I walked back to my lodgings, completely out of the mood, just sitting at the table and watching the dinner that had been prepared more than an hour earlier. When I was making these dinners, I imagined that Chen Yi must have liked the Pingqiao tofu soup I made for her, but now I was facing only the very cold-colored walls, and the pain of tearing kept tormenting me, and I was about to collapse

I didn't eat, I didn't wash, I just lay on the bed buried in the night, but in that quiet environment without a little noise, my senses became extremely sensitive, and the faint breath left by Chen Yi last night seemed to be still there.

It's really still there, the duvet she covered with the scent of essential oil toner is still there, my sensitive nerves are so stimulated, I only feel that the unbearable pain is about to tear my body, those conversations we had last night were like steel needles piercing my heart, everything came so quickly, and I could only tell myself repeatedly not to be sad, because letting go is also a kind of fulfillment.

Looking back on the years I have known Chen Yi, what I look forward to most is to see her happy, so when I was a child, whenever she felt bored learning talents, even if it was a training class far away from Tulip Road, I had the ability to find her, and then "steal" her out and play with her for a long time. At school, she was wronged by the teacher, and no matter how strict and arrogant the teacher was, I had the courage to stand up and speak up for her and the teacher

Now, we are together in the name of love, but she laughs less and less, more and more tired, and more and more unable to be her closest partner, how can I not feel how hard she is supporting this love with a huge gap, and the purpose of love at the beginning is not to let her break with her relatives, so many times, I can't help but ask myself, how long can this love last, and is the current Chen Yi I want to see

I have the answer, even if there is no wrong thing I did when I was drunk, it is difficult to have a result between us, because the impulse in love is definitely not the basis that supports love, and no one can really beat the cruelty of reality, not to mention that I am just a real little person in this society, and I have no qualifications to argue with reality, everything I can do has been done on the Yangtze River Bridge

I finally laughed, laughed and cried, I really love Chen Yi, but from ancient times to the present, how many people can transcend the gap in reality Even Liang Shanbo and Zhu Yingtai are only treated with artistic techniques and turned into plates, which seems romantic but is more of a warning, and the pain of me and Chen Yi today has been interpreted thousands of years ago, and it will still be repeated thousands of years later

At night, even if I figured it out, I still couldn't get better, and I kept holding the quilt covered by Chen Yi, choking in pain. In this life, I don't seem to have seen any hope for love

In the past two days after breaking up with Chen Yi, I have been living in the dark, I have not gone to the coffee shop, nor have I left this alley, I eat instant noodles when I am hungry, I lie in bed when I am tired, I fall asleep day and night, and when I wake up, I light a cigarette and stare at the wall in a daze.

These days, I don't even dare to open WeChat, because I am afraid that the news of Chen Yi's marriage will come from the circle of friends, and I will definitely go to hell because of this news, I hope that she can calm down after the breakup, instead of taking revenge on my betrayal with an impulsive marriage

I can't tell if I really betrayed it, at least in the two days since we broke up, I never thought about going to Xiao Ai, let alone telling her the news, and then getting something from her. I was very lonely in pain, missing Chen Yi in loneliness, and making myself worse than dead in loneliness

On the evening of the third day, I finally left where I lived, and walked on the tulip road like a patient, but when I faced the night on this road with an open attitude again, I was still so lost that I didn't know why, I just wanted to come out to eat a bowl of ravioli, and suddenly there was no food **, so I sat on the bench of the convenience store, lit a cigarette, and looked at this ridiculous world and ridiculous people

Looking at it, every long-haired woman passing by on the road, as long as she is slender, I will mistake their backs for Chen Yi, maybe she will come back to get something, I thought so in my head, but this is the third day after we broke up, she should have taken anything she wanted, so I stared at the bald plane tree in front of me for a while.

I kind of want to leave Nanjing, I want to go to Shenzhen, go to Jiang Jiyou, and see what he has been doing all these years.

If it's possible to live over there, I'll sell the old house here and take my grandmother to live there, as for the mood coffee shop, just like Yu Ya at the beginning, it's enough to come back and see it occasionally.

With my head down, avoiding the cold wind blowing in my face, I smoked two cigarettes in a row, and the mobile phone that was turned on only an hour ago also rang at this moment, I took out the phone from my pocket mechanically, this call was from Jin Qiu, she asked me to talk about business.

At 7 o'clock, Jin Qiu came to the mood coffee shop, we sat near the window and chatted, she looked at the courtship wall, smiled and said to me: "That wall expresses my love for you in more than 100 languages, it must be very painstaking and energy."

I replied in a state of discouragement: "The main thing is that there are emotions in it, and that's what drives me to do this." ”

Jin Qiu nodded tacitly, and when I built this courtship wall, I really thought more than once that I wanted to propose to Chen Yi here, so I had such a lot of motivation to find language information, and sketched out these loving expressions on the wall one by one.

That's how our love comes and goes

"By the way, did you make that client's proposal last time?"

I shook my head and replied, "I'm not in a good position to do this plan now, I definitely don't have any inspiration, so I'd better ask your company's wedding planner to help me do it." ”

Jin Qiu noticed my abnormality, and asked in a concerned tone: "What's wrong with you, you feel that your mental state is very wrong?"

I looked at Jin Qiu, without words, and smart as she had seen through everything, she handed me a cigarette and said, "If I guessed correctly, you should have broken up with Chen Yi."

I took the cigarette from her hand and lit it for a long time before replying, "It's divided, it's reasonable, it's unexpected, right?"

"As a bystander, I do think so from elementary school to work, Chen Yi's reputation who doesn't know that she will always be the focus of others' eyes, living in the fantasies of men, and you"

"I'm too ordinary," I said, taking a deep puff of my cigarette, I don't have to argue, because the gap between me and Chen Yi is too obvious in the eyes of others.

Jin Qiu shook her head unexpectedly, and she replied, "That's not what I meant. After a pause, she added, "Don't talk about these things that make you unhappy, let's talk about your plans for the future." ”

"I want to go to Shenzhen first, and if there is a chance, I will sell the house in Nanjing and take my grandmother with me."

"Jiang Qiao, you advise you to quickly dispel this idea."

I looked at Jin Qiu's very serious expression and wondered, "What's wrong?"

"If you go to Shenzhen by yourself, I can understand, after all, the boy has ambitions in all directions, but if you want to take your grandmother to go, it will be very disagreeable, grandma, she is a native of Nanjing, can you guarantee that she adapts to the life in Shenzhen, not to mention her inconvenient legs and feet, when she gets there, it will definitely become a big burden for you, and she will definitely blame herself, and the unfamiliar environment will make her feel more depressed"

"But I can't let her stay in Nanjing alone"

"So, you Jiangqiao is different from others, you don't have the conditions to go to other places and start over, you have too many restraints"

My heart was full of helplessness, but I was silent, I didn't want to vent anything, because I had been living like this all these years.

Jin Qiu gave me room to be sad, she didn't speak for a long time, just lit a lady's cigarette, and didn't say to me again until she was about to finish smoking: "Jiang Qiao, the purpose of my coming to you today is to sincerely invite you back to the company, don't be in a hurry to refuse me, listen to my conditions first." ”

I looked at her

"Our company has not had a marketing department before, to systematically analyze the market trend, and then formulate the corresponding market strategy according to the trend, so I think the top priority is not to rely on investment to focus on the high-end market, but to improve the company's structure first is the top priority. I will set up a marketing department in the near future, I hope you can be the manager of the marketing department, because you have proved to me that compared to planning work, your ability to do marketing is stronger, I will give you a guaranteed monthly salary of 12,000, plus various bonuses, the annual income is at least 180,000, and give you full freedom to do your own coffee shop, what do you think"

Her sudden invitation made me stunned

Jin Qiu still said to me in a very sincere tone: "Jiangqiao, let's do a career together, your experience and talent, coupled with my management, we will definitely be able to make achievements in the city of Nanjing, which I firmly believe in a man, why let feelings become their own fetters and you are really young, it is the age when you should work hard, I hope you can give yourself a correct position and accept my sincere invitation." ”

It took me a long time to reply, "I'll be honest with you, the change in your attitude has made me a little relieved. ”

"No, Jiang Qiao, I have already invited you before, but you didn't accept me and I also seriously said humility to you, I really misjudged you. We have all seen how important the customer has played in resolving the company's crisis, and the customer's recognition of you has intuitively fed back your contribution to the company in the past few years, as well as your future potential, so I am looking forward to working with you to do business. ”