After Xiao Ai said these words emotionally, the three of them all stood in silence in the wind that was still a little chilly in early spring, and the warm lights cast from the walls of the hotel, like leaves of different shapes, spread under our feet, making it difficult to tell whether this was early spring or late autumn. In short, what is even lower than this temperature is the atmosphere that has formed between the three of us. At this moment, I don't seem to be walking, and I can't go either......

I looked at Yao Yu, she was immersed in the grief of Yuan Zhen's death, and Xiao Ai's eyes were the most complicated, as if she was not in the state of having looked down on everything as she said, her heart seemed to hide too much, too many things I didn't know, and I seemed to catch a trace of imperceptible grievance in her expression, which was fleeting, so that I felt that I was wrong......

At this time, I, who had not spoken, finally said to Xiao Ai: "I believe that neither me nor Yao Yu deliberately want to disturb you, but when something happens, someone will want to know the truth...... If you were replaced with Yao Yao, do you think you could be indifferent? ”

Xiao Ai didn't say anything, she just looked at me, then at Yao Yu, and then picked up the backpack from the ground, turned around and walked towards the hotel lobby. It's just that she seems to have forgotten to take away the guitar that was trampled by Yao Yu, and I held it in my hand, feeling a little heavy.

It wasn't until she disappeared from my sight that I said to Yao Yu, "Do you want me to take you back to the hotel, or take a taxi yourself?" ”

Yao Yu ignored me, she looked up at the "Tulip" hotel, and then walked in the opposite direction to Xiao Ai. I felt a little lonely because of that. It seems that both of them are living for Yuan Zhen, one is bitter for him, the other is going to spend the rest of his life fulfilling his artistic wishes, and I am just an inconsequential bystander, and I am considered nosy...... I wanted to smoke again, but I only had half a box of lozenges left in my pocket.

I didn't leave right away, I put the guitar in the car and walked down Tulip Road alone, just watching the cars go by and the lights blurred...... However, twenty years ago, or even ten years ago, this was a pure land where the soul could rest, and I liked the air that used to smell of gasoline, the low convenience store where there were my favorite cigarettes, and the handsome and dignified girl on the other side......

But I didn't even have time to remember, and it was all gone.

Walking to the entrance of the community, which has replaced the old alley and is known as the "Eco-City", I unconsciously stopped, and then looked up at the magnificent and modern door, although I knew that this was a kind of progress, but I still remembered the stone road and moss-covered walls in the old alley, I couldn't figure out whether this was a fascination with feelings, or a hypocrisy of moaning without disease. In short, there is no going back.

In a distraction, my waist was hugged, and when I looked down, it was a edamame that I hadn't seen for a long time, he could only hug my thighs before, but now he can hug my waist! This scene makes me feel that there is really nothing that can stand still, because time is a machine that pushes people forward, and in front of it, no one has the ability to resist.

Edamame has been laughing since the moment he hugged me, and he kept muttering "Futahashi, Futahashi"

I picked him up and exclaimed, "So soon to grow into a young man!" After a pause, I asked him again, "Have you already moved in your family?" ”

Edamame said to me proudly: "Yes, it's been a few days since we moved in, and my house has become beautiful, do you want to go in and have a look at the second bridge?" ”

I put the edamame down and looked inside. Maybe Edamame doesn't know, even my own house, I haven't looked at it much, and it's always hard for me to find a sense of belonging in this new neighborhood. So, I replied perfunctorily: "It's too late today, let's go see it another day when I have time." ”

Edamame was very disappointed, but I was very resolute, after he felt hopeless, he said to me: "Then you must come to my house when you have time, I will take you to see my little study, I will store the toys you and Sister Chen Yi bought for me in that cabinet, there are many, many!" ……”

My body is like electricity, these toys collected by edamame are not a kind of memory...... It carries the love of my youth and youth, and we give gifts to Edamame on time for his birthday every year. It's just that these have been taken away by time. Now that we are on different sides, I think she is doing well, and she thinks I am living well, but only I know if I am doing well or not......

Just as I was thinking about those past events, Edamame suddenly asked me, "Futahashi, I haven't seen you for so long, you should be married, right?" ”

I shook my head.

Edamame's eyes widened and he sighed, "Oh my God, you're not married yet!" …… I want to get married! ”

"What the hell?"

Edamame replied very seriously: "I want to marry Wu Yanyan in our class, she is cute and can dance...... But we're just good friends now...... But as long as you persevere, there will be results...... That's what my dad always said! ”

This time, it was me who stared at him with wide eyes, and I said, "Are you the legendary post-zero who hangs the sky?" …… The insistence that your dad said, it's aimed at life, not your early love, don't take it out of context! ”

"What does it mean to take a quote out of context?"

"I can't explain it to you clearly, but you'd better not think about marrying Wu Yanyan, because it's illegal and you'll go to jail!"

Edamame jumped up and said to me, "You fart, how can you go to jail if you love someone?" ”

I didn't have words because he was too young to understand enough.

Actually, to love someone is to go to jail, and I've been sitting for almost two years. In order to make myself feel better, I threw a throat candy into my mouth before I said to Edamame, "Actually, I'm getting married." ”

"With whom? Could it be that Sister Chen Yi divorced and got along with you again? ”

"What nonsense are you talking about?!"

Edamame said confidently: "I didn't talk nonsense, she didn't marry the person she loved, even I know it." ”

I felt inexplicably ironic that it was a child who said the word love over and over again, and then came to tell me what he thought he knew, and what were we adults doing?

I was silent for a long time before I said to Edamame, "Edamame, whether you can understand it or not, but I have to tell you...... Sister Chen Yi is already married, and she will not divorce; …… I'm going to get married too! However, the story between me and Chen Yi will not end there...... More than ten years of liking have made us have a deeper connection with each other. Fuller than a lover, more solid than a friend...... That's, shackles! …… Do you understand? ”

Edamame looked at me, I touched his head, and whispered to him, "Go back to bed, I have to go to school tomorrow." ”

"Then you must visit my new home when you have time...... I asked my dad to treat you to dinner. ”

I nodded, and Edamame ran away, but I was once again deep in thought. In front of the innocent child Edamame, I defined myself and Chen Yi's small life. What about me and Xiao Ai? It is also an unforgettable love, what have I gained and what have I lost? …… Perhaps, love doesn't need such a calculation at all, it is just a good memory that can be cherished in the heart.

We will all have someone to marry or marry, but marriage is definitely not the end, but a new beginning......