According to our custom here, the condolences before the funeral should be held in your own home, but because the house has been demolished, you can only rent the space. On this day, because of Yang Jin, I met a lot of local dignitaries and nobles in Nanjing, so there were many privileged cars with good license plate numbers parked at the entrance of the venue. According to the specifications, this is a scenic funeral, but when I think of my grandmother when she was alive, she lived in a nursing home and wore patched clothes, and this kind of funeral was like a slap in the face.

I just want to simply send my grandmother away, and I don't need these people who have nothing to do with my grandmother's life to disturb my grandmother on the road, and this incident also makes me feel that I have a farther distance from Yang Jin, and this distance is not caused by time, but ********...... Her current position makes it difficult for her to integrate into the life of ordinary people, and I will not adapt to her...... Therefore, our relationship will never be like that of a normal mother and son, not to mention that she already has a new family and a daughter.

As a family member, I am the only one who expresses my gratitude to those who come to mourn, and I am a little sad, and I am even more envious of those whose families are intact. It seems that over the years, no matter what big or small things I encounter, I am the only one to face by myself, and it is difficult for me to find a feeling of reliance in this world.

It wasn't until dusk that I finally got a breather, and I was alone back to the old house where I had lived, now in ruins.

Looking at the emptiness in front of me, I could no longer feel the shade of the old alleys, nor could I recall the cries that would echo in the alleys at dusk.

I'd like to find the well that has been there for decades, but everything that can bring back memories of the past is gone.

I thought I was going to be hurt, but I didn't.

I just calmly lit a cigarette and imagined what it would be like in a few years.

It's going to be modern, it's going to be modern, it's going to be modern, it's all about the 80s, it's all been artificially destroyed. I can't say if this is a step forward or a step backwards. But about the past, there must be one or two things left, so that people who miss the old can have a thought.

……

The sunset hung in the distant sky, and under the golden sun, Zhao Mu stood beside me.

I don't know when he started to care about his personal image. Now he looks like a social elite. His hair is neat, he wears a famous watch on his hand, and his wallet is a well-known international brand.

Only then did I remember that he was already like this before he left Nanjing, and he was deeply valued by Li Zishan at that time. There was even a time when Li Zishan gave him Xiao Ai's Mercedes-Benz car worth more than one million.

He was originally an elite of society, and I shouldn't have such a strong sense of discomfort with his change...... Maybe it's because I'm used to seeing him when I was a student.

Looking at the muck all over the ground, Zhao Mu asked me in a low voice: "Brother Qiao, do you still think that it was a mistake for me to bring the Jinding Real Estate project to Tulip Road?" ”

I controlled my emotions and replied: "This street is unrecognizable compared to before, I think no matter how you change, at least one or two things must be left behind, so that people don't forget their roots, right?" ”

Zhao Mu shook his head, and he was silent for a moment before he said to me, "You should go and see what kind of changes have taken place in the lives of the neighbors after they were demolished...... Although they left here, they better integrated into the city of Nanjing...... I don't think you know that Zhu Pingwei, who is 35 years old and not married in our alley, also got married yesterday...... He was married to a girl who worked hard in Nanjing. What did she do with Zhu Pingwei? Needless to say, in fact, you and I can understand, but do you think this is a bad thing for Zhu Pingwei? …… I don't think so, because a man should always marry a wife and have children, he doesn't have many choices, so that's the only way to go...... Although we don't like this phenomenon, it cannot be denied that many people in real life are being chosen by life......"

I didn't refute Zhao Mu, because what he said was right, and Zhao Mu didn't continue to dwell with me on this topic, he crossed his hands on his chest, and kept looking at the ruins in front of him with a calm expression.

I waited until I finished smoking the cigarette in my hand before I changed the subject and asked him, "Is the work abroad going well?" ”

Zhao Mu nodded and replied: "After this year's experience, I also know how to adapt to the workplace environment, so the work abroad is quite smooth...... However, my roots are in China, and since I have a relationship with Yu Xin, I want to go back to Nanjing to work. ”

"But you're in charge of the project over there, can you put it down?"

"Jinding Real Estate is full of talents, and it is not difficult to find someone who can replace me...... However, the higher-ups over there have the intention of putting me abroad......"

Zhao Mu didn't continue, he sighed, and I could understand his feelings. Originally, he brought the project back to Tulip Road, with the intention of benefiting his neighbors, but most of them were still insatiable after benefiting, and his demolition work could not be carried out, which would lead to the dissatisfaction of the higher-ups, and then he was sent abroad.

He's pretty hurt, too!

I comforted, "I'm going to come back after all, you should calm down and do your current project first...... In fact, what you lack most at the moment is a chance to prove yourself. ”

Zhao Mu smiled, and then said to me: "Actually, I want to go back to Nanjing, there is another reason......

I looked at him and thought about it, but I didn't know what else could make him want to go back to Nanjing.

After Zhao Mu was silent for a while, he finally said to me: "Actually, since I left Shanghai, I have thought about what my grandmother said to us several times...... She is right, we don't have any relatives in this world, and we should take care of each other and support each other...... So, I want to go back to Nanjing just to be your companion. In the future, even if we all have our own families, we can visit each other from time to time and get together for a meal during the New Year, just like a family. ”

This is the most comforting passage I have heard this year, I feel that the sky above my head that has been dark for a long time finally has a ray of sunshine in, and it also makes me look forward to my future life.

I nodded and replied, "That's good!" ”

Zhao Mu also nodded with me, and then asked me again: "Brother Qiao, what are your plans in the future?" ”

I lit another cigarette and smoked it for a long time before I replied, "I don't know, I'm confused...... Ever since the accident at the piano shop, the debts I have been carrying have made me feel that I can't stand up. ”

Zhao Mu glanced at me worriedly and asked, "How much do you owe in total?" ”

Qiao Ye borrowed 2 million from there...... At the earliest, he borrowed 2 million from Jin Qiu and bought a batch of goods for Qinxing, which was repaid according to the bank loan, and the interest should be a lot. ”

"So much! …… But it's okay, it's all friends, and you still have room to slow down, but sooner or later you have to pay it back. ”

"Hmm."

After saying this, Zhao Mu and I fell into silence, and the sky became dark in our conversation, and because there was no house in front of me, I could even see the Bauhinia Square in the distance at a glance, which made me feel very empty, and I had a sense of loneliness with nowhere to go. I also realized that in Nanjing, I no longer have a home!

After a long time, Zhao Mu finally whispered to me: "Brother Qiao, I know your character, and I also know that you don't like to listen to these words. However, I still want to ask...... Are you really not ready to accept Aunt Yang? It's really tiring to be on your own, and you won't be able to bear the pressure! ”

"Huh...... What to accept? Accept the marriage she arranged for me? Or accept the luxury car and house she prepared for me? ”

Zhao Mu is a very delicate person, and he immediately asked me, "Does she want you to marry Jin Qiu?" ”

I acquiesced, and then asked rhetorically, "Do you think I should marry Jin Qiu?" …… After I got married, someone took care of everything for me, and I lived in high society every day without worrying about food and clothing. ”

"Seriously, I'm not against high society...... However, as a brother, I don't want you to marry Jin Qiu...... Because you can't give up Xiao Ai. ”

I looked at Zhao Mu with surprise, I didn't believe that such words would come out of his mouth, and he would actually persuade me not to give up Xiao Ai. Perhaps, he really let go of everything that happened between me and Xiao Ai.

I'm even more curious, Xiao Ai and I have reached this point where it is absolutely impossible, he doesn't know this, but why would he persuade me so much? Could it be that there is any turning point in this matter?

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