I just sat on the ground, surrounded by countless smashed things, like pieces that had fallen from life, each one a wordless pain, and I gradually fell silent......

Jin Qiu just squatted beside me, as if there was nothing in his eyes, just staring at the empty alley outside the door in distraction. We are like two empty shells, wandering outside of this world and then losing the ability to communicate together.

Time slipped away minute by minute, and the sunlight became stinging, Jin Qiu finally turned around and went back to the house, and then took two bottles of mineral water from the refrigerator, she handed one of them to me and said, "I have vented my hair, drink some water...... Then think about how you want to clean up this mess. ”

I mechanically took it from Jin Qiu's hand, but I didn't unscrew it, and then after a moment of silence, I said to her, "I don't know how to clean it up, and every debt is not something I can afford to repay." I'm really tired right now and just want to go to a place where there's no sound at all. ”

"With me by your side, don't say anything you don't know what to do...... I allow you to fall for a while, but you must cheer up in the future, because after all, people live for themselves, and no one's departure should change your attitude towards life, otherwise you will not be a person qualified to talk about faith. ”

I laughed self-deprecatingly, then asked, "What is my faith, and what is my faith?" ”

"You know best...... What did you ever dream about when you were younger. ”

"You don't talk about beliefs and dreams with a person who lives on the edge of food and clothing, I don't have dreams."

I got up from the ground, left behind the two slippers that had been torn from the madness, and went barefoot back to the room where I had slept. I drank all the boiled water that had been left on the table from the previous night, and then lay down on the bed, covering myself from head to toe under the quilt, thinking that there would be no sound.

A moment later, there was a knock on the door from outside the room, and I heard Jin Qiu's voice again: "Jiang Qiao, you have a good rest by yourself, and I will come back to you after work in the evening." Don't expect you to figure it out anytime soon, but at least come with me for some dinner. Or, if you want to drink, I'm willing to accompany you from start to finish...... All right? “

I didn't answer, Jin Qiu wasn't a woman who liked to pester, and then I heard her footsteps leaving. When she was gone, I thought I wouldn't hear anything more, but there was another chirping sound outside the window. As if to tell me that no matter how the world changes, there will still be such a tree with cicadas on Tulip Road.

……

I was tired, physically and mentally exhausted, and finally fell asleep to the sound of cicadas. But the turbulent waves set off in my heart did not recede, and continued to my dreams.

I dreamed that I and Xiao Ai came to a border town. She said she was thirsty, so I went to the grocery store to buy her a drink, and she stood under the dim street lamp waiting for me...... The picture is very quiet all the time.

However, out of nowhere, a man with a helmet popped out, and he snatched Xiao Ai's mobile phone. I threw away the drink in my hand, pushed a bicycle from the side of the road, and chased after him desperately, but Xiao Ai, who could no longer take care of him, was abducted by his accomplices......

Originally, I was going to chase him and beat him up, but because Xiao Ai was in their hands, I suddenly became a grandson, so when I negotiated with them in that abandoned factory, I saw everyone shouting big brother, but this groveling did not solve the trouble, and I was still beaten hard.

This dream was so broken that I can't remember how I brought Xiao Ai out. We weren't happy walking on the gravel roads of that town. Xiao Ai told me that those bastards had lifted her skirt just now......

I was furious and tried to find those scumbags, but at this moment, the volcano next to the town suddenly erupted, and the earth shook suddenly. The flames fell overwhelmingly, the air was filled with the smell of burning that made people feel oppressive and suffocating, all the faceless people were running frantically for their lives, and the crying for help was spreading rapidly in the scorching air, far faster than the footsteps of people......

I was so awakened that I sat up from the bed abruptly, and then I looked out the window profusely and looked out the dark sky, and there was so silence that I couldn't hear a single noise......

After sitting for a long time, I wiped the sweat from my forehead with both hands, then drew a bucket of cold water from the well, drenched myself from head to toe, and only began to recall the dream when I was sure that I was awake.

I don't know what happened to me, why I had such a horrible dream, and I don't know if this dream has implications for the future. However, looking at the messy courtyard, I miss Xiao Ai even more...... It's like a withered tree, missing the leaves that have left, but more often than not, repeating the pain of powerlessness over and over again.

Lighting a cigarette, I sat numbly by the well, looking at the boundless night, and fell into a state of numbness again, and then began to think in pieces, telling myself, don't look back, and then forget about the disturbed world, but time is like bullets, in seconds, hitting the most vulnerable places in my heart.

……

At about dinner time, Jin Qiu once again came to this small courtyard, which had been unvisited for a day, she stepped over the wooden door that fell to the ground, and then stood in front of me, looking at me who was obviously a little weak, and asked, "How is the rest?" ”

"I slept all day."

"It's good, just be able to fall asleep...... By the way, this afternoon, I made a compensation plan for the students of the music store, and I asked the assistant to call their parents, and they were basically able to accept my compensation plan and understand the current situation of the music store. Therefore, for students, you only need to refund part of the tuition fee and bring 30,000 yuan in compensation, which is enough for a total of 165,200 yuan...... I remember that the 2 million commercial loan, you shouldn't have spent it all, it's enough to lose this money, right? “

I nodded, feeling a little grateful to her in my heart, and it was precisely because of her and Chen Yi's existence that I would not go into the darkest part of my life. They have resisted a lot of trouble for me, but how can I let them do this for me?

Seeing my silence, Jin Qiu patted me on the shoulder, and then said: "Jiang Qiao, every living person will be deceived by life to a greater or lesser extent...... If there are difficulties, we will solve them one by one. You see, as long as you work hard and communicate sincerely, won't the problem of student compensation be solved...... So, you must not lose faith in life, because everything will be fine...... Just like Qin Miao, the pain she suffered is no less than yours, but under the effect of time, she is now willing to go out to eat with us, you should believe that time is a great thing, don't despair! “

I have lived in this world for more than 20 years, and I understand all the truths that Jin Qiu said, but I still feel that it is difficult, and every minute and every second is difficult. Because there is a Xiao Ai in my world who doesn't know where to go, but makes me lovesick. At the moment, I was desperate.

Jin Qiu was not disappointed by my despair, although she no longer persuaded me, but took my arm, walked outside the courtyard, and then walked through the alley to her car parked at the entrance of the alley. She took me out of this place that was causing me pain and making me feel like I couldn't fit in anymore.

……

Moments later, Jin Qiu took me to a gym called "Jerry", where she showed her VIP card, went to the changing room to change my clothes, and then took me to a boxing ring. She threw two black gloves at me, and then said to me with great momentum: "Jiang Qiao, dare to fight with a woman like me?" "Do you want to die?"

Jin Qiu wrapped the bandage around his hand, and replied without taking me seriously at all: "You don't care about my life or death, I'll ask you if you dare to fight with me...... Or, you treat me as the life you hate the most, and you can vent it as much as you want. “

I wasn't interested in fighting a woman with a punch that didn't matter at all, so I threw my boxing gloves on the ground and turned around to leave the ring. But I didn't want Jin Qiu behind me to suddenly punch me, although her strength was not as good as that of a man, but she hit my vital point with one punch, making me angry in an instant, and then kneeling in the ring.

I stared at her ...... "Jiang Qiao, do you see, I don't treat you as a human being at all now...... If you don't stand up, my punches will hit you where you are most vulnerable, until you are killed...... I'm not kidding. “

Jin Qiu said and took another step in front of me, and just as I subconsciously reached out to block, she turned sideways, put her focus on the side, and then kicked me in the head again.

The martial arts tricks she learned from abroad completely annoyed me, but I was dizzy from her kicks, and I couldn't think about it. But she didn't let me go, she hit me in the back with a very strong side kick, me

Before I could finish my words, I was kicked in the jaw by Jin Qiu again, and I fell to the ground again with such force that I fell to the ground again...... I'm going crazy, I feel like I'm going to be beaten to death by her, and I hate the feeling of falling all the more.

When she didn't see me as a human being, I finally didn't want to see her as a human being anymore. Just as she lifted her foot again, I jerked to my feet, grabbed her legs, and then slammed a hook of my right hand into her back.

I didn't wear gloves, but I smashed her body with a muffled sound, causing Jin Qiu to fall to the ground heavily. I became extremely cold and cold, and instead of helping her, I just wiped the blood from the corner of my mouth, and then looked at her as she was knocked to the ground by my own punch......

I almost forgot who I was, what I had done in this world, who I had met, and I had only unspeakable happiness and hatred in my heart!

I seem to have knocked down this ****** life, and also knocked down her insult to me...... It was as if I had seen a power that I had never seen before, and it told me not to suffer, not to be cowardly, not to be nostalgic......