This morning, Xiao Ai and I met inadvertently, like a gust of wind blowing through the grass all over the ground in the dusk, I was negative, she was infinitely vibrant, and tomorrow's sunshine was still fair, she continued to grow, and I would not extinguish, so why say goodbye.

In a blink of an eye, she disappeared from my sight, and after I walked about 500 steps, I returned to the inn where I lived, and Chen Yi had already gotten up, she was standing on the balcony of the inn, holding a transparent glass in her hand, which was a hot tea, she looked very leisurely, just like the wind this morning, not fighting, not angry, not provocative

Standing in the open space downstairs, I remembered how she had walked beside me countless times, we had done many things together, and I will never forget that when I was 18 years old, one rainy morning, I rode my bicycle, she held an umbrella for me, and we drove through the streets and alleys, just to see the plane trees on Zhongshan Road that shed their leaves in autumn.

That day, we were under a wonton stand, listening to the sound of falling rain, eating wontons, and looking at the sycamore leaves all over the ground, as if we had experienced the most beautiful scenery in life. So much so that when we parted in the evening, none of us was willing to say goodbye.

Yes, I don't like to say goodbye either, because people are not rain, and rain will come again, and the goodbye of people becomes a farewell forever, even if we have sworn goodbye.

Therefore, I feel that "goodbye" is the most hypocritical word in the world, the most false promise, so I am reluctant to say goodbye to the person I want to see again.

I came to Chen Yi's side with breakfast, and I said to her, "Eat it while it's hot, and see how the wontons in Lijiang are different from our in Nanjing." ”

Chen Yi nodded, she took the chopsticks from my hand, I opened the fast food box for her, and her breakfast began in this morning when she put down her burden.

I went to the inn where Qiao Ye lived again, he hadn't woken up yet, so I put the "Lijiang Baba" and soy milk I bought at the head of his bed, and there was a microwave oven at the service desk of the inn.

Chen Yi had already eaten the bowl of wontons, and while throwing the fast food box into the trash, she asked me, "Is Qiao Ye awake?"

"Not yet, I was not drunk yesterday, and I didn't wake up so quickly."

"Let's walk around while he's not awake, it's really nice weather today," Chen Yi said, picking up her handbag, while I walked behind her, holding her forgotten sunglasses and a hat that blocked UV rays.

In Lijiang, ultraviolet rays are so strong in both winter and summer, so girls who love beauty usually bring a beautiful hat and sunglasses when they come here, and Chen Yi is no exception.

When I walked out of the inn, I handed Chen Yi a hat and sunglasses, but she signaled not to wear them, and I knew that she had not forgotten these two things, but that she wanted to walk on the ancient streets of Lijiang like me, and only without sunglasses and hats, the scenery we saw would be the same color.

Along the way, Chen Yi and I walked side by side, we didn't talk much, and we didn't walk fast. After a while, Chen Yi entered a tea shop, she bought a pound of expensive ancient tree black tea, and gave half of it to me, and the other half was sent to Nanjing by the boss, I knew that her father liked to drink Yunnan tea, so of course the other half was given to her father.

Buying tea is just a very small thing, but I still have some understanding, I always emphasize the relationship between myself and Chen Yi who grew up together, but his parents have worked hard to cultivate her for more than 20 years, and there is a family relationship between them that blood is thicker than water, so in Chen Yi's heart, they should have the heaviest weight in the world, so marrying Qiu Zi'an is a happy ending

I kept comforting myself like this, trying to alleviate the pain in my heart, until Chen Yi asked me to go to the roadside teahouse to rest for a while, and I stopped comforting myself.

Still sitting down in a very quiet corner of the teahouse, Chen Yi asked for a pot of Pu'er tea, and she held the teacup before me, although we didn't communicate much at the moment, but I could clearly feel that she was in a better mood today than yesterday.

After I drank a small cup of tea with her, I finally said to her: "The 500,000 yuan that Jin Qiu gave us will be distributed according to her proposal, 300,000 yuan you can take to repay those big V's favors, and I will keep 200,000 yuan I want to buy myself a car." ”

The first time I took the initiative to talk to Chen Yi about the 500,000 yuan, she was a little surprised, and I said that I used the 200,000 yuan to buy a car, which made her even more surprised, she asked: "Aren't you going to be a wedding company next, how do you think of using this money to buy a car?"

"I don't know it, but I suddenly remembered: I told Zhao Chu that when we bought our own car, we would fill up the gas and open the sunroof, and drive from the south of Nanjing to the north of the city, and then from the east of the city to the west of the city After so many years, I am still a poor egg, but I really want to realize this dream, not that I must need a car to prove anything, I just want to tell myself that in that day when there is no hope, our most extravagant dream can be realized now, and the future will be better, right?"

Chen Yi didn't object to me spending the 200,000 in this way, she nodded and replied: "If this can make you feel happy, you can do it to your heart's content, if there is really another world, Zhao Chu will definitely be very happy in that period Although I didn't spend it with you, I know how difficult it is for you, especially Zhao Chu, I still feel very uncomfortable when I think of his thin appearance."

I was silent, painfully imagining in my heart: if Zhao Chu was still alive, what would he be like if he sat in the new car that his brother bought. Until now, I still blame myself when I think of him choosing sheet metal, the hardest type of work, to apprentice in order to provide for me and Zhao Mu to go to school

After a long time, Chen Yi finally asked me softly: "Jiang Qiao, have you thought about what kind of life you want to live in the future?"

"I've thought about it."

I whispered back, then looked up at the cloudless world above my head and said: "I once had a dream of making a big money, I dreamed that I had a Mercedes-Benz SUV and a three-story villa on the outskirts of the city, but this does not mean that I am greedy for material life, I just don't want others to always look at me with that cheap gaze when they see my river bridge; I don't want to be even more unwilling, one day when I want to marry the person I love, I have no savings, only a palm-sized house In fact, I have a sense of crisis over the years, but my ability is limited, I can only do it at this age, I really can't cross the boundary between the poor and the rich. ”

"This is the first time you've told me this."

"This kind of complaining because of my own incompetence, I don't want to say in front of you that you know why, in the past, every time you didn't follow my heart, I would speak loudly at you, yell at you, because I really have no confidence in life, I can only use this way sadly and naively to get some sense of existence in front of you"

Chen Yi looked at me with a hint of tenderness in his eyes, but he didn't respond to me after all, and it seemed too late for us to open up in Lijiang. I don't understand why we never had such a heart-to-heart conversation when we were in love

After drinking tea, it was already noon, Chen Yi and I were standing on the ancient street outside the teahouse, she called Qiao Ye and asked him to come out for lunch with us, and this was her last day in Lijiang, she had to talk to Qiao Ye openly and honestly.

At about eleven o'clock, we met Qiao Ye in a restaurant, and after finding a place to sit down, Qiao Ye lit a cigarette and then listlessly scratched his face.

Chen Yi was not in a hurry to cut to the chase, but first chatted with me about the customs and customs of Lijiang, and finally Qiao Ye couldn't hold it back, and said to Chen Yi: "Don't worry about talking to Jiangqiao first, you came to Lijiang at the behest of Qin Miao, if so, then I'll tell you that it's no fun, I will definitely not go back to Nanjing for a while, I'll wait in Lijiang."

Chen Yi took a sip of tea and replied unhurriedly: "I came to Lijiang and Miao Miao has nothing to do with it, I just want to see with my own eyes what a person can fall to." ”

"You Say I'm Falling"

"Isn't it this year, you have never seen what Qin Miao has done for you, you ask yourself, are you really living a peaceful life?"

Qiao Ye replied without caring at all: "Of course I live with peace of mind, because I have never been sorry for others, they are all sorry for me, you go and ask Qin Miao, before we got married, did I sue her, I will never fall in love with her in my life, she herself insists on breaking into my life, what can I do"

Chen Yi's tone was a little displeased: "Then you are really true to your word, you can get close to anyone over the years, but you treat Qin Miao as an outsider." ”

"Your statement is not right, you don't understand how desperate I was when I married Qin Miao, what I am doing now is just facing despair and going upstream, I have to fight for the life I want again, otherwise I will not be happy for the rest of my life."

"Then have you ever wondered if Qin Miao will be happy if you do this?"

Qiao Ye didn't want to think about it and replied: "I don't love her, why do I care if she is happy or not, Chen Yi, you don't really think that marriage is bigger than the sky, I'll sue you, if marriage really works like this, I won't be miserable for so many years In my eyes, marriage is a grave of love, it ruined my life, ruined my life"

The more Qiao Ye spoke, the more excited he became, and he knocked the dining table with his fingers to "crackle", and this behavior proved that he was a straight person who was difficult to communicate, even if the person he was talking to was Chen Yi, a woman who was not aggressive.

I finally couldn't stand it anymore, and took Qiao Ye's words and said: "You are thinking about it here, no one has stopped you, but can you guarantee that Su Han thinks the same way, if she thinks the same way, she will not avoid you so deliberately Qiao Ye As your brother, I really feel sorry for you, because you have always been stupid to treat love as life, but Su Han, who you can't forget, treats life as love, she no longer has you in her heart, what she loves most is life, Can't you see that she is already the most successful bar proprietress in Lijiang, and you just opened a dilapidated hotel in Nanjing, and there is no daylight?"

After saying this, I was ready for Qiao Ye to be furious, I felt that these words stung the most vulnerable part of his heart, but I could only do this, I had to kill him first, and then he could break out of the cocoon and be reborn.

Qiao Ye's imaginary anger didn't come, he looked at me, then at Chen Yi, and sneered: "You two don't come to persuade me, I understand what you said, but it's useless Chen Yi at all, you broke up with Jiang Qiao, right, Jiang Qiao, you have ghost thoughts about that girl in Nanyi, that's right."

Chen Yi and I didn't speak, and we didn't know what Qiao Ye's heart was when he talked about these things at the moment.

Qiao Ye said again: "Okay, let me make it clearer Chen Yi, the eldest lady of the scholarly family, my parents are both national cadres in charge of culture and education, and they don't look down on Jiangqiao at all, this is the basis of your contradictions." Jiang Qiao must be very painful to live in this kind of contradiction, so if it's okay, I will find some comfort from Nanyi's girl Now it's okay, you broke up Chen Yi, a woman who doesn't worry about getting married, there are more men around Jiang Qiao who are a hundred times better than Jiang Qiao, continue to find comfort from that girl, find a sense of storage, it seems that everything is safe, and there is harmony However, I, Qiao Ye, will put the ugly words here today. Chen Yi, there is a kind of you who will find a man other than Jiangqiao to marry, Jiangqiao, you will continue to package yourself as a pseudo-saint of adult beauty, and then the two of you will regret it together, because in this world, you can no longer find a Chen Yi who has been with Jiangqiao for more than 20 years, and you can't find Jiangqiao who has been with Chen Yi for more than 20 years, you two are a complete tragedy, and you are embarrassed to persuade me Qiao Ye, I live better than any of you."

After Qiao Ye said this, he angrily extinguished the cigarette in his hand in the ashtray in front of us, and then left the restaurant without looking back, and only me and Chen Yi were left at the table, and there was a deathly silence.

At this time, the waiter finally brought the first dish we ordered to the table, but this still did not break the silence between us, only I picked up the chopsticks and ate, while Chen Yi kept looking at the world outside the window with a heavy heart.

I'm not sure what she's thinking at the moment, but I'm sure we didn't succeed in persuading Qiao Ye, he still waited for Su Han's return as he did his own thing, and now I'm afraid that the only one who can make him die is Su Han, but will Su Han let him die

I couldn't be sure that this was something that was already difficult to be sure, and I thought: I should wait quietly, because there will definitely be a result between Qiao Ye and Su Han. It's a pity that Chen Yi, who is leaving tomorrow, may not be able to see this result