Time is a thing that can heal a qiē, in the face of a little bit of glittering neon, my body gradually recovered, but the poison in the love is chronic, I don't know how long it will take for me to recover from this accident, but some people will never forget.

Faced with this extremely real, but illusory bubble-like city, I suddenly didn't dare to think about it for a lifetime, because my life without her was really too long......

Walking alone on the way back, I felt like I couldn't get used to the air of the city, I felt like I was blind, and I couldn't see anything. I always thought that after this intersection, maybe she would sit on the bench at the next intersection...... She won't leave me, and even if she does, she has to say goodbye.

So, every time I go to the next intersection, I will look at the crowd around me very carefully, but the crowd is an ordinary figure, and in my mind the most beautiful she, has long disappeared in the city lights, all my fantasies at the moment, but self-deception.

After all, I have to return to the tulip road that has no human touch for me. And at this moment, do I still have the confidence to regard that old house with many memories of Xiao Ai as a haven after the suffering?

No, I'm just looking at what she left behind, dying in the pain of seeing things and thinking about people, I don't know why tomorrow, which looks like it's going to get better, why it's the way it is now, and who is the black hand behind it?

……

Back in the courtyard, I connected my phone to the power bank, and then put it on the stone table, standing next to it. She didn't smoke or drink, she kept looking in the direction of the courtyard wall, and in a trance she remembered how she had entered the courtyard in the first place.

She's a master of wall climbing, and she's also a restless girl, but I didn't hate her because of it, maybe this kind of non-rejection is the basis for us to be together in the future. So what about her, how did she feel when she saw my river bridge for the first time?

At this moment, my heart was full of regret, and I realized that we lived together every day, but I still had so many topics that I had never talked about with her.

Before the rainy season had passed, a damp wind blew, and raindrops began to fall from the sky, and then it became a raging storm in an instant......

For the first time in my life, I looked indifferently at the flowers and plants that were still in the yard, letting them be destroyed by the wind and rain, and I didn't go back to the eaves myself, just held my phone in my arms and didn't let it get wet. Because there are still a lot of chat records between me and Xiao Ai, it is painful to read it now, but when I get used to the pain of loss, every laughing and scolding we say will become the most cordial nostalgia in my heart.

However, I am really miserable now, so painful that I can't tell whether it is rain or tears in my eyes. This is not a natural world at all, if it had a little rules to follow, then we who have gone through so many hardships should have established our own families a long time ago, but the reality leaves us with a full of fragmentation.

This rainstorm has fallen well, it has become the most sophisticated camouflage, so that I can cry unscrupulously in this night, no matter how heartbreaking I am, that cry is just a note in the rain, as long as I don't say it, no one can see my pain, see what kind of strength I am using to endure the torment in my heart.

……

Taking off my wet clothes, I lay on the cold mat, under the dim light, it was my fragile breathing, and in the sound of my breathing, the blue guitar left by Xiao Ai stood on the wardrobe and stood outstanding, and I instantly fell into the whirlpool of memories and couldn't extricate myself......

It was on this night that I truly realized how unbearable the pain of parting was, that I could not eat or sleep, and that the wooden windows were constantly "rattling" by the fierce wind.

In the darkness without a trace of light, I picked up the phone from my pillow, and then converted what I wanted to say into a voice message and sent it to her: "I know, I made you tired and hurt...... I also understand that the highest way in love is fulfillment, but before you become perfect, you must let me know that you will be happier and happier after leaving than you are now...... Otherwise, my heart is like hanging on the edge of a cliff and can't come or go, and this kind of fear is really not something that people can bear...... So, you have to answer me, okay? “

I was hoping that Xiao Ai would reply to this message immediately, but I didn't dare to expect too much. Because I could feel how thoroughly she had gone this time.

I sat up from the bed again, and then stood next to the cabinet where the guitar was placed, and on the top of the cabinet hung a photo frame, which was a photo of me with Zhao Chu and Zhao Mu.

These are the people closest to me, but where are they now? Why am I left like a rusty scale, staying in this sad place, using my own human heart to weigh the rights and wrongs of the world.

……

I was awake all the time, so I knew that in the second half of the night, the rain that had been going on for a long time had stopped, and as the rain ended, the temperature dropped a lot. I put on a white coat that Xiao Ai had bought for me, stood in the courtyard, and then stared blankly at the flowers and plants that had probably lost their lives under the wind and rain......

I found myself changing, becoming indifferent, becoming less loving, and becoming less concerned that after the courtyard was demolished, the style that I had painstakingly built was also destroyed.

I finally took a cigarette out of my pocket and lit it, then stood in the humid air and smoked, and with each puff, my heart became a little colder, until I gradually lost my memory of what the river bridge used to look like.

Towards the dawn of the morning, another strong wind blew down many of the leaves in the yard and the dark clouds that brought bad weather, and I saw a light coming from the farthest east, and finally falling at my feet.

I stood in the light and started smashing things, smashing the red pots, overturning the light gray stone tables, and tearing the green vines......

I just want to ruin this qiē, it's better for them to die at my hands than at the hands of people with ulterior motives...... With this extreme affection, I started to get even crazier. I grabbed a hammer from the pantry next to the house, and like a killing machine, smashed all the good things in my sight, and even the two wooden doors that my grandfather had made by hand when he was alive were smashed in his irrational rage. It wasn't until he had no strength that he sat down on the ground and hugged his head and cried......

This qiē stopped because Jin Qiu stood in front of the cracked gate. She was stunned by the qiē in front of her, so she looked at me lying on my back on the ground covered with sewage with frightened eyes.

No matter how close she was, I was silent, I put the hammer on my chest, and covered my distorted face with my hands, and I didn't want to look at anyone, including Jin Qiu.

Jin Qiu forcefully removed my hand, and then tried to drag me up...... I was so disgusted by her interference with me that I threw her to the ground with the force of my arm, splashing her all over the mud. I didn't care about her, because my heart was dead, and the moment I smashed things like crazy, I was already dead.

Jin Qiu looked at me with a painful expression, and said to me for a long time, "Don't you want to know the news of Yuan Zhen?" …… Everyone can see that his departure must have something to do with Xiao Ai. ”

"What?"

Jin Qiu took out his phone from his handbag, and then opened a video, which showed a small press conference, and the conference was attended by Gao Suo He Gaoming Qiu Zi'an, who I knew, and the new godfather of rock and roll who regarded Yuan Zhen as a confidant, Robben.

In the video, a reporter asked Qiu Zi'an: "Mr. Qiu, some time ago, it was reported that you obtained more shares of Tianqi Media through the way of artist replacement, which is said to be a classic case of win-win cooperation in the industry, do you have anything to share with us?" "First of all, I want to thank all of you for your affirmation, and what I'm doing now is to break the constraints of the entertainment industry that many people have considered unchallengeable in a special way...... It's not easy to conclude that this approach is a success or a failure, but I'm going to keep trying, because somebody has to do something...... I hope that this industry will have new rules of the game, and also provide more opportunities and a bigger stage for more people with dreams and talents. ”

The reporter applauded Qiu Zi'an's answer, and another reporter turned to He Gaoming beside Qiu Zi'an and asked: "Mr. He, we got the news from Damai.com last night that Yuan Zhen, an artist of Tianqi Media Company, canceled the remaining three performances of the next national tour...... Can you give a reasonable explanation for this to the fans who have always supported him? ”

He Gaoming's face then became ugly, and he replied after a while: "The cancellation of the performance is Yuan Zhen's personal behavior, and it has nothing to do with Tianqi Media...... However, we will negotiate with him on this matter, and if necessary, we will not rule out legal means to resolve this matter. ”

"Then Mr. He, does this mean that Yuan Zhen has to bear a huge amount of breach of contract costs?"

"Before the company gives the result, it is inconvenient for me to answer your question, please understand."

The reporter didn't get an answer from He Gaoming, so he turned to Robben beside him and asked: "Yuan Zhen is your very like-minded good friend in the music industry, and he suddenly canceled the next performance, what do you think about this?" “

Robben didn't have the obvious affection like He Gaoming, he just smiled and replied, "He is a person who lives more freely than me...... Sometimes, some people are more important than music...... As a friend, I can understand his decision! “

……

Seeing this in the video, I have lost the ability to think, but the only thing that is certain is that Yuan Zhen finally gave up his Yiqiē in the music circle and left with Xiao Ai.

My heart was in sharp pain like a knife, and then I laughed at myself for sending such a silly message to Xiao Ai last night...... Because, she already has a choice in her heart, but what kind of love made her make such a choice?