At this time, it was already noon, and there were some tourists eating in the restaurant where Chen Yi and I were, and until the waiter brought the third dish we ordered to the table, Chen Yi never picked up the chopsticks, and her mood seemed to suddenly sink down the moment Qiao Ye left.

Actually, I wasn't in the mood to eat, because of the words that Qiao Ye left, every sentence was heart-wrenching, I just forced myself not to think about these words to the extended level, I seemed to have lost my foresight for the future in the recent sullenness, I was a little self-defeating, and a little drifting

So, my chopsticks stretched out to the dish that had just been served, but I couldn't eat it anyway, and finally put down the chopsticks, and looked at the world outside the glass window with Chen Yi's eyes, and this world is still so bright, quiet, windless and rainless

In the end, Chen Yi just drank some rice soup, which can be regarded as eating lunch. I mentioned that I would go to the Blue Moon Valley under the Jade Dragon Snow Mountain in the afternoon, but she unexpectedly refused, she said that she didn't come to Lijiang for a vacation, and she didn't want to spend too much experience on playing, and after returning to Nanjing this time, there would be a large-scale live broadcast party on New Year's Eve waiting for her to host, and she wanted to raise her spirit.

Yes, you don't need to visit many places to visit Lijiang, and it's also a good idea to spend the whole afternoon drinking a pot of hot tea and then sitting on a balcony on a high place to see the ancient city.

But I was wrong again, Chen Yi had been locked in the inn room this afternoon, she never came out again, and I just sat alone on the balcony and drank a few pots of tea and went to the bathroom a few times, so the whole afternoon was wasted.

When evening came, I stood at the door of Chen Yi's room, reluctant and anxious, knowing that she would take a plane back to Nanjing at noon tomorrow. In fact, we have to rush to the airport for breakfast and lunch, so even if we really spend time together, it will not exceed 5 hours.

I finally knocked on the door and said to her, "It's almost 6 o'clock, get up and get something to eat." ”

"Go eat yourself, I'm not hungry right now."

"Then I'll wait for you, and when you want to eat later, just call me."

"There's a restaurant downstairs, so I can just go down by myself when I want to eat."

Listening to Chen Yi's somewhat indifferent tone, I felt uncomfortable in my heart, it seemed that she didn't even want to give me the last few hours, I lowered my head and smiled bitterly, and finally said "Okay", and left the inn, but I didn't know where I was going.

I bought a pack of cigarettes at the commissary outside the ancient city, and then went to the "mood bar" opened by Su Han, but was told by the manager that there was no response from Su Han after the email was sent, so I cheekily asked the manager to send a letter, and once again explained the strictness of the matter, hoping that she could come back and meet Qiao Ye as much as possible.

I didn't spend money in the "mood bar" because I hated the noise here, and I hated that a very ordinary bottle of beer was sold for 50 yuan, so I went out of the ancient city again and spent 50 yuan to buy a dozen bottles of beer in the supermarket

No, I don't dare get drunk anymore, as long as I can get a groggy sleep.

I came to the viewing platform where I could see the Jade Dragon Snow Mountain, leaning on the guardrail, facing the cold wind at night, and watching the thousands of lights flickering under the mountain

I drank a can of beer, tore open a can of beer, but I didn't drink it in my mouth, I felt that the world in my eyes was mine, and I felt like I was on the run, I never had a home.

I am not blind, I seem to see the bleakness of the winter night in those flickering lights, I see a willow twitching for the spring that I can't wait for, I see a gazebo washed clean by the rain a few days ago, I see a blind man who plays the erhu living happier than anyone else, but singing the saddest tune

I laughed, I raised my head and drank half a can of beer, lowered my head again, and poured the other half can on my head, I wanted to make myself sober, I was willing to see the helplessness of this world in the dizziness of drunkenness, and the sober self was the most numb, so numb that Chen Yi refused to have dinner with me and was indifferent

In this way, what is the difference between numbness and sobriety, anyway, I was so sad that I couldn't speak, and I only faintly felt the beer I poured on my head, dripping down my hair and falling to the ground.

I heard some more conversations, and a child told his mother: "Mom, there's a madman there, he pours wine on his head, I'm afraid"

"Don't be afraid, the man isn't crazy, he's just sad"

I took a cigarette out of the cigarette case and lit it, I sat down against the guardrail and didn't look up again, so I don't know if the mother and son walked away, I was a little tired of being trapped in my own love, I didn't want to go anywhere, I even wanted to just sit like this, and then get through the night until the sun tomorrow

It wasn't until there were no footsteps around me that I finally raised my head, and my eyes were empty, there were no more tourists on this observation deck, maybe there would be more later, but it was really quiet at the moment, and I didn't see Xiao Ai who appeared here last night.

Maybe I'm the only one who thinks of this as a place to meet her, and she doesn't think so

It's time for me to go, go to the next place, it doesn't matter who is there or not, I don't really sit here waiting for the sun tomorrow morning because I don't want to be taken for a fucking lunatic anymore.

On the way down the mountain, I avoided the crowded main street and walked on a path dominated by inns on both sides, and when I was about to reach the end, I ran into Xiao Ai.

Sometimes, life is like this, and when I gave up the idea of meeting her tonight, she was not far from me.

I stopped, a bridge away from her, but I could still see her in a red tracksuit with two white stripes, a pair of Sonicon jogging shoes on her feet, and her short hair was tied into a single braid very casually, but I couldn't see her face. She was with her back to me, buying something in a craft shop, and the guitar was sitting next to her.

I touched my pocket, the pack of Yuxi cigarettes she gave me yesterday was still there, but I was reluctant to smoke it, because I had calculated that this cigarette was worth 5 yuan, and more important than the money was the intention of her and the tourists to ask for this pack of cigarettes for me to smoke, so I smoked all the cigarettes I bought today, and at this time, I finally took out a cigarette from it and lit it, and then walked towards her.

It turned out that she was buying a pendant for the phone I gave her yesterday, and she was haggling with the elderly shopkeeper.

Maybe it was because she smelled the smoke, she suddenly looked back at me, there was a hint of surprise on her face, and in an instant she returned to normal, and said to me: "How can I meet you anywhere, are you the chengguan in the old town of Lijiang, just wander around the street if you have nothing to do?"

I felt that the pigtail she tied was really joyful, so I couldn't help but pinch it with my hand, and then said to her: "It's not a matter of meeting a person, why don't you say that you are a chengguan." ”

"Don't mention those annoying chengguan, they have been kicked several times today and threatened to confiscate my guitar, why don't I use the guitar to stone them to death, even if they are cheap"

I stared at her for a while, and then replied, "I can't see that you are quite arrogant, but this is really not Nanjing, let's put away the arrogance." ”

"I'm saying, I'll buy things first." As she spoke, she turned to the elderly shopkeeper and said, "Uncle, I know your manual work is good, but this pendant is too expensive to sell for 200 yuan, can you sell it to me cheaper?"

The shopkeeper shook his head while smoking, and his face was full of expressions of reluctance to sell cheaply.

Bargaining is my strength, I let Xiao Ai stand aside, I faced the shopkeeper and said: "Uncle, we really like things, I also think two hundred yuan is worth it, but you also heard, this girl is wandering to Lijiang, has been kicked by the city management for a day, how can there be so much money to buy this pendant listen to your accent, you yourself are a local in Lijiang, this façade house must also be your own home, you are a multimillionaire wherever this real estate is placed, so you are definitely not trying to make this money, You just want others to appreciate and recognize your craftsmanship, then we are quite agreeable."

I said and pushed Xiao Ai beside me with my hand, and said, "Quick, let's bow and salute the uncle's handiwork to show respect."

I stretched out my hand to salute as I spoke, and then pulled Xiao Ai together, and the shopkeeper was stunned by my strange behavior, and threw the mobile phone pendant that Xiao Ai liked to me for a while, and said: "Take it, I have opened a store in Lijiang for so many years, and it is the first time I have met such a living treasure, you two should stop bowing to the uncle, others don't know and think they are worshipping the statue."

I happily took the pendant, and then said to the shopkeeper very seriously: "Bah, don't say unlucky words, I think you are a long-lived and hundred-year-old face, you are not only good-looking, but also humorous and generous, and an uncle like you has improved the image of the whole Lijiang." If Lijiang makes another tourism promotional video, I am the first to recommend you, you are a good uncle in Lijiang"

As I spoke, I played with the pendant, which turned out to be a hand-carved garden-style ancient bridge, only the length of a thumb, so it was very difficult to carve, no wonder it would be sold for 200 yuan.

I am ready to pay for the uncle, but the uncle is a lover, he insists on giving this small bridge to me and Xiao Ai, which also verifies my judgment, he has real estate in the old town of Lijiang, and he does not care about such a little money, carving is just a hobby for him to spend time in his later years, and he will give it to someone like me who will pat on the back.

I handed the pendant to Xiao Ai, who was also happy, and the uncle suddenly said to her without our psychological preparation: "Girl, although this young man is a little poor, but it is fun to live with him, just like the uncle, I am younger than him, but your aunt is willing to accompany me to plant flowers and grass, and do small business." In this life, although we haven't made a fortune, but the whole Lijiang City dares to say that there are really few uncles who live happily than us are a willful uncle, and other people's houses are used to make big deals, but my little shop is not to make money, just to do something you like, so things will be given to you, and you have children in the future, and you are willing to come to Lijiang for a walk, and the uncle will carve a zodiac pendant for your children, and talk counts."

Xiao Ai blushed, I smoked a cigarette and then, the two of them left the shop together in silence, and when they were about to lose sight of the uncle and his shop, Xiao Ai suddenly turned around and saluted the uncle, and then trotted to the depths of the alley; I also bowed back and saluted, not for the uncle's generosity, nor for his self-inflicted amorous marriage of Xiao Aixu to me, I just respected his attitude to life, envied his way of life, and I also liked to grow flowers and grass.

Out of this alley with flowing water and small bridges, I didn't even find Xiao Ai, she had already run away and disappeared, as if this meeting was just for me to get a guy who likes to be patted on the back, and then flickered to a pendant she liked.

Actually, it's nothing, I think this kind of meeting and separation, more in line with the definition of chance encounter, my only worry is that she hasn't earned enough money for tonight's accommodation, but I still believe that she will have a way, because in this place of Lijiang, the most hungry person is her.

I suddenly like Lijiang a little bit like this place, regardless of the scenery and its reputation as the "city of encounters", I just like some of the things that happen here.

I thought: in my heart, I don't really want to drive a Mercedes-Benz SUV, nor do I want to have a three-story villa on the outskirts of the city, these ** are only born because I am fed up with the contemptuous eyes of others. If, one day, I have the realm of ignoring a qiē, then the life I look forward to must have nothing to do with those things that are full of copper smell, what I yearn for is the time of a cup of tea, the fun brought by a bouquet of flowers and plants, and a girl who is willing to accept all my qiē. What we like is the vastness of the world, the vastness of the mountains and rivers, and the money and fame that imprison people into slavery are the scum that we can step on at will without looking down."

Suddenly, a gust of wind blew the smell of barbecue, and I felt hungry, and I instantly returned to reality, and I realized that what I had just thought about was just a dream that was too good. There is no such girl in this world who accompanies me, and eating a meal, smoking a cigarette, or even going to the bathroom in this scenic area still needs to rely on money to solve.

In this world, no one can live by the realm, so my struggle still can't stop, I want to take Zhao Chu's last wish, live like a person, I can't be an immortal.

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