In the oncoming night breeze, I dialed Yang Jin's phone. At this moment, my mood has gradually calmed down, and this peace comes from the fact that I have seen a lot of unknown things clearly, and I know what I want to do and what to say...... Although I am not very awake yet, my breath is already refreshing.

After the phone rang a few times, Yang Jin was connected, she was as confused as Jin Qiu, she asked me, "Why did you call me at this time, shouldn't you be on the plane?" ”

"I'm not going to Shenzhen."

Yang Jin was stunned for a moment, and then asked me, "Isn't Yang Qu already back, why don't you say that you won't come if you can't come?" ”

I didn't hide it, and went straight to the point and said to her: "I met Xiao Ai this afternoon, and I know some of the truth about her departure back then, she didn't marry Yuan Zhen at all, and she also conceived a child for me, but the child couldn't be saved...... I don't know, what do you think of the feelings of our generation, but I really can't live up to her anymore, so I can only choose to be sorry for Jin Qiu and sorry for her parents...... I don't dare to expect your forgiveness and fulfillment, but I hope you can understand my feelings...... I'm ready to face it, and no matter what consequences this decision will bring to me in the future, I must find her...... In the next two days, I will leave to find her. ”

Yang Jin on the other end of the phone fell into an extremely long silence, which gave me a lot of psychological pressure, but I was still gritting my teeth and waiting for her reply.

Finally, she said to me in a low tone, "Jiang Qiao, I am very reluctant to hear this decision you brought me...... I can do anything to you, but this is the only one...... You will not be happy if you marry this girl, I don't care what hardships she has, but in the eyes of others, she is a married woman, and I can't accept such a woman entering the door of the Jiang family...... You and Jin Qiu are just one step away, how can you do such a hurtful thing at this time? It's time for you to mature over the years, and you should have a clear sense of the benefits and harms. ”

Yang Jin's reaction was within my expectations, so I, who had been mentally prepared, could still say to her calmly: "You used to be brave enough to pursue your love, why are you now as hard and cold as iron?" …… The child she once conceived for me, aren't you his or her grandmother? …… Why can't you just care more? How can you convince me to believe your words and think that we will not be happy together? ”

Yang Jin fell silent again, and then explained to me: "I am also very sad about the child's matter, but it is not the immediate matter after all...... Over the years, I have tried my best to cultivate Jin Qiu, not only to repay the kindness of the old Jin family, but also to give you a stable and reliable home. ”

I asked sharply, "Have you tried your best to cultivate Jin Qiu?" Her wedding company went bankrupt back then, so why didn't you help her, but also chose to fall into the ground? ”

Yang Jin was already used to seeing strong winds and waves, so she was not stopped by me, she replied: "Jiang Qiao, you are mistaken, this is not a falling stone, but a kind of exercise, don't you think that the current golden autumn is more mature?" …… Besides, I just hope that she can go to Shanghai to wish you a hand, it turns out that my arrangement is not wrong, you cooperate with each other to make the dream tree very successful, but also let you know each other better, you can live together...... In addition, today Jin Qiu and I also had a formal chat about the brand Dream Tree, and we have reached an intention to cooperate. Next year, Tulip Hotel will be included in the Dream Tree brand, and truly become the No. 1 wedding brand in China...... Isn't this what Jin Qiu has always wanted to do? So what you said about falling into the well is not at all...... It was I who gave Jin Qiu more possibilities, and you and she should know this better than anyone else! ”

Yang Jin's explanation did not make me settle down, but ignited the anger in my heart for a long time, I raised the tone of my voice, and said angrily: "So all these years, I have been living in your arrangement, no autonomy, no value...... To put it mildly, the future you gave me and Jin Qiu is essentially nothing more than a business marriage...... But the only person who really benefits is Jinqiu, and I can't afford to enjoy the stability you give me! You are not a competent mother, not before, not now, and even less ...... in the future"

Yang Jin didn't get angry with me, but replied to me with some loss: "You can't become so extreme because of some of your so-called truths, and then deny all the things I have done for you...... Jiangqiao, Mom really doesn't want you to use painful experience to verify that I am right today. If you and Xiao Ai were able to be together, they should have been together two years ago...... The reason why there are too many twists and turns between you is because you have no fate...... Just like Jiang Jiyou and I, we have struggled for so many years, and finally we have to come to such an ending...... We have hurt too many people, that's why I hope you can live a stable life, can you understand my feelings as a mother? …… Now you are the only concern I can't let go, but I'm really tired, very tired......"

I was so heartbroken that I couldn't speak...... She is quite pitiful, this pity cannot be clearly explained in a few words, and it is not something that can be disguised, I know how cold her heart is...... I barely saw her smile in all these years.

She pleaded with me again and said, "Jiang Qiao, let's put aside the issue of your marriage to Jin Qiu for a while, and leave it alone...... Even if I personally ask you to come to Shenzhen, I hope they will recognize you and accept you...... In the future, no matter what I fail, you will not be helpless. They are your relatives and your last dependent! ”

Her words touched my acuity, and I asked her, "What is missing?" ”

Yang Jin sighed softly, and then replied: "It is impossible for people to live in this world smoothly, even if it is me now...... So, while I still have the ability now, of course I hope to leave you and Yang Qu in the back road...... Yang Qu is better than you, after all, she grew up with me since she was a child, and the people here still spoil her, but you are different...... That's why I said that you are the most uncontrollable concern! ”

After a pause, she added: "If I'm not mistaken, there is another flight from Nanjing to Shenzhen at 11:20." I hope you can come, tomorrow is your uncle's birthday, and it's rare for the family to get together, so I think it's a good opportunity...... I've informed you of your going, don't embarrass me too much in front of these relatives! ”

I replied categorically, "I'm not going...... Because no one has ever understood my struggle...... Moreover, I also told you that after making this decision, I was mentally prepared to face all difficulties, and I did not want to live with anyone...... You don't have to worry about my future, if one day everything goes to the worst, I will do my duty as a son, instead of letting you find shelter for me in the most difficult situation...... I'm not that unbearable! ”

When I finished, I hung up the phone and turned off my phone. I can't stand the turmoil of this night! At the moment, I just want to be quiet for a while, and then think about where Xiao Ai will go......

I was the only one who couldn't bargain for two groups of people on opposite sides, so I had to choose to hurt one side. My greatest sobriety tells me that there is no compromise this time, I can only say absolutely and do things, maybe it will make the damage smaller, and procrastination and unsolved it is the biggest harm!

And after this conversation with Yang Jin, I am also more sure that Jin Qiu does not love me, and she, like me, just compromises with life with a certain purpose...... So, I can't live up to Xiao Ai even more, not to mention that every minute and every second in the past two years, I have her taste in my life, she is a person I can't lack.

At this moment, I understand Qiu Zi'an's feeling of having to love, whether he is a good person or an evil person, he is really hurt enough by Chen Yi!

If my life is a story, it seems that the people in this story are not happy...... Except for edamame. No, maybe he won't be happy enough, because he will eventually grow up and will have to face the rights and wrongs of life just like us.

……

I didn't go back to Tulip Road in the car of Golden Autumn, and in my mind, the place where I lived was for my marriage to her. If I go back there, I will inevitably have a lot of thoughts.

I went back to Lane 24, and then walked alone in that quiet alley, but I didn't enter the house that was already for the migrant workers, I just found a house to sit under the eaves of another house, and then lit a cigarette.

I gradually calmed down, and then remembered the message leaked to me by the airport staff today. She said that Xiao Ai left Nanjing on an international flight at a quarter past four, which is actually indirectly equivalent to revealing Xiao Ai's whereabouts to me, I only need to find out that at a quarter past four, Nanjing has a few flights abroad, and the scope of Xiao Ai's ability to go can be narrowed to very small, and this can be done with mobile phone ticket software.

In addition, I can also pay to buy Xiao Ai's travel information at an outside ticket agent, because they have information sharing rights with the airport. Although this is a bit immoral, it is no longer a matter of concern at the moment.

I was a little excited, and then I opened the software and looked it up. Soon I found out that there was only one flight from Beijing to Vancouver at a quarter past four. Xiao Ai went to Vancouver...... I don't have to go through the hassle of finding a vending point outside the airport!

But for a moment, my heart sank again, because Vancouver was probably just a place for her to stop, and I had never heard of any intersection between her and that city.

She is a smart woman, after she makes up her mind to leave, she will definitely think of many details, she will not leave such an obvious trace, she knows, in China, I will find her travel information, but from other countries, even if I have the ability to go to the sky, it is difficult to track down.

If I take another 10,000 steps back, even if her destination is really Vancouver, how can I find her in that bustling city? My English is simply not level, even the simplest communication will be difficult, and she is deliberately avoiding me, so this journey will be full of difficulties!

I smiled helplessly, and then looked up at the cold moon in the sky, but the belief in finding her in my heart was not eroded at all, and I told myself that I would find her. Starting tomorrow, I will apply for visas for the countries she may go to one by one, and then start the longest journey of my life......