During this time, Qiao Ye and I were very busy in our respective lives, so there were not many opportunities to meet. If I choose to tell him about Su Han's departure with the child, then this trip to Taipei is a good opportunity, but even if I look at his questioning eyes, I still can't open my mouth, because I'm afraid I'm sorry for Su Han.

After pondering for a while, I took the initiative to change the topic and said: "Don't talk about these unhappy things, let's drink well, and if we drink too much, we will naturally forget those troublesome things." ”

Qiao Ye glanced at me with a smile, he didn't pay attention to me anymore, and he didn't raise his glass to me again, his heart seemed to be very heavy, but I didn't have much mood to take care of him. I thought of Chen Yi who was about to come to Taipei, sometimes I felt distant and strange, and sometimes I felt that she was a part of my body and had never left.

Oh, yes! Think about it carefully, we have known each other since the day she was born, we are not just neighbors who can meet when we open the door, we have a past, we have accepted the world together, and we have lived a life, so what kind of emotion is this?

I don't think I can say it myself, and no one can say it clearly.

Until late at night, Qiao Ye and I were still drinking, and we chatted about the old classmates, who is getting along well now, who is divorced, and who has a new love, but no longer talking about those topics that make us feel sensitive, which is an escape and a kind of self-protection.

Otherwise, why do we come to drink, it's not a desperate desire to make ourselves happy. As for tomorrow, tomorrow I will pull Chen Yi to continue drinking.

……

Back at Ade's hotel, Qiao Ye fell asleep on the bed in his room with his head covered, I drank a little less than him, so I was still awake, sitting on the balcony on the second floor, looking at the world shrouded in night in front of me in a daze. A moment later, I received a message from Chen Yi, saying that she had bought a morning ticket and would be able to get to the airport in Taipei at about 8:30.

I lay on the balcony and shouted Ade, he happened to hold a mattress and stood behind me, and said to me nervously: "You roar quietly, many guests are sleeping, and the noise will affect the reputation and brand image of our hotel!" ”

I looked around and said, "Do you still have a brand image in such a small place?" ”

Ade replied proudly: "We not only have a brand image, but also the second store is already planned to open in Kaohsiung, and we want to do a chain ...... Hehe, everyone is improving, I also want to be a promising person, refuse instant noodles, refuse excessive drinking, refuse games, refuse cigarettes......"

"Ade, what do you mean by saying this to me?"

After spreading the mat on the ground and lying on it in a hurry, Ade changed the subject and asked, "What did you just call me for?" ”

I took out the popping Marlboro cigarette I bought at the roadside shop when I just came back from my pocket, handed him one, and said, "Will you be able to pick me up at the airport at half past eight tomorrow morning?" ”

"Who?"

"Chen Yi, you saw it last time you went to Nanjing."

Ade's tone was a little surprised, and he sighed: "It's her!" …… Ah Qiao, did she come here specifically for you? ”

I didn't answer, but handed the cigarette in my hand to him again, and said, "I know you don't smoke anymore, but this smoke is very faint, so you should smoke and play with me." ”

Ade finally took it from me, and I looked at him and smiled. Now Ade is really good, he is changing for a woman, just like I used to change for Xiao Ai, I feel that every day and everything is full of hope.

I also lay down on the mat, I don't plan to go back to my room to sleep, I think it's good outside, if you lie flat you can see the starry sky; Falling asleep on his side, and seeing the lighthouse that Ade designed on the balcony, can be distracting.

Yes, this night, I don't want to be a dreamer, I just want to be calm, I really feel tired on the way to my dream, like a small person standing under a high-rise building, but can't find the door to the elevator, how can I stand on a high place and see the most beautiful scenery of a city.

Ade lit a cigarette and lay beside me with Erlang's legs crossed, and he whispered to me: "Ah Qiao roared, do you know it, we talked a lot before Ah Ye went outside to look for you......"

"Oh...... What did you all talk about? ”

"The most talked-about is you and Chen Yi."

I smiled, then rubbed the cigarette in my hand, and I knew that Ade would say something to me.

Sure enough, he asked me, "I heard that before Ruyi appeared, you liked Chen Yi very much, didn't you?" ”

"Yes, we were still together, but it didn't last long, and we separated."

"I'll go get some beers and we'll talk while we drink." As he spoke, he snuffed out the cigarette in his hand and prepared to leave.

I grabbed him and asked, "What are you talking about?" ”

"Let's talk about the story of you and Chen Yi, anyway, the nights are super long, you can't sleep, I can't sleep, so it's a pastime. You say, how lonely it is to have no stories to listen to in this world...... I don't like people who don't share stories, this kind of people don't deserve to be my friends, because if I can't hear the story, I will feel super lonely, I'm a lonely person, and there are not many people who can afford me! ”

"I don't understand your logic!"

Ade patted me on the shoulder triumphantly, then got up and walked downstairs, I looked at his big red pants, as if a red lantern and the light together illuminated his ass, and also illuminated this world that was not willing to be lonely. I think he should be more interested in Qiao Ye's story than me Jiangqiao, because I really don't like telling stories to a man. However, in order to make him feel that I actually look up to him, I decided to tell him about it, and I also recalled the years of memories and Chen Yi by the way...... People not only have a future, but also a past. Although, we are all living for the future, but a lot of things have happened in the past, haven't we?

……

Ade got a few cans of beer, and was pleasantly surprised to bring a bag of salt and pepper watercress, with these things, I am embarrassed not to tell him some stories. Because such a balcony, such a fat Ade and a sky fatter than him, have all the atmosphere of storytelling.

Ade opened a can of beer and handed it to me, I took it from his hand, looking at the swaying sycamore leaves by the street lamp, as if I saw the same picture more than 20 years ago, it was also summer, and it was also such a night, Yang Jin and Jiang Jiyou had just left Nanjing.

I exhaled, closed my eyes and reminisced for a long time, then said to Ade: "Chen Yi and I have been neighbors since the first day she was born, and I am a few months older than her. Before I was eight years old, my parents were still in Nanjing, my father was a driver in a textile factory, and my mother was the workshop director; Chen Yi's mother and father are both civil servants in the Education Bureau. At that time, there was no obvious gap between the rich and the poor, and our relationship was very simple. I remember that the two families were very diligent, and from time to time they would gather in the small courtyard to have a meal or something, and the relationship between me and Chen Yi should have accumulated at that time...... When I was eight years old, my parents divorced and they both left Nanjing, and my life began to be bleak...... Those who were originally close to me have gradually become estranged, especially the children who are about the same age as me, in the eyes of their parents, I am a child without a tutor, and I fool around, I just don't study well, or I have no future...... Hehe, it's not my fault that my parents are divorced, but I'm still isolated, who should I reason with and talk about my pain? …… In fact, at that age, I don't know what pain is. ”

I raised my head, drank the remaining beer from the can, and said to Ade, "But Chen Yi didn't isolate me because of this...... She would save up money to buy me toys and food. You say, for a child, having something to play with and eating is not the same as having a whole world? So, I really rely on her, and I want to give her everything I can...... It's a pity that I don't have anything, all I can do is give her time, and then keep getting her in trouble during that time...... Especially when I was in junior high school, I had several accidents, and if it weren't for her parents in the Education Bureau, I would have been dissuaded by the school...... Later, I dropped out of high school and started working in Lao Jin's wedding company, and she was admitted to the Communication University in Beijing, and the gap between us was infinitely magnified at that time, but at that stage, I understood what the love between men and women is......"

Speaking of this, I let out a long breath, and Ade took the opportunity to stuff a cigarette into my mouth, looking at me expectantly, for fear that I wouldn't give him the ** of this story.

The way he looked made me smile, and it turned out that my story could also be fascinating. I took a puff of my cigarette and continued: "You don't know, how many men liked her at that time, I looked at myself several times, and I didn't find any advantages. ”

Ade responded: "Yes, I also saw her news in the media in Taiwan some time ago, saying that she is one of the most potential female hosts, which is not only a recognition of her professional level, but also a recognition of her external conditions...... It's amazing! ”

"Yes, we have never been people of the same world...... But later, we still fell in love. In this process, there was a lot of joy and anticipation, but also a lot of pain and powerlessness, and we finally chose to break up...... I suspected that her love for me was not pure enough, because I couldn't give her what she wanted, and she also felt that I was single-minded because of Xiao Ai's appearance, and then we chose to break up completely in Lijiang...... Hehe, in fact, there is nothing special between us, just like a normal couple, from falling in love to breaking up...... Ade, I disappointed you and failed to give you a thrilling story! ”

Ade nodded and praised: "This story is super good, with ups and downs...... And there is a main line with clear hierarchies. There is the helplessness of a confused young man, and the persistence of a high-quality woman, but your storytelling level is really not good...... Why don't you pick on the fact that she once blocked the knife for you? ”

I looked at him and was stunned...... I remembered that thrilling scene again. If it weren't for that time when she desperately blocked for me, my heart might have been punctured by the gangsters, and her bravery happened exactly after we broke up......

Seeing that I didn't speak, Ade put his arm around my shoulder again, and said in conclusion: "You deliberately told the story of you and Chen Yi plainly, but Aye said it vividly, which made me feel that although Ruyi is very good and praised, Chen Yi is also very good!" ”

I nodded.

Ade asked again: "Then tell me, you deliberately told the story of you and her so plainly, what kind of heart do you have?" ”

"Ade, I'm sleepy...... Let me sleep. ”

"If you don't want to say it, I won't force you to say it...... Anyway, no matter whether the person you really like is Chen Yi's old love or Ruyi's new love, someone will always scold you for being unkind. Moreover, I am also the one who wants to scold you. ”

"You can scold if you want, I won't lose a piece of meat anyway."

"You're really a dead pig, not afraid of boiling water and roaring!"

I turned over and faced the starry sky, and I felt like a pig, and I felt that I was a pig, and that I was a pig was also a pig, because only pigs would judge pigs, and normal people would not and would not disdain it......

At this time, Ade said to me again: "Ah Qiao Ye, have you ever thought that if Ruyi really gives up your relationship, will you also consider having a stable married life?" …… You think, as long as you are willing to accept the current life, there will be no roar between you and Chen Yi, one of you is a hostess with a high reputation, and the other is a ......"

Ade didn't seem to have figured out what to call me now, so I said to him self-deprecatingly: "One is a rich second generation who relies on other people's alms, of course, he is a door-to-door man!" ”

Ade smiled wryly and replied, "Don't say that, it's just that as your good brother, I really don't want to see you suffer as much as you are now...... Aye said that there is no possibility of reversing his life, but as long as you want, you can choose again...... He also said that in contrast, his Qin Miao is your Chen Yi, and his Su Han is your Xiao Ai...... Don't hurt a woman who will always give you countless possibilities in front of you for the sake of a woman who is already impossible...... Otherwise, you will never have a way back to go. ”

I looked at Ade, he even imitated Qiao Ye's tone vividly, but I don't know why, I was still in the confusion of the authorities. Sometimes, I wonder why I came to Taipei, but when I think of those past images, I can't stop wanting to come to Taipei......

Until now, I am still looking forward to seeing her in Hsinchu County, and I think: even if we can't be together, I have to give an answer that can make me die. But she hurt me in the most cruel way.

Or, she didn't expect that Ade actually had a resident in Hsinchu see her and relay the news to me, but deep down she didn't want me to know that she was married. So, I can infer from this that she really has a hard time. Otherwise, why are you married, and you are still silent and refuse to let me die?