said dissatisfiedly: "Hey, Cao is always engaged in investment, that is the operation of funds, it is normal to seek advantages and avoid disadvantages, don't say it so badly!" If you want to say that he is really rich, he is richer than Mr. Huang, he has villas and luxury cars, and he is the major shareholder of the development of the Aquatic Park." "He has a villa luxury car! Am I a starving person living on the streets, homeless, and waiting for alms? You're not going to tell them I'm single, are you? I glanced at her dismissively. I don't know why Jiang Xinya's thoughts about this person made me think of Huo Guangming all of a sudden, and I felt disgust in my heart for no reason. "No," Jiang Xinya said with her head down and her voice lowered. I sneered and said, "Didn't that Cao always think that favoring an old woman who is still a little beautiful in the small county town of Qingbei is a great favor to this woman, no matter whether this woman has a family or not, she will flock to him?" He's too self-righteous." "He didn't mean that, he just said that you have a different temperament, and you just want to be friends with you" Jiang Xinya said softly in an understated tone, I knew that she was weak when I heard it. I sneered, "Different? He had a discerning eye and could see that I was different! He thinks he is Bole, and he has a good eye in the small county town of Qingbei? Jiang Xinya was a little angry and turned her head to stare at me and said, "Lin Yi, I don't mean anything else when I say these words to you, I just want you to open your mind and communicate with others and be a friend, I just want to tell you that you are still great and there are still many people who like you." This person is indeed inferior to Chen Jingde, but you don't have to think that he likes you and insults you, do you think that Chen Jingde is unwilling to leave you just as if you were playing here, so he is angry with all the people who like you? "I didn't give in, and I didn't get angry with others," I said weakly. When he was there, although we never said love, I firmly believed that he loved me, and that was the only reason we were together. But in the year since he was gone, there was no news, and I thought of a hundred and a thousand reasons why he was with me, but I was more and more uncertain about his intentions, and I no longer believed so much in his affections, and this doubt made me more and more disheartened. Jiang Xinya sighed and said: "Still you can't continue to indulge like this forever, when Wu Tianyang left, you quickly found a Li Jiaming to save yourself." But it's been a year since Chen Jingde left, do you know that your mind has been wandering away from all of us for a year, and you are among us, but your heart doesn't know where it is? Li Qiutong said that you don't know where now, you have an epiphany, you are becoming more and more detached, and you are becoming less and less cannibalistic. Lin Yi, do you want to just hold on to you and his past and indulge in it all the time? Do you want to escape from real life forever like this? You don't have more than ten years of time to waste, if you miss these years, it will be a lifetime, a lifetime! Did You Know? Jiang Xinya suddenly became excited, and there were tears in her eyes. I looked at her, and she lowered her head and put her hands on the steering wheel. I feel that she is not only talking about me, but also herself, both of us are talented and beautiful women in the eyes of others, and we should live very happily, but we don't, I am not reconciled, how can she be willing! "No, I won't be like this all the time, I'm just waiting for time to slip away, waiting for me to forget him, I'll forget him," I said stubbornly. "How long will it take, another 10 years or more? Or wait for the next Chen Jingde to appear," Jiang Xinya asked without flinching. There won't be another Chen Jingde, there won't be another one, and I can't let my life go idle for another ten years, but I don't know what I'm going to do now? I don't know what Jiang Xinya should do, Qingbei County is her birthplace and her cage. Whether she loves or not, she has to live with Zhang Minxuan, even if it is to live for others and Ke'er.