Director Guo went to the distant county to prepare for the pre-construction project of the film and television city, Qi Yun stayed in the office to do the paperwork and backup work, the work was not busy, but he couldn't see Director Guo's warm red face, and couldn't hear his loud shouting, Qi Yun's heart was very empty.

Seeing that it is the Spring Festival, the temperature has plummeted. Since the morning of that day, fine Xiaoice crystals began to fall outside the window, fortunately, the logistics department of the bureau was very responsible, burning the heating hot, Qi Yun was sweating in a single sweater indoors, but his eyes swept over the white and cold world outside from time to time, and somehow he felt like he was trapped in fire and ice.

Suddenly, someone walked into Qi Yun's office without knocking on the door, and he was wrapped in a wind and snow smell from outside. Qi Yun looked down at his watch, thinking that it was He Ziyu who came in, so he pointed to a chair opposite his desk without raising his head and said to him familiarly: "You sit by yourself, I will get off work after writing this report, and we will have dinner together." ”

The other party obediently sat down and waited for her. While reading the report, Qi Yun heard the young man's unique vigorous breathing, and suddenly felt that something was wrong, and raised his head in surprise, but he saw Lu Wei sitting opposite her, looking at her deeply with a pair of black eyes.

Qi Yun jumped up from his seat suddenly, subconsciously grasping a stack of reports in his hand, and stammered and asked:

"You...... How are you? ”

Lu Wei stood up, leaning towards Qi Yun across the table,

"Little Cloud ......"

Qi Yun dodged backwards and leaned against the wall behind his desk. This gesture of self-defense touched Lu Wei, he rushed forward two steps and jumped to her side, gritted his teeth and grabbed her chin with his hand, and pressed her shoulder with all his strength to kiss her.

"Ahh

Qi Yun's scream fell back into her throat, her shoulder was pressed by his hand in pain, and in the space where she struggled, his tongue drove straight in, hard, fiery, tyrannical, this kiss did not seem to be in demand, but like to seek, looking for but in the end, only to toss and turn anxiously, like pins and needles.

She finally reacted to her intense surprise, pushing and kicking him hard:

"Get out! Get out! ”

Lu Wei didn't struggle, let her punch and kick. But his subordinates did not relax at all, he pinched her chin and forced her to look up at him:

"You can look down on what I do, because you don't know what survival is! You laugh at what I do because you don't understand what dignity is! The dignity of existence is innate to you, and for me, it is exchanged for what you despise! ”

She wanted to say that he had hurt her, but she knew he hurt more. He spoke to her, word by word, all of which were the deepest and most shameful fears in his heart.

Qi Yun suddenly remembered May's words, and suddenly felt that her heart was like a knife, a hundred times more painful than his hand brought to her. She shuddered, her face tilted back to meet him.

Lu Wei saw her eyes, her body was like a leaky balloon, deflating little by little, and her conceit, which was inflated by hatred, gradually fell to the ground and turned into a shriveled piece.

He finally let go, and did not dare to touch her eyes again, and said softly:

"You can look down on me for the rest of your life, I don't blame you. But Uncle Qi's crime is far less than what they sentenced, and I will definitely find a way to get Uncle Qi out. ”

Qi Yun was silent. He was suddenly a little afraid that she would open her mouth to thank him, so he hurriedly turned and walked to the door, and when his hand was on the doorknob, he heard Qi Yun softly call his name, the voice so ethereal that he couldn't believe it was real, almost like an autumn leaf in the wind.

Qi Yun also felt that this voice didn't seem to come from himself, but he clearly heard this voice asking:

"He Miliang's child...... Isn't it yours? ”

Lu Wei's back was shocked, and he turned back in horror and asked, "You!" You...... Listen to whom? ”

Qi Yun's tears finally fell heavily.

"How many years have passed, Lu Wei, you are still the same ...... as before"

Seeing her wiping the tears like a fountain with the back of her hand, crying like a mess, Lu Wei sighed and said:

"Didn't you just say we'd have dinner together in the evening? Let's go. ”

The place to eat selected by Lu Wei is a high-end private club, the environment is very dark and comfortable, Lu Wei randomly ordered a few local dishes in Shanghai, small dishes and plates, exquisite and delicious. Lu Wei asked them to warm a small jar of rice wine, which was said to be the eighteen-year-old daughter Hong, and when the altar was opened, it was really extraordinary: the transparent amber liquid flowed in the jar, pure and lovely, pleasing to the eye, and exuding a rich and attractive aroma.

Lu Wei poured Qi Yun a cup, "Warm up." ”

Qi Yun's lips touched the warm cup, and she reflexively shivered, she raised her glass and drank a small pool of liquid in the cup in one gulp, her lips felt the sweet, sour, slightly astringent and spicy mixed taste, only then did she feel that the blood in her body was slowly flowing again, and her eyes were also angry.

Lu Wei also drank a cup himself, "Like you said, how many years have passed...... he smiled self-deprecatingly, "Qi Yun, today I'll tell you how I've spent all these years, okay?" ”

"But what I want to know most is: Why did you break up with me back then? Don't you love me anymore? ”

Qi Yun's eyes stared straight at Lu Yu. In fact, she herself is nervous and depressed, after so many years, she is still the same as in the past? I can't always learn to be mature and tactful, and the questions in my heart must be asked without beating around the slight.

What she didn't expect was that this time Lu Wei replied unexpectedly: "No, I love you." ”

Looking at Qi Yun's expression with his mouth wide open and stunned on the other side, Lu Wei's feelings were like that of a soldier who had been injured for a long time, suddenly cut open the wound, squeezed out the pus and blood, and scraped off the carrion.

"When I graduated, I couldn't find any job," Lu said, "I questioned myself countless times in my heart, and I was even more afraid that I wouldn't be able to give you happiness - this feeling, you know?" ”

Looking at his tightly frowning brows, Qi Yun only felt that the resentment and grievances that had accumulated for many years had faded for a while. She nodded and whispered:

"I understand."

That year, Lu Wei stayed in the city after graduating from college, originally for a dream in the heart of a teenager, but also to stay by the side of his beloved girl. He lives in a basement rented by eight people, eating only two bags of instant noodles a day, and struggles to find a job.

Qi Yun only knew that it was not easy for him to find a job, but she still had no way of knowing about his embarrassing life, Lu Wei was unwilling to let her know this, but he knew that he had no other choice, otherwise would he go back to his hometown to farm? For many years, the only thing he was good at was studying, and compared with his peers in the countryside, it can be said that he can't pick up his shoulders, and even farming is no longer a good hand.

After the university continues to expand its enrollment, it is not easy for fresh graduates to find jobs in the city, and Lu Wei knows it. He also made a lot of efforts and preparations for this: he was excellent in all his homework in college, and he participated in as many activities and social internships organized by the school as possible, but he really waited until he graduated to realize that life was crueler than he imagined.

For a long time after graduation, Lu Wei spent time in encountering walls again and again, not to mention his nose, and his self-esteem was also killed. A decent work unit doesn't even look at him, and the unit that is willing to accept him always looks suspicious, and the salary offered is not any advantage compared with those dolls in Lu Wei's hometown who did not graduate from junior high school and went to the city to work.

At first, Lu Wei was still standing, and he didn't pick up the hydrangea thrown by the unit he didn't like, thinking that he would always find a job that could support him to stand with Qi Yun in a dignified manner. But the more he got later, the more bottomless he became. It's been so long since he graduated, and he has been relying on the meager income of two part-time tutors when he was in school to maintain his daily expenses, that money is obviously tantamount to a drop in the bucket for a man who lives independently in the city, Lu Wei really can't imagine that he almost peeled off a layer of skin to get a college diploma, and in the current city has flooded to the point that it is not much stronger than a roll of toilet paper.

It was under such circumstances that Lu Wei proposed to break up with Qi Yun. Yes, he had to break up, he knew that Qi Yun would cry, his heart would ache, and he would even be heartbroken, and while he ignored her with a cold heart, his heart was even more frozen into a cold lump of ice.

Almost every night, lying on the cramped bunk of the student apartment, Lu Wei would still think of Qi Yun. The two of them used to be better off like that! At that time, he was still a proud teenager, thinking that he could hold up a piece of heaven for himself and his beloved girl with his own hands, but reality ruthlessly shattered his illusions, leaving only a depression and sadness.

Later, I heard a male classmate in the class say that Qi Yun was arranged by her father to work in the Education Bureau, and as soon as he graduated, he served an iron rice bowl, not to mention, it was still a hot education department, his first reaction was to be happy for Qi Yun, and when the male classmate said sourly: "In the era of fighting father, it is better to have a good baby than to do anything", Lu Wei retorted unhappily: "You can't say this, although her father arranged a job for her, but this civil servant position, she still has to pass the exam herself to count, she must be able to be admitted, is to have the ability and deserve it. ”

The male classmate laughed: "Lu Wei, is your brain bad at reading?" Qi Yun's father is a powerful cadre of the Provincial Construction Committee, what kind of character is that! What civil service exams? It's just a formality, even if Qi Yun hands over a white roll, someone will naturally help her hide from the world! ”

Lu Wei was dumbfounded, not knowing that things could still be handled like this. The male classmate counted Lu Worry again: "You are really stupid!" Bai played with Miss Qi for a few years, but the relationship between the old man and the old man did not match at all. Think about it, if you made Qi Yun's belly bigger when you were in college, Qi Yun is the only daughter of her family, and I heard that the old man at home spoiled her so lawlessly...... If that's the case, until now, are you still worried that Qi Yun and his father won't arrange the future path for you properly? Hehe, that's really a combination of wealth and sex, and it's really a great joy in life! ”

Lu Weiyan's face suddenly changed when he heard this, and he scolded: "Nonsense! The male classmate looked at Lu Wei and got angry, but he didn't get angry, he only had a mysterious smile on his face, and asked provocatively: "Lu Wei, do you dare to say that you haven't thought about it like this?" Didn't think about it in the slightest? ”

Lu Weibei turned around and ignored the male classmate. But that night, when he was lying on the bunk in the cramped and muddy basement, his nose smelled the smell of sweat and feet mixed with everyone's body, and when he farted with chaotic dreams ringing in his ears, he opened his eyes wide and looked at the black of the void, and his face involuntarily showed a complicated and indescribable smile, which seemed particularly ambiguous and cheap in the chaotic night.

But after only a while, Lu Wei immediately sobered up, and after sobering up, Lu Wei slapped himself hard, and scolded in his heart: Lu Wei, Lu Wei, you are really cheap! Have you allowed this city to eat your conscience? Have you scared the city so much that it has gone limp to the bone?

When he woke up the next morning, Lu Wei felt that he was not afraid of the city. He has suffered too much since he was a child, and it is nothing to suffer a little more now-except, he can't let a girl like Qi Yun, who was born with a silver spoon in his mouth, eat his destined suffering with him, and accompany him through the detours he was destined to take.

He and Qi Yun are not all the way at all. When he recognized this matter, his heart was bitter as he had never been, and it was so difficult that he could hardly get over that hurdle. If a person spends his whole life at the bottom of a dark well, soaking in Coptis chinensis water, then in the long run, he will get used to it, and he will not even feel that there is any bitterness in it. But if one day, if one day he opened the mouth of the well and let him see the bright world outside, gave him a taste of the sweetness of sugar, and then closed his well and threw him back into the coptis water, he would be unbearable.

Although the longing in his heart is foolish, it is so fragrant and beautiful, it exists like faith, and it sets off his real life like hell. Lu Wei knew that he had to forget about Qi Yun.

Finally, it was a phone call from his father that helped him remove the cinnabar mole in his heart. His father's phone call reminded him of his hometown that he had not returned to for a long time, the dry and barren land, the premature aging and wrinkled faces of his parents, their long-torn hands and their shoulders that were always stiff, and his younger sister who had to interrupt her studies for her and work in a black factory with no rest, no entertainment and no future...... He remembered what his male classmates laughed at him during the day today, Qi Yun's father is a powerful cadre of the Provincial Construction Committee, what kind of character is that! Even civil servants can arrange for their daughters at will-yes, he and Qi Yun are two people at all, but by accident, they have walked hand in hand for a while. This is already the most luxurious and sweet thing in his life, and now that it has passed, it is useless for him to be nostalgic.

He didn't expect Qi Yun to call him again. When he received Qi Yun's call, Lu Wei was in the bustling recruitment conference, and he sent resumes to various employers with smiling muscles on his face. The phone vibrate, and when he saw Qi Yun's number displayed on it, his palms immediately sweated. I ran to a corner of the recruitment hall and wiped my hands on my thinly washed white T-shirt before picking up the phone.

He asked softly, "Qi Yun?" ”

I didn't even dare to make too much noise, for fear that it would be a dream, and even more afraid of waking myself up from the dream.

Qi Yun told him that she was going to teach, and the location of the teaching was not far from his hometown, which is also a county in the country's poverty-stricken county. Lu Wei was shocked, almost between the fire and lightstone, he understood why Qi Yun did this-she was trying to get closer to him!

Will it? Lu Wei's palms sweated again, so slippery that he could barely grasp the phone. He didn't dare to confirm his thoughts, for fear that he would be ridiculed for being self-inflicted. The surging of his chest made his chest hurt, but the stubborn inferiority complex and coldness that he had been stubborn since childhood formed a cold wall between him and her.

He couldn't even utter a proper word, just a soft "oh".

Then, not knowing what to say, he fell silent again. The noisy background sound of the recruitment meeting, coupled with the slightest electric current, converges into a black hole. He watched as his love, his hope, the glimmer of his fantasies about life were sucked into this huge black hole, into the never-ending darkness, never to be seen again.

He was so sad, helpless, and hopeless. Over there, Qi Yun was probably impatient to wait, and quickly said to him, "I'm going to catch the train, don't talk." He hung up the phone with a bang.

He pinched his mobile phone with a busy sound and stood alone for a long time.

A few days later, Lu Wei met the male classmate who was like a middle-aged woman. The male classmate first asked Lu Wei sideways to ask if he and Qi Yun had any "follow-up progress"? After getting Lu Wei's categorical denial, the male classmate described to him in detail the scenery of Qi Yun affiliated to the Northwest Teaching under the Education Bureau, the farewell party that embraced the overall scale, Qi Yun's talented application, and Qi Yun's reputation as an outstanding young man in the city's education circle. Even the leaders of the provincial party committee had Qi Yun's blue eyes at a certain meeting, and somehow they were known by this classmate who had a keen sense of smell like a hunting dog.

"What is marketing? It's called marketing! Look at Qi Yun's father, no wonder he is a big official, it is really not the courage and means of ordinary people! Alas, reincarnation is also a technical job, and you and I are finished in this life. ”

Lu Wei had always been unhappy to hear such words, but this time, he silently did not speak. A faint sourness welled up in my heart. He and Qi Yun were such a "talented and beautiful" couple in college, and no one felt that they were not a good match at all, but when they arrived in society, they were completely different. When he thought like this, a strange jealousy for Qi Yun surged deep in his heart.

The weather gradually cooled down, and when Lu Wei went to look for a job, he put on the suit that Qi Yun half-coaxed and half-gave him, I don't know if that suit brought Lu Wei good luck, and a few days later, Lu Wei received a call to go to work.

Of course, the job is not very ideal, and it has nothing to do with the top major he learned in college, which is working as a sales representative in an automobile city, and the starting salary is only 1,000 yuan a month. If this job was for Lu Wei when he just graduated from college, he would still consider accepting it, but now, Lu Wei accepted it without hesitation, and he hoped that this job would be a good start.

Lu Wei wore a navy blue suit to work in the Motor City. He is tall and handsome, and his clothes look extremely ironed on him, as soon as he enters the gate of the automobile city, he triggers a group of sales girls "siege", more than a dozen young girls "hula" surround him, and a bold one also came forward to hold Lu Wei's arm, making Lu Wei's face red, embarrassed.

It took a long time for Lu Wei to explain to this group of enthusiastic girls that he was not a high-roller who came to buy a car, but a car sales representative like them. The girls dispersed in disappointment, and whispered with some hatred: "Hmph, it's a pity that I have a good skin, and I thought I was rich and handsome!" Others frequently looked back at Lu Wei's face, recommending vehicles to customers while not forgetting to look in Lu Wei's direction.

The first day was almost noon, and a man with a face that seemed to have written "everything is under control" walked up to him, nodded a few words to him, and told him concisely: 1,000 yuan base salary, a quarter to complete the minimum sales of 300,000 yuan, after the completion of another 5% of the return commission, if it can't be completed, directly out of the gate of the automobile city.

The man had thick hair combed back into a big back, and he wore brown glasses, and he was tall. He introduced himself as Deng, the sales director of this automobile city, and Lu Wei's current direct superior, Lu Wei and other sales representatives called him Brother Deng. One day after that, Inland Worry looked at Brother Deng's figure in the spacious and bright sales hall several times, and Brother Deng's back also revealed a firm and confident bearing like his face, Lu Wei secretly decided: To be a man is to be a man like Brother Deng.