This evening, the burden that had been stagnant for decades peeled off in my heart like mud, and I just stood by the sea, watching everything in front of me be washed by the sea over and over again, until it was getting late.

Jin Qiu, who had been by my side and didn't speak much, finally asked me, "Jiang Qiao, I think your heart knots should be untied, right?" ”

I turned to look at her, then smiled and asked, "Is it from my expression again?" ”

"It's not...... I've just never seen you stand without saying a word for so long, still with a smile on your face, and for the first time I felt that silence was a pleasure for you, so I didn't dare to disturb you...... However, there are some things that I still plan to talk about in a bad way, because over the years, Aunt Yang has been doing her best to silently make up for the trauma in your soul...... Do you know? The reason why the scientific research results developed by Zhao Mu and his team can be recognized by authoritative institutions is that Aunt Yang has run down again and again, otherwise it would be impossible for Zhao Mu, a young man who has only graduated from college for a few years, to enter the management of Jinding Real Estate so quickly...... And these are all aunts' retribution to the Zhao family, so it's really time for you to open your heart and accept her. ”

I closed my eyes and was silent for a while, then nodded and replied: "I won't go to the tip of the bull's horns again, a friend is right, only by letting go of the past can we keep the future...... Maybe I've lived too stupidly for the past twenty years! ”

"Well, that's the truth...... But I'm curious who said that to you. ”

I looked at Jin Qiu, and I couldn't say Chen Yi's name for a long time, and finally just smiled awkwardly, and replied with a nonsense mentality: "You, you told me." ”

"Did I say that?"

I nodded so thoughtfully that in the end, I even believed that it was Jin Qiu who told me herself, and I didn't dare to think of Chen Yi, a woman who had gone too far in my life.

At this time, Jin Qiu looked back at the seafood restaurant built on Huandao Road, and she said to me with a serious expression: "Jiangqiao, I know that you really want to help that pair of sisters and brothers, and it just so happens that my sister is studying in Shanghai." So I thought, can we start a fundraiser for them in the name of the Dream Tree...... I still hope that she can go back to Shanghai to go to school, and in the future, she can also come to Mengshu to do work-study while studying, and as for her mother and brother, we can arrange a separate room for them to ensure their livelihood......"

Jin Qiu's idea surprised me, so that I didn't reply immediately, but Jin Qiu raised his right hand to make an oath, and said: "I promise not to hype, that is, we really did this thing in private, what do you think?" ”

"That's a good idea, but I've already left the Dream Tree, and since you're going to do it in the name of the Dream Tree, you don't need to ask for my opinion."

Jin Qiu's words were a little lost: "You really don't plan to go back to the Dream Tree?" ”

"Well, I don't want to go back again...... I think that in addition to the dream tree, my life will also have other meanings. ”

Jin Qiu looked up into the distance, and after she sighed softly, she smiled and asked me, "What do you want to do in the future?" ”

"I haven't thought about it yet, but I will definitely go back to Nanjing."

……

This night, I used my best level to make a table full of seafood for Yang Jin and Jin Qiu, although they would still focus on their careers as before, but they also accompanied me to drink a good drink. And the next morning, Yang Jin left in a hurry, but to my surprise, this time she didn't mention her marriage to Jin Qiu with me again, and Jin Qiu herself didn't say anything.

At this time, I realized that the previous resistance was not because I had no relationship with Jin Qiu, but because I was extremely disgusted that my life was arranged by others.

This afternoon, I made a decision, I don't want to stay in Lianyungang to enjoy life, I plan to go back to Nanjing to do something real, so I asked Master Kong, who is a real estate agent, to have a meal, and then gave him the spare keys to the two sea-view houses, and asked him to help rent out the two suites.

Master Kong felt that it would be too much of a loss to rent out such a sea-view room, so he suggested that I entrust it to him. He said that it doesn't matter if a house like this can't be rented out usually, and when the tourist season comes, a room can be sold for four or five hundred a night, and at most two months will earn back a year's rent, and if I want to come back for a few days in the future, I can still have a house to live in.

I accepted his offer, and Master Kong was more cheerful than I imagined, even if he used his mobile phone to transfer 20,000 yuan to me, the remaining 40,000 yuan would be paid to me in one lump sum after the end of the tourist season. And for me, this is definitely a good business, and at the same time, Master Kong can make a little profit himself, so these two rooms have been made into a great investment by Master Kong and me.

At the same time, I also realized the importance of network resources again, if it weren't for a friend like Master Kong in Lianyungang, I would never have been able to maximize the return on this investment.

……

After having dinner with Jin Qiu at the seafood restaurant called "Little Orange", we ushered in our last night in Lianyungang together, and tomorrow she will go back to Shanghai and I will go back to Nanjing. Originally, I was going to go back to Shanghai as well, but after Yang Qu received my meaty messages, she became very worried about me, she said that my brain was broken, so I couldn't wait to find it. After thinking about it, I thought it would be more appropriate to meet in Nanjing, because I planned to take her to pay homage to my grandmother. I think my grandmother would be glad if she knew about it, because she had a granddaughter in addition to my grandson.

Separation always makes people feel a little sad, this night Jin Qiu and I drank and talked for a long time, and then we walked along the roundabout road together, but we never touched on the topic of emotion. But my heart is not as hard as it used to be!

After a few moments, we stopped at one of the most open sections, and we leaned on the guardrail in the same position, and then looked at the lighthouse that seemed to stand in the middle of the sea. And this is also the calmest time of the day in the whole sea, because the seabirds have returned to their nests, and most of the freighters have stopped shipping.

"Why don't you smoke a cigarette?"

I looked at Jin Qiu and replied, "I usually smoke when I am emotional, and at this time, my heart is so calm, there is no need to smoke." ”

"If you really have such an awareness, I am so happy for you...... Jiang Qiao, I remember that your smoking age is not short, so take advantage of the recent good mood, so let's quit...... If you continue to smoke like this, when you have a child in the future, it will definitely affect the fetus. ”

I looked back at her and asked, "Who do I have children with?" ”

"Uh......" Jin Qiu glanced at me a little embarrassed, and hurriedly explained: "I am referring to it in general, and I don't refer to any specific woman......"

"Are you referring to it in general? …… It turns out that I am such a casual man in your heart! ”

"Don't take it so seriously...... I'm just a kind reminder, and it's really science-based......"

I just shrugged my shoulders and smiled, and didn't speak.

Jin Qiu finally got angry, she slapped me on the shoulder, and then said angrily: "Jiang Qiao, are you particularly lacking in fun in life, and the more you talk, the more energetic you are!" ……”

As she spoke, she stretched out her hand again, ready to slap me in pairs.

I hid and laughed: "Haha, the more you beat me, the more I feel that you have a weak heart...... The more I think you have a weakness, because you can't stand ridicule on this topic......"

Jin Qiu's hand hung in the air, her breathing suddenly became a little rapid, and it took a long time to put her hand down. And my heart is a little hairy, I am afraid that I will do too much and stimulate her to something...... But after a moment, she was calm again.

She straightened her hair that was tossed by the sea breeze, and then whispered to me: "Jiang Qiao, after so much in your life, don't you really want to have a marriage that is blessed by your family and is the right one?" ”

I looked at Jin Qiu and felt that on the whole, we could say that we were on the right track, because our father was a comrade-in-arms; In addition, even if my life has changed qualitatively because of Yang Jin's mother, don't forget that Jin Qiu herself is much better than me, too much, she is not only a top student who graduated from Nanda University, but also obtained a doctorate degree in a first-class foreign university, coupled with her outstanding business talent, in addition to being the right person, I Jiangqiao is really not worthy of her as a woman.

At this moment, I felt that I needed a cigarette very much, so I lowered my head when I lit a cigarette to avoid Jin Qiu's gaze, and then whispered back: "I will be 30 years old next year, and at this age, the passion will fade little by little, and I will pursue more and more stability in life, so I really desire this kind of marriage......" Speaking of this, I smiled, and then squinted my eyes and took a puff of cigarette, and said: "In the past year, I have really imagined that kind of life countless times, and we have common hobbies and life goals. In our spare time, we watch a ball game together, invite friends out for dinner and drink on the weekend, and occasionally carry a travel bag on our backs. If we are not financially well-off, it is nothing to live a small citizen's life; If you have enough money, you can do more to give back to this society...... Then, we grow old, but even when we face death, we don't feel too afraid, because we have made our lives like textbooks, and we have no regrets......"

In the silence of each other, the waves were stacked on top of each other and crashed against the reef beneath our feet, and I seemed to be able to hear my own heartbeat, because what I said, the golden autumn seemed to be able to give me; Of course, she also needs to make a little sacrifice in character.

"Jiang Qiao, you look me in the eye."

I turned my head to look at the golden autumn in the oncoming sea breeze......

She finally whispered, "Actually...... I can give you all the life you envision...... It could even be better...... It's just that I want to know if you ever love me, even if it's just a little bit! ”

This time, neither of us looked into each other's eyes, and we stared at each other under the light of the lighthouse......

However, the word love is really too heavy for me, and I am afraid that I will confuse the definitions of love and dependence, so I am speechless.

And at this moment, it is impossible for me not to think of Xiao Ai, but what I think of is no longer her face that makes my heart move......

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