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The car was still stuck in the middle of the road motionless, I was like a fish in a prison prison, I couldn't see the breadth of the distance, I could only swim in fear in the square inch of my vision, at this moment my actions could not keep up with my thinking, so I said what I shouldn't have said before this, and finally I could only throw myself in this unfamiliar place, watching countless lights flicker, but none of them were bright for my body, just to illuminate the loneliness that made me feel suffocated.

It was already 7 o'clock in the evening, I finally followed the slow traffic out of the scene of the car accident that caused me trouble, and the road opened up, there was a crossroads in front of me, but I didn't know whether to go left or right after losing my destination, I only knew that Chen Yi's family banquet should have started at this moment, and it really didn't matter if I went or not, because I had been stuck in traffic for too long and had missed the best time to express myself to Chen Yi's parents.

Before reaching the intersection, I pulled over to the side of the road and stopped, as if I was no longer in the most familiar Nanjing, but in a foreign land at night, I squatted on the side of the road and smoked the last cigarette in the cigarette case, and finally decided to return to Tulip Road, maybe there will make me feel a little home, I don't have to keep running in this world that makes me feel irritable, it doesn't matter if I am a saint or a clown there, because I hide it deep enough.

But I can still imagine how Qiu Zi'an, as a man whose identity and status completely matches Chen Yi, will show that he is stronger than me in front of Chen Yi's family and relatives, and how Chen Yi will deal with what Qiu Zi'an does

I don't know, but I know that my actions have hurt her, but her actions don't make me happy, and I suddenly miss the days when I had a crush, and all joy comes in silence, and leaves in silence, leaving no burden in each other's lives.

What is clear is that after Qiu Zi'an and I played this play, it was inappropriate for me to go to the family banquet, and it was not appropriate for me not to go, he turned me into a reckless man who couldn't be forced, and in the end he could only take his temper out on Chen Yi's body, hurting her and hurting himself

Back in the alley, I went to the "Mood Café" and asked for a few beers, at this moment I didn't want to be idle, because idleness would be cranky, and under such demand, wine became a good thing, it would give me some ethereal comfort, or a sleep that I wouldn't even dream about.

On this night, there were not many customers in the coffee shop, about a dozen people, everyone was enjoying the tranquility and relaxation that had nothing to do with this world, so the atmosphere was still so soft and lazy, but because of this, it made people feel very presence, so the pain and irritability that bothered me became more and more obvious, and I felt more and more tormented, and I quickly drank a bottle of beer.

I wasn't dizzy, but I was a little sluggish, and in the malaise I heard the sound of a knock on the glass window

I turned my head to look and saw that it was Xiao Ai, so I looked at her wearing a thick sweater jacket through the glass window, and I also felt a chill, it turned out that the current season already needs to wear such clothes.

"Are you sleepwalking?" Xiao Ai wrote crookedly on the smooth glass window with his eyeliner as before.

I typed out what I wanted to say to her on my phone's notepad: "Do you see the beer on the table, there are no people sleepwalking with beer, only people who want to die while drinking"

"Death is indeed a shortcut to becoming an immortal, but I'm afraid that you are too kind, call you a hero, do you dare to agree?"

"When I say I want to die, I use an analogy to describe that I feel sad to a certain extent, I don't want to be a hero, and I don't want to die"

"What's wrong with you, sad like a dying flower"

I knew that Xiao Ai seemed to care, but in fact he seized the opportunity to squeeze me, I put the phone back on the table, then picked up the beer and drank it, and Xiao Ai also opened the door of the coffee shop and walked in, and the next moment sat down in the opposite place from me, staring at me without speaking.

I was so uncomfortable with her that I asked, "Why are you here?"

"Didn't you go to see Chen Yi's family when I came to you to get my car back, why did you come back so soon?"

I tried not to let myself get emotional and said, "I didn't go at all." ”

"Retreating"

"No, I met a robber halfway."

"Tell me quickly, I feel that tonight is very storyful, I am willing to be a listener and listen to your legendary life."

"There's no beer, I don't want to talk about it."

Xiao Ai snapped his fingers at the waiter and said, "Please bring this gentleman a dozen beers." After thinking about it, she said, "Let's have two dozen, and I will count as much as he drinks." ”

I'm already the owner of the "Mood Coffee" shop, but I don't plan to refuse Xiao Ai a treat while drinking my own beer, anyway, she has money, so she should contribute to my goal of reaching 180,000 turnover, so I added to the waiter: "Let's do three dozen first." ”

Xiao Ai sighed at me incredulously: "Are you going to fight with beer?"

"I can't drink it, I'll drink it next time."

"I really don't like your little abacus"

"I don't like to live such a bad life, and I don't like people talking about me, can you change it?"

Xiao Ai looked at me with a speechless expression, and then opened all the beers in front of me in one breath, and replied: "I can't change anything, but I can make you from sober to a useless drunk, drink and vomit, and I'll send you back to that little broken courtyard." ”

I glanced at Xiao Ai, then reached out and picked up a bottle of beer and drank it, and when I took another bottle, Xiao Ai pressed my hand and said: "To be a man, you must be true to your word, and you can't drink the wine I invited you to tell me about your experience tonight." ”

I put down the beer bottle, sighed, and subconsciously tried to find the cigarette in my pocket, only to realize that the last cigarette had been smoked on the way back.

But she didn't want Xiao Ai to be prepared, she took out a box of red Nanjing that I often smoke from her small backpack and threw it in front of me and said: "Smoke, and then tell the story a little more exciting, otherwise you will be sorry for my dedication to you."

I glanced at her again, only to see her looking at me seriously, without blinking her eyes, and suddenly those emotions that could torture me to death were diluted, and I also had the urge to speak, and finally lit a cigarette and told her why I didn't go to Chen Yi's family banquet tonight

At the end, he said: "I don't know what mood Chen Yi is in now, and I don't want to have such a bad attitude, but there is always a moment when I can't control my emotions, in fact, there should be a better way to deal with it, even if there is no better way to deal with it, at least there should be a better way to speak." ”

Xiao Ai looked at me with a look that I couldn't read, and said for a while: "It's not easy to know what kind of mood Chen Yi is in now, go to the hotel where they eat and wait." ”

"I've said all the ugly things, what's the point now?"

"You stupid, who asked you to go directly to the hotel to see her, you can observe the words and emotions outside the hotel, and when they come out, there will always be some body movements that can tell her mood."

When Xiao Ai said this, I suddenly really wanted to go and see it, because as long as I thought that Qiu Zi'an was with her, I felt a strong sense of crisis in my heart, and I didn't want Qiu Zi'an to take the opportunity to have something happen to Chen Yi. So, in an instant, I felt the urge to go to the hotel, even if it was just to look outside.

I got up to leave, Xiao Ai also followed behind me, when I pushed the door open, a gust of cold wind blew and I couldn't help but shiver, the temperature tonight is really dropping hard, I can't adapt to such a temperature difference.

Xiao Ai walked ahead of me and pushed a red folding bicycle out of the corner, I stopped and asked her, "You're coming by bike"

"If you're bored at night, you should exercise yourself."

Looking at the red bicycle, and then thinking of the way she rode here panting from the Confucius Temple, I suddenly felt a faint warmth. It turns out that a folding bicycle can come and go freely in the city shrouded in night with only the power given by people, so that I can always see a kind of freedom in her, and how many followers have attracted with short hair like her riding a bicycle all the way

Out of the alley, Xiao Ai's Mercedes-Benz was still parked in the open space, she opened the trunk and folded her bicycle and put it in, and then said to me: "Just by the way, I'll take you there." ”

"Are you really kind, or are you in the mood to watch the show?"

"I don't want to watch a play, I just want to know how unswerving a love born in a childhood sweetheart will be, I hope you won't be embarrassed to the point of being embarrassed"

I didn't have words, I just repeated in my brain to imagine what I might see later, I just wanted to see Chen Yi in the crowd, I didn't want to see Qiu Zi'an, because if Chen Yi took into account my feelings, there would always be a reason to support Qiu Zi'an and not let him participate in this family banquet.

After arriving at the five-star hotel booked by Chen Yi, she first drove around the parking lot, found a parking space that was not easy to be found, and then parked the car inside, and we who were sitting in the car could just see the door of the hotel, which was the only way for Chen Yi and her family and relatives to come out later.

Maybe it's a secret arrangement, Xiao Ai and I didn't wait too long after coming here to see Chen Yi's cousin walking out of the hotel while talking on the phone, although I haven't seen Chen Yi and her family yet, but I know that this family banquet is over, maybe I will see the expected scene in the next moment, or it may be unexpected