After sending Xiaofang back to the shantytown where she lived, I returned to the courtyard at almost 11 o'clock, and I lifted the two wooden doors that had been smashed down from the ground, and then found two wooden sticks to hold them together, and my night began at the moment when the courtyard was closed.

I dragged a mattress out of the house, and fastened the mosquito net between the trees, and when I lit a cigarette and lay down in this simple dwelling, it was a dream. I saw a myriad of colors weaving together in this yard that I had made a mess of.

I thought of Xiao Ai again, and I remembered the Chinese New Year's Eve last year, when she stood under the lanterns she hung with her own hands, laughing with me. The colors we were given by the lanterns that day were real, and now the colors I see are imaginary. So, I'm not much different from a blind person.

So, I closed my eyes again and listened to the sounds of the world, and I seemed to hear the sound of disassembly, which must have come from a textile mill not far away. Recently, in order to meet the deadline, I have been working overtime, and it will last until 12 o'clock in the evening every day.

I also heard the sound of the road roller, which is also true, because there are several sections of Tulip Road that are in disrepair and have been flooded all year round, which has affected the daily traffic of nearby residents, and has only recently attracted the attention of the relevant departments, and they are also working overtime to repair them......

It's a world of repairs and tearing down and rebuilding, and so is my life, the trajectory of my life has changed since the day Xiao Ai left. All my current misery is based on the fact that I don't know what I want to do in the future, my life is drenched in cold rain, and then day by day "cold and fever", so stubborn that no chicken soup for the soul can save it. I'm more like a discarded tire, missing the passion of saddle up for that wedding car.

It rained again at night, the rain was not heavy, I was too lazy to go back to the house, I just found a piece of oilcloth that was enough to cover, and then I slept all night so weirdly, I seemed to have less and less requirements for the quality of life, compared to Xiao Ai, I felt that I could still see the light of this world, it was already a blessing from God.

However, I would rather give her my own eyes and let her see the 12 colors of the world again, perhaps far more than 12 colors.

……

The next day, it was Edamame who woke me from my sleep, and he got in through the big hole in the door panel that I had smashed out, and he got into the mosquito net, and sat next to me. Then he took the box in his hand and whispered to me: "Second bridge, are you hungry, give you seaweed rolls to eat." "I'm not hungry." "Eat, my dad said he would treat the captives preferentially...... Look at you, get the mosquito net outside, it's like a cage, it's like going to jail! “

I rolled over and ignored him, because his slippery head would magnify my frustration and frustration, and I was only willing to choose silence on such a rainy morning, and I didn't want to say anything.

Seeing that I didn't speak, Edamame pulled my hair again and pulled me back, he pointed to the big hole in the door and said to me, "Second bridge, you made such a big hole, do you want to escape from prison?" …… You must have dug tunnels. Tell me quickly, where are you hiding in the tunnel, if you don't say it, I'll shoot you......" "Kill you, kill quickly!" "It turns out that you really want to die, but the bullets in my gun are all preserved eggs, and they can't kill people...... You wait, I'll go home and get a bottle of dichlorvos for you to drink. “

I still ignored him, if this little slippery head really brought a bottle of dichlorvos, I would dare to drink it, anyway, like he said, although I am alive and seem free, it is not much different from going to prison. My heart has been imprisoned in the coldest winter with the departure of my lover.

Edamame didn't leave, and he coaxed me again and said, "Futahashi, you can eat something." Look at you, you're all thin into sticks, I feel sorry for you, so I gave you my favorite seaweed rolls to eat...... In this alley, no one feels sorry for you, even Teacher Xiao Ai is gone, no one feels sorry for you anymore......"

I looked at him ......, "Mom, Futahashi, don't look at me like that, I'm so scared...... I don't dare to mention Teacher Xiao Ai to you, as soon as you mention her, you will lose your heart and go crazy! “

I shifted my gaze, and then looked through the scarred mosquito net, looking at the still somewhat gloomy sky, and then my brain was hollow again, so that the whole world was blank, and the wind and rain all night occupied all the memories and helplessness.

I don't know exactly how long it will take to emerge from the shadows of her departure...... I suddenly wanted to go to see my grandmother, maybe she didn't know about the fire in the piano shop and Xiao Ai's departure, and her news there has been very closed.

Maybe I already knew, but I didn't want to add to my troubles, so I endured it and didn't bother me. If so, my grandmother would undoubtedly be more hurt than me, at least I could still vent my negativity unscrupulously, and she could only endure it silently, and then give me enough time to digest the pain in my heart.

However, I have to face her and give her an explanation.

……

When I got up, I tidied up the little yard briefly, and without breakfast, I once again came to the piano shop, which had become a ruin, and stood on the other side of the street and watched......

Behind me was the stylishly decorated cake shop. Its business is getting better and better, so that there are often customers waiting in line, and even parasols and small round tables are set up outside the store to provide customers with the convenience of eating. The fire in our piano shop also made its owner alert, so in addition to fire hydrants, small fire extinguishers were placed in each corner.

Tired of standing, I sat on the curb and lit a cigarette only when the sun drove away the gloom and sprinkled it on me. When I was almost done with my cigarettes, I finally took my phone out of my pocket and dialed the landline in my grandmother's dormitory.

The call was answered by Grandma Li, who lived in the same room with my grandmother, and I said to her: "Grandma Li, I'm Xiaoqiao, what about my grandmother, are you going to do manual work again?" ”

"Little bridge! …… Your grandmother went to the hospital, and she always said that her stomach hurt badly these days. ”

This reply made me feel a little nervous, and I hurriedly asked, "Which hospital did she go to?" ”

"It's the hospital nearby......

"Chengbei People's Hospital?"

"Yes, yes, it's Chengbei People's Hospital...... It was Dean Wu who drove her there. ”

I said "thank you" and was about to hang up the phone, but Grandma Li stopped me again and said to me, "Xiaoqiao, you...... Don't worry too much about your grandma, the old lady is so old, she can't eat and sleep well these days, you say she doesn't have stomach pain! ”

My heart ached for a while, and it took me a while to ask, "Grandma Li, does my grandmother know that the piano store was burned?" ”

"Look at you, kid...... Not to mention that we are a nursing home here, even if it is a prison, such a big thing has been reported...... Your grandmother knows that she can't help, and she doesn't dare to ask questions to make trouble for you, so she has been holding it back for the past few days, doesn't this hold back the illness, you have to deal with everything, so hurry over to see her. ”

"I'm going to see her in the hospital."

"Let's go, they haven't been there for long, and most of them are still in the hospital at this time!"

……

After hanging up the phone, I called Dean Wu, and she told me that my grandmother was doing a check-up and was still in the hospital. After the call, I hurried to the hospital and headed straight to the 13th floor, where the examination room was located.

I saw Dean Wu sitting on a bench in the hallway, holding something like a lab sheet in her hand, and her face didn't look very good. When she saw me coming, she immediately beckoned to me and looked at me with a complicated expression......

My Adam's apple subconsciously squirmed, and the sense of crisis that the house leak happened to rain overnight was deeply enveloped in my heart, and I also looked at her, and only asked her after a while: "Dean Wu, what's wrong with my grandmother?" ”

Dean Wu was silent for a while, and she said to me in a low tone, "Xiao Jiang...... You need to be mentally prepared......"

I swallowed hard and nodded.

She looked at the test sheet in her hand again, and then said to me: "The doctor in the laboratory department of the hospital is my friend, in fact, I brought your grandmother to do the relevant examination yesterday, and asked her to help, so I gave the test results urgently...... But the results of the examination were very bad...... The old lady is, advanced stomach cancer! “

I looked out the window, the sun was shining outside the window, and from time to time there was the sound of birdsong, and even the weeds growing in the corners of the wall revealed the vitality of wanting to live, but the muddy tears fell uncontrollably from my eyes......

I was devastated, completely devastated.

Dean Wu handed me the test sheet in his hand, and said to me: "The doctor said that the radical curative treatment of advanced gastric cancer is poor and the prognosis is poor, for advanced patients with weak constitution and metastasis, surgical treatment is not much consideration, and the doctor recommends specific anti-tumor immunotherapy, but the treatment cost of this therapy is very high, so I want to ask for your opinion......" "As long as I can keep my grandmother alive, I am willing to spend as much as I want." "You have to think carefully, it doesn't mean that this kind of treatment will definitely be effective, but the risk is actually very large...... Moreover, I also know what is happening to your piano shop, so I must remind you to think carefully, because in the end, you will most likely end up with no personal wealth......"

I tilted my head back to keep my tears from falling. I don't know who else in this world can save me, save my grandmother's life! I have no opinions, and my only consciousness is that I want my grandmother to live. She has lived such a hard life, suffered all the hardships of life, and has not had time to watch me start a family and enjoy a family reunion, how can she leave with such regrets!! ……

……

Alone, sitting in the corridor of the hospital, I smoked cigarettes one after another, until the old Jin family rushed to the hospital, I felt a little leaning on. When Old Kim stood in front of me, I grabbed his arm and started crying......

I hate Jiang Jiyou, and I also have Yang Jin, but at this moment, I still regard him and Luo Sumei as them, and I can't bear the qiē disaster that I am about to face alone.

I was overwhelmed by the pain, and I didn't even realize that Jin Qiu's car was followed by a car, and in the car sat the driver and a middle-aged woman whose face was not clear, and I didn't even think about what she had to do with me, all I could see was my own white world.

In the end, it was Lao Jin who helped me to the elevator, and Jin Qiu followed behind me. She didn't say a word from the moment we met to the moment she stepped on the elevator, as if her pain was above mine, more painful than mine!