In the night, I sent Jin Qiu outside the alley, and we have talked enough today. When parting, she said to me again: "Jiangqiao, you can think about the matter of returning to the company, and call me if you have ideas." ”

I nodded, subconsciously I didn't want to say too much, I was in a trance, I didn't know what I had done these days, and what to do next, I didn't have a clear vein in my brain, all my emotions have been hollowed out by the love that just ended.

Jin Qiu was about to leave, and I hurriedly called out to her again.

She looked at me in some surprise and asked, "Why, you made a decision so quickly?"

I shook my head and replied, "No, just wanted to ask you for a favor, I need a sum of money right now"

"How much"

I calculated in my heart, Chen Yi has spent 90,000 yuan directly on me during this time, and since I have broken up, I have no reason not to pay back this money. I finally replied to Jin Qiu: "90,000 yuan, is it convenient for you here?"

"Nothing inconvenient." After a pause, she said to me again: "You borrowed this money and returned it to Chen Yi."

"Yes, it's better to break up and not owe each other."

Jin Qiu smiled and replied: "It's easy to do it materially, but emotionally compared to you, I don't know what Chen Yi's mood is now." ”

I couldn't use my sad body to imagine what Chen Yi's current state was, so I didn't choose to respond, just looked back at the alley behind me, so some indescribable emotions filled my heart again. I know that it is too difficult for me to get out of this relationship with Chen Yi.

Jin Qiu said to me again: "Leave me a card number, and I will transfer this money to your account before I get off work tomorrow." ”

I said "thank you" and gave her my bank card number, and then she left Tulip Road, and I was the only one left in the night, and then stared blankly at the strangers who came and went in front of her, but they were not familiar with them.

I walked down the street again, and when I was hungry, I finally wanted to eat a bowl of ravioli, so I quickened my pace and walked towards the square at the end of the road where there were many food stalls

It's past the rush hour, but the beer bottles scattered under the tables of the food stalls prove that many people have eaten and drunk here not long ago, and there is an unfinished construction site next to the square, and the workers on the site like to come here for a few drinks after a busy day. Most of those beer bottles should have been left by them, and they also left their simple happiness and easy satisfaction, and they only asked for food and clothing this night

Suddenly, I saw the familiar figure, still carrying the blue case, but I felt a little strange, because we hadn't seen each other for several days.

I thought about what I had done to her that night, and I felt a deep sense of guilt, but I didn't know how to apologize to her, and I kind of wanted to avoid this awkward meeting, but it was already inevitable.

My eyes were a little evasive, and I said with a deliberately squeezed smile, "Are you here to eat?"

She ignored me and walked straight to the wonton stand next to me, where she asked for a small bowl of wontons and sat down at a small table and waited

I gave up eating wontons and asked for a bowl of fried noodles instead, and sat down in a position far away from her and waited

A moment later, her wontons and my fried noodles were brought to us, and we ate at a very delicate distance, and I ate much faster than hers, and when I finished, she was only halfway through her ravioli.

I first paid for my share of fried noodles, and then I was about to pay for the bowl of wontons for Xiao Ai, but I didn't want this behavior to anger her, she smashed the wonton bowl with soup on me across the table, this time I couldn't dodge, and suddenly there was an extremely uncomfortable feeling from the waist and abdomen, and the soup had dripped down my trouser legs to the ground.

The boss was so frightened by this sudden change that he froze in place and did not immediately take the five-dollar change from me.

I looked at Xiao Ai with a cold face, and sighed lightly in my heart, I can understand her actions, that reckless drunkenness not only hurt Chen Yi, but also hurt her.

I finally put the money on the cash drawer of the stall, smiled and said to the boss: "It's okay, we are friends, but there is a bit of a conflict." ”

The boss came back to his senses and said to me with a bitter face: "What we are doing is a small business, this bowl has been broken, you can't afford not to pay for it." ”

I took another 10 yuan out of my wallet and handed it to the boss, who hurriedly took it from me, and this act also meant the end of this episode. The next moment, the night was quiet again, but the world did not leave us with kindness, and the sound of the cold wind became very clear in my ears.

Xiao Ai picked up the piano case and walked around the humble dining table to the street not far away, I followed her footsteps, and then blocked in front of her, looking at her with an indifferent expression and said: "I don't know how to apologize to you, but I'm really sorry that night I drank too much and did something disrespectful to you when I wasn't sober, but I really didn't mean to, please believe me"

Xiao Ai looked at me, tears rolling in her eyes, she tried to speak several times, but in the end she couldn't speak, she pushed me away again, and then walked across the street.

The more she did this, the more guilty I felt about her, and I seemed to instinctively follow in her footsteps, though I didn't know what to say to her, and I couldn't even tell if it was to make her feel better, or to make myself better

In the middle of the traffic, Xiao Ai walked regardless of it, and the cars coming on both sides were not so clear because of the influence of the lights shining on each other, and one of the cars was about to hit her, and the piercing brake sounded

My nerves became extremely sharp, and I was the first to protect her, but I was scratched by the rearview mirror of the car and fell into the bush

The driver got out of the car with a nervous face and asked me if I was injured, I stood up from the bushes, because the winter clothes were thicker, and the bushes unloaded part of the force, so I was not injured, plus Xiao Ai did not look at the car when he crossed the road, I had no reason to pursue anything at all, so I signaled him to drive away quickly, so as not to affect the traffic of the car behind.

The traffic resumed, Xiao Ai and I stood opposite each other on the sidewalk, she looked at me with a complicated face, and finally said to me in a low cry: "I beg you not to follow me anymore, when I see you now, I feel that I am a very disgusting and dirty woman, you really don't torture me anymore"

"I didn't mean to, I was about to break the piece, and all I saw was a sunflower, a sunflower"

"Sunflower, are you joking with me?"

"I didn't laugh, it was really where I was"

"You were in that state at the time, so why did you pester me to apologize, you don't know what you did, all you have in your world is what you say bullshit sunflowers"

As hard as I could tell, I told the truth: "I later watched the surveillance video from that night. ”

After a suffocating silence, Xiao Ai finally said to me: "Don't apologize to me anymore, don't apologize to me, if I really resist with all my strength that night, you can't do anything to me I'm a cheap woman, I know that you don't love me, you treat Chen Yi well, because all you shouted in your mouth that night was Chen Yi's name"

After Xiao Ai said this, she didn't give me a chance to keep up, she stopped a taxi, and the next moment it disappeared from my sight, and suddenly all that was left in my world was the flickering of the lights and the sound of my own breathing, and some pain that I didn't know where it came from, instantly swallowed me.

The next afternoon, Jin Qiu transferred the 90,000 yuan I borrowed from her to my card, and I took the money to Qiao Ye's hotel, and then found Qin Miao.

I put the document bag containing 90,000 yuan in cash on the bar, and said to Qin Miao, who was watching the movie: "Please do one thing, you can help me transfer this money to Chen Yi." ”

Qin Miao didn't look at me, and replied with melon seeds: "Whoever owes the money will pay it back, I don't have much to do." ”

I said to Qiao Ye who was on the phone again: "Do my buddy a favor, okay"

Qiao Ye didn't look at me, raised his hand and slammed the document bag from the bar to the door

The embarrassment was no longer enough to describe my mood at the moment, and I understood why Qiao Ye and his wife would treat me like this, I picked up the document bag from the ground, didn't say anything more, and left Qiao Ye's hotel instead.

After hesitating for a while, I finally used the little courage I had to send a message to Chen Yi: "Can you come out to meet, I have something I want to return to you." ”

This message went unanswered like a stone sinking into the sea, so the 90,000 yuan became like a hot potato, making me uneasy. I know that Chen Yi really hated me completely this time, there is no need to see me again in her eyes, and my door is not the only way for her to go home now, I really can't find any reason to pester her anymore, and I dare not expect a chance encounter to implicate us again.

When night came, I returned to my place with the 90,000 yuan in my pocket. Despite the cold, I sat on the steps of the doorway, not smoking, just holding the document bag and looking around the corner where I had caused so many surprises, listening to every footstep that passed by