On this night, She Shaobo and I became the most persistent people in the city, and we distributed the 500 printed missing person notices to everyone who had a relationship with us, hoping that they could bring us news of Xiao Ai.

After buying two cans of beer, we stood by the Seine, and he said to me very optimistically: "Most of these people are tourists, today we meet them in Brussels, tomorrow they will go all over the world, there will always be such a person who can meet Xiao Ai, I think this method is a little tired, but I hope there is still a roar, tomorrow we will get up early, and strive to send another thousand copies before leaving." ”

Of course, I was more motivated than he was, so I nodded, thinking of a better way......

The wind blew a little cold in the Brussels night, so I put the coat I had been holding in my hand back on my body, and then asked him with an emotional smile: "Have you ever thought that if Xiao Ai is really found by us one day, there will definitely be one of them who will be painful and disappointed...... I don't want this person to be me, because I have nothing but her, she is my lover, and even more so my relative! ”

She Shaobo glanced at me, and he replied in a low voice: "If you ignore a point, it is possible that both of you are suffering and disappointed...... If she really wanted to be with you, she wouldn't have walked so cleanly, you should have hurt her very deeply, and I think it's incredible that a woman like her would like a man like you, she should have a better choice. ”

I smiled "hehe" and asked him, "Do you know anything deeper about Berkeley besides knowing that she studied abroad at Berkeley for two years?" ”

His momentum suddenly decreased a lot, and he said to me after a while: "I don't need to know a lot, I just need to know what I want......."

I picked up the beer can and took another sip, and then calmly felt the wind blowing along the riverbank, I had a feeling of intoxication, and gradually I could not see the freighters passing on the river and the lights in the distance, only the sound of locomotives in my ears from time to time, so that I could still feel that this was a foreign country. In fact, there is not much difference between it and Nanjing, except for what you can see with your eyes. Here, I still feel lonely because I don't have her in my own world......

At this time, She Shaobo seemed to understand something again, and he said to me: "Actually, I really want to hear you talk about her roar, but don't get me wrong, no matter what kind of past and life experience she has, it won't affect my liking for her, I just have a lot of curiosity about her!" ”

"You're really a contradictory person......"

"No, I'm not contradictory, it's just that a lot of small things make me feel entangled, but when it comes to big things, my direction has always been clear......"

I interrupted him and asked, "Since you don't know anything about Xiao Ai, what do you like about her?" …… If it's just appearances, don't you think it's superficial? …… However, I admit that she is indeed a girl who can impress many men by her appearance. ”

"Looks are certainly the first thing that struck me, and even though Berkeley is a place of musical talent and beauty from all over the world, she's still one of the standouts. For so many years, there has never been a woman who has been like her, and the thought of it makes me unable to concentrate on things, and I think the most trustworthy thing is how I feel in my heart...... In the future, I may fall in love with other women, but I will definitely not have this feeling that makes my heart blush and beat faster, so knowing that her place in my heart is irreplaceable, I must go and see the tulip road that she has told me so many times...... Actually, I wanted to get to know her, otherwise I wouldn't have traveled all the way from Taipei to Nanjing, and I stayed for so long, which is the craziest thing I have done in my life. ”

I looked at him, and I didn't doubt the truth of his words, but I thought of myself. I can't remember why I fell in love with Xiao Ai, it seems that I naturally regard her as a relative in my life, we eat together, chat together, and do business together. For a while, it was as if we had become a human being, so it was redundant to talk about whether there was love between us.

I can't say who is more advanced in the two completely different feelings between me and She Shaobo, but they are both sincere, we are very honest, and no one has done anything about it, so this is the basis for us to stand together and chat at the moment.

I took another sip of beer, and then said to him: "Actually, to be precise, Xiao Ai is from Nanjing, her father is a very famous local developer in Nanjing, a few years ago because he was framed by others, and went to prison, Xiao Ai's mother did not divorce him because of this, I won't say much about the reasons, but these are the beginning of Xiao Ai's life suffering...... I was with her during these difficult days, and I was a very unfortunate person, my parents divorced early, and I grew up living alone, so we had a lot of emotional resonance together......"

She Shaobo looked at me with an envious look, and then asked me, "Later, why did you separate, and why did she go to Berkeley to study alone?" ”

I shook my head and replied, "It's more important here, and it's inconvenient for me to talk about it...... It's just that when we separated, I was very passive, and she kept trying hard to create the illusion that she didn't love me anymore, and I didn't know until now that she was still in love......"

After saying this, my heart was so sad that I was sad to see the city, and every light floating here was like a spectator, and they illuminated my heart and saw it clearly, and I didn't like this feeling very much, so I lit a cigarette......

She Shaobo next to me was worse than me, he was desperate at first, and then said to me: "You said that you are spiritual partners, which makes me feel very desperate, but I will not give up so easily, I have what she wants the most, because I have a very warm family, my parents are professors in the music department of the university, and they are very sensible, the family atmosphere is very important, if she becomes a part of our family, she will live a very comfortable life!" ”

Before he finished his words, there was a cramping pain in my heart like a towel twisted, and I thought of Yang Jin's resolute opposition, as well as my own broken family. If Xiao Ai is really tired of being with me, should I choose to let go?

I know that besides me, she will not fall in love with a man easily, but she also has the right to compromise with life, just like me in the past, I also had the idea of marrying Jin Qiu for the comfort of life.

Because of these two doubts, I did not speak again, I was afraid that I had worked so hard to find her, but she had gone with someone else, and my broken soul could no longer bear such pain......

After a while, I exhaled deeply, and then I cheered myself up in my heart: I should rise to the challenge, I should not have these negative and evasive emotions, I can also give her a stable home, and what could be more important than two people who have been in love for a long time together?

It wasn't until late at night that She Shaobo and I returned to the hotel called "House of Hope", because of the time difference, I had not rested for more than 20 hours, I felt deeply tired, but after lying in bed, I still fell into insomnia because of those heavy thoughts. I just held the phone like this, looked at Xiao Ai's mobile phone number in one posture after another, knowing that she would not use it again, but still dialed it several times, and then was disappointed and desperate in the pain of not being able to get through......

If Jiang Qiao is really guilty, it is time to pay for those sins for the pain I have received now, right? And for me at this time, I have no special luxury in life, as long as the two of us are together, it is enough, and I don't care about anything else.

I don't know how long it lasted until I finally fell asleep. In my sleep, I had a pair of wings, I didn't need a passport, I didn't need a visa, I flew so freely in the blue sky, and she never left my sight, always smiling at me in the most beautiful place, when I held her hand, I almost didn't want to wake up, I would rather die in my sleep for eternity.

……

The next morning, I didn't get sleepy, I woke up to the sound of the freighter's horn, then I opened the curtains and looked at the wide river outside the hotel, and waited until the sun shone on the deck of the ship, and I woke up and began to think about the meaning of my existence...... I don't know how long this state of being poisoned will last in my life.

At about eight o'clock, She Shaobo and I met in the lobby of the hotel. We repeated the old trick, printed a thousand missing person notices, and then sang them one by one with the guitar, and this form of performance made everyone not disgusted with this kind of leaflet-like thing, and most of them were willing to actively understand the content of the missing person notice.

At the same time, something very strange happened, only She Shaobo, the love enemy, was left in my world, and we ate together, sang together, and made handing out flyers together our only job under the scorching sun, and then we stopped communicating......

I don't know how Xiao Ai would feel if he saw this scene.

Before evening, we handed out the last flyer and rested against the white stone wall. I lit a cigarette and said to him, "Apo, let's form a temporary band, I know you don't like me, but forming a band will add a little bit of a topic effect, and we can come up with a band name related to finding people, so that it will be easy to be noticed by others, even the media, and we are so useless to fight on our own." ”

It was the first time in my life that I had whispered to a hostile person, and I felt bad, but I felt compelled to do so, because I wanted to find her as soon as possible, and then end the suffering between us, and live a new life, and I didn't want to care about anything else.

She Shaobo glanced at me, and then replied, "What do you want to call it?" ”

"Let's call it the Missing Person Notice, so that even if we have a clear theme for the song, win attention on social media, and expand the crowd that helps find her, we can find her in the chance of finding a needle in a haystack."

"But I really don't like your musical literacy, you're just a half-baked ......"

This time, I finally became angry, and I said angrily: "What's wrong with me being a layman, I'm still half-literate!" Are you going to throw me into the river and kill me? Save me from polluting the air next to you and defiling you, a world-class music master......"

When I was done, I half-crouched down against the wall and held my head in my hands, my heart full of powerless pain, I couldn't understand the language of the country, and I couldn't tell my thoughts to passers-by who were only 1 in 10,000 who might help...... But I'm not dumb or blind, but in this country, I can't move an inch......

I squeaked my fingers, then stood up again and gritted my teeth...... But She Shaobo seemed to be stimulated by what I had just vented, and he kicked down the guitar I was standing on, and then looked at me with anger......