This hotel has only four floors, Qin Miao and Qiao Ye are arranged on the third floor, She Shaobo is on the second floor, and I picked a four-story house myself. Even though the boss, who liked to wear a gentleman's hat, kindly reminded me that the house on the fourth floor would be stuffy, I still didn't look back. I felt in my heart that only by living high could I see far, and maybe because of the little obstruction of my vision, I would miss her stopping by the riverbank.

Yes, I'm a little nervous and a little perverted, knowing that she won't be in Belgium, but I still don't want to give up that pitiful hope.

The fourth floor also has the bonus, after I put my luggage away, I found a small balcony behind the fan-shaped wooden door, which is very well located to see the sunset in the dusk, reflected in the river with countless boats passing by, but I don't know the name.

So, I took my closest companion cigarettes and alcohol and sat on the balcony railing, and for the first time in my life, I had the opportunity to enjoy the scenery of a foreign country......

It is like looking at a strange world on the other side of life, where every steamer passing by the river seems to come with a hope, and the sunset illuminates these hopes with the last glow of yellow light, and then with the roar of heavy locomotives, it completely merges with the city, and the night awaits in another corner, quietly leaving the pigeons that have just been foraging in the square......

With two cans of beer in my stomach and the streetlights on both sides of the road lit up in a very linear fashion, I noticed the sign of the small hotel I was staying in, which was rendered retro by the orange lights on the opposite side, as if telling the story of the hotel's years in the city......

I muttered: "hopehoe", but I didn't know how to translate it, but I liked the old mood it presented at the moment, so I recorded it with the lens of my mobile phone and posted it on my circle of friends.

Yang Qu was the first to comment, she said that this is a house of hope, I probably understood the meaning of the name of the hotel, and then I gave myself a thumbs up, and my mood was much better.

Yang Qu sent another message and asked me, "Brother, where are you now?" ”

"Brussels."

"Oh, when did it arrive?"

"Before you finish two cans of beer."

"Hehe, you're talking so interesting!"

"Say anything...... Don't beat around the bush. ”

This time, Yang Qu replied after a while: "Shouldn't you have something to say to me?" …… Brother, you really have a big heart, you don't ask what the situation is at home now, isn't it a bit too much? ”

I asked rhetorically, "Which home?" ”

"It's getting too much! Our home, of course. ”

"I haven't lived together, where did I come from......

I said something from the bottom of my heart, but it seemed to anger Yang Qu, and she immediately sent me an invitation to voice chat, which immediately brought back my heart that had flown out. After I connected, she really asked me in a not very happy tone: "In your heart, haven't you regarded me and my mother as your family until now, otherwise how could you say such cold-blooded words?" ”

I replied, "You speak to me in such a questioning tone, and it's hard for me to give you the answer you want...... Yang Qu, I finally let go of all my burdens and came out once, can you not ruin my mood? ”

"What does it mean not to destroy, and I wish you all the best? …… Of course I thought so in my heart, but after you left, you ignored your family, which is quite unpleasant...... Did you know that you almost couldn't get past the security check at the airport? Do you really think that our mother has been thinking about things for several years, and she just puts it down? …… In her mind, except for Sister Jin Qiu, it is impossible to recognize other women. ”

I was stunned for a moment, then grabbed the point and asked, "She won't let me go abroad?" ”

"Yes, I almost called the relationship in Shanghai, so that you can't pass the security check, and you can't even keep your passport, and you don't want to go anywhere...... You should know that doing such a thing is not effortless for our mother at all. ”

"Then why didn't she do that?"

"Because I'm going around it...... I told her that even if you go abroad, the possibility of finding Xiao Ai is almost non-existent, so it is better to let you take this opportunity to go out and relax. Moreover, even if you are trapped in the country and can't get out, you can't trap Xiao Ai abroad and not return to China, and your personality is so axial, as long as you stick to it, you will still meet Xiao Ai one day. If it is really hard and provokes you, then the mother-son relationship that has been established with great difficulty will have to return to the pre-liberation period. ”

After a slight pause, Yang Qu said again: "So you should be able to feel that in our mother's heart, I really care about the mother-son relationship with you." I know you won't turn back, but can you not use this attitude of ignoring to hurt our mother's heart, so I can coax her, try to make her understand you, let her know your pain, after all, people's hearts are long, and she will always let go slowly after a long time, but if you have been this cold and violent attitude, the result is really hard to say! ”

Yang Qu is my younger sister, of course I know that she is actually a girl with high emotional intelligence, and I agree with what she says, but I am a person who is difficult to turn my back on my heart to cater to, and I really reject any form of contact with Yang Jin at this stage, because she stores too much unhappiness and unfreedom for me, which leads to my lack of ability to communicate with her.

After a period of silence, I finally said to her: "You told me this, it makes me feel a sense of crisis, I want to find her as soon as possible, and then take her back to China to get the certificate, I think this is the only way out between me and her, and it is also the most weighty way out...... Yang Qu, I'm really tired, I'm very tired, I don't have the energy to take care of those people anymore, and I'm not a person with all sides. ”

Yang Qu sighed lightly, and replied after a long time: "I suddenly feel that you are really pitiful, and our mother is also pitiful, but why should two poor people embarrass each other?" ”

I thought about it for a while, but in the end I couldn't give Yang Qu a definite answer, because I never lived in Yang Jin's world, and she didn't live in my world.

After the call with Yang Qu, I drank another whole bottle of beer, and the night came, and those crisscrossing lights were like blood flowing in the city, which gave the city a strong vitality, and also allowed me to see a beer can that landed on the bank of the river...... I figured it was time for me to try to enjoy my first night in a foreign country.

……

After sitting on the balcony for a while, I was called to another large balcony on the second floor by the owner of "Hopehoe". He prepared dinner there and waited for us tourists from China...... Half of the hotel's visitors, he said, are from China, so he already speaks a lot of Chinese, especially those used to entertain guests at dinner tables......

Looking at the table full of beer and sausages, I came to appetite, I generously handed over my body and soul to this table full of wine and meat, and after a while I felt dizzy, and so did everyone else, and then we played the game of truth or dare, but we had reservations, and no one told the secret in their hearts, so in the eyes of the hotel owner, Qin Miao was just a beautiful, golden and cheerful girl, and I was a young man who could drink and be happy......

As for Qiao Ye, he has become a deep man.

The reason for this may be that "cunning" people have thousands of ways to disguise themselves. Only She Shaobo, a man who has just met for a short time, uses music to express his pain of seeking love, and in all fairness, he is indeed the most music-savvy of our group.

It lasted for nearly two hours before the dinner ended, and I called out to She Shaobo, who was about to enter the room, and then said to him, "Apo, let's talk." ”

"What are you talking about?"

"Since we are coming abroad with the same purpose, should we make a plan or something, we are so blind to find, it is difficult to gain anything."

"What's your best idea?"

"I'll go to my room and get a guitar, let's talk while we walk......"

……

With our guitars on our backs, She Shaobo and I walked along the lamps along the riverbank. After a while, I stopped at a guardrail and said to him, "I think so, in the future, can we attract everyone's attention in the form of street singing, we don't need to tip, as long as they help find Xiao Ai." I have a photo of Xiao Ai's face here, so I'll print it out now...... It's better than looking for it blindly. ”

But I didn't want to, She Shaobo glanced at me with contemptuous eyes, and replied: "Your level is not enough to play with me, as far as music is concerned, Xiao Ai and I have more common language!" ”

I didn't get angry, smiled, then looked at him and replied, "Dude, is it necessary to be so disgusting?" Do you think we have to divide between us? It's not the animal world...... We all just want to find Xiao Ai, you say you love her, I love her, that's all! ”

As I spoke, I dropped the guitar case on my back, and then took advantage of the smoke to adjust the guitar and find myself in the most comfortable state before looking up at the crowded street...... It was the first time I didn't feel anxious because of the crowds, but I felt like I had been given a tranquilizer by the enchanting night, and I began to calm down...... Then I plucked the strings and sang, but I didn't sing the song "Drifting Across the Sea to See You", just singing a song that I can't fully remember, it seems that the title of the song is "Girl, I don't want to sleep tonight, I just want to sleep with you"

"That night, the songs of the west coast of the Pacific Ocean, the fishing boats and lights in the distance, the beer cans on the beach, the sporadic words of the people and you; Girl, I was stimulated a little, so I ran, running along the shoreline; I took you by the hand and jumped into the sea until the light cleared and the sea washed away our clothes. I said, Let it go, let it go; This journey is like the waves of the sea, one wave after another. My spiritual soul and **, as if they had never existed, drifted in the wind; My present, future, and past, as if they had never changed, dissolved in the sea. Later the memory began to be less clear, and the beer anesthetized my body; I sat in the back seat of the motorcycle and looked at you in the mirror. You say, go back to the fishing village, come with me, before dawn, and then go back to the shore; Light a cigarette, I open the case, you put in five dollars, your eyes are sprinkled with stars; Girl, I must sing: abellelune; jenecroispasàsyeuxquandjetevois； abellelune； touts＇écroulequandjeregardetesyeux…… Girl, I will write your name on my ship and take it on a long voyage; Girl, I will paint your appearance on my banner and flutter in the wind; Girl, I don't want to sleep tonight, I just want to sleep with you......"

During the singing, I was fully engaged, so I kept my eyes closed, and by the time I finished singing, there were already about 20 people around me, and She Shaobo, who was unwilling to sing with me, was isolated from the circle...... So at the moment I was the only one enjoying the applause and praise, and he became a haughty fart, just there not high nor low.

I didn't understand what the foreigners were saying, and I didn't want to sing any more, so I took out my phone from my pocket, and then grabbed a Chinese tourist from the crowd and said to him: "Dude, help me say a few words, tell them that the girl in the photo is my lover, she is lost, I am looking for her in the stupidest way, if anyone can see her, be sure to contact me...... I'm waiting for her with my life. ”

The buddy with a hat and a scruffy beard looked at me with embarrassment, and he replied: "Brother, your translation is a bit difficult, I am also half-baked in English, and there are not many English speakers in this country, most of them speak German and French...... Otherwise, you can find someone with real material to help, I'm really afraid that it will delay your business! ”

I'm a little helpless, and that's one of the most difficult things I call because language is the biggest obstacle.

Just when I was about to find someone again, She Shaobo, who had not moved, walked out of the crowd, he took the mobile phone in my hand and looked at it, and said, "I really envy you for having so many photos of her......

With that, he held up his phone and communicated with the people around him in the languages of at least three countries. He seemed to be more specific and emotional than me, so much so that many people rushed to their mobile phones to see what was going on, and finally he gave his contact information to the enthusiastic melon-eating masses.

I leaned against the guardrail on the bank of the river a little lost, and felt deeply inferior to my knowledge...... If there was really a competition between me and She Shaobo, I would have lost at the starting point, and I knew that he was a talented man, and I was just a little minion in life......

……

The night got darker, and She Shaobo and I went to find a printing shop again, he was responsible for communication, I was responsible for giving money, and those printed missing person notices were like a hope, spreading in this city where there was not much hope......

My mood is still serious, and I miss that beautiful girl who doesn't want to sleep today, I just want to sleep with her!