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After replying to Chen Yi's message, I put my phone in my pocket, and then asked Xiao Ai next to me: "Then I have written a guarantee against my heart, and we can turn the page on our previous affairs."

"I think you're wronged."

"Don't be wronged, just be happy."

"I'm pretty happy right now."

"Then I can leave with peace of mind."

Xiao Ai looked at me and asked, "Where are you going?"

I said honestly: "Chen Yi said that he was going to my house for dinner, and I will go home to cook for her, if you want to be fine, go together." ”

Xiao Ai had a playful smile on his face, and then said to me, "I'm not going."

"It's okay, you don't have a pair of chopsticks."

Xiao Ai made a gesture to guide me and replied: "You can think about the scene later, I will sit next to you and Chen Yi, don't you think it is very hindering If I don't go, it will be a candlelight dinner, and I will go to a partnership dinner." ”

I touched my chin and sighed, "yes, I didn't see that you still have such a careful mind." ”

"Adult beauty is a virtue."

I subconsciously looked around, the campus was extremely deserted, and I felt that it was not good to leave her like this, so I asked her, "Then what are you going to do later, do you have someone to accompany you?"

"Why should I be accompanied by someone to practice the piano and then go back to sleep, or maybe go to the bar for a while, anyway, it's better to pass the time at night." She paused, patted me on the shoulder and said, "Keep up the good work and make yourself happy." ”

I nodded a little dumbly, because I didn't quite understand what she wanted to express, but she had already turned around and walked on the road we had just walked, and then a little idle kicked a small pebble with her foot, and touched the osmanthus flowers that happened to bloom on the side of the road with her hands, thinking that she was also afraid of boredom, so there were so many boring little movements, but I saw a kind of loneliness in her back, which was resistant to communication, maybe it was this loneliness that created her special talent in music, But after all, it is also a price that comes at the premise of loneliness.

Or maybe I don't know her well enough, maybe in her world, loneliness and boredom are not something to be feared, but I am just afraid.

She faded out of my sight, my senses sharpened again, and I heard the wind rustle the leaves of the sycamores, and saw the afterglow of the setting sun in the distant fish pond, and the two koi fish, each looking for food, close but not close to each other.

After leaving Nanyi, I went to the supermarket to buy the dishes that Chen Yi liked to eat, and then hurried back, but when I was about to get home, I suddenly remembered that Qiao Ye had moved to live with me, so Chen Yi and I still didn't have room to be alone after all, which made Xiao Ai's girl deliberately give it not a fulfillment.

Sure enough, when I pushed open the courtyard door, Chen Yi was chatting with Qiao Ye, and when he saw me coming back, Qiao Ye said with great interest: "This has just come to live and touched Chen Yi's light, I have to eat enough wine and food tonight, I will buy what wine Jiang Qiao wants to drink." ”

"Beer, by the way, there is a drink shop that can freshly squeeze juice in the software park, you go and bring a bottle of apple juice to Chen Yi."

"It's not on the way, can't you buy it in the apple juice supermarket?"

"There are no additives in the freshly squeezed, and there is not much detour, so let's go quickly."

Qiao Ye looked at me, then at Chen Yi, and sighed: "After so many years, Jiangqiao, you still feel so sorry for Chen Yi."

I didn't say anything, Chen Yi smiled and asked Qiao Ye, "Aren't women used to hurt?"

"It depends on what kind of woman it is, a woman like you Chen Yi must be used to hurt, and some are really hard to say."

The night gradually came, Chen Yi and I set up a round table in the small courtyard, Qiao Ye set up the wine and drinks bought, the three of them sat down around the table, I put the apple juice that Qiao Ye bought back in hot water and heated it before handing it to Chen Yi, and this move caused Qiao Ye to talk nonsense for a while, he still felt that I was a little too good to Chen Yi, and I didn't justify or hide it, because this is a habit that I have accumulated for many years, and I will not change it because others don't understand.

After a few bottles of beer, Qiao Ye's words also increased, and he talked about his very dissatisfied marriage again, he said: "Chen Yijiangqiao, sometimes the relationship and marriage between men and women really have nothing to do with money, I think the most important thing is the degree of compatibility between two people on the spiritual level. Let's just say that Qin Miao and I have good family conditions, but after getting married, we haven't been able to live a life where 1 plus 1 is greater than 2, and the root cause is that the things that two people pursue at the spiritual level are too different. ”

Chen Yi smiled and asked him, "Then what kind of love or marriage are you pursuing at the spiritual level?"

"I always firmly believe that marriage and love should not be interfered with by external factors, it should be a very heartfelt thing, many people like to bundle material and marriage together, but material this thing is very fake, today you may have, tomorrow the world may turn you into a poor egg, but the love and marriage pursued from the heart is the most real, because it will bring a steady stream of desire to your life, will prompt your brain to secrete enough dopamine, So that you can stand outside the material and experience a lot of beauty above the material."

The more Qiao Ye spoke, the more excited he became, and then even his hands began to gesture, and I finally interrupted him and said: "Qiao Ye, your words can be summed up in one meaning, you are full of water, right?"

"That's pretty much it."

"But can you really drink water when you have love?" I raised such a question, and then I thought of Yu Ya, the proprietress of the "Mood Coffee Shop", if love can really drink water, why would she accept the 2 million breakup fee and why she left Nanjing with the pain of being cut off from love

"Can't you?"

I replied: "Qiao Ye, the reason why you have so many emotional thoughts is because you really don't understand the importance of material things to people, you don't understand the hardships of your father's entrepreneurship, and you don't understand their desire to keep this industry, many things you really get are too easy, including marriage and money, that's why you look at it so lightly, so don't cherish it, but what kind of food, clothing, housing and transportation don't depend on material things and have love to drink water, provided that you also have water to drink, right?"

Qiao Ye didn't agree with my words, and he asked Chen Yi, who had never expressed his position, "Chen Yi, do you think so too?"

Chen Yi shook his head and replied: "I think your views are two extremes, it is difficult to determine who is right and who is wrong, but I think that the relationship between feelings and materials is not necessarily a trade-off, the two can be balanced, it is necessary to take into account, but there is no absolute standard." ”

Qiao Ye and I glanced at each other, and finally chose to be silent, and in this silence I didn't know what Qiao Ye was thinking, but I knew what kind of mood I was feeling.

After this dinner, Chen Yi and I walked on this familiar tulip road again, I smoked a cigarette, and she held her mobile phone and chatted with another host in the station, as if she was coordinating tomorrow's hosting work, she wanted to rest for two days

After Chen Yi finished the call, I finally asked her, "Have you been tired lately?"

"Well, there are several shows that are rushing to be recorded."

"If I leave the TV station and join Qiu Zi'an's media company, I shouldn't be so tired."

Chen Yi nodded and replied: "Well, at that time, it may have only been a fixed two programs, and the rest time was still relatively abundant, and the main thing in the TV station was that there was too much temporary hosting work, and it was difficult to keep up with the energy."

I took a puff of my cigarette and was silent for a long time before asking, "Are you going over there?"

"Not yet." Chen Yi didn't seem to be willing to talk to me more about this topic, so he asked me again: "What about you, how are you thinking about your work?"

I spit out the cigarette in my mouth in a column, and then replied a little blankly: "I don't want to think about it for the time being, Lao Jin and Luo Sumei have the grace of knowing me, the company is so difficult at this time, I am leaving, and there are even fewer people who can really do things."

"Jiang Qiao, when will you be able to live for yourself, have you ever thought about your grandmother who has been in the nursing home for so many years, is she really happy there?"

"I don't quite understand what you mean."

"I said, I'm willing to help you within my ability, why didn't I say that a few years ago, it's because I feel that your workplace experience is not enough, but now it's different, you have customer resources in your hands, you can do some business on your own, and then improve your life, don't you want to take grandma out of the nursing home at all?"

I felt depressed and uncomfortable in my heart for a long time before I said: "If I didn't have you by my side, would I still have such a choice?"

"But now that you have me by your side, I'm willing to do something for you."

"No, your appearance is already a surprise from fate, and if I were a contented person, I shouldn't have taken too much from you. Also, you don't know enough about the wedding industry, this industry is now saturated, and the overall market this year is not optimistic, if I leave Lao Jin's company and take away some customer resources, it is very likely that both sides will lose in the end, and it will affect your investment, I really don't want to risk doing such a thing. ”

"Jiangqiao, a lot of things are mutual, I can feel your kindness to me over the years, you say that I am a surprise given to you by fate, and you are not a surprise from fate so I am not afraid of the so-called burden at all, the big deal I will officiate the wedding for your customers for free, if they don't like my hosting style, I will invite other hosts, it doesn't matter if I repay the favor, but what I am most afraid of seeing is that you don't have such an idea at all"