I don't know when, a freighter coming from a distance broke the silence of the entire sea and made me stop all imagination. Snow is unlikely to fall in this season, but my inner world is like a blizzard, I stomp my feet, and when I look back, all I see is a white expanse, and the past and the future are no longer so important in this simple color, and what I have to do is only a "simple" choice.

Yes, any choice is not difficult, it is just the heart of people who want everything, and I don't want to go on like this, I finally turned around, looked at Jin Qiu, who had been waiting for my answer, and then said to her: "Everyone has a different understanding of love, I want to hear your understanding...... Or what do you think love should look like? ”

Jin Qiu barely thought about it, she replied: "Love is planting seeds in the spring and reaping hope in the autumn...... For me, if I think about living with that person, and this life doesn't make me feel disgusted, and I am always full of expectations, then I must love the other person......"

I nodded, and only after a moment did I say, "If your understanding is the standard." I don't hate living together, and I've thought more than once in my heart about what kind of life we'll live together...... Life may be less exciting, but it will make people feel grounded and comfortable...... Men, before the age of 30, can be a bird and see thousands of landscapes; But after the age of 30, it is enough to have a nest where you can stay. ”

Jin Qiu didn't speak, she was just looking at the freighter that had sailed into the distance, and she looked calm. Me too, I don't even need a cigarette, I just fiddle with the lighter that can be opened and closed over and over again, even if I find enough fun to spend the whole night.

The next moment, Jin Qiu and I looked at each other again and said almost at the same time, "Let's get engaged......"

After saying that, they were silent with each other......

I know that Jin Qiu and I are in the same mood at this moment, because in our consciousness, we didn't plan to talk about falling in love at all, but went straight to the engagement.

We may be like most married couples, we have not experienced vigorous love before getting married, but for them, marriage is like a grocery store on the street, which looks inconspicuous, but it is indispensable because it sells firewood, rice, oil and salt.

With such a calm heart, we agreed on the engagement by the sea, but it was not exactly when. Because we still have to be busy for our respective careers for so long; More importantly, I hope to give myself some psychological buffer period, although we can all treat it rationally, but in a short period of time, it is still a little difficult to change roles.

The next morning, Jin Qiu and I left Lianyungang together, but before we left, we went to find the brother and sister named Shi Jing and Shi Shi together, and then expressed the idea of helping them.

In the process of talking, we really felt Shi Jing's desire to continue studying, so that morning, Shi Jing's family followed Jin Qiu to Shanghai, Jin Qiu arranged a place for them to live in the "Dream Tree", and Shi Jing became a temporary employee of the "Dream Tree" at the same time, but also got a large amount of donations, which can be regarded as temporarily surviving the difficulties in life.

This is the first good thing I have done with conscience and social responsibility after I have been together with Jin Qiu, and we will do a lot of similar things in the future, because giving back to the society is what we said before we were together, and now we have some such capabilities.

……

I returned to Nanjing at noon, and then took the initiative to go to Lao Jin's house, and I was going to tell him about my decision and that of Jin Qiu, because I thought it would be more sincere for the man to do such a thing.

It was Luo Sumei who opened the door for me, and while handing her the wine I bought for Lao Jin, I glanced into the room and asked, "It's almost time for lunch, where is my Uncle Jin?" ”

"Him! Early in the morning, I drove with a few old friends to the Guli Reservoir in Jiangning District to fish......" She took out her mobile phone to look at the time, and said with a smile: "Generally, if you don't come back after 12 o'clock, you must have caught a fish." ”

I replied: "I look at the weather forecast, it has been raining in Nanjing a few days ago, and it is rare to have a sunny weather today, and he must be suffocated." I reckon he'll have to fish all day, but it's all right, I'll sleep here and wait for him after lunch, and I'll make a snack with the fish he catches in the evening. ”

Luo Sumei looked at me suspiciously and asked, "Jiang Qiao, are you making fun of me or your Uncle Jin?" …… Otherwise, you're just having fun with yourself! ”

"Aunt Luo, why do you say that?"

"You kid, you couldn't hide from Lao Jin before, and now tell me that you want to wait for him for an afternoon, is this sun coming out of the west today?"

"Don't hide, don't hide in the future."

As I spoke, I walked into the room without any burden, and then went straight to the room where I was entertaining guests, as if I had entered my own home. I said to Luo Sumei again: "Aunt Luo, I'm a little tired from driving for half a day, let's sleep for a while, don't rush to call me when you make lunch, I'll just get up and warm up by myself later......"

"You kid, what kind of medicine did you take today, and you changed sex all of a sudden, if it's really so effective, give our family some Jinqiu, this hiding and hiding hasn't been home for a long time!"

This is obviously a ridiculous sentence, but it is not so tasteful when I listen to it in my heart, because she and Lao Jin have been forced by me and Jin Qiu to become real left-behind old people. For more than a year, they and Jin Qiu have gathered less and left more, and they must have had a hard time. But now, everything has passed, and I seem to have broken the ice on my body little by little, and I don't have to face the old Jin couple with an escaping mentality. This relaxed mentality seems to have pulled me back to seven or eight years ago, when I first started to do wedding with Lao Jin's apprentice. During that time, I didn't like to listen to Lao Jin talk to me about things at work, but I liked to hear him blow out the warmth and coldness of people as...... Now it's okay, everything will be the same as before, and we can have no idea of seniority, smoke and drink together and brag about it......

……

At about two o'clock in the afternoon, I woke up from my sleep, heated up my lunch and ate it, and then drove to the direction of the train station, because Yang Qu would arrive at Nanjing Railway Station at three o'clock, nothing special, just to find out if I had taken the wrong medicine, and then talk to me about life.

And I don't resent her squeezing me like this, I think brother and sister should be like this, caring about each other and making jokes at the same time.

At 2:40 a.m., I drove to Hongshan South Road, which leads to the train station. I was surprised to find that several advertising agency installers were replacing the print advertisements on the platform, and the woman who appeared in the poster was Xiao Ai, who was going to hold a concert in the Sun Palace next weekend night......

I pulled the car over, then opened the window, lit a cigarette and looked at ......

On the poster, she is wearing a red corset, holding a violin in one hand, full of star temperament, and the slogan praises her very high, calling her the most versatile local singing artist in Nanjing, although this is not an exaggeration, but it makes me see the company's determination to praise her. Otherwise, she would not have arranged the second concert in her life in Nanjing so soon.

As always, she continues her proud nature, so she will not invite guests at the concert, and after her song is sung, she will sing a few classic English songs.

I don't know if to be happy or sad for her...... She has become a star after all, but between us is already the distance between the yellow sky and the thick earth, and the two will not owe each other or have anything to do with each other...... But when I think of her, she used to be my woman, and when I think of the night that belonged to me completely, my heart still tightens, and then I tell myself that it was just a dream, a dream that is already dead if I can't wake up!

After smoking a cigarette, I put out the cigarette butt in the car ashtray, then closed the window, and continued to drive as fast as I could in the direction of the train station, but I no longer wanted to remember the time and place of her concert in Nanjing.

However, when I drove onto the expressway, I saw a road artillery advertisement that was even bigger than the platform advertisement, and her figure was more eye-catching and sacred in the anti-aircraft artillery advertisement, so that every driver passing by here would never forget it.

Perhaps, in a week, she will be popular all over the city of Nanjing, and then become the city's business card, and continue to shine in the country with the reputation of a Nanjing girl.

……

When I arrived at the train station, it was already 3:20, Yang Qu waited for me for about ten minutes, I calmly walked to her side, but hugged her very calmly.

She pushed me away and said to me in a suffocating tone, "Brother...... Jiang Qiao, your brain must have been swept by the machine gun, and it feels like a pit or a pit ......"

"Don't talk...... I love you. ”

"I can't stand it, it's so numb!"

Yang Qu struggled even harder, but after a moment he gave up, and then said in my ear, "Okay...... I love you too; However, can you put it in another way, I think those who are watching us playing soy sauce must have misunderstood our relationship! ”

"Let them go, let me hold them a little longer, and I'll make up for what I didn't hug before...... Whoever wants to make you unhappy in the future has to tell me, and let me make up for the fights I didn't have for you! ”

Yang Qu finally pushed me away with brute force, and replied with a disgusted face: "It's over, your brain was not swept away by a machine gun, but bombarded by a mortar, it's a huge pit!" ”

I looked at her youthful girlish face, and a sense of closeness swelled up in my heart uninvited, but this time I controlled it, but I was still enjoying the joy that she was my own sister.

I finally stopped hating Yang Jin's original choice, because I had changed my mind. I clearly told myself that all the suffering I had suffered was just for my sister to have a better life, and there was nothing unacceptable.

At this moment, I really felt like I was back in my family life before I was eight years old; However, the poster about her is still standing tall in the distance, indelible!

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