In the hazy night, Chen Yi and I walked into the deep alley, she stopped at the door of the mood coffee shop and said to me: "Jiang Qiao, you go back to cook first, I'll go sit in the store for a while." ”

I looked at her in some surprise and asked, "What's wrong?"

"There's something I haven't done at work, you can go back first, and call me when the meal is ready."

I didn't think much about it, because Chen Yi had the habit of working in a coffee shop a long time ago, so I nodded, and returned to my residence with the food basket alone.

I started to get busy, it took me more than an hour to bring the prepared dishes and soup to the table, and after I washed my hands, I took out my phone from my pocket and called Chen Yi to tell her that she could come back for dinner.

I walked from the living room to the courtyard, but I was told by the voice that the other party's mobile phone had been turned off, I still didn't think too much, just thought that her mobile phone was out of battery, and then closed the door of the small courtyard and walked towards the mood coffee shop.

The weather after the snow is extremely cold, and this alley is not spared, there will be a pile of unmelted snow every few meters on the bluestone paved path, and the neighbors who have returned from work are shrinking because of this, and the cold air permeates the city in a raging manner, and the cold wind like a knife blows up the ice slag, and the air is filled with the smell of dampness

Pushing open the door of the coffee shop, the heating from the air conditioner desperately blew me very unadaptable, I got goosebumps in the alternating hot and cold air, I didn't care about these, and quickly glanced into the store, but there was no shadow of Chen Yi at all, and a feeling of uneasiness was more fierce than the alternation of cold and warm air, which made me stunned in place.

After a while, I finally restrained the feeling of uneasiness in my heart, called the store manager, and asked her, "Why did Chen Yi leave the coffee shop?"

The store manager replied, "She came in and left after a while. ”

I nervously asked, "Did she do anything special?"

The store manager recalled for a moment and replied: "Her face seemed to be very bad when she left, and after she came in, she asked me which folder the surveillance video in the store was stored in the computer, and then sat in front of the computer and watched, I thought it was very strange, and there was nothing missing in the store recently."

My scalp began to tingle, and I subconsciously looked at the monitoring probe installed outside the door, everything that happened at the door of the coffee shop last night could not escape its capture, and Chen Yi must have noticed something to have such a behavior.

I sat down next to the computer, my hands shaking when I clicked the mouse. The next moment, the images of last night that had happened under the neon lights appeared in my sight, I was defenseless, and time had begun to turn back, and the real scene told me in the most unquestionable way what had happened last night, even though my own consciousness was very vague at the time, and all I remembered afterwards were fragments

In the surveillance footage, Xiao Ai supported me, and the two stumbled and stopped at the door of the mood coffee shop, Xiao Ai kept talking in my ear, but I didn't want to take a step. My expression was full of pain in the struggle, but there were no sunflowers I imagined in the real picture, and I suddenly pressed Xiao Ai very hard in the corner of the wall, and the blue piano case fell in her struggle

The picture began to become more unbearable, I kissed Xiao Ai in the struggle, and gradually she stopped fighting, and my hand also reached into her clothes, for a long, long time

The picture was not clear enough, until she turned away and walked to the closest place to the surveillance, only to see the tears on her face that had not yet had time to be dried by the wind, her hair and clothes were messy, and I was like a dead dog lying in the snow, motionless

There are no sunflowers, there are no sunflowers at all. Not long ago, everything was so truly presented in Chen Yi's eyes. A chill swelled inside me from head to toe, and I knew that everything was over, and that God was the fairest, and that it had told the woman who deserved the most of the betrayals the most, and that I would have to pay for that shameless act after all.

I turned off the surveillance video and deleted it, but another force desperately dispelled the shame in my heart, so that I had to find Chen Yi, she treated me so sincerely, but I responded to her with such a beastly behavior, at this moment, she must be the most painful woman in the world.

In the night, I walked all over the tulip road but failed to find Chen Yi, and her car was no longer parked in the open space outside the alley, she left. I knew that she would not return to her parents for comfort in such agony, but I did not know where she would go, because the city of Nanking was so big that a person who did not want to meet me could hide himself without a trace.

I was so anxious that I went crazy, and then I looked two more streets in this mood, but there was still no car for her, and she was still nowhere to be seen. Everything I cared about seemed to have evaporated from my world out of thin air, leaving only a numb body, numbly breathing air, numbly searching

The city is getting more and more empty, the vehicles and people coming and going have all become as blurry as the light in my vision, my breathing is difficult, my thinking is getting duller and duller, I have looked for all the places to look, even the several schools we went to together, but Chen Yi still did not leave me a clue to find her, I really don't know where she will hide herself in this cold world.

She is really not afraid, these sorrows that should not belong to her fell into this boundless night, is it hopeless, all this should be borne by me, a man who has done something wrong, and she has done well enough.

The taxi had already driven me through the entire Yuhuatai District, and I finally took out my wallet from my pocket, I really couldn't find a woman I didn't want to find in this seemingly boundless city, but in an instant, my eyes fell on my ID card, I saw my name I am Jiangqiao, a bridge that connects the two sides of the Yangtze River, Chen Yi has understood my name more than once.

Will she be there without seeing me, but she will be able to hate me more truly

The night by the river is even colder, the cold wind blows the waves on the river, and the freighters that come in the dark seem to disappear on the river at any time, and then take the people inside to an unknown world. Only the Yangtze River Bridge, which has stood on the river for half a century, still symbolizes the truth, telling the world that the lights have never been extinguished, and the traffic has never stopped, and there are always countless people in this world stepping on its body, facing the street lights on both sides of the bridge, leading to the road closest to home.

I saw Chen Yi, she was wearing a white coat and hat, standing by the guardrail, my hanging heart fell, and another fear filled my heart for the first time, I don't know what kind of posture I should stand by her side.

It seemed that the cold wind came to Chen Yi's side against me, and I swallowed hard before finally saying to her: "I'm sorry, I disappointed you"

She didn't respond to me, her eyes stayed in the darkest and hardest to see in the distance, she didn't shed tears, I seemed to see a dead heart.

I don't know how long it took, but she finally said to me: "When you talked to me about breaking up last night, I already felt that your mentality had changed, and I knew that Qiu Zi'an had found you, and he wouldn't say anything friendly to you, but these shouldn't be a reason for you to behave indiscriminately, or, in your heart, you didn't really love me." Over the years, you just regarded me as an indispensable support by your side, because love shouldn't be so superficial, let alone let you be so nasty"

My heart was twitching, and I closed my eyes thinking about all the pain and trouble I had caused her. I know that she is even on the verge of breaking with her parents for me, and I am the star of her fate

I finally smiled, not letting myself be burdened, and replied: "You are right, I know best what I have done, and there is no point in talking about love or not love at this time"

Chen Yi turned to look at me, the tears that she had been holding back finally fell, her face was pale, her lips had been blown dry by the riverside wind, and her heart was suffering unbearable pain, and I felt the same way. As a human being, even the most basic ability to breathe seems to have been gradually lost.

She cried so much that she couldn't help herself: "Jiangqiao, I really want to give you another chance, because there was a very beautiful promise between us, but no matter how beautiful the promise is, it can't withstand the betrayal of ** and the soul can't withstand the love in your heart, so I don't want to be so miserable anymore, I'm tired, I live every day and don't know how to face the fatigue of tomorrow, I really endure it."

I bowed my head and remained silent amid her cries, just waiting for her to say the "breakup" that represented relief. And after that, she will change direction and take a bright path, and it doesn't matter if I continue to fall on the single-plank bridge with no choice.

"Jiangqiao, I, we, divide, hand, let's go."

My heart has been torn apart, maybe I knew from the beginning that there would be this result, but when I really have to face it, the pain is so unbearable, I want to catch her, but I have heard despair in her words, and I have seen the hardships that put her on the verge of collapse. If I really love her, I should stay awake and give her a way to live. I've long heard that there is no one in this world who can't live without them, it's just that it hurts when you break up.

Even without me, Chen Yi has enough conditions to find a man who is a hundred or a thousand times better than me, and the scars I give her will definitely be healed by another man worthy of her love.

I finally replied with a blank face, "Okay, I've been waiting for you to say this to me." I have loved you, but I can also love other women Chen Yi while loving you, do you know that the most failed place in your life is that you can't see a man who has lived with you for more than 20 years. ”

Chen Yi's face turned pale: "Jiang Qiao, you are really terrible, very shameless, you don't deserve to say that you have loved me"

The Yangtze River Bridge stretching in front of us seems to be seeing off Chen Yi, and our decades of past are like a stone, rapidly weathered into pieces in the wind, we finally broke up, and finally have to draw a clear line haha, this is really good If it weren't for that damn tulip road, our fate will be pulled together, our birth background, our social relations, will not let us have a trace of intersection, let alone a love

We weren't supposed to be a world in the first place, just as a snow doesn't belong in summer, and tulips that grow in nature never bloom in winter