At the beginning of the dinner, Jin Qiu and I finally finished watching the micro-movie, Jin Qiu was still quite satisfied with the effect and feelings presented by the micro-film, and only raised a few small problems in the post-production during the whole process, but they were all easy to solve, and there was time to catch up with the marriage proposal ceremony the day after tomorrow to achieve the kind of effect that Jin Qiu wanted.

"Jin Qiujiangqiao, you two don't be busy, hurry up and come over for dinner."

While speaking, Luo Sumei had already brought all the meals to the table, and he also untied his apron after being busy, and Lao Jin, who loves to drink, has poured me and his cup full of the liquor that Jin Qiu just bought.

I don't know why, this kind of small picture that will appear in a family at any time makes me feel warm, and a warm current swells up in my heart, as if there are too many cracks in my world, so it is so easy to be moved.

If the sun shines through the rifts into my life, I will be diligent in chasing my own shadow, and then remember the people who are behind me to mend the rifts with stitches and threads.

At the dining table, Jin Qiu and I sat together, Lao Jin and Luo Sumei sat opposite us, Lao Jin and I didn't accept anyone, we raised our glasses and drank them all from afar, and we didn't eat vegetables, and the next moment we had another glass, and Jin Qiu and Luo Sumei didn't bother to pay attention to us, they chatted about some things in the company while eating, as if they were much more reliable than me and Lao Jin.

After drinking too much gin and talking more, he drank another glass of white wine and said to me: "Jiang Qiao, I remember that when I served in the army with your father, we said more than once that if we give birth to a boy and a girl in the future, we will be in-laws." Although my old Jin is not very educated, he is not old-fashioned, if you and Jin Qiu have that meaning, I will not object as a parent"

Lao Jin suddenly talked about the agreement with Jiang Jiyou at the dinner table, which caught me and Jin Qiu off guard, and both of them looked at each other a little embarrassed, not knowing how to respond for a while.

Jin Qiu finally replied with dissatisfaction: "Dad, you drank too much, what age are you now, you have been married to us for so many years, if I can be with Jiang Qiao, we have been together for a long time, and I still need you to worry about it."

I looked at Jin Qiu, regardless of whether Lao Jin said drunk words or not, but I still felt that Jin Qiu said what I thought in my heart, because there are too many differences between our lifestyles and life resumes. I also know that the cigarette she often lights in her hand has nothing to do with herself, when she studied abroad, she should have an unforgettable past, and we just regard each other as an indispensable friend in life, we can talk about ideals and the whole world, but not about love

There are no taboos between us, and there is no love, Jin Qiu and I understand these better than anyone else, so Lao Jin's drunken words really make the world too ridiculous, how could Jin Qiu and I get married because of a promise to get married

At this time, Luo Sumei got up and took the wine glass from in front of Lao Jin, and then poured all the unfinished liquor into the garbage basket, and said with a displeased face: "Don't worry about the things you shouldn't worry about, eat." ”

Lao Jin muttered a few words, and then didn't say anything more, but the atmosphere on the table suddenly became strict, but it made people feel that what Lao Jin just said was not drunken words, but he never found the time to say it.

After dinner, I drank another cup of tea with Lao Jin. When she was about to say goodbye, Luo Sumei took out a handy bag from the bedroom and handed it to me and said, "Recently, I have been busy at work, so I took the time to knit a scarf for you, pure wool, very warm." ”

I took it from her hand, and then took out the scarf inside, and Luo Sumei carefully wrapped it around my neck, feeling that the size was just right, and then nodded with satisfaction.

There was another warm current in my heart, Luo Sumei and Lao Jin have really cared for me over the years, and they have almost replaced the role that my parents should play in my life.

I thought: If I really have a relationship similar to love between me and Jin Qiu, it would be good for me to join their family

Suddenly, I was taken aback by this thought of myself, I felt that I was lonely and afraid, just a man like me who grew up eating hundreds of meals, even if he was rich, he also climbed this middle-class family, not to mention that Jin Qiu really didn't have a trace of love for me, and I was the same.

Tying up the scarf that Luo Sumei knitted for me, I walked alone in the cold winter night, and I thought of Chen Yi again, it had been several days since her arm was injured, and I didn't know how she was doing.

I tried to send her a message and called, but she didn't give me a response, and her silence made me very sad in my heart, but there was nothing to change, because the few poor connections between us were all maintained by emergencies, and without emergencies, we were still a couple who couldn't be friends after a breakup.

Yes, we broke up, but it's us or the world that is ridiculous

I sighed in the night

At least, this cold winter, I don't have an answer.

"Jiang Qiao, wait for me, I'll send you back."

I looked back and it was Jin Qiu who was talking behind me, with the car keys in her hand and the same scarf around her neck as mine, but mine was purple and hers was red, but it was all woven by Russell Mei.

I stopped, smiled and replied, "No need, I'll walk back by myself, I just want to take a walk after eating, and it's not far anyway." ”

Jin Qiu looked at his sports watch and replied: "I only walked more than 1,500 steps today, obviously not up to standard, if you don't dislike it, I'll walk with you for a while." ”

I said half-jokingly, half-seriously: "Except that you kicked me out of the company at that time, basically I don't dislike you." ”

Jin Qiu patted me on the back and said, "I've already told you about this matter, are you still hurting me like this?"

"This world is so boring, don't deprive me of the fun of hurting others, I'm afraid I won't be able to live."

Jin Qiu glanced at me sadly, and then walked towards the outside of the community in front of me, and after I smiled, I hurriedly caught up with her.

The air on the road was so cold that the starlit night sky looked cold, and Jin Qiu and I lit cigarettes and walked on the sparsely populated streets, and after a long time she said to me, "Jiang Qiao, will you take what my dad just said to heart?"

I didn't want to say too much, I just shook my head and signaled no.

"I won't take it to heart, it's best for us to be friends, I don't dare to imagine you being my husband, it's too familiar" Jin Qiu said and smiled, and then took another puff of cigarette.

I was gloomy for a while, and I inevitably remembered Chen Yi in my heart, in terms of familiarity, we should be more familiar with each other than anyone else, but this is not a reason to break up. If you think about it carefully, if people don't want to be together, there can still be many reasons, such as Jin Qiu's is too familiar, such as the "betrayal" I gave Chen Yi, such as my unintentional violation of Xiao Ai, but I never felt that I really loved her

After a while, Jin Qiu raised his hand and looked at the watch in his hand again, and said to me: "It's almost 5,000 steps, and the amount of exercise is just up to standard, so I won't accompany you more, and there is still a way to go back."

I smiled and asked, "You have to calculate everything so precisely, aren't you tired?"

"I'm not tired, but I prefer to be in control of my life"

"That's a good explanation."

Jin Qiu also smiled, then waved her hand to me, and after leaving a sentence of "see you the day after tomorrow", she turned around and walked in the opposite direction, and after she had walked a long way, I suddenly remembered that the road she was walking was the road we had just walked.

Back at home, Zhao Mu's room was no longer lit. He's been busy looking for a job lately, and I can't help much, so we don't have the chance to see each other very often, and basically when I come back from the coffee shop or outside, he's already rested.

I sat in the courtyard and lit a cigarette, and then habitually picked up my mobile phone and looked at it, my WeChat circle of friends is still lively, but Chen Yi, who used to post a dynamic summary of life every day, has no movement.

I was worried about her, so I cheekily sent her a message, hoping that she would tell me how she was living now, whether the injured arm still hurt, and whether it affected her current work.

After waiting for a long time, Chen Yi didn't reply to me, I couldn't stand the cold of winter, so I lay on the bed after washing, but the waiting didn't stop

I took out the red envelope containing Chen Yi's hair from under the pillow again, then took the hair out of it, put it on my hand and looked at it blankly, and suddenly my nose began to sour, and tears fell.

There seems to be no more woman in my world who will send me the photos she took as soon as possible, and when I say that she looks good, she will post them in the circle of friends.

Although the tears were still falling, I didn't think I was crying, but I couldn't help but think of some good things about the past, and my mood was rippling.

I scolded myself again, if I knew that it was the result at this moment, whether I was still fucking greedy for that little bit of love in the first place, so that everyone now put on a posture of old age and death.

Thinking of this, I really cried all along, I just want to be a person who chases shadows, not only chasing myself, but also Chen Yi.

I just like to stand behind her and care silently, rather than really talking to her about a love that has no chance of winning

This night, I smoked out of the smoke, and I really missed her

Right now, in this room full of the smell of winter