The world suddenly fell silent, Chen Yi's crying was like a sharp knife piercing my heart, she came to say goodbye to me, and then gave me the last qiē she could give me, and this gift has nothing to do with love, just waiting for a gust of wind to blow away all the happiness and sorrow and a qiē sticking to the soul of falsehood; I have no worries about blowing a lifetime again......

I'm about to twist! No, it was the world that distorted in my vision, I saw a yellowed photograph, peeling off the background in the distortion, withdrawing time, blurring the face, I gradually lost my joy, I looked numbly, looking at this brightly lit but pale world.

I finally snuffed out the somewhat scorching cigarette butt in my hand, I looked at Chen Yi, no one could open their mouths to say a word, so our silence became a kind of artistic conception, in this artistic conception, no one is the winner, only time with poison, made a painting of nothing, but miserable.

I lit another cigarette, then left the table, lying on the balcony railing, looking at the most flattering world under me, it turned out that I forgot the pain and happiness, the night in Lijiang was so beautiful.

There was a faint sound of singing in the distance, but I couldn't tell which bar it was coming from, and I couldn't tell whether this bar was quiet or hi, but I just listened to the lyrics as much as I could, maybe so that I wouldn't think too much about the troubles of the world.

"I gave you the amorous style, and the days to him; I gave you a smile and tolerance to him; I have given my thoughts to you, and time to him; I give you tears. I gave you the photo and the calendar to him; I gave you the color, and the scenery to him; I gave you the distance and gave him wordless; I gave you the fireworks, and the festival to him; I gave you the movie ticket, I gave him the seat; I gave you the candlelight, and the supper to him; I gave you the song and the microphone was handed to him; The voice is given to you, and the picture is given to him; I gave you the plot and the ending to him; I gave you the crystal slipper, and I gave it to him at twelve; I gave my heart to you, and my body to him; I'd rather leave nothing behind, nothing to worry about......"

Listen, listen, I laughed, and I thought: if a woman gives everything she can to someone else like the lyrics say, what is left of herself, is there really nothing left for her?

Thinking, thinking, I cried again, I don't know who corresponds to Chen Yi in reality, who is him in the lyrics and who is you between me and Qiu Zi'an......

Crying, crying, I seemed to see the person who sang, her singing voice was so similar to Xiao Ai, a little cold, a little ethereal, a little lonely......

I realized that maybe Xiao Ai is also in this old town of Lijiang at this moment, and in my world, who is you in the lyrics and who is her in the lyrics?

I'm tired because the world is so complicated, so complicated that I can't even tell you and me from him/her, it's ridiculous!

Chen Yi hugged me from behind, I felt her gentle breath, her hair was blown into my mouth by the wind, some prickly, some dry, and a hint of fragrance, just like our broken love.

I took a deep puff of my cigarette and asked in a low voice, "Is this a farewell ceremony?" ”

"No, I just want to hug for a while, we've never traveled together for so many years, and this is the only time we've ......"

"And for the last time."

Chen Yi seemed to close his eyes and whispered in my ear: "Don't say anything, let time stand still here." ”

I didn't close my eyes anymore, I kept trying to look into the distance, feeling the wind blowing, the night was cool, but time didn't stand still, Chen Yi's hug became tighter and tighter, and it became more and more difficult for me to give up.

……

It was late at night, and the waiter at the restaurant took away the food that Chen Yi and I had basically not touched, and she and several other waiters brought Dongba paper and pens, which were a specialty of Lijiang, and asked Chen Yi to sign them for them.

We were pulled back to reality, and then I remembered that I hadn't booked an inn for Chen Yi, nor had I found Qiao Ye, a person who was wandering around Lijiang, and I made an appointment with Chen Yi to make him give up his illusions about Su Han and return to family life.

Chen Yi and I kept enough distance to leave the restaurant, we went back to the inn where I had been staying, and then booked a big bed room for her, she didn't wait for Qiao Ye to come back, just said that she was very tired today, so she washed up and rested, and I didn't have the mood to sleep, I don't know where to put my mood at this time. I want to blow the wind, anywhere.

The inn where I stayed was already high in the old town of Lijiang, but there was still a higher place than here, and 200 meters further up, there was a free and open observation deck, and this observation deck was one of the few places in the ancient city where you could see the Jade Dragon Snow Mountain.

In the 200 meters of going up, I saw Qiao Ye who was drinking in a bar, I wanted to have a few drinks with him, but my feet didn't accept my control, I just stood at the door and watched him get drunk, watching the reality This sharp dagger cut him very painfully, but this pain was caused by himself, he could have lived well with Qin Miao, but he couldn't see Qin Miao's good, but in the eyes of us onlookers, how can a woman beat Qin Miao? Her family background is so high, her education is general, and she is still beautiful and a star, but Qiao Ye loves Su Han.

At this moment, I really saw a lot of things clearly, my ** of this world is getting lower and lower, lower and lower, as if I am only living for my grandmother who is still enduring loneliness in the nursing home, waiting for my mother who I haven't seen for seventeen years, I stopped fantasizing about love, because the person I love will marry someone else in the near future, a man who will compare my Jiangqiao to a man who has no place to be ashamed, but I don't feel that I have to live hard without him, but the shackles on my body are too heavy.

I ran out of here, ran to the observation deck 200 meters away in one breath, and then bent down and panted, my throat was very uncomfortable, my body was also very tired, but the world suddenly opened up, I really saw the Jade Dragon Snow Mountain in the distance, it was so bright and transparent in the moonlight, as if this was a mountain range that should not belong to this world, its existence seemed to make the world look more filthy, and whether we were on a plane or a train, but we could never really escape, We are just going around in circles, and in the end we return to the original point, but in that original point, we have already been scorched beyond recognition by the flames of the world.

A blue piano case, as if flowing clear water, appeared at the bottom of the steps at the edge of my vision, and I saw a somewhat lonely and somewhat familiar back, with some snacks and a cup of milk tea still hot next to her.

This seems to be a fateful encounter, full of chance and full of inevitability!

This observation deck is a must-see place to visit the old town of Lijiang, and the moonlight tonight is so good, so we have an infinite chance of meeting here, and the truth is, we did meet, no deliberate search, no heart-rending concern, it was like a natural meeting.

She seemed to sense something at this moment, she turned around, and I was sure in an instant that she was Xiao Ai.

Not surprised by my arrival at all, she smiled at me and asked, "Are you here to see the moon?" Today's moonlight is good, and you can even see the Jade Dragon Snow Mountain so far away. ”

I stood beside her, looked at the contents of the convenience bag and asked her, "Is this your dinner?" ”

"Or else?"

I didn't speak, but I noticed that there was a bucket of instant noodles under the piano case, and she covered it with the piano case to prevent the heat from running away, if it was her dinner, it would be too casual and not grand!

"I only booked a round-trip ticket for myself, and I didn't bring any extra money, which I got in exchange for singing money." She said, gesturing to a place not far away, and added, "I was sitting there singing an hour ago, and a couple of tourists gave me some money." ”

I nodded, it turned out that the song was really sung by her, although I didn't know the title.

She looked at me again and said, "You seem to be very unsettled!" What's the matter, did the people of Lijiang treat you badly? Or do you envy my skills to live in Lijiang without bringing money? ”

I looked at her, not knowing how to express my inner sorrow. After a long time, I finally said to her: "Chen Yi is also in Lijiang, she is getting married......"

Before I finished speaking, my voice was choked, and I repeated the pain I had just experienced again, still so heartbreaking!