Chapter 479: To Fear Life

After finishing the call with Qiao Ye, I bought a ticket to Beijing, and after getting my boarding pass at the airport, I sat in the waiting hall and waited for the flight.

After a while, I saw Qin Miao from the other direction, who was also holding a boarding pass and hurried to this side. This is not a coincidence, Qiao Ye must have called her too, the anxiety and heartache in her face are not mixed with a little falsehood, I know that she, like Qiao Ye, regards Xiaoyu, a child who only has one side, as another sustenance in her heart.

My heart was extremely heavy, and when Qin Miao saw me, she didn't show too much surprise, she sat down next to me, and then fell silent. I understood that what she wanted at the moment was not comfort, but time, and she was worried about the fear of not being able to see the last side of Xiaoyu, and I completely saw it in my eyes.

I patted her lightly, and she cried, then lay on my shoulder, choked up in pain: "Jiang Qiao, is what Qiao Ye said true?" …… I don't believe it's true, the last time I went to see him, he was fine, it's only been a few days!? ”

I can't put it into words. At this moment, it is not that Qin Miao is hypocritical or fragile, only after experiencing all this that she has experienced can a person truly appreciate how desperate she is at this time. In fact, in her heart, she knows better than anyone that this little fish is not another small fish, but she just needs this sustenance to get rid of the despair in her heart. But today, this expectation is about to turn into despair, how desperate she must be!

I didn't speak, and I didn't want to unrealistically give her the hope that a little fish wouldn't die, I just gently hugged her like a friend, making her feel that there was someone else who could listen to her and bear the pain with her at this moment.

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At half past one in the afternoon, when the plane from Nanjing to Beijing took off, Qin Miao and I were not sitting next to each other, but after discussing with the crew and the passenger next to Qin Miao, I sat next to her.

The moment I took off, the huge inertia, as if killing all my emotions, I looked through the window that was only bigger than a palm, and looked at the city below me that was many times larger than the plane, I was dumbfounded, and I was stunned, I didn't have a temper to think, is there another space?

In that space, Nanjing is still called Nanjing, and Beijing is still called Beijing, Jiang Qiao has a very happy time in Nanjing, and Xiaoyu has become a healthy teenager in Beijing, he plays football with many children who are about his age, laughs, and plans to make friends with little girls. And Qin Miao and Qiao Ye are even happier, because their little fish is a clever child, and they will call their parents.

Yes, I would rather be so numb to myself, believing that there are two worlds, and the I who dominate me at the moment is just living in a slightly sad world, and I am happy in another space.

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Halfway through, Qin Miao's mood gradually calmed down, and I also said goodbye to that state of numbness and fantasy, and I remembered what Chen Yi told me before. So, he tentatively asked Qin Miao: "There is something I want to ask you, do you suspect that the car accident back then was instructed by Su Han behind his back?" ”

Qin Miao looked at me with a particularly sober look and asked rhetorically, "Did Chen Yi talk to you?" …… She really knows everything to you! ”

I didn't deny it, I nodded, but Qin Miao fell into silence again, and only said to me after a long time: "Yes, I just doubt her, because her recent actions are suspicious, otherwise I don't want to think so badly of human nature...... Jiang Qiao, do you believe that the French Open will be restored without leakage? After a pause, she replied to herself, "I believe, I really believe...... Those who have done all the bad deeds will surely receive retribution one day. People can deviate from their own path, but they must not cut off other people's paths, otherwise it will be my resentment, and it will be enough for her to be a beast in the next life. ”

I looked at Qin Miao and wanted to say something, but I never spoke, because whether it was Qin Miao or Su Han, they were both women who were tortured by fate to the point of being a little abnormal, which could be felt from their extreme words, but the difference was that Su Han always gave people a faint feeling of concealment, but Qin Miao was really injured, and the car accident a few years ago changed everything for her.

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After the plane landed at the airport in Beijing, Qin Miao and I took a taxi to the hospital non-stop, fortunately, the road conditions were not bad. We rushed to the hospital before evening, and the first person we saw when we entered the ward was Qiao Ye, and there was no one else standing next to Le Yao with a solemn face. Come to think of it, Xiaoyu is really lonely.

I stood beside his bed with Qin Miao, Qin Miao held his hand and asked softly, "Xiaoyu, can you hear your mother?" ”

Xiao Yu opened his eyes, and what shocked me was that he regarded Qin Miao, who had only one side, as his sustenance, and there must have been a good promise between them, so he held Qin Miao's hand very hard, and then broke out with a strong desire to survive**, he said to Qin Miao: "Will you really be my mother?" …… I'm dying, but I don't want to die...... Uncle Ehashi said that as long as I am a tough guy, I will not die...... I listened to him, every day is very hard, if it weren't for Qiao's father saying that I can't hit my head, I would want to hit my head against the wall, because the tough guy's head is the hardest, and it won't hurt anywhere. ”

Qin Miao held back her tears, avoided the sad place, and replied with a smile: "Silly boy, didn't we just say it last time, when you get better, we will take you to Nanjing to live together, so of course I am your mother...... Also, you can only believe half of your father's words at most, there is nothing wrong with being a tough guy, but it is stupid to hit your head against the wall, so Miao Ma hopes that you will be a smart child while being a tough guy, because only being smart and strong can allow you to overcome difficulties and get through all the difficulties, do you understand? ”

When the people present heard Qin Miao say this, they couldn't help but feel sad, because no matter how sincerely she told Xiaoyu the truth of being a man, it couldn't change the tragic fact that he was about to say goodbye to this world.

Xiao Yu closed his eyes again, the relentless pain was still tormenting him, his voice was much weaker, and he said to Qin Miao again: "Mother Miao, I really want to eat ice cream, can you buy me one?" ”

"Little fish, you can't eat something cold."

Qiao Ye, who had been standing beside Xiao Yu and didn't speak, said to Qin Miao: "I'll buy it and fulfill his wish." ”

Le Yao and I glanced at each other, and neither of us objected, because we all knew that the reason he wanted to eat cold things was because of the fever of his internal organs, and his time was really running out. However, I really couldn't stand watching a living life disappear from my eyes. And the so-called two worlds are just fantasies made up by myself in order to alleviate the pain of parting, Xiaoyu can only live in this world, die in this world, and I can't escape the alternation of life and death.

So, I said to Qiao Ye, who was about to leave: "I'll go with you, let's buy more and eat together, seeing that it's also the season to eat cold drinks, haven't you tasted it yet?" ”

Everyone nodded with great difficulty, and then I went out with Qiao Ye, but during this time in the elevator, we didn't say a word.

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When we walked out of the main entrance of the hospital, we met Xiao Ai who walked down from the taxi, she was holding flowers and wearing sunglasses, and her grief was already written on her dress, but I didn't expect her to come.

Once again, we came face to face......

Qiao Ye said to me: "She also came to see Xiaoyu, I came to Le Yao once before, you accompany her, I can buy what Xiaoyu eats, and I can't buy much." ”

I nodded, Qiao Ye walked outside alone, and only me and Xiao Ai were left in the shade, she took off her sunglasses and looked at me, but I said to her first: "In the evening, your concert is about to be held, I didn't expect you to take the time to come." ”

"I should come over because this kid is the bridge between me and Le Yao, and he is like this now, even if the concert is postponed, he must come to see him......" After a pause, she added: "Although he may not necessarily be close to me, he treats me as a particularly familiar person." ”

I looked at her and saw in her eyes a kind of calmness in the face of life and death, so I believed in the fact that Yuan Zhen was dead. After experiencing Yuan Zhen's death, it should be difficult for anyone to pry her painful nerves, and this is the biggest change in her, she seems to have been in a state of not being sad or happy when facing me, but I would rather she is suppressing her emotions, because she makes me feel strange, as if she comes from another painful world.

Now, my meeting with her is basically fate, but I didn't take this opportunity to say a few more words to her, I followed her footsteps and walked towards the elevator entrance. When the elevator started to operate, Xiao Ai unexpectedly took out a ticket from his bag, then handed it to me, and said to me: "I have already held two concerts, but without you, there would be no third one in Beijing, so I invite you to watch my concert tonight...... Here's the ticket, you take it. ”

I was stunned for a moment and took it from her hand, and she looked at me at this time, and said: "When I gave you a ticket for the first time, I waited for you for a whole show, and you didn't go, will you go this time?" ”

In a moment of eye contact, my thoughts were pulled back to the distant past, it was the early autumn when we first met, everything was full of freshness, we tested each other, and integrated into each other, and finally became a couple, everything seems so like a dream now, and at this moment, this dream repeats itself!

I subconsciously lowered my head, then took it from her hand and whispered, "I will go, unless the sky falls!" ”

Xiao Ai finally had a trace of mood swings, but even then he didn't say much, and then extended this silence to Xiaoyu's hospital room.

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The ward was surprisingly quiet, Xiao Ai put the flowers on Xiao Yu's bedside, she first nodded to Le Yao, and then glanced at Qin Miao, and Xiao Yu fell asleep again, he looked much weaker than the last time they met, and all this happened in the past week.

An atmosphere of sadness pervades the ward...... In the end, it was Le Yao who opened her mouth, and she said to Xiao Ai: "There are us here, you hurry up and prepare for the concert, you can do your best, Xiaoyu will thank you." ”

Xiao Ai looked at Xiaoyu and shook her head, she insisted: "After staying for a while, maybe when I walk out of this door, I will never see him again, I have never seen such a cute child." ”

Just as he was talking, Qiao Ye returned to the ward with a convenient bag of ice cream, he woke up Xiaoyu again, and then peeled off the packaging bag on it and asked Qin Miao to deliver the ice cream to Xiaoyu's mouth, Xiaoyu just licked it, but said that there was no taste......

I am afraid this is a sign before dying, Xiao Yu just looked at Qiao Ye and looked at me, and he said weaker and weaker: "Father Qiao, Uncle Jiang...... You must have lied to me, didn't you? …… I'm already a tough guy, but why am I still dead...... I really don't want to die! …… I want to go to Nanjing with you, and you said that you want to play football with me...... I love playing football the most......"

The more Xiao Yu spoke, the more he gasped, and then closed his eyes again, and Qin Miao was already in tears, if that little fish left silently, then this little fish in front of him would make the most painful goodbye...... At least, my heart has been torn apart.

Qiao Ye smashed his hand against the wall in pain, and he choked up extremely depressedly: "Why, why is this happening...... I donated all the money for the project in Tianjin, why can't I ask for a blessing? …… Isn't leukemia curable, and why has it become a fatal disease when you get here? …… What the is that? ”

I closed my eyes and didn't want to look at this painful scene, but I heard Qin Miao say softly again: "Xiaoyu, don't be sad, I will wait for you with Qiao's father in the next life, wait for you to be our child, and our family of three will never be separated......"

These words broke my heart again, I remembered that a few days ago, Qiao Ye said to me with hope, he believed in miracles, believed that everything would be fine, but reality gave a blow to the head so quickly, and what kind of determination do we have to continue to be optimistic?

My heart is sinking more and more, and my expression is gradually solidifying, it turns out that in the face of life and death, it will really make people realize, this time, I want to cherish those who are still in front of me and have not gone far.

My hand seemed to be driven by an instinct, and then I held Xiao Ai's hand next to me, and a long-lost feeling permeated my body, her hand was still so delicate, and she was like electricity, her fingers trembled in my palm several times, and then calmed down again...... At this moment, I had no other thoughts than to hold her hand and revere the beginning and end of life...... I swear that this is the bravest act I have ever done in my life, and even if I am imprisoned by countless shackles, I will not regret doing whatever I want at this moment. If I could, I'd like to hold her other hand, and maybe then we'll have a heart-to-heart exchange......