Leaving the hospital, I drove Chen Yi's car on the cold and biting streets, and the lights that have not changed for thousands of years have pierced through people's loneliness with a light without temperature, and also magnified the helplessness of our lives. In the end, they will pay for ignorance and worldly karma with both losses.

In a blink of an eye, the car stopped at an intersection with a traffic light, the red light was very long, and there were many cars parked densely in front of the guide, I hung up neutral, and then pulled up the electronic parking brake and waited.

I couldn't look at Chen Yi beside me, just looked at the lights outside the car window that were flowing with the car, and fell into a state of distraction, I forgot the environment I was facing at the moment, but I couldn't forget the way Chen Yi pushed me away when facing the sharpness of the blade.

In my cognition, Chen Yi is not such a brave woman, but she has done too many things for me that should or should not be done, and what can I use to repay in this life

"Jiangqiao, it's a green light." Chen Yi beside me gently pushed me.

I raised my head and looked, the car in front of me was more than ten meters away from me, the horn of the car behind sounded, my life seemed to be squeezed again, and I hurriedly added a foot of the accelerator to catch up with the car in front, and the car behind caught up again in a blink of an eye, and the light was red again, so that I could not find the state of storage in the still and dynamic lights.

In the hotel room, Chen Yi sat on the bed in a thin short-sleeved T-shirt, and blood stains could still be faintly seen on the gauze that entangled the wound, so I sat on the sofa opposite her and accompanied, and the pot of boiling water made the only sound in the room.

I turned up the temperature of the air conditioner, took out a thick blanket and draped it over Chen Yi's body.

"Jiang Qiao, there is such a thing in this world, as long as you take a bite, you can forget the past qiē?"

I don't know why she said this suddenly, so I looked at her with a hesitant gaze, and then replied, "I don't know, if there is, I'll be willing to take a bite." ”

Chen Yi nodded: "I know, you haven't been very happy all these years, in fact, it's not just you, we have lived very hard, hard memories, so hard that we don't have the strength to look forward to the future, if there is such a thing, I am willing to take a bite, and then let people live all over again." ”

I forced a smile, and fell into a silence deeper than the night

"It's not early, you can go back."

"When the water boils, I'll make you some soothing flower tea."

As soon as I finished speaking, the kettle automatically turned off the power, and the water inside reached the peak of boiling.

I tried to calm myself down, and then did the last thing I could do for Chen Yi on this night, I brought the cup of soothing flower tea to her, she hadn't taken it from my hand yet, I was already worried about her tomorrow, she hurt her arm, but she didn't dare to go home, so who would be responsible for her life

I finally said to her, "I'll make you something to eat tomorrow morning." ”

"No need, go about your own business, I don't have a problem."

"Actually, since I left the wedding company, I've been busy, it's ridiculous"

Chen Yi looked at me a little tiredly, and only replied after a long time: "Having results or being busy is your own business, and there is no need to talk to others, because not everyone in this world is willing to understand you and comfort you." ”

"I understand."

Chen Yi nodded, and after a long silence, he asked me to leave again.

It was late at night, and I had no reason to stay, so I finally left the hotel with the many dead knots in my heart that I couldn't untie, and then waited alone in the middle of the night for a transport that would take me out of here.

Back at the residence, Zhao Mu was cleaning up in another room, I lit a cigarette and leaned against the door, smoking it, and asked him, "Have you gone to find Xiao Ai?"

Zhao Mu's voice was a little low: "I went, but she wasn't there, and I didn't turn on my phone to call her." ”

I was a little surprised, and I was stunned for a moment before replying: "She's the god who chatters." ”

"She's not a god, don't you see that she's not in a good mood?"

"Yes, I've been posting a lot of things to her recently, and it's normal for her to have a little ups and downs, so don't take it to heart."

"I won't go to my heart, she is treating me like this now, I have long been mentally prepared" Zhao Mu put down the quilt in his hand, sighed, and said: "If some things between men and women are too thorough, they really can't even be friends, so I think she is running away from me." ”

I nodded and didn't continue, because this topic is a bit sensitive to me, and Zhao Mu does have a lot of things that he doesn't know yet.

"Brother Qiao, you said that something happened to Sister Chen Yi, is she okay?"

"She's fine, nothing serious."

This is another topic that makes me feel uncomfortable, after I took a puff of cigarette, I transferred it and said to Zhao Mu: "By the way, you also have time for the time being, I'll find something to make you relaxed." ”

Zhao Mu looked at me a little puzzled and asked, "What's the matter?"

"Recently, Jin Qiu and I collaborated on a marriage proposal plan, and we were going to use a short film to recreate some memorable images of the client and his girlfriend in college in the form of a short film. I've decided to use the heroine for Xin.,The male protagonist was going to go to Hohai University to find it.,But I'm afraid it's too late.,If you're interested, you can come.,I found that you and the customer are really a little consistent in temperament and body type.,Mr. Sun is also relatively calm.,Bookish and angry.。 ”

"I don't have this experience."

"What you want is no experience, it's enough for you to show your true feelings, Yu Xin has a foundation in acting, she will take you."

Zhao Mu didn't continue to worry, nodded, and replied: "Okay, I hope to get some joy from customers." ”

In the next time, I began to be busy with the micro-film, under the design of the stylist, Zhao Mu retained the student's just right youthfulness, and the calmness in his bones made him very close to Mr. Sun himself, although he was not very suitable at first, but under the guidance of Yu Xin, he also gradually got better, so it only took us 3 days to complete all the things of shooting and post-production.

Before the night, I went to a media company specializing in advertising film shooting and got a 5 minute and 20 second film, the reason why it was accurate to 5 minutes and 20 seconds is that I hope to put the three words "I love you" forever in this micro film, and since I left the wedding company, I have rarely had the opportunity to do something so devoted. Perhaps, it's because I also have regrets that I want to make up for in this micro-film.

I dialed Jin Qiu's phone, and she answered after a while, and I said to her, "I have already got the film from the advertising agency, do you need to send it to your company now to show you the effect?"

"I'm already on my way home, you can send it directly to my house, my mother cooked a lot of dishes today, and you just happened to have a few drinks with my dad."

Remembering that I hadn't seen Lao Jin for a long time, and I missed it, I agreed, and the next moment I took a taxi to Lao Jin's house.

Lao Jin's family lives in Yuhua South Road, which is not far from Tulip Road, and the community was built and used last year, so the environment is very good, and it is relatively high-end, and Lao Jin has opened a wedding company over the years, and he has made some money, at least much better than those of us who get a fixed salary, I never dared to hope that I could live in such a house in Nanjing.

Standing at the door of the house, I rang the doorbell, and it was Lao Jin who opened the door, and as soon as we met, he put his arm on my shoulder and said, "You screwed up, you finally came to see me, ah"

Lao Jin is disrespectful to the old, I also hooked his shoulders with a hippie smile, and after walking into the house, I looked around and asked Lao Jin, "What about the golden autumn?"

"She went down to buy wine for the two of us, I heard that the two of you have been making a list together recently"

"Sort of, I'm here to plan the proposal, and she's doing the wedding list."

"Okay."

I didn't take the "good" in Lao Jin's mouth too seriously, but I knew that he had been haunted by Jin Qiu's dismissal from the company, so when I knew that we still had business cooperation, I was somewhat comforted.

At this time, Luo Sumei brought a plate of frozen tofu braised pork to the table, and then cared about my recent life, while I looked at the steaming plate, and my nose was sour

I was reminded of the picture of my mother freezing tofu in the yard in the winter many years ago, and the taste of cooking with meat can only be found in a real home, which really makes me unforgettable to this day more than ten years later, and in my memory, I haven't eaten this dish for too long.

This smell made me in a trance for a while, but I understood more in my heart that Lao Jin and Luo Sumei were not my parents after all, they only played the role of parents on the road of my growth, so that I would not fall astray in a helpless life.

Before Jin Qiu came back, Lao Jin and I sat on the sofa smoking and chatting, perhaps touched by the smell of frozen tofu and braised pork, and I asked Lao Jin about some things about his mother.

"Uncle, where did my mother go after leaving Nanjing, and did you have any news?"

Lao Jin looked at me, took a deep puff of cigarette, and then flicked off the ash of the cigarette, and then replied: "All these years, your bastard father has been staying in Shenzhen, I'm afraid he just wants to find her, but there has been no news for so many years, and she can't figure out that she went abroad." ”

"Went abroad"

Lao Jin nodded, and said: "I just guessed so, before your father and your mother got married, your grandfather and your grandmother came to Nanjing once, I met them, and the old couple didn't look like ordinary people." At that time, they should have wanted to take your mother back to Shenzhen, but your mother didn't want to leave, so after your mother and your father divorced, the most likely thing to go back to was Shenzhen, but they haven't been in contact with their parents' family for so many years, and many things are hard to say. ”

Lao Jin's expression was still not so clear, but I could still listen to it, and I subconsciously remembered the abandoned textile factory, and remembered the picture of her giving me change to buy something to eat. In an instant, my heart felt like it was soaked in boiling water, and I couldn't do anything to feel the temperature disappear little by little

I wanted to ask Lao Jin something, but I couldn't ask, so I just looked at the smoke rising from between my fingers, and I was dazed

At this time, Jin Qiu also returned to the house with a bottle of red wine and a bottle of white wine, she was wearing a pair of home slippers on her feet, and she was wearing a red down vest.

While waiting for dinner, Jin Qiu and I sat on the sofa and watched the effects of the micro-movie. In the process, I subconsciously took out a cigarette from the cigarette case and handed it to her, but she lowered her voice and said to me nervously: "Don't hand me a cigarette, my parents don't know that I smoke"

"Golden autumn will also be afraid"

"Nonsense, in this room, Jin Qiu is the girl of the two old men and ladies in Nanjing, that is, you have never treated me as a woman."

I sighed: "Who made you so strong"

Jin Qiu ignored me, and focused on the micro-movie that was playing again, and I also took advantage of this gap to look at her, in fact, Jin Qiu inherited Luo Sumei's excellent genes, no matter how you look at it, she is a girl with both talents and appearances, but I am a little scared of her, and I dare not treat her as a young woman in my heart. Perhaps, she will only show her gentle side in front of her parents and the man she likes.

I smiled, then diverted my attention, and then posted a message in the WeChat circle of friends: "The day after tomorrow, there will be a marriage proposal ceremony in the mood coffee shop, interested friends will come to cheer, and all the drinks will be free." ”

Coincidentally, almost at the same time as I sent the message, Xiao Ai also posted a message.

She said: Because I am not sure whether there will be a next life, I will live so hard in this life

Perhaps, this is her mood at the moment, but what I care more about is that she will definitely see the dynamics of this circle of friends, and whether she will join in the fun the day after tomorrow

and Chen Yi, we are all so tired, if she is willing to come that day, we will see how others are happy from the perspective of a bystander, and will there be some new insights

In Dali these days, I will go to Lijiang tomorrow, and after staying in Lijiang, I will end my trip, and then resume the previous update, and there will be no plans to go out to play this year, so I hope you can understand it these days, and the number of times you come out to play is only so many times a year