In the face of Jin Qiu's question, I kept thinking and weighing in silence, and in my subconscious, it seemed that as long as I was willing to marry, Jin Qiu would marry.

But I didn't want to, after a while, Jin Qiu said to me: "Jiang Qiao, I didn't call you out to convince you to be pressured, and then choose a marriage that you don't want......"

I looked at her with a look of surprise on my face and asked, "What do you mean?" ”

Jin Qiu and I looked at each other for a long time before replying, "I don't want to be a substitute for someone else, and I don't want to run an emotionless marriage...... If you must fulfill your grandmother's last wish. Perhaps, Chen Yi will be a better choice for you...... Because, you loved her deeply, and she has been waiting for you to turn back, and you have broken off all relations with Qiu Zi'an...... Once, you just gave up on her because of the view of the portal, but now that doesn't exist. If measured by money and material, the person who should feel inferior is Chen Yi...... Of course, she will not have low self-esteem, because she is very good, so you are the best choice for each other...... You shouldn't resist what you have now, you should look at it from a different angle, why don't you think it's a compensation from God? ”

"I even thought of a way out...... However, do you think it is appropriate to regard Chen Yi as a retreat in my life? Or do you think that I, Jiang Qiao, can be a nouveau riche with peace of mind, and then use these to repair the relationship with Chen Yi? ”

Jin Qiu looked at me speechlessly, and after a full minute, she finally said to me: "I have said everything that should be said, you can weigh the rest yourself, you have been in a trance all day, I know what you are thinking." ”

After saying this, she didn't give me a chance to speak again, turned and left the balcony, and I don't know whether I went back to the ward or somewhere else. However, I was not able to clear up because of her departure.

Just as I was about to leave, one head leaned on the door several times, and when I found him, he grinned at me and said to me, "Futahashi, do you want to eat a hamburger, my dad just bought it for me, and I only ate half of it...... And milk, I only took a sip. ”

I reached out and called him over, and finally showed my first smile of the day, and said, "Do you think our relationship is iron?" …… Why else do you think I'm going to eat what's left of you? ”

"I didn't realize until I was halfway through eating that you hadn't eaten, so I brought it to you...... Second bridge, you can't starve to death, you can only die under my gun. ”

"With just your little thing, I'm going to starve to death after eating, so you might as well shoot me quickly."

Edamame sat down next to me, and he insisted on giving me half of what he had eaten, and when I took it from his hand and started eating, he looked at me with his chin in his hands, and then asked me, "Futahashi, your grandmother is dying, isn't she?" ”

I pulled a crumpled cigarette out of my pocket and looked at the cars under the tall building for a long time before I replied, "yes, she's dying." ”

"Then is she afraid?"

I asked rhetorically, "Why did you never ask me if I was afraid when you shouted that you were going to shoot me every day?" ”

"I'm scared of you, but your grandma is really going to die."

I looked at Edamame for a long time before I replied, "Edamame, don't be too honest with me at this time, okay?" I don't want to talk to you, someone who has only been born for a few years, about whether or not to die. ”

Edamame snorted, pretending to be a cigarette with the straw he was drinking milk, and then looked into the distance of the city, following my example.

After a while, he said to me again: "Second bridge, my grandmother said that when people die, they will go to a place called the underworld, do you think that place will be fun?" ”

"Your grandmother lied to you, there is no such thing as the underworld."

"Where does that man go when he dies?"

I don't know what spurred Edamame to be so interested in where he goes after death, and I wanted to give him a less ugly answer, so I replied, "If a person insists on being a good person while he is alive, then he will be ...... after death." You might go to a very warm place, where there is a river that flows not water but milk, and there are a lot of trees planted next to the river, and the trees are covered with chocolate. In order to give the edamame more hope, I added: "There are a lot of pistols and cannons on the opposite side of the tree, which are also made of chocolate and cream. ”

Edamame was almost drunk, and his excitement was overflowing, and after a while, he said to me, "Futahashi, I want to die so much!" ”

I just didn't want him to be afraid of death, but I didn't think that his mind was fragile and couldn't resist the temptation of cream and chocolate, and then he wanted to die, so I hurriedly said: "Edamame, listen to me, you are not a good person, and this is not the place you will go to after you die!" ”

Edamame was momentarily disappointed, and then asked me relentlessly, "Where will I go?" ”

"The dung pit!"

Edamame shook in fright and chose to shut up and not speak. I took a puff of my cigarette and fell back into a state of confusion. If I am really lucky enough to go to such a world after death, why should I be sad for my grandmother?

I really don't think it's a self-consolation, but a rational reflection after the death of a loved one. Because no one can prove that life is heaven and death is hell, maybe the opposite!

When I refilled a cigarette and wanted to continue thinking, Chen Yi ran from the ward to the balcony. He said to me in an eager tone: "Jiangqiao, hurry, hurry, grandma, she woke up and shouted to see you." ”

I threw away my cigarette and rushed to the ward as fast as I could, my grandmother had already taken off her oxygen mask, and she was lying on the hospital bed dying, able to open her eyes and look at me, as if she was only supported by the last breath of her life. All the people in the ward waited solemnly for the last moment before the farewell.

I knelt beside the bed, grabbed her dry hand with my hand, and then put my ear to her mouth, waiting for her final command, her voice trembled, and said intermittently, "Bridge...... Grandma is afraid that it is...... Boil, can't stop...... Grandma is not afraid of death, she is afraid of ...... I'm afraid of you, there is no good life...... You're a ...... But, poor boy...... Grandma doesn't have a ...... for you If you ask for anything else, just say yes...... Grandma ...... one thing"

I had completely lost my sanity, and I clenched my grandmother's hand, and then said to her desperately, "Grandma, you say, I promise you everything...... As long as you can rest assured, I promise you everything! ”

Grandma closed her eyes and said to me again, "Bridge...... Grandma hopes you can ...... in the future Listen, your mother's words, grandma is gone, she is the closest person you are in the world...... There are things she just uses in the wrong way, and she ...... in her heart I must love you...... There is only a little time between you, but you are mother and son after all, and there will always be ...... One day is about releasing old suspicions...... What's more, a lot of things are not your mother's fault...... It's your dad who is wrong...... You're a man, be generous, give your mom...... A little forgiveness ......? ”

I raised my head and looked at Yang Jin, I still couldn't find the power of relief in my heart, but there was no way to give my grandmother a negative answer at this time, I finally nodded, and the breath in my heart suddenly seemed to be relieved.

I don't dare to be untrustworthy to my grandmother, and I don't want to really forgive Yang Jin sincerely. I hope that all this in front of me is just a dream, and when I wake up, time is still stuck in the early autumn of last year, Xiao Ai met me for the first time, my grandmother is also living a healthy life, and I have already predicted the ending, there are countless ways to reverse and start over.

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