In the face of my questioning, Jin Qiu's expression didn't change much, but he didn't answer me immediately, and I, who was a little angry, said again: "Is it that Yang Jin thinks that I am very unproductive, so I must have you by my side to make what I am doing now seem like that?" ”

Jin Qiu replied in a low voice: "You think too much, I just want to try to live and work in a different way...... Isn't that what you've always hoped for? ”

I was a little speechless, and I was immediately stopped by her question. It seems that we have been persuading her all along, asking her to spare some of her energy to enjoy life, and the way she lived before that consumed her life was simply her life. I know how tiring it can be to maintain a huge network of people while dealing with company affairs. Therefore, every time she faces her, she will smoke a cigarette in the spare time to relieve stress, and this is not the deepest sorrow for a woman?

At this time, Jin Qiu said to me again: "Everything I want to say to you next is from my heart...... Actually, I really envy you and envy what you've been pursuing...... I believe that most people buy this pursuit, but not many people actually dare to do it...... For example, I only believe in the sense of security brought by wealth, but I don't believe that mutual help and trust between people can also produce a sense of security, and this sense of security will only be higher, because it is warm and can warm people's hearts. ”

I looked at her and asked, "Do you think Shanghai, or maybe I can give you that feeling here?" ”

Jin Qiu smiled, and after a while, she replied: "Of course, after so many years, why does Qiao Ye, a man whose heart is wilder than the storm, still regard you as his truest brother?" …… There may be many people who will criticize it, saying that your business this time is suspected of hugging your thighs, but Qiao Ye's willingness to invest is not precisely out of return to you over the years? …… A relationship of more than 20 years cannot be measured simply by money, at least Qiao Ye will think so, but others will not let him do it, because although he is righteous, he is not a philanthropist. ”

"Maybe."

Jin Qiu nodded, she took out a box of ladies cigarettes from her bag, and then took out one and wanted to light it for herself, but her heart suddenly changed, causing her to throw the whole box of cigarettes into the trash bin next to her.

"Why don't you smoke it?"

She replied with a smile: "I used to smoke because I was under too much pressure, but now I don't have much pressure, and it's not much different from an idler, so I don't think there's any need to smoke anymore." ”

I nodded, but I lit a cigarette myself, and sat down on the flat stone, not wanting to think about anything more......

It wasn't until the workers over there finished the day's work and asked me if I wanted to turn off the landscape lights that I came back to my senses, and then asked them to leave a blue one, because this blue light has the most feeling, and it will reflect the plane tree next to me with the feeling of Nanjing. Because the convenience store where Xiao Ai and I often go to buy corn to eat also has such a chandelier that emits blue light in front of the door, and there is a plane tree.

At this time, Jin Qiu said to me again: "Didn't you learn to play the guitar with Liu Liu, take advantage of this quiet, let's have a song." ”

"It's not quite good yet."

"Then you have to practice even more."

……

In the inky night, I went back to my room and got back the guitar that obviously had a woman's grace, and then sang a song of Zhao Lei's "Chengdu" in the courtyard where there was only one audience in Jinqiu, but I consciously changed the Chengdu in the lyrics to Nanjing.

So he sang: "It was not only last night's wine that made me cry; What makes me reluctant is not only your tenderness; How long will the rainy road go, you hold my hand; What makes me feel embarrassed is the freedom to struggle; Separation is always in August, memories are the sorrow of longing; The weeping willows of late autumn kissed my forehead; In that rainy town, I never forgot you; Nanjing, you can't take it away, only you; Take a walk with me on the streets of Chengdu, oh...... It does not stay until all the lights are extinguished; You'll pull my sleeves, I'll put my hands in my trouser pockets; Walk to the end of Yulin Road and sit at the door of the tavern......"

When a song was sung, the cigarette I held in my hand was burned, which made a lot of soot scattered on the ground, like I missed someone and a city, and in the end it was just as meaningless as dust.

Jin Qiu applauded and said to me, "If I am asked to evaluate this song as a layman, I don't think there is any obvious flaw, and I can hear your feelings......"

I put the guitar back in the box, smiled and replied, "In this complex world, music is truly the best healing...... It's a pity that I didn't find it before, but it's not too late to find out, and it makes me feel that my current life is quite meaningful. ”

"Then enjoy the process of immersing yourself in the music while waiting for her to come back...... I guess that's what you're really trying to learn guitar at the age of 30, right? ”

I glared at Jin Qiu and said, "What nonsense are you talking about?!" ”

Jin Qiu kept looking at me with a deprecating look, and I glared at her harder, but the breath in my heart suddenly leaked again, and then said to her in a cowardly manner: "Okay, I admit it." ”

……

When it was almost late at night, I walked Jin Qiu to a place where I could get a taxi. On the way, Jin Qiu told me that she hadn't spent time walking for many years, and for the first time today, she walked for nearly half an hour. So, she felt that this was what I deserved her envy. Because my time is very delicate, I can do a lot of things in a day, but she used to only make money.

In addition, whether she was arranged by Yang Jin to come to Shanghai, I don't want to investigate anymore, because this is a very indifferent thing in itself, not to mention that tonight, I really saw her smile from the bottom of her heart more than once. As a result, he was even more reluctant to look at her with such suspicion. In fact, I also hope to see the golden autumn that used to be idealistic and ambitious, but also happy.

……

A week later, Liu Liu and Kang Kang began to organize their first music reception since the establishment of the bar, and they just called on their respective WeChat circle of friends, and there were already hundreds of people who responded positively. But this is also our pressure, because this time they are here to return the favor of Yao Yao, and whether they can continue to treat this place as a dream stage in the future depends on the effect of this event. After all, human nature is still quite realistic, it used to be Yao Yu who was serving event drinks for free, but this time he began to charge them, and there will definitely be many people who will no longer come here because of this, because the people who are willing to pay for their feelings with money will always be only a very small part.

This morning, I went back to Nanjing, because I received a call from Zhao Mu, who was very excited to tell me that his application to return to Nanjing had been approved by the headquarters of "Jinding Real Estate", and he wanted to invite all his friends to get together this evening, and also to celebrate his housewarming. He finally had a house of his own in the downtown area of Nanjing, and it was still renovated.

As his older brother, I am certainly very happy for him. But there is also a little regret, because I have already gone to Shanghai, and sometimes I want to get together, but it is actually quite inconvenient.

I first went back to Tulip Road, booked a single room in a small hotel, and then went to the cemetery where my grandmother was buried. Actually, I still have a lot to say to my grandmother......

I want to tell her how I feel about Yang Qu; I also want to ask her whether she should accept Yang Qu, a half-sister, from the bottom of her heart...... Although at first, I didn't like her very much, but after this period of time together, I think she is sometimes silly and cute. Even, I would think in my heart, if only she were my half-sister, then I would love her very much!

At dusk, there was also a light rain in the area south of the Yangtze River, which had not rained much recently, which made the autumn atmosphere much thicker! A cold wind blew, and some of the leaves that had already withered fell with the light rain, so that the small stone road under my feet was paved with fallen leaves yellow.

I walked forward step by step, and when I was about to reach the tombstone, I straightened my clothes again, hoping that my mood would not be affected by the bad weather, and then face my grandmother with a positive outlook.

After a short while, I stopped less than a meter away from the tombstone, and then placed the fresh lily in my hand in front of the tombstone, only to find that there was another fresh lily on the altar of worship. It seems that there were other people who came to worship in the past day or two.

But who could it be?

Grandma didn't have any special relatives before her death, and her grandparents' friends who were about the same age as her would not buy such a large bouquet of fresh and delicately shaped lilies, because at their age, they didn't have the ritual of sending flowers to worship, not to mention that most of them were frugal, how could they be willing to buy this large bouquet of perfume lilies that cost hundreds of dollars to buy?

I subconsciously looked around, and the cemetery was even more deserted than when I first came, and there were no other worshippers in sight, only a staff member with umbrellas, pruning the flowers and plants in the garden.

I walked towards him with an umbrella and asked, "Uncle, ask you something...... Have anyone else come to pay their respects to that tombstone across the street in the past two days? ”

The uncle thought for a while and replied: "I really can't remember clearly, because the first two days were weekends, and there were dozens of people who came and went to worship. ”

I didn't give up, and asked, "Is there a girl here who came alone and looks very good?" ”

The uncle smiled, and he replied: "The people buried here are either rich or noble, and the family members who come to worship are also rich or noble, and their temperament and appearance are very good." As for the kind of girl you said was very good-looking, I have to meet several times a day, and I don't know who you are talking about. ”

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