A group of tourists with bags walked past me and Chen Yi, looking at us curiously, I finally helped her up, she subconsciously straightened out the corners of her clothes, and then held my shoulders and changed into the pair of flat shoes taken out of the bag.

The high heels were not easy to put back in the box, so Chen Yi handed me the red high heels, and when I took them from her hand, I was calm again, there were no people around us, the lights were still bright, and a couple kissed by the brightest light, and the world was so beautiful in the most harmonious posture in our sight

I forgot a little about the love just now, and I forgot that Chen Yi had looked at me with tears in his eyes, and I only felt that this place in Lijiang would make people sensitive, so Chen Yi and I had a moment when it was difficult to control, but when I came back to my senses, I was still me, she was her, and everything was very real.

Chen Yi, who changed into flat shoes, walked beside me very freely, we discussed it, and then found a restaurant with a view, the two of them sat on the outdoor balcony and ordered some food, Chen Yi invited a guest, and she also helped me with a pot of good ancient tree black tea.

She was still so good to me, as long as I was with her, she would always give me the best, but she didn't care so much about herself, so she just asked for a very ordinary can of herbal tea to drink.

Because it is the off-season, there are very few people in the restaurant, and there is only me and Chen Yi on the balcony on the entire second floor, so while enjoying the feeling of no crowding, we also have more space to chat about some more relaxed topics.

"Jiangqiao, I heard Jin Qiu say that next year you plan to start your own wedding company"

I took a sip of tea and replied, "Well, I've been thinking about this recently, I know the operation process of the wedding company very well, but I don't have a good idea in terms of business positioning, I hope to be a different wedding company." ”

"Take your time, there's still a lot of time anyway." Chen Yi said as she took out a bank card from her handbag, put it in front of me and said, "This is the 500,000 yuan you gave me last time, you can take it back." In fact, those Weibo big Vs are my best friends in the entertainment industry, and everyone doesn't really care about the economic benefits generated by a Weibo forward, if I give them this money, I will make people unfamiliar. ”

I shook my head resolutely and replied: "Chen Yi, it's not me and you who are humble, I really can't ask for this money, you should take it for reason." We are adults, we all have mature judgment, you say those big V don't care, but I don't think so, every Weibo of every star, the consumption is their own fan effect, and most of their Weibo is controlled by their own economic companies, to help us forward this obviously commercial Weibo, in fact, it is a great favor, I think it is best to repay such a favor with money, I don't want you to owe others for me, do you understand what I mean"

Chen Yi looked at me for a long time before he said: "I'm not afraid of owing others love, what I've always been most afraid of is that you don't work hard enough, but now it has nothing to do with me, I can't have too much of your heart, you are actually a very paranoid man." ”

"I live in such an environment that I'm not paranoid, and the ownership of this money really has nothing to do with my paranoia. People in the entertainment industry value fame and fortune, and if you don't talk about it, I'm afraid you will also have an opinion about you in your heart, you should know these better than me, so I'm really afraid that you will sacrifice yourself for me, which will only make me feel inferior and make me feel that I am a burden to you. When I think of being such a man, I don't think it's a terrible thing to die, because I've been consuming the woman I love."

I subconsciously said that Chen Yi was the woman I loved, she looked at me, and then turned her head to look into the distance beyond the balcony, I couldn't see her expression clearly, I could only feel that her love was floating far away, and it also took a lot of things between us.

After a long time, she looked back at me and said, "Jiang Qiao, Qiu Zi'an proposed to me again."

My heart seemed to be tightened with a wrench, and then shattered, and I was suffocated, and I closed my eyes and forced myself to look like it wasn't too painful. When we broke up, I thought that as long as she was happy, there was nothing I couldn't accept.

I lit a cigarette, took a deep breath, and finally endured the uncontrollable pain, and asked her with a smile: "Chen Yi, there is a question that I have been evading, but now I really want to ask you, because I know that this time you may have agreed to Qiu Zi'an's proposal"

"Just ask."

I squirmed my Adam's apple in pain, and asked with some trembling: "Do you love Qiu Zi'an, or have you ever loved you?"

Chen Yi just looked at me like this, she had no expression, but tears overflowed in her eyes, our feelings are the same at this moment, we are all suffering the pain of giving up, we have known each other for more than 20 years, but we have loved each other but there is no good result.

"Jiang Qiao, do you know what a woman needs most in this life?"

"Before the age of 25, it was love."

"Yes, you have been planning weddings for so many years, and I am afraid that no one understands the difference between marriage and love better than you. At our age, some of our friends got married because they accidentally had children, some were ordered by their parents, some felt that they were old, some were hurt in the previous relationship, some felt that the other party's conditions were not bad, and we haven't heard of it for a long time, and the purpose of marriage is because I love someone very much and want to be with him forever. ”

My heart was so blocked that I was silent, and I suddenly hated this world where love had become a scarce thing

Chen Yi choked up and said: "When I was 19 years old, I went to Beijing to go to college alone, I thought about you every day, I wrote you a letter a week, and when you had a mobile phone, I couldn't control sending you messages and calling every day, at that time I couldn't tell if this was love, but I really missed you, I wanted you to be by your side Originally, you had the opportunity to go to college, and it was not difficult for you to get into a school in Beijing, but you gave up I don't blame you, but I was very disappointed, really lost until I met Qiu Zi'an, A man who is outstanding in all aspects, he confessed to me, and then I knew that my feelings for you were like, love, because I was not very moved by his confession"

Chen Yi stopped when she said this, after a long time, her feelings did not calm down, she looked at me, and then turned her head to look at the mountains in the distance and continued: "At that time, I can confirm my feelings for you, but I can't confirm your feelings for me, although you are very good to me, but you are very good to everyone, haven't you ever thought about it, you worry about college tuition and living expenses, but as long as we go to college together in Beijing, these are not problems, because we can find part-time jobs together, and there will always be a way to live." , But you gave up for Zhao Mu I think that I may not be as important as the brotherhood with Zhao Mu in your heart I know, this comparison is very unreasonable, but women are not like this, I hope that the person I love is the best for me and these are all my careful thoughts when I was a girl, and I regarded you as all except for my studies"

"After being rejected by me, Qiu Zi'an did not give up his pursuit of me. At that time, no matter what the weather was, he would buy the soy milk and breakfast I liked to drink and stand at the door of the girls' dormitory waiting for me, he never gave up, he kept insisting on it, my heart was gradually melted, so we fell in love, and had a very happy time In fact, Qiu Zi'an is a very mature and wise man, he knows very well what he wants and what to do at what stage, so after graduating from college, he chose to stay in Beijing to start a business, as his girlfriend, if I qualify, I should have stayed in Beijing to accompany him and accompany him through the most difficult period of entrepreneurship, but instead of doing this, I threw the problem of staying to him, and then I resolutely returned to Nanjing, and I knew better than anyone what kind of pain he was suffering at that time."

Chen Yi was crying, I watched quietly, waiting for her to continue, she hadn't spoken to me so openly for a long time, at this moment she seemed to bring me into the most secret place in her heart, let me see a different scenery, I never knew how she lived in college, and what kind of mentality she returned to Nanjing again.

"I should stay in Beijing, even if I want to go back to Nanjing, I can wait a year or two, and accompany him through the most difficult days in the early days of entrepreneurship, but I miss you more, because in the four years I went to college, the days we met were too few, too little, I was worried that you were not doing well, worried that you were wronged, and always talking to me on the phone, so I bought a train ticket back to Nanjing the next day after finishing my studies, and I fantasized all the way that I would be able to see you in a few hours later. Let you take me to eat at a street stall and go to a movie."

"However, I'm really sorry for Zi'an, because in the days when he loved me the most, I thought about you the most, so I've been avoiding him all these years, in fact, I don't hate him for choosing to stay in Beijing to start a business, but I feel guilty about him, but he didn't care about these few years, he started a successful business, found me again, he didn't care about his past suspicions, and was even willing to shift the focus of his career to Shanghai and Nanjing for me, I was shocked, and my guilt for him was deeper, but this is not love after all, right, Finally, I'm finally with you, like a moth to a fire, so, the pain of being burned by the fire to the point of being bruised all over my body, I really taste it now."

I couldn't look directly into Chen Yi's eyes at this moment, I just squirmed my Adam's apple in pain, and then lit a cigarette for myself, and in the blink of an eye, the wind on the mountain blew away the smoke rising from my hands, blowing her hair, and then the world was chaotic and abstract, and I seemed to have lived all these years in vain.

I finally lowered my head and said: "There is a kind of kindness in this world that cannot be repaid, since Zhao Chu died, Zhao Mu is my responsibility, and he is so talented, if I can't read it for him, I won't have any face to stand in front of the tombstone to face my best brother in this world in this world, I live like an orphan, I must not break the trust of another orphan, although this kind of commitment is ridiculous in the eyes of those of you who live in the normal world, and it can be betrayed, But I can't do it, even if I give up the opportunity to go to Beijing to go to university with you, I will fulfill my promise to Zhao Chu."

Speaking of this, I smiled bitterly, took a deep puff of cigarette, closed my eyes and said: "Do you know that on the night before you left Nanjing, I sat alone at the door of your house, and after sitting all night, I learned to smoke on that night, and I knew what it was like to grasp the pain but couldn't grasp it, I thought: many things have been doomed on that night, I love you, but I can't have you after all, because our world is too far away from material and social status, I can only watch you silently, Watching you be happy, watching every bit of your growth, this is the greatest satisfaction for me, so, in your freshman year, I finally had a day off, I bought a train ticket to Beijing in the morning, and a train ticket back to Nanjing in the evening, but when I arrived at your school, I heard that you had classes in the afternoon, I didn't bother you, I stood by the window outside the classroom and looked at you a few times, and hurried to the train station, and then stood all night and returned to Nanjing, now I recall, I don't feel stupid at all, Because it only took a day and night, I saw you who I missed for half a year, I felt very satisfied, and it was the most colorful stroke of my youth."

Chen Yi looked at me and couldn't cry: "Jiang Qiao, don't say it, I'm afraid to think of such a picture, thinking of the loneliness of you going from Nanjing to Beijing alone, I can't give you anything, I agreed to Qiu Zi'an's marriage proposal, and I will get married and settle in Shanghai."

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